Sophie's POV

I felt like I was floating on a cloud. I couldn't believe You're Not Along was going to be on Big Time Rush's second album. I had only been in L.A for a few days, and I was dreading going back. Sadie and I spent all of our time with the boys. She was definitely falling for Carlos, and he was falling for her. We talked about going clubbing and decided it wasn't really our scene; so we usually ended up at one of the boy's houses watching movies all night. I spent a lot of time with Kendall on set, and although it sucked watching him kiss another girl, Katelyn was a sweetheart and totally understanding on why I didn't want Kendall kissing another girl. I got along with the rest of the cast pretty well, and it was interesting to see the acting side of him when all I had ever seen was the musician side.

Our fifth night in L.A, I decided I needed some alone time with my boyfriend. I loved being around Sadie and the guys, but I was leaving soon and I was going to miss him like crazy. We made dinner reservations and had the most romantic date. Afterward, we went for a walk on the beach, and down to the part where we went my first night here. I was so in love with Kendall, and I couldn't believe he was in love with me too.

Almost as if reading my mind, he kissed my forehead and whispered, "I love you."

I kissed his cheek. "I love you too. I don't ever want to leave. It's so beautiful here."

"So don't" I knew he was kidding, but part of me wanted him to be serious. I was trying so hard not to think of when he'd be out on tour. It hurt too much to think about. What Kendall didn't know is that I was planning on surprising him for a couple shows. I didn't care how far I'd have to drive, I wasn't going for two months without seeing him.

We sat on the beach for a few hours, and I was amazed at how much I still didn't know about him. Not that I mind at all; I love learning new things about him. We got back to Kendall's house and there was a note from Sadie. Went out with Carlos, won't be back for a while. Don't wait up! Xoxo Sadie.

I showed Kendall the note. "Looks like we're going to be alone for a while."

He shrugged. "Wanna just watch a movie or something?"

I nodded, "Sure, that's fine." I wasn't going to pay attention to whatever we were watching. For some reason, I was transfixed by him tonight. There was something about him that I couldn't put my finger on. He was just so damn sexy. We went and changed into our pajamas and cuddled up on the couch together. After about five minutes I cuddled my head into his neck. He smelled SO good. I leaned up and kissed him, but this time, I didn't pull away. He didn't either. We sat there for a moment when I felt his tongue begging for entrance. Sure, we had kissed, but nothing like this. It was like ecstasy. I could feel his hand on my back, suddenly very aware of why I was transfixed by him. I pulled away, and he looked at me like a puppy that had just been scolded.

"Something wrong?"

I shook my head. "No. Well…maybe. Kinda" I found myself jumbling my words. I was getting nervous. This was a talk we hadn't had, and I was wondering when it was going to come up. "Look, Kendall, I love you, I do. But I don't know if I want to do… that."

A smile crossed his lips. "Do what? Kiss?" He knew what I meant and was teasing me for being so shy about it. Jerk.

"That's not what I mean, and you know it. I just don't want to dive into sex too soon. I know we haven't really had the awkward exes talk, except for small bits about Charlie, but I feel like we really need to. With him, I dove into something I thought I was ready for and I wasn't, and I have regretted it ever since. It was too soon, and he wasn't the right person."

Kendall bit his lip. "I know what you mean. I did the same thing with my last girlfriend. At the time, I thought it was what I wanted. But when we split, I was devastated. Look, Sophie, I'm not going to pressure you into something that you're not ready for, especially if I'm not ready either."

I couldn't believe what I had just heard. "So… you understand?"

"Completely. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for the steamy make out session we were about to have, but if you're not comfortable with that either then that's cool too."

Now it was my turn to bite my lip. "I never said I wasn't okay with that." He smiled and leaned into kiss me. About ten minutes later, we were interrupted by the sound of laughing and the door being opened. Sadie and Carlos stepped in, and I could see the blush on their faces.

"Oh, hey, guys. We didn't know you'd be home." Sadie looked at her phone. "We figured you'd still be out."

"No we decided to come home and wait for you crazy kids." I winked at my friend. "We were just getting ready to head up to bed anyway, if you guys want the couch."

Carlos looked sad. "I'd love to stay, but we have an early morning. Tour rehearsals are in full gear tomorrow. Maybe we can do lunch?" Sadie nodded; Carlos kissed her on the cheek and he left.

"What am I, chopped liver?" Kendall threw his hands up in the air. "He didn't even say hi to me, and I'm his best friend!"

I punched him in the arm. "You'll get over it. He's right though, you do need to get to bed. You have a long day ahead of you and you need to get some rest." He kissed me goodnight and we went our separate ways.

Sadie and I stayed up most of the night talking. She told me all about her date with Carlos, and how anytime I came to see Kendall, she wanted to come. I told her about my plan to surprise Kendall at one of their shows, and she was all in. She didn't want me to tell Carlos so that we could surprise him too. I told her about my date with Kendall, and how he had taken me down to the beach again. I cleverly avoided our discussion we had earlier, thanks to her willingness to tell me every detail about Carlos.

We were both exhausted, and when it was finally time for bed, I couldn't sleep. I tried my hardest, but couldn't stay comfortable for more than twenty seconds. It started to rain, and I was hoping it would lull me to sleep. Unfortunately soon after the rain started, thunder and lightning followed. I pulled the pillow over my head. I was terrified of storms. Usually I'd curl up with my favorite stuffed animal at home, blare my music, and throw on a sleeping mask. But I didn't have any of that. I did, however, have a loving boyfriend just down the hall. My mind wandered to the night we accidentally fell asleep together. I was so comfortable and have never slept so well in my life. I got up and started to tiptoe down the hall when I remembered he had to get up early. I didn't want to wake him, so I headed to the kitchen to make a warm drink.

I was surprised to see the light on when I walked in. Kendall was standing over the stove and heard me come in. He turned toward me. "Hey, beautiful."

"Hey. What are you doing up?"

He shrugged. "I could ask you the same thing."

I heard a clap of thunder and pointed to the ceiling. "Storm. I hate them."

"I know. That's why I'm up too." I looked at him, and I must have looked confused so he continued, "You told me that at the lake house. You said sometimes the only thing that will calm you down when the music fails is a nice warm cup of tea." He set a cup down in front of me. "Tada!"

I knew it was stupid, but I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. "I didn't think you were listening. How on earth did you remember that?"

"I remember everything you tell me. Like how you love the way your house smells after your dad brings in the Christmas tree, how sometimes you've joked about being an only child but in reality you'd miss your brother and sister too much, that if you could you'd live on a farm and have hundreds of animals because of how much you love them." I just stared at him, my mouth agape. Little details about myself, even the smallest, most minuscule detail, Kendall remembered.

I sat in silence for a minute or two, collecting my thoughts. My tea was delicious, and it was definitely doing the trick of helping me fall asleep. After I drained my cup, I was having a hard time keeping my eyes open. "Well you need to get back to bed because you have rehearsal."

We walked down the hall and Kendall kissed me goodnight again. I started to walk away when I felt him grab my hand. "Why don't you come sleep with me tonight?" I was debating when I heard another crack of thunder and jumped. He pulled me in close. "I'll protect you from the storm." With that, Kendall led me to his bed and pulled me under the covers. He kissed my ear and whispered. "I'd protect you from anything." I fell asleep, knowing that he was telling the absolute truth.