Okay guys I am wellaware that its almost physically impossible for Jacob to be away from Nessie for any period of time. Believe me. JAcob didn;t really know what he was doing when he started to run. He just had to get wawy -for fear that he would phase and hurt Renesmee.

JPOV

I ran. I ran as fast I could not bothering to phase. I didn't want the pack in my mind.

I listened closely to the gavel crunching beneath my feet, trying to focus on something other than the scene I ran from. But to my dismay it didn't work.

I couldn't remember the last time I cried-Maybe when I found that Bella was engaged?- but now fresh tears flowed freely down my cheeks.

I had to leave. I had to get out of there. I was going to phase in front of her I was going to hurt her. I had to. I had to. I told myself over and over again. I was fighting a war with my mind. I didn't want to think about it. Not now. Though, I seemed to be loosing.

I loved her. How could she ever think that! If anything ever did happen to me…. She just couldn't! The tears increased and it became hard to see.

I wondered vaguely how far I had run already. I wasn't even sure what direction I was running, or where I running to. I just had to get away.

I must have been far, I could feel the pull. It was strong. My stomach was in knot, clenching and unclenching.A headache set in so severe I started to get dizzy.

I had to turn back soon. I knew I did. They were probably looking for me, now. The pack and the Cullens. The physical pain was becoming unbearable- being away from her for so long. I tried not to think that name, because other images followed.

I replayed that scene over and over in my head- trying to distinguish reality from fantasy.

"Was that what you were upset about?" I hissed into her ear. Her hand still resting on my cheek letting her thoughts flowed. She had been afraid- afraid for me.

"What do you mean?" She croaked, Looking up at me, confused.

I touch the hand that rested on my cheek, indicating it's position. She seemed to understand. "Oh!" She gasped, instantly retracting her hand. I grabbed it, holding it securely to my face.

I felt terrible. How could I have not seen this coming? She had been afraid for me. She had been afraid that something would happen to me. That could never happen. I would never, ever, let that happen. I could never leave her. She was my everything.

"Nessie?" I whispered.

"Yes?" she smiled sheepishly.

"You don't ever worry about that. Ever." I said determined; valiant. " I will always be here. I will never leave."

Tears now flowed freely down her cheeks. "You can't exactly tell God to wait Jake," Her voice cracked. It killed a part of me to see her cry.

"Renesmee Carlie Cullen," I said seriously, "Do you trust me?"

" I do." She said automatically.

"Then trust me."

I hoped that she could. I wished she could see my side.

With her hand still resting on my cheek I pulled her toward me, to the ground, trying to get as close as possible for as long as possible. We stood there for a long moment, I listened to her struggle with the words I just spoke. She seemed to believe me but thought that it was still possible. She was so determined. Why couldn't she just believe me. She was so determined. I smiled to myself, remembering how much I loved that particular trait.

Suddenly my smile faded as a thought passed through her mind. If anything were to ever happen to Jacob I don't know what I'd do. I-I don't think I'd be to far behind him. Followed by a picture of our tomb stones together.

"Renesmee!" I growled jumping to my feet; pulling her with me. Her hand dropped.

I felt water to built in my eyes blurring my vision. I fought them.

"I don't ever, ever, want to hear you speak or think about that ever again!" I roared. " If anything ever happened to me, I would want you to at least try to be happy and live normally. Not, try and - and….." I trailed off. Quickly spinning around. The tears had won.

I love her, with all my heart. I love her more than anything. More than life, more than air. How could she think like that. I gave her my heart, and she just broke it. I needed her. I needed to know that if something happened to me she would me safe.

I was barley aware of her arms around me. She sobbed. I was getting angry. I was going to phase. I had to get out of here.

I started to quiver- my entire frame shaking. I took one look back She was on the ground, sobbing. It broke my heart. The physical pain increasing. I had to go or she would be hurt.

I started to run toward the safety of the woods, phasing quickly, ripping all of my clothes.

Abruptly I let out one pain staking howl.

