You're Not Alone Chapter 4, a big time rush fanfic

Kendall's POV

I couldn't believe how easy the words came to me. It was staring me right in the face, and I never saw it. Not until I saw her for who she really was. I had no idea that behind those beautiful blue eyes was a soul that felt empty and lonely. I was staring at the words I had scribbled down and could barely read my own handwriting. But it didn't matter, I knew the words by heart.

I was staring at my computer waiting for the guys to video chat. We were all on separate vacations but this couldn't wait. I had been stuck for so long and I was going to burst if I didn't play my song for them. I snuck downstairs to see if Sophie was here. I had heard her door close about ten minutes ago but I didn't want to bother her. I assumed she had just gone for a walk. Not that I didn't want her to hear the song, believe me, I did, just not yet.

I ran back to my room just as Carlos was calling. I picked up, and we called James and Logan. They were all looking at me expectantly, wondering why I'd called them away from their lives. "Guys, I know we are supposed to be on vacation, but you have to hear this." They all stared at me. I picked up my guitar and started to sing, thinking of Sophie the entire time. I couldn't help but smile like an idiot throughout the whole thing. I put my guitar down and turned back to the computer. "Well, what do you guys think?"

They all smiled at me. "I think we finally have our last song for the album!" James shouted. They all started cheering. Carlos stared at me. "Seriously dude, we leave you for two weeks and now you have this amazing song. What gives?" Logan started laughing. "I'll tell you what gives. He met a girl. That's the only explanation."

I shrugged my shoulders, hoping they couldn't see the flash of heat that was now rising to my cheeks. "Hey, what can I say? When I've got it, I got it." We all started laughing. As much as I couldn't wait to get back to L.A. and finish recording the new album, I also never wanted to leave here. I could feel myself falling for Sophie, and I knew going back to California would make things nearly impossible. The guys and I talked for a few more minutes when I heard the door shut. Our moms weren't coming back for another few days, so I knew it had to be Sophie. My heart skipped a beat as I looked up to the door. "Alright well I'll let you all get back to your vacations." Before I hung up I could hear kissy noises and someone yelled at me to tell the pretty girl hi. I ran downstairs as fast as I could, hoping to catch her before she holed up in her room again. It had been about an hour since she told me she tried to kill herself, and she's all I could think about since.

When I walked into the living room, she was sitting by the fireplace. The only light hitting her was coming from the fire and I had never seen anything so beautiful in my entire life. I wanted to wrap her in my arms and kiss her. To be honest, that's all I've wanted since I met her. But after what she told me, I wasn't sure how she was feeling. She heard me come in and turned around to face me. All I managed to mutter was, "Hi."

She wiped a tear from her eye, and I was instantly at her side. "Hi. Listen, Kendall, I'm sorry about freaking out on you." She shook her head. "It's just, besides the therapist, you're the first person I've told."

"Why? Don't you feel like Sadie deserves to know?" I moved a stray hair out of her face.

Sophie nodded. "I do, and I want her to know. But I can't tell people. I know how they are going to look at me. They are going to look at me like the poor little girl that felt alone and felt like she had no other options. They are going to look at me like I just lost my way. That's why I ran before you could say anything, because I know that's what you think."

That hit me like a ton of bricks. "Is that honestly what you think, Soph? Do you really think I feel that way?" She shrugged and I continued. "Maybe you did lose your way. Maybe you did feel like you didn't have any other options. But I don't see that. What I see is one of the strongest people I have ever known, fighting like hell for a way back."

"Really?" She said it as if she couldn't believe it.

"Absolutely."

She leaned into me, and I couldn't help but take in her scent. Dear lord, she was breathtaking. I wrapped my arm around her, knowing that I'd be happy if I died in that moment. I cleared my throat, unsure of how to proceed. "Uhm, do you remember how I told you I was having really bad writers block and was stuck on my last song?"

"Yeah."

"Well… I got the song figured out."

"Kendall! That's fantastic. Can I hear it?"

I was nervous. I had never played a song I had written for someone to them. "Yeah of course you can. But one thing, before I play. I wrote it for you… it's about you."

Sophie looked up at me, and for a minute I thought she was going to run back to her room. After a minute she looked down at her lap. "I'd still love to hear it." I could tell she was as nervous as I was.

I ran upstairs and grabbed my guitar. I couldn't believe I was about to play this for her. I went and sat down on the couch, with Sophie sitting right next to me. I took a deep breath and started to play.

I bet you didn't notice
First time your heart was broken
You called me up and we talked til the morning
And the time that you were stranded
I was there before you landed
He was a no show, I made sure you got home

I've been right there
For every minute
This time, it's no different
Whatever happens you should know

Cause you're not alone, girl
Look over your shoulder
You don't have to wonder
Cause you know, you know, you know
You're not alone, girl
I'll be there to hold you
I'll stay til it's over
And you know, you know, you know
That you're not alone
That you're not alone

All the days that you were stressed out
Feeling like pulling your hair out
They were all missing but I was here listening
You gotta believe in me
Even if you can't see me there
I'll catch you when you fall

Cause I've been right there
For every minute
This time, it's no different
Whatever happens you should know
Cause you're not alone, girl
Look over your shoulder
You don't have to wonder
Cause you know, you know, you know
You're not alone, girl
I'll be there to hold you
I'll stay til it's over
And you know, you know, you know
That you're not alone
That you're not alone

I'll be here for you no matter what
Comes around the corner
As long as I am breathing
You won't have to worry no more

Cause you're not alone, girl
Look over your shoulder
You don't have to wonder
Cause you know, you know

I bet you didn't notice
First time your heart was broken
You called me up and we talked til the morning

When I finished the song, I looked up at her. I could see the tears forming in her eyes. "It turns out I wasn't missing the perfect words. Turns out, I was missing the perfect girl."

What happened next was something we had both been craving since that first night we went for a walk on the lake. Before I could even say another word, I felt her lips finally meet mine.