Chapter 7- Small Bump
You're just a small bump, unborn, in four months you're brought to life
You might be left with my hair but you'll have your mothers eyes
I'll hold your body in my hand be as gentle as I can but for now your a scan on my unmade plans
A small bump, in four months you're brought to life
I'll hold tightly, I'll give you nothing but truth
If your not inside me I'll put my future in you
You are my one and only
You can wrap your fingers around my thumb and hold me tight
Your just a small bump unknown, you'll grow into your skin
With a smile like hers and a simple beneath your chin
Small Bump by Ed Sheeran
September 20th 2004
We sat in the waiting room at the Doctors, my foot tapping at the ground nervously. Kozik was sitting next to me, holding my hand and smiling at me. He seemed more enthusiastic about this pregnancy then I was; all I could think about was how we would pay for things and what would happen, the if's and but's.
"Valerie Anderson" called out the nurse finally
We got up and walked over to her, hand in hand. She led us into the room, leaving me there while she got the Doctor. I laid down on the chair, still holding Kozik's hand.
"Hey, I love you" whispered Kozik, kissing me on my head
The Doctor walked in and I recognized her, I went to school with her daughters, we used to be friends.
"Valerie, what a suprise, I heard you were back" she said brightly, eyeing Kozik before returning her gaze back to me
"Yeah, I've been meaning to see Sam but I've been busy with my dad" I said
"I heard about him, I'm so sorry" she said
"Thank you" I said
"Well, lets get started" she said
She got me ready and I watched the screen, waiting for my baby to appear. Sure enough a shady outline could be seen and a clear heartbeat could be heard. My eyes started to tear up as I stared up at my child. Too think that this was actually growing inside of me; mine and Kozik's child. Kozik leaned down and kissed my head.
"You have no idea how much I love you right now" he whispered to me, stroking my hair
"Everything is normal, you are seven weeks, your baby is healthy, come in for regular check ups and you should be fine" she said packing up the equipment
"Thank you Mrs Collins" I said
"Thats all right dear, I'll tell Sam that your back, she'll want to see you" she said smiling at me before walking out of the room
I got up of the chair and Kozik picked me up, swinging me around while I squealed. He put me down and pressed a kissed to my lips. I wrapped my arms around his waist and leant my head against his chest. This was right, this was where I wanted to be for the rest of my life; with Kozik and soon with our child.
SOASOASOA
I sucked in my gut and zipped up my jeans. They were tight, just like every other article of clothing, and would soon not fit. I had taken to wearing baggy clothes, seeing as how I didn't want to go shopping for new clothes just yet.
I was going to meet up with Sam, I wondered what she would be like, if she had changed in two years. What would she think of my pregnancy, my relationship with Kozik. I shrugged the thoughts out of my head, grabbing my bag and driving to the cafe.
Sam was waiting there for me when I arrived. I greeted her and sat down opposite her, ordering a banana smoothie. She hadn't changed much, just looked older, dressed older.
"So, I hear congratulations are in order" she said smiling
"Yes, I am seven weeks pregnant" I said grinning
"Danny's disappointed I bet" she said
"What do you mean?" I asked confused
"He never really got over you. And now your having a kid with someone he knows" she said knowingly
Thats why he always glared at Kozik, he was jealous. Good, he was a prick when we were together, he would never get me back and he had to live with that.
"That's his problem" I said
"That a girl" She said grinning "So, this new guy, what's he like?" she asked
"He's great, he's kind and funny and very good looking" I said blushing
"Well you two really didn't wait, already having a kid" she said surprised
"I know, I never thought" I started but trailed off
"I don't think anyone did, those legs were sealed shut before, must be quite a guy to pry them open" she said
"He is" I mumbled
We spent the rest of the time catching up, I found out that Sam was studying to become a doctor, just like her mum, and that she was engaged to her high school boyfriend. She gushed about her wedding plans, urging me to be one of her bridesmaids.
