Author's Note: Thanks to everyone that is reading this. I can't believe there are actually reading what I've written. Thank you. Here's the next chapter.
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Chapter 5
Stiles POV
After the fight, we all headed back to our respective homes. Scott jumps in with me after a long parting kiss with Allison. I support their relationship fully, but sometimes their affection can be freaking annoying. My mind floats back to what the witch said. She spoke about feelings that I was developing.
Scott's voice pulls me from my thoughts. "Dude, are you ok?"
I'm confused after being enveloped in my own thoughts. "What?"
"Are you ok? You've been quiet for the past 10 minutes, that's the longest I've heard you go without talking. What are you thinking about?"
"Nothing." I'm not certain if this is something that Scott would be willing to listen too.
"Stiles, what is it? Come on, we've been bros since the beginning of time. I can handle anything you have to say. What is it?"
I looked at Scott and knew that he was right. I just hoped that he would not freak out about it. "It's just something one of the witches said to me."
"How bad could it be?"
"It's not bad, it's just confusing. Do you mind if we go back to my place and talk about it there? This conversation might take longer than our drive to your place."
"Sure, I don't mind chilling at your place. Just let me text my mom to let her know that I'm spending the night with you." With that I turned my attention back to the road and headed straight to my house. As soon as we arrived Scott headed up to my room while I grabbed some snacks in the kitchen.
I didn't know what I was going to say to Scott. How do I tell him that the witch said and the thoughts that are currently coursing through my mind? I never thought about mine and Derek's relationship, other than acceting him asmy alpha.
"Stiles, come on up already." I hear Scott's voice from upstairs. I grab a package of oreos and some chips and head upstairs. I find Scott sitting on my computer chair, leaving the bed for me to sit on. There was still silence between us for a few minutes, until Scott finally spoke up. "Dude, I thought you wanted me to come to talk about what's on your mind? We can't exactly do that if you don't actually do any talking."
"I will say something, I just don't know how to start."
"Why don't you start by telling me what happened between you, Derek and the witch."
"Ok, sure. We can start there. We were hit off-guard by one of the witches. Well actually Derek sensed her at the last minute, shoving me out of the way of her blast and taking the hit for me. It knocked him out cold."
"Dang, that doesn't sound good. What happened after?"
"She started talking to me. She was wondering why I was protecting Derek. She kept calling you guys monsters and murders-"
Scott cut me off, "What?! Why do people keep thinking that about us? I haven't killed anyone, neither has Isaac or Cora. We're not monsters. Sure we're predators but we're not killers!"
"Scott," I yelled getting his attention, "I'm aware of that. Do you really think I would let her get away with saying something like that? I told her pretty much the same thing."
"Ok, sorry for interrupting. Please continue."
"So after that, she kept wondering why I was so protective of Derek. She then said she could sense the energy around her and she could feel something between us."
"What was she talking about?"
"She said there was more than a friendship growing between us."
Scott starts laughing, and I look at him confused. "Dude, is she crazy? Nevermind I know the answer to that, but does she seriously think there is something between you two?"
I look over at him and don't respond. To be honest, I didn't know how to respond.
"Why are you being so quiet? Wait, is there something going on between you two?"
"No, I mean, I don't know."
"What do you mean you don't know? Just yesterday you were saying that you didn't have a crush on him, now you just instantly decided to change your mind?"
"No that's not what it is." I put my head in my hands unable to put words to my thoughts.
"What is it?"
"I mean, I've always been attractive to him, but that's because he's hot, everyone is attracted to him. But something happened tonight." I stood up and needed to pace the room. "When we were walking towards the meeting place, Derek was telling me that he cared about me and was worried that something might happen to me. I never knew that he actually cared at me at all. I just thought I was the annoying human in your pack. I didn't think he cared at all."
"Of course he cares. You are pack."
"Well I'm the human in the pack. I might be considered pack by everyone but I never knew if he thought that I was pack or not." I continued my pacing, the movement helping me to focus my mind. "Then when the witch attacked, he shoved me out of the way. That blast was directed straight at me and he took it for me. He got thrown into a tree and knocked out for me." I stopped to breathe and clear my thoughts.
"So I'm assuming we're at the part when the witch starts talking."
"Well yea, I already told you what she said so I'm not going to repeat myself. So after I killed her I ran over to Derek to see if he was ok. Seeing his unconscious body and hearing his weak pulse was terrifying for me. I needed him to wake up. I was terrified that I was going to lose him."
"Well that would be normal. You'd be worried if it was me lying there unconscious."
"Well yeah, but this was different. My heart was breaking seeing him like that. I have no idea what is happening to me. There is something in my mind that is drawing me to Derek. I don't know what it is." I sat back on my bed putting my head in my hands again.
I felt Scott stand up and sit next to me. "Stiles, tell me something. If Derek was to walk in here right now, what would you do?"
"I don't know. I want to get to know him better though. I feel like I don't know him at all and I want to be the one that he opens up to." I stopped myself when I heard the words that escaped my mouth. "Did I really just say that?"
"Yeah you did. I think you actually know what's going on. You're starting to develop feelings for him and you seem to be afraid of what will happen because of those feelings."
"Aw man, do you really think that I'm starting to feel something for him. I mean he's not exactly who I was expecting to have a relationship with. He always seemed out of my league. I don't expect him to want me at all. I mean I'm pretty sure he's straight. If you look at his relationship history, actually I don't know much of his relationship history but I do know that he's at least dated two women, and they were psycho."
"You never know, but what are you planning to do?"
"Ignore these feelings until they go away. I had feelings for Lydia all those years and those feelings are now gone."
"But you were in love with her for 10 years."
"But I was trying to be in a relationship with her during that time. This time I'm going to ignore those feelings so it should go away quicker."
"Stiles are you sure that is what you want?"
"I don't know, but I have to try something." I knew that these feelings came up unexpectantly, but I can't deny that they are there. They may have been there the whole time and I was just unaware of it. There is one thing I do need to do, try to keep these feelings to myself as much as possible.
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