The realization hit me like a ton of bricks. How could I be in love with Kendall? We had only been together for a few short weeks. It felt like I had known him my entire life, and I had trusted him with my darkest secret, and he didn't run. He wrote me this amazing song and we had been inseparable ever since. I had thought I was in love with Charlie, and maybe I was at the time, but that was nothing compared to what I felt now.

I had mixed feelings about being back home in Iowa. I had missed my own bed, but it also meant three more weeks before I got to see Kendall again. I had text Sadie to let her know I was home and she was going to come have dinner with us. I laid on my bed and waited for her, wondering if Kendall felt the same. He would probably think I was crazy for being in love with him. But what if he didn't? What if he felt the same?

Sadie came over and I told her all about our vacation, not missing a single detail. Of course I had already told her that Kendall had been staying and had written me the song, but now she got to know about all of our dates. I did what I promised Kendall I would do and I told Sadie the truth about everything. Thankfully she wasn't mad, just upset that I hadn't told her and concerned that Charlie might try something later. We were deep in conversation when my mom called us down for dinner. My dad had grilled steaks and we spent the entire night talking about being at the lake house. I couldn't remember the last time I had enjoyed dinner with my family. I was finally getting back to my old self, and I liked it.

We decided that Sadie was going to spend the night since we hadn't seen each other in over a month. We were laughing at some stupid joke when my phone rang. My heart fluttered.

"Hello?"

"Hey gorgeous. I just wanted to tell you that I made it home safe."

"Good, I'm glad." God, I missed him. "Do you have any big plans for tomorrow?"

Kendall thought for a minute. "The guys and I are going to the studio with a list of songs we want for the album. I think we are going to start recording, and then getting ready for tour. We are playing a bunch of fair dates."

"Don't forget what you promised me. If I don't hear from you tomorrow I will be pretty upset. I miss you."

"I miss you too, Soph. I can't wait to see you again."

"I know, I'm already counting down the days." I looked over at Sadie who was thumbing through music on her computer. "Hey, make sure Carlos isn't busy when I come see you." Sadie just looked at me.

"You're going to try and hook him up with Sadie, aren't you?"

"It's possible. Anyway rockstar I'll let you get some sleep."

"Okay. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Bye, pretty girl."

"Bye." I had to bite my lip to keep from telling him that I loved him. I wanted him to know, but that's not something I wanted to tell him over the phone.

True to his word, he called me the next night after he got back from the studio. We took advantage of every single opportunity we had to talk. Every night whether it was a call, text, or video chat, we would always make time to talk. I made it through the first week just fine, but I knew I wouldn't be able to make it through another two. I missed him to bad, I needed him to bad.

I had everything planned out. I knew exactly what I was going to do. Mom was okay with it, the guys were on board, now all I needed was Sadie. So I called her.

"Hey. I have a huge favor to ask."

"Sure girl, what's up?"

"Go out to L.A. with me."

"What?!"

"You heard me. Sadie, I miss Kendall. I love Kendall. I need to tell him that I love him, I need to see him."

"You're insane!"

I was begging. "Please, Sadie. I could go by myself, but I'm nervous. Mom is okay with me going out there. I've already talked to James, Carlos, and Logan. They all want to meet me and when I told them why I was coming out, they practically booked the flight for me."

I could hear her sigh on the other end. "Fine, I'll go. I've always wanted to visit L.A. anyway."

"Thank you, Sadie! Thank you so much; you're the best friend ever."

Two days later, we were on a plane to L.A. Carlos was going to pick us up at the airport, James was to make sure Kendall had no idea I was on my way, and Logan was supposed to distract him. I saw Carlos and waived to him. He immediately recognized me from the video chats we had while at the lake.

"Sophie! It's so nice to finally meet you!" He pulled me in for a hug.

"You too! I can't wait to meet the other guys. Carlos, this is my best friend, Sadie." They looked at each other, exchanged a hug, and stood there for a moment. I was hoping there would be something between them. I was trying to play matchmaker and that's part of the reason I wanted Sadie to come with me. We left the airport and headed for the studio.

"I gotta tell you, Sophie. That song that Kendall wrote is amazing. The studio loved it." Carlos had a big grin on his face.

I blushed. "I'm glad. It's weird, but I'm nervous to see him."

He shook his head. "Don't be. You're all he's been able to talk about since he got back. He was so excited when he saw one of the tour dates was in Iowa. He said it's a few hours from you but that he'd come get you if he had to."

I laughed. Kendall had mentioned something about playing at a fair somewhere and I told him if I didn't get to see him then, that I'd just fly out to California and see him. I couldn't believe the beautiful scenery that was passing by and I couldn't wait to visit the beach. Walking by the lake was nothing compared to walking on the beach according to Kendall, and I couldn't wait to prove him right.

As we pulled up to the studio, I suddenly got butterflies in my stomach. What if something had changed? What if he wasn't excited to see me? I shook those thoughts away. Of course he'd be excited to see me. It's all we've been able to talk about. Carlos led me inside where I met James. We were all introduced and James informed me that Kendall would not stop talking about me. About how much he misses me, misses laying with me, misses just being with me. We had a video chat last night that we were on for about four hours, and he had told me all this while we were on the call. He was definitely going to be excited to see me.

The boys led me to the studio where I could see him and Logan messing around. His back was toward me, thankfully. It'd be an even better surprise. Our cover story was that Carlos was going on a coffee run. The boys didn't pay attention as we slipped in the door, and Kendall only turned around when Carlos said, "Coffee's here."

Kendall turned around. His green eyes lit up the moment he saw me, and I was in his arms in two seconds. "Sophie, what are you doing here?" He kissed me. "I wasn't supposed to see you for two more weeks." He kissed me again.

I buried my face in his shoulder. "I missed you, I had to see you." He spun me around and still couldn't believe that I was here.

"I missed you too, so much. You're all I've been able to think about." He looked at me and kissed my forehead. "Let's go to the beach."

"Right now? Kendall, you're in the middle of rehearsal, isn't that kind of important?"

He shook his head. "No. You're what's important. You're here and I'm going to spend every second of my time with you until you go home."

Sadie assured me that she'd be fine, I could tell that she wanted to spend some alone time with our favorite band. My heart fluttered as we hopped in Kendall's car and headed toward the beach.