I fought a war with the tears; they were winning. Still they flowed freely down my cheeks. The physical and mental pain was becoming unbearable. My heart still throbbed. I had to see her. I had to go back.

And before I knew what I was doing I phased, starting to run in the direction my body indicated.

Jake? Jake! Is that you? Embry.

Leave me ALONE.

Dude! Where have you been? Nessie's hurt. Bad! How could you just leave her like that?

Images flowed through his mind. Nessie broken, hurt, bleeding. I felt myself becoming sick. Suddenly I puked, though I had not ate in what appeared to be days. The smell tricked through my nose, making me throw up again.

The taste stayed in my mouth. What had I done? I deserved to die. I hurt her. I did this.

Your coming home?

How long have I been gone?

Few of days.

I let out a pained howl, increasing my pace. I had done that. This was my fault. I should have never left. Oh god. Would she even want to see me? Would anyone ever let me see her again?

I felt Embry phase out, obviously sensing my need to be alone in my mind. I started to run again, eager to get to the one I loved most Then One I had hurt….. I hated myself. I hurt her. It was my fault.

And Before I knew it I was entering into the meadow that surrounded the front of the main house. I listen carefully. No one was home. They must be at the cottage.

I arrived at the cottage in record time. My heart seeking its holder. My heart skipped a beat when I smelled her. I waited for the sickly sweet smell to hit me, but none came. Did they just leave Renesmee by herself?

No. A wolf was in there. But who? I went to the window on Nessie's bedroom and peered in. I looked over to the bed, and there she laid. I couldn't see her body but her feet snuck out from under the quilt, her red toenails glistening in the stream of sun that hit them. I gasped as all the pain dissolved. But the self hatred stayed.

Just then Seth walked in. I sighed. She was safe.

I watched her for a while, but exhaustion was taking over. How long had I been gone? Obviously, my previous assumptions had been wrong.

My eye lids drooped. I was slipping into uncounciousness, but the fleas were keeping me awake. I decided to phase back not caring if I didn't have any clothes.

RPOV The day was long and awkward. Samantha decided to stay to my dismay. She made me feel very uncomfortable, and I didn't know how to deal. She'd glare at me from the corner of her eye when Seth wasn't looking, and rarely spoke directly to me. She made sure that She was always in the room with Seth and I, following him closely every time he came into check on me. I didn't get why she just couldn't see that I didn't want Seth. I had no desire to and never would.

Though throughout the day I felt nothing but numb, embarrassed, and uncomfortable. My stomach stayed tied in knots, clenching and unclenching- never giving me a break.

I had isolated my mind from everything, just making out the most obvious of things, so that nothing came in pain. I felt as if a huge hole and been cut out of my heart, leaving me empty. It throbbed like I was being stabbed over and over again. Rejection and numbness taking over.

I spoke only when asked direct question, ate only when told to, slept when I was asked. I never offered information up, never done anything unless directly asked. I didn't even try to hide my pain. What was the point?

"Ness?" Seth said," It's your turn."

"Oh." Seth was trying everything he could think of to get my mind off of Jacob, nothing was working to both our dismays. At the moment we were playing monopoly. "You know what Seth, you and Sam can finish without me, I'm kind of tired."

"You're sure?" He asked, speaking to me, but glaring at Sam- Who smiled widely- he had obviously caught on to he game.

"Umm, yeah. I'll see you guys in the morning." I smiled, only the bottom of my face affected.

"Well, okay. Goodnight . don't be afraid if you see someone com in your room. It most likely will be me." Samantha's face fell.

"Okay, goodnight." I said, faking a yawn.

I walked to my room , quickly closing the door behind me. I wasn't tired I just wanted to get away. I changed quickly into some boy shorts and t-shirt, then decided to take some Tylenol PM.

As I laid down, I focused on each body part. Starting with my limb letting them tire and fall limp. I was slipping into unconsciousness.

Suddenly I heard something outside my window. I felt like I should check to see what it was , but the Tylenol was taking its affect. Seth would most likely check.

Abruptly snoring came from outside my window. This frightened me. Slowly I got out of bed, fighting sleep and opened my window wide.

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