A/N: I am so sorry it took me so long to update but I was a little busy with preparing stuff for school, and just other things…. Anyway enjoy! Xx

Chapter eighteen.

Weeks have passed Blaine's still at the hospital, Kurt is in love so is Blaine, Christmas is waiting around the corner just like Blaine's operation.

'Are you nervous?' Nervous?! Blaine repeated in his head, more like super scared, anxious, sick of the idea. 'So what we're going to do is, you're just going to sleep so you won't remember or feel anything, then we'll so our thing' he pauses to smile 'and then you can slowly wake up again and then it's all done. Doesn't sound really bad right?' Blaine can't even remember how many times Kurt already told him this but he was still scared. He doesn't want this, he hasn't asked for this. 'Mrs. and Ms. Anderson, you can say goodbye now, we'll be back in five minutes' Kurt says and then leaves them alone.

'It will be okay kid' his father says as he softly pats him on his shoulder.

'Thanks dad' he says trying to smile.

His mom strokes his hair. 'Sleep well and we'll see you soon' she says and he only nods. He wants it to be over and preferably now. What if something goes wrong? What if something happens? There different scenarios of what can go wrong and it makes Blaine shiver. This is not their first operation, they've done this a million times before. He thinks to himself trying to relax but still there's this unpleasant feeling.

'Ready?' Kurt asks as he comes back in the room.

Where that five minutes?

Blaine starts to panic 'I don't want this I don't want this' he whispers again and again.

'Blaine sweetie' his mom says but he doesn't even hear her. For a minute he thought about standing up and just leaving, but he knows he can't do that. Hehas to do this even though he's scared. Soon he'll be asleep and then he won't even know what's happening. But what if they give a dosses that's too low? And then he'll still be able to hear everything. No no that won't happen it won't happen, it can't happen. 'Blaine? Blaine?' I'm so scared I can't even answer properly fuck.

'Blaine are you okay?' Kurt's voice. Kurt.

He takes a deep breath. Calm yourself down Anderson. He says to himself. 'I'm okay' he whispers. There's a relieved sigh but Blaine doesn't know from who.

'Then I'd ask you to leave' Kurt says to Arthur and Eileen.

Arthur nods and takes Eileen's hand. 'Come honey' he says and softly pulls at her hand. She gives in to the pressure and follows him out of the room.

Kurt looks at his watch and when the door opens he smiles. 'I'll go now, I'll see you soon' Kurt says.

'What where are you going?' No he can't handle this, everyone is leaving him.

'I need to change, and prepare everything'

'they didn't do that yet?' Blaine asks nervously and Kurt notices.

'Blaine relax everything will be okay I promise'

'Promise?' Blaine's voice was soft, scared and it didn't sound like him at all, it made Kurt think of a scared little kid.

'Hi, I'm Jessica' this is the first time Blaine lays attention to the woman that just walked in.

'Hi' he whispers. And with Blaine's attention on Jessica Kurt can sneak out of the room.

'You don't need to be scared' she says her voice soft. He looks into her blue eyes, they remind him of Kurt's eyes. It calms his down. 'I'm taking you now and then you'll just go sleep okay?' Blaine nods. 'Good' she smiles friendly at him. She moves out of his eyeshot and then he feels the bed moving, he assumes she started to push it. She pushes the bed through the swinging doors and then Blaine is greeted by four or five nurses, he doesn't recognise any of them and he can't even count them, they walk from left to right and then there's Kurt. He's dressed in blue scrubs and latex gloves.

Then there's Jessica again. 'I'll put this on and then you fall asleep, that's okay right?' She asks.

He swallows. 'Yeah'

she smiles softly 'good, well then sweet dreams' she says and puts on the mask. 'Keep breathing Blaine' she says. 'Blaine listens to me, take slow deepbreaths okay?' Blaine can't cope anymore, the minute he got the mask on he started to panic. He couldn't breathe normally anymore. 'Keep calm' the soft voice of Jessica says. Blaine firmly grips the edges of the bed. 'Kurt' Jessica says. 'We have a problem' Blaine's eyeshot starts to blur and he feels his eyes closes every now and then. 'Blaine, Blaine, breath in and out okay' it was Kurt's voice. Blaine opened his eyes again. 'Good, breath in and out' Blaine does 'really good, now close your eyes' Blaine looks anxious. 'Close your eyes' Kurt repeats. Blaine looks at Kurt one last time and then closes his eyes. 'Good, you're doing a great job. Keep breathing' 'Kurt turns to Jessica 'he's gone'

'Hey sleepyhead' Blaine furrows his eyebrows as he thinks he recognises Rachel's voice.

