This takes place 5 years after AshLynn died idk if I'm going to continue this or not. I'm going to post a poll on my profile so vote yes if you want me to continue or no if you don't I thought about doing them from when Jeff and AshLynn met and got together. And as alwayz I don't own Jeff or Matt I just own the not known characters. In this one I used the song I Still Miss You by Keith Anderson.
I've changed the presets in my truck
So those old songs don't sneak up
They still find me and remind me
Yeah you come back that easy
It's been 5 years since AshLynn died and he's been with Melissa for 2 years. For the first year all he did was drink, so he could forget her. But he never could, he found out a few days ago that Melissa was pregnant, and he couldn't help but to think that this should have been him and AshLynn. But because of what happened AshLynn would never get the chance to experience it. Twice a week he goes to her gravesite and talks to her, tells her everything that's been going on and what he's feeling. He loves Melissa don't get him wrong but he still loves AshLynn more. Melissa knows about what happened and she feels really bad about it and fells so sorry for AshLynn's family and friends, she doesn't know how Jeff and her mom and her brother Dustin are handling it she couldn't. But what she doesn't know is how Jeff handled it, he drank all the time, wouldn't talk to anyone but her mom and Dustin. No one could reach out to Jeff and tell him that the way he's feeling is normal, not even his dad.
He get's in his car and drives to the cemetery. He get's out and walks to her grave. He sits down and brings his knees to his chest.
"Hey Ash, I've come to talk to you again" he chuckles
"Mel's a month pregnant, I'm happy don't get me wrong I just, I don't know" he sighs and runs his hands through his hair.
"I've done everything to try to move on like I'm supposed to, but I can't I just" he lays his head on his knees
"I just, I still miss you" he get's up and heads back to his car and drove home. He pulls in his driveway and see's Melissa's car.
Try restaurants I've never been to
Order new things off the menu
That I never tried 'cause you didn't like
And two drinks in you were by my side
I tried sober, I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
And I still miss you
He get's out of his car and goes up to the porch and unlocks the door and let's Melissa and himself inside.
"Hey" she said while hugging him
"Hey" she looks him in the eyes and she knows that he's been at the cemetery, she feels bad but it's been 5 years she doesn't know how much more she can take.
"Jeff, honey it's been 5 years, how much longer……" she stopped when she saw the look she was getting from Jeff.
"Don't finish that sentence"
"Jeff I'm sorry but someone has to say it"
"Have you ever lost someone you were in love with?"
"No but"
"But what?"
"But you can't live like this Jeff, she wouldn't want you to and we don't want you to, we have a baby on the way" he sits down on the couch and puts his head in his hands.
"You don't think I haven't tried getting over it….over her?"
"I know you've tried but sweetie you gotta try harder" she said sitting down next to him. She put her hand under his chin and made him look at her.
"If it means a lot to you, if we have a daughter we can name her after AshLynn" he looked at her
"Really?"
"Yeah" he hugged her
"Thank you, you have no idea how much this means" she smiled a little and kissed him. Melissa left not long after their mini argument. Jeff got to thinking and he knows that Melissa's right that Ash wouldn't want him being like this but it's hard. He can't help the way he feels.
I've done everything to move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you baby
I never knew till you were gone
How many pages you were on
Well it never ends I keep turning and
Line after line and you are there again
He went up to his room and looked in his closet for the photo albums he put all of AshLynn's pictures in. He found them and pulled them out and went back downstairs and sat on the couch and started looking through them. He doesn't know how to let go, he's not sure if he wants to, but he knows he has to he's going to be a father. And it does mean a lot that Melissa will allow him to name it if it's a girl after AshLynn.
~9 Months later~
It's been 9 months and their at the hospital, getting ready to deliver their daughter, he finally talked to his dad and asked him to help him get over everything that happened. He hasn't been to AshLynn's grave in 3 months. He hasn't drank a lot in the past 8 months. Everyone's happy because Jeff is slowly but surly coming back, but he hasn't forgotten AshLynn, he's just slowly getting over it and her. He still loves her and he always will. His dad told him that, when they found out that they were having a girl he went and saw AshLynn's mom and brother and told them that they were naming her after AshLynn, Her mom cried and thanked him and asked if they could be apart of her life and Jeff told them that they could. After he left their house he stopped by the cemetery and told AshLynn about it and left and hasn't been back since.
