A/N: so here's a new chapter, enjoy! xx
Chapter twenty.
When Blaine wakes up he is surprised to see Kurt in the room.
'Kurt'
Kurt looks up from the book he was reading and smiles at Blaine. 'that took you long?' he says grinning while closing the book.
'what took me long if I may ask?'
'to wake up' Kurt says as he stands up to put the book away. 'I was waiting for you'
'waiting for me? Why?' Blaine asks a little panicked as he's scared there's something wrong.
'because of the date' Kurt says smiling.
'oh right' Blaine says relieved. 'but the thing is I….' he stops for a moment thinking if he should really say this, he wants to be alone with Kurt of course but just because Kurt wants that too he shouldn't think he has any changes so maybe it's better if he declines. 'I'm really not feeling all too well actually'
For some reason Kurt expected this to happen, it sounds strange but he just had that feeling. 'right, I think fresh air would do you good though' Kurt tries.
'I don't know'
'how about a short walk? We can always go and if you're really not feeling that well we can go back'
Kurt sees Blaine is in doubt and he smiles when Blaine gives in. 'okay' he says. 'could I uhm' Blaine says looking at his hospital gown.
'oh god of course, how stupid of me' Kurt says as he looks at Blaine. 'I'll wait on the hallway' he says and takes the book with him when he leaves.
Kurt smiles as he sees how happy Blaine is when they're in the park, he's smiling brightly all the time waving at some children as they pass by and it makes Kurt's heart flutters in his chest. Blaine makes him feel weird but as in a good way, like they've known each other for years and how they can always talk about silly stuff and just everything basically.
Their hands are swinging in between them and just sometimes the rug of their hands brush lightly making Kurt's heart skip a beat. Kurt imagines Blaine and him in the park, holding hands as they walk to a bench to sit and snuggle close to each other. Then Kurt's thoughts are interrupted by a noise coming from his pocket, his cell phone. 'I'm sorry I have to take it' he says to Blaine and stops walking to fish the phone from his pocket. 'Dr. Hummel' he says as he picks up. 'oh hi' 'yeah of course that's okay, yes yes I'll see you tomorrow then, enjoy the rest of your day together' he ends the phone call and puts his phone away. 'that was Lucy's mom, she asked if it was okay for Lucy to stay the night, at home. And well as you heard I said yes, so I just wanted to let you know. She'll be back in the morning though'
'I'm happy for her' Blaine says and Kurt can see he means it.
'me too, me too' Kurt answers. 'so… how are you? After the operation I mean? Are you doing okay?'
'yeah I'm good, just miss my own bed' Blaine says smiling making a joke of it again. Kurt notices that's what he always does when they start to talk about something he doesn't want to talk about or when it makes him uncomfortable.
'I'm serious Blaine'
'me too' he says and looks at Kurt. 'I really am okay'
'well that's good then, I'm sorry about Christmas though'
Blaine shrugs 'it's fine' he says trying to keep a neutral face.
'I don't think it is' Kurt says 'you seem like the type of person that likes to spend time with his family, am I right?' Kurt asks but Blaine only nods as he looks away from Kurt. 'I really tried my best but the lab is very busy at the moment and test results always take a long time to being looked at' Kurt says and gives Blaine a sad smile.
'it's okay, it's not your fault that I'm here, it's not your fault that I have cancer' he says as he kicks against a little stone with his feet.
'Blaine?' Kurt says waiting for Blaine to look at him. 'you don't blame yourself do you?'
'who else is there to blame than me?' Blaine blurts out.
'it's not your fault, you can't help it, it's not like you chose to get sick'
'definitely not' he murmurs.
It looks like Kurt ignored him but he just didn't hear it. 'do you want to sit down?' Kurt asks pointing at an empty bench. Kurt doesn't wait for an answer and almost drags Blaine to it. As soon as they sit down Blaine starts to tap his foot in an unknown rhythm. 'Blaine what are you doing?' Kurt asks as he examine Blaine's foot and hands as they joined in as well. '
'what oh' Blaine says and stops abruptly.