"Come on, I need you there, we used to talk about this remember" she pleaded
"You talked, I listened, besides why do you want a pregnant bridesmaids" I said
"Val, your my best friend, and I only have Max's sister Sarah and my cousin Lisa, I need more, it'll be fun" she said
"Fine, but don't expect me at the bachelorette party" I said
"Thank you" she said squealing
"It's okay" I said laughing at her
"Besides it's in four months so you won't be huge, plus you get me as your bridesmaid when you get married, I'll plan an awesome bachelorette party" she said
I laughed along with her but my mind was racing. Kozik and I had never talked about marriage, though we had never really talked about the future at all. I knew we had to soon. I didn't want to be living with Lana and Lee when the baby was born, I wanted to live with Kozik, be a family.
I had left soon after that, driving back home. Lana was the only one there when I got back, she was cooking cupcakes.
"How'd it go with Sam?" She asked, getting the cupcakes out of the oven
"Good, I'm going to be a bridesmaid at her wedding" I said, sitting down at the kitchen counter
"Thats great" she said smiling "When's the wedding?" She asked
"Four months, so I'll be big by then" I said laughing
"Don't worry about it, you'll be pregnant big so it's alright" she said laughing "Lee wants to talk to you" she said
"Okay, I've been meaning to talk to him but I was busy, with the doctor appointment and all" I said
"How did it go?" She asked
I got the ultrasound picture out of my purse and handed it to her. She beamed down at it, staring at my baby.
"Is everything okay?" She asked
"Yeah, I'm seven weeks along, the baby is healthy, everything is great" I said my voice faltering when I said that everything was great
"What's wrong?" She asked handing me back the photo
"It's just Sam, talking about her wedding, she said that when I got married she would throw me an awesome bachelorette party" I said
"So what's the problem?" She asked confused
"It's just, I'm eighteen for Gods sake, I never thought I'd be talking about marriage and children, let alone be having a kid" I said frustrated
"Do you want to marry Kozik?" She asked
"I want Kozik, I want to be his Old Lady, have our baby and live out long happy lives together, I want it more than I want anything else" I said
"Then there's no problem, Lee is at the clubhouse, go see him" she said, well more like ordered
I jumped off the seat, grabbed my bag, heading off to the clubhouse and hopefully to find some answers.
When I got there Lee was sitting in Church by himself, Lana must have called him because he was waiting for me. I sat down next to him, watching him intently before starting to talk.
"I need answers Lee" I said
"To what?" He asked in mock confusion
"To why you were sending my mother love letters" I said, lowering my voice although no one could hear us
"Because I was in love with her, had been since we were kids" he said
"Then why didn't she marry you?" I asked
"Because she was pregnant with you, I was already in jail" he said looking down in shame
"Please don't tell me your actually my father" I begged
"No, God, no, we were only ever together like that once, years before you were born" he said awkwardly "Besides, did you really think I'd let you and Danny be together if you were siblings" he said angrily
"We were never together like that" I said quietly
"Oh" Lee mumbled, and awkward silence falling over us, neither of us wanted to discuss the sex life of the other at all
"Thats why my father started drinking, he found out after she died didn't he?" I asked, well more accused
"Yes, he found the letters" he said
"Thats why, the thought that the dead wife that he loves so much was in love with someone else the entire time drove him to it. It's why you were always looking after me, you felt guilty" I yelled, my eyes beginning to fill with angry tears
"No, Valerie, you were like a daughter to me, I had to look after you. It's what your mother would have wanted" he said pulling me into a hug
At first I fought him but eventually I gave up, letting myself fall apart in his arms, crying out for my dead parents.
The tears eventually stopped and I pushed myself away from Lee, drying my face, making sure that I looked somewhat presentable.
"I'm not angry Lee, try not to feel guilty" I said before walking out of the clubhouse
As soon as Kozik saw my red eyes he came rushing over to me, something that warmed my heart.
"Are you okay?" He asked
"I'm fine, we were just settling some history" I said smiling at Kozik
Kozik eyed the clubhouse warily, not fully believing me.
"Kozik, I really I'm fine, I'll be at home" I said walking away but Kozik pulled me back into his arms
"I'll pick you up in a hour, I've got a suprise for you" he whispered into my ear, his hands brushing against the now slightly visible baby bump
"Okay, see you then, love you" I said kissing him before turning around and walking back to my car.
I opened my door, feeling eyes on me I turned around. I saw Danny staring at me, a mixture of hurt and anger in his eyes. I shrugged it off and got into the car, trying to forget about my ex-boyfriend, who it seemed had not forgotten about me.