I don't know how to let you go
You're so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless, so hopeless
It's a door that never closes
No I don't know how to do this
I've talked to friends, talked to myself
I've talked to god, I prayed like hell
But I still miss you
A few hours later Jeff heard a baby cry and the doctors were cleaning her up. They had Jeff cut the umbilical cord, and they wrapped her in a blanket and handed her to Jeff. He cried as he looked at her, she had blond hair and baby blue eyes just like AshLynn's he couldn't believe it. Melissa noticed the look on his face.
"Jeff what's wrong?"
"Nothing it's just that she has baby blue eyes just like AshLynn's"
"What let me see" he handed her to Melissa and she gasped,
"Wow, her eyes are beautiful, what do you think it means?"
"I'm not sure" Jeff grabbed the birth certificate and put his name down under father, Melissa's under mother and for her name he put AshLynn Marie Hardy. After he signed it he handed it to Melissa and she read it and smiled at him, he went out into the waiting room and told everyone to follow him. Matt, Gill, her parents Sara and Robert, Shannon, Shane, Dustin and his and Ash's mom Melinda followed him into Melissa's private room. He handed AshLynn to Gill who looked down at her and smiled
"Hi little one I'm you grandpa Gill" and he handed her to Matt.
"She's beautiful guys (and to her) I'm your uncle Matt" he handed her to Sara and then she handed her to Robert.
"She's very beautiful guys, but how did she get blue eyes Melissa has brown and Jeff has Hazel?"
"We don't know" at the blue eyed part Dustin and Melinda looked up. Robert handed her to Melinda and she started crying.
"She's beautiful guys, she has baby blue eyes like AshLynn's" and she handed her to Dustin who got teary eyed to.
"I never thought I'd ever see eyes like hers ever again" after a few minutes he handed her to Shannon.
"You guys did an amazing job she's adorable" Shan handed her to Shane
"Wow, she really is beautiful" he handed her back to Jeff. Not long after everyone left.
I've done everything, to move on like I'm supposed to
And I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you, yeah
I've talked to friends, talked to myself
I've talked to god, I prayed like hell
But I still miss you
I've tried sober, I've tried drinking
I've been strong, I've been weak
And I still miss you
I've done everything to move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you
I still miss you
A couple of days later Melissa and AshLynn got to come home. Jeff couldn't believe that she has baby blue eyes like AshLynn's; he didn't think he'd ever see eyes like hers ever again. One day while Melissa was out shopping Jeff took Ash to AshLynn's gravesite. He pulled up and got out and got ash out of her car seat, and he walked over to her headstone. He sat down and held her close to him because it wasn't that chilly but it was a little chilly.
"Hey Ash I brought a visitor, I wanted you to meet my daughter we named her after you, AshLynn Marie Hardy, for some odd ass reason she got your baby blue eyes, none of us thought that we'd ever get to see eyes like yours ever again" he chuckled and Ash opened her eyes and looked at Jeff then she looked at AshLynn's headstone, Jeff noticed this and smiled
"That's who you're named after Ash, you have eyes like her" Ash looked at him and he felt like AshLynn was near, he couldn't explain it.
~3 YEARS LATER~
It's been three years and since Jeff took Ash to AshLynn's grave with him she goes with him every year, on the year that he took her. She's 3 know and she looks scarily a lot like AshLynn, no one can believe it. She has Jeff's blond hair but everything else screamed AshLynn. Jeff and Ash got out of the car and Ash ran ahead of Jeff and she stopped at AshLynn's headstone.
"Hi Auntie Ashwinn, daddy and I are back" Jeff just caught up to her and smiled when she said this.
"Uncle Dustin and Granma Winda say to tell you hi" Jeff picked up Ash and sat down and placed her in his lap.
"Like Ash said were back for our yearly visit" they sat and talked to her for awhile when Jeff looked at his watch and noticed what time it was.
"Ok Ash we got to go mommy will be home soon"
"Otay daddy, bye auntie Ashwinn, see you next year" Jeff smiled and got up
"Bye Ash I still love and miss you even after 8 years" and he grabbed Ash's hand and walked to his car, they got in and drove off.
I still miss you baby
I still miss you yeah yeah
Thank you for reading and plz REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and let me kno if ya'll want me to continue and actually start at the beginning lol…………
Love alwayz 'n' forever
Chrissy
AKA: Hardygirl87