He murmurs something that looks a lot like "piano" but Kurt isn't entirely sure.
Just then a soft tune fills the air which both Blaine and Kurt recognise as the sound of a guitar. Blaine looks up to see where the sound is coming from and smiles as he sees a group of people gather around a guy. 'can we go look?' Blaine asks Kurt already standing up.
'sure' Kurt says as he looks at the boy playing the guitar. As they come closer Kurt's sees there's a girl too but since she's very small she was hidden by the crowd. The boy and the girl both look very familiar to Kurt but he can't recall where he saw them before and they're a little too far away to take a good look at their faces, but as they come very close Kurt recognises them, it are Wes and Rachel.
Just as Rachel opens her mouth to start with the first lyric of the song she's interrupted by Blaine screaming her and Wes' name. 'Blaine?' she says eyes wide of surprise. 'What are you doing here?' she asks as she rushes to him leaving a flustered crowd.
'I, we were just going for some fresh air and I heard a guitar and I wanted to go look and then I saw it were you and Wes so yes I had to come and see you' he says smiling as he hugs her tightly. 'why are you choosing this day to go perform in the park though? It's freezing cold and well there's snow…' he says
'Wes' is the only thing she says while rolling her eyes in his direction. 'he asked me to come so yeah...' then she smiles mischievously 'why don't you and Kurt join us?' she says and turns to Kurt.
'oh no, I'll stay here and watch you guys' Kurt answers quickly.
'oh come on' she says and takes one of Kurt's hand and one of Blaine's to drag them back to Wes.
'Blaine, Kurt' Wes says smiling.
'what about a Christmas song to get in the mood? It's Christmas in a few days after all so why not?' Rachel asks excitedly. She doesn't wait for Blaine to answer though. 'what about Extraordinary Merry Christmas?' Rachel asks smiling.
'yeah okay' he says as he doesn't want to disappoint her by not singing. 'you okay with that?' Blaine asks Wes hoping that he will answer with a no, which of course he doesn't.
'sure I'll do the back up so you can sing with Rachel' Wes says teasingly and he starts playing.
He came into my dreams last night
A great big man in red and white
He told me that it's gonna be
A special year for you and me
Underneath the mistletoe
Hold me tight and kiss me slow
The snow is high
So come inside
I wanna hear you say to me
It's a very, very, merry, merry Christmas
Gonna party on 'til Santa grants my wishes
Got my halo on, I know what I want
It's who I'm with
It's an extraordinary merry Christmas
It doesn't come as a surprise
Who's been naughty, who's been nice
There's someone here for everyone
Another year has just begun
Silent night, none in sight
Sleigh bells ring until the light
Hearts explode, here we go
It's all right there inside your eyes
It's a very, very, merry, merry Christmas (Even better than the one before)
Gonna party on 'till Santa grants my wishes (Think he's knocking on my front door)
Got my halo on, I know what I want
It's who I'm with (It's who I'm with)
It's an extraordinary merry Christmas
Won't you meet me by the tree?
Slip away so secretly
Can't you see how this could be?
The greatest gift of all
It's a very, very, merry, merry Christmas (Even better than the one before)
Gonna stay with you 'til Santa grants my wishes (Think he's knocking on my front door)
Got my halo on, I know what I want
It's who I'm with (It's who I'm with)
It's an extraordinary merry, very, very, merry, merry Christmas (Even better than the one before)
Gonna party on 'til Santa grants my wishes (Think he's knocking on my front door)
Got my halo on, I know what I want
It's who I'm with (It's who I'm with)
It's an extraordinary merry Christmas (Even better than the one before)
It's a very, very, merry, merry Christmas (Even better than the one before)
It's an extraordinary merry Christmas
'so how did you guys like that?' Wes asks as he looks at the crowd. 'are we up for another song?' there are several "yes's" and Wes smiles. 'good, so any suggestions?' he asks.
'over my head by the fray' someone yells to Wes.
'okay yeah I think I can play that' he says smiling. 'so who would you guys like to sing it? Him right' Wes says pointing at Blaine.