He wants to open his eyes but he's still so tired. 'Rach?' He whispers.

There's another voice. 'Finally waking up I see'

'Wes is that you?'

Then there's a third voice. 'Ah I see he's awake' Blaine's heart skips a beat, it's Kurt's voice

'yeah I think we should get his parents, we sent them down to get something to eat, they already sat here for three hours' Rachel says. '

Rach' Blaine says, his voice was soft unsteady.

'Yes?' She says as she turns back to him and softly squeezes his hand that she was holding.

'Don't tell them yet' he says.

'What why not?' Rachel asks confused.

'I want to sleep' he says.

'Uhm okay' Rachel says who's a little taken aback.

'Can I sleep?' He murmurs.

'I'll leave you guys alone' Kurt says as he smiles at Wes and Rachel.

'Bye' they both says.

'Blaine?' Rachel asks but there's no reaction anymore, he had fallen asleep.

Blaine opens his eyes to be greeted by Wes, Rachel his parents and even Lucy which makes him smile brightly. 'hey' he says in a sleepy voice, but smiling.

'hi' they all say and it makes them laugh.

His mom is the first to ask something. 'so how are you sweetie?'

'I'm quite good actually' he replies in honesty.

'that's great, I'm glad' she says and kisses his cheek.

'mom' he growls .

She giggles 'don't go and act like Rachel and Wes have never seen that before' he shoots her a look but keeps from saying something. 'anyway the thing is that we have to go
now because visiting hours ended an hour ago but Kurt was so nice to let us wait until you woke up' she says smiling. 'we'll be back tomorrow okay?'

'yeah….great' he says and tries to look cheerful.

'bye honey' she says as she kisses him goodbye.

'bye' his dad says and pats him on the arm.

Rachel giggles as it's her turn. 'Rach I'm warning you'

She ignores him. 'bye Blainey' she says still giggling and kisses his cheek. He shakes his head disapprovingly but smiles at her anyway.

'bye bye Blainey boy' Wes says grinning.

'god you're even worse' they all laugh and then move to the door. 'bye guys, mom dad'

'so' Lucy says smiling as she jump on the edge of his bed. 'I missed you today' she says as she scoops closer but keeps enough distance not to hurt him.

'I missed you too'

'there's something I have to tell you though' she looks a little sad.

'that being?' he asks curiously.

'well tomorrow is like our date you know' she giggles. After that one time that she and Blaine said it had sounded like Kurt asked them for a date they started really calling it a date, not that it was one. 'but I'm going home tomorrow' 'just for one day' she adds quickly as she sees the sad look on his face, 'to you know, see how it goes'

'wow Lucy that is awesome' he tries to say excitedly but in reality he isn't. He has grown to love little Lucy so much and this means she will leave soon.

'I know right?' she says excitedly 'I'm gonna miss you though' she says as her voice softens.

'so we're not having a date?' it's actually more of a statement but not in Lucy's opinion.

'oh well I mean you and Kurt can still go' she tries.

'oh no, we're not going, we'll wait till your back. I'll tell Kurt'

'tell Kurt what?' Kurt says as he walks into the room.

'Kurt I'm serious you have to stop doing that, it's getting scary'

'stop doing what? I just came by to see of you were awake and then it happens to be that you're talking about me, so how could I resist?' he smiles 'but now we're still "struggling" with the question of what you were going to tell me'

'oh right that'

'yes that'

'I was going to tell you that we're not going on our date tomorrow because Lucy won't be there'

'we'll see about that' he says and leaves, leaving a giggling Lucy and confused Blaine.

A/N: I know it took me quite a long time to update and it's probably gonna be like that in the future as well since I just started school again and my exams are this your so yeah that shit. I hope I'll still be able to update on Sundays though but we'll see, thanks for keeping up with me anyway. xx