'Wes' Blaine says and gives him a warning look. But it's already too late because everyone thinks that's a good idea.
'ready?' Wes asks Blaine and he nods.
I never knew
I never knew that everything
Was falling through
That everyone I knew
Was waiting on a queue
To turn and run
When all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to
Nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way
Than stay and see
The smoke and who's still
Standing when it clears
When they finish the song Rachel smiles at Blaine but he doesn't smile back this time. 'I'm going back to Kurt' he says softly. 'have fun Rach, I hope to see you soon again' his voice is soft so not everyone hears what he's saying.
'Blaine we haven't even talked yet' Rachel yells after him when he walks away forgetting to say goodbye to Wes.
'wow Blaine you were amazing' Kurt says smiling as Blaine comes closer.
'Kurt can we go back?' Blaine says ruining the mood.
'oh uhm sure' Kurt says a little taken aback of the sudden mood change. 'yeah sure come on' he says and takes Blaine back to the hospital.
'and what was the real reason you wanted to go?' Kurt asks as soon as Blaine lays down on his bed.
'as I told you before I'm tired' Blaine snaps at Kurt but immediately regrets it as he sees the sad look on Kurt's face. 'I…. I didn't mean it like that' he says quickly.
Of course you didn't' Kurt says trying not to sound hurt. 'well then I'll leave you alone, to sleep' Kurt says and makes his way to the door. Blaine wants to yell after him but for some reason he doesn't.
He sighs softly as he looks to the empty bed opposite him, he misses Lucy. He stands up and walks to her bed lifting the pillow so he can smell her scent. Okay that is weird but he just misses her. He lays the pillow back down and then lays down on her bed curling up under her comforter as he hugs the pillow close to his chest. When he closes his eyes he thinks of Lucy and without knowing he falls asleep in her bed.
'Blaine I'm sorry about earlier I shouldn't-' Kurt trails of as he's greeted by an empty bed. He turns around to inspect the room and then notices Blaine curled up on Lucy's bed. 'Blaine?' Kurt whispers as he walks closer to Lucy's bed but there's no answer. And when Kurt comes closer he sees the steady moves of Blaine's chest and his closed eyes. He's asleep. Kurt bites his lips and wonders if it be weird to just sit down and watch Blaine sleep. He can always say that he just got in or that he needed to check something. He takes the chair near the window and puts it on Lucy's bedside. Blaine stirs in his sleep and for a moment it looks like he's waking up as his long lashes tickle his cheek, but he doesn't. he looks so peaceful when he's asleep, Kurt had only see that expression once before and that was when he was playing the piano with his eyes closed. It's not that Blaine looks stressful normally but there's always some sort of expression on his face, you wouldn't notice if you don't know him, but it is there, just like this sort of glister in his eyes that's always there.
'Kurt?'
Kurt's head snaps up at the sound of Blaine's face. Did I fall asleep?! 'yes' he answers a little sleepily.
'what are you doing here?' Blaine asks confused.
'nothing just..' Kurt trails of as he doesn't know how to answer.
'I wish Lucy was here' Blaine whispers. 'she would come and cuddle with me and we'd talk about silly stuff' Blaine says sadly.
'we can do that too' Kurt says softly.
'you'd do that for me?' Blaine asks surprised.
'yeah sure' Kurt answers.
'don't you think that's weird?' Blaine asks a little insecure.
Kurt shakes his head and stands up from the chair. 'come on make some space' Kurt says smiling. Blaine moves to the left side of the bed so Kurt can lay down on the right side.
'this is uhm this is nice' Blaine says as he feels Kurt's shoulder brush against his.
'it is' Kurt says.
After it has been silent for a moment Kurt starts talking while still looking at the ceiling. 'so about what sort of silly things do you want to talk then?' Kurt asks smiling, but when there's no answer he moves his gaze to Blaine seeing he has his eyes closed. Did he fall asleep again? 'Blaine?' still no answer. He did fall asleep again.
A/N: hope you guys liked it and see you next time.