Chapter 14- Gods Gonna Cut You Down
Go tell that long tongue liar
Go and tell that midnight rider
Tell the rambler, the gambler, the back biter
Tell them that God's gonna cut them down
Tell them that God's gonna cut them down
You can run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
Run on for a long time
But sooner or later God'll cut you down
Sooner or later God'll cut you down
Well you may throw your rock and hide your hand
Working in the dark against your fellow man
But as sure as God made black and white
What's done in the dark will be brought to the light
God's gonna cut you down by Johnny Cash
November 17th 2004
I was sitting on the couch lost in my own thoughts, not hearing the door open, not noticing Kozik sit down next to me. He lifted his hand to my cheek, turning me to face him.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked
"Jonathan wasn't my Uncle, he was my father, and Lee knew" I said breaking down into tears
I leaned my head into Kozik's chest, his arms were wrapped around me and he was whispering to me but I wasn't listening. I was just letting myself fall apart in his arms.
"What do you want to do?" He asked
I leant back from him, wiping the tears from my cheek and staring at Kozik. I loved him so much, but he was loyal to Lee, and I wouldn't make him choose.
"I need to talk to Lee" I said, my voice shaking
"Okay, I'll take you to him" he said gently
"Hey, I love you" he said kissing my forehead
He helped me to my feet and we walked outside. I pulled him to my car and we got inside. We started heading towards the clubhouse, and hopefully get some answers.
When we arrived I almost ran inside, Kozik had to hold on to my arm to stop me. He shook his head at me and walked inside first, with me following close behind. When Lee saw us he nudged his head towards the church room and walked inside. We followed him, I was clutching at Kozik's arm nervously.
"I thought we sorted this out" said Lee
"Look man, your like a brother to me, I trust you, I would take a bullet for you. But that's my Old Lady. Just give her a minute" said Kozik
"Sure thing brother" said Lee turning to me
"You knew that Jonathan Anderson was my father didn't you?" I asked
"Yes, your mother told me" he said looking down at the table
"So why did you kill him?" I asked
"Kozik, can you give us a minute please?" Asked Lee
Kozik turned to me, looking me in the eye "Are you okay?" He asked
"Yeah of course" I said
Kozik kissed my forehead "I'll be right out there if you need me" he said walking away
"Good guy you got there" he said
"Don't change the subject, why did you kill Jonathan Anderson?" I asked again
"What I told you was the truth, I was protecting you" he said he sighed before continuing "I didn't tell the others this, but he had turned rat, his boss got us to kill him"
"But why you?" I asked confused about why he had killed him
"He was ratting on us, we were going to do time" he said
"He wouldn't, he knew how much you meant to me" I said my voice faltering
"He wanted us out of the picture so that he could get to you, we were going to do hard time, all of us, me, Kozik, Bowie, Happy, Danny. I had to protect you, my family and this club" he said
"How is killing my father protecting me?" I asked tears in my eyes
"He was going to put your Old Man in jail for a very long time. Kozik wouldn't get out until the kid was in its teens at least" he said angrily
"Boy" I whispered
"What?" he asked
"It's a boy, the baby" I said wiping away the tears
"Congratulations, bet Kozik's happy" he said smiling
"Yeah, he is, we both are" I said
"Look, I know that you probably won't ever forgive me, and I respect that, just know that I'll always be here if you need me" He said getting up
I just nodded and Lee walked past me and out of the room. Kozik walked back in and pulled me into a hug. I leaned my head on his chest and wrapped my arms around his waist.
"I love you, so much" I said into his chest
"I sure hope you do, because your stuck with me now, I'm never letting you go" he said smiling
"Good" I said
I grabbed his cut in my hands and pulled him into a kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck, my hands were running through his hair. His hands moved to my waist, then down to my bum. He lifted my up and set me on the table. He moved away from my lips and started kissing my jaw, then down my neck, his hands were on my waist, and then suddenly underneath my shirt, runnings his hands on my waist. I pushed him away when I realized what he was doing.
"Kozik" I said moving his hands away
"What?" He asked smiling
"Your brothers are in the next room" I said
"So, it's nothing they haven't heard before" he said putting his hands back on my waist
"Not from you hopefully" I said
"Of course not" he said
"Oh, I bet" I said smiling "On a table though, I'm 16 weeks pregnant, not going to happen anytime soon" I said
Kozik sighed and moved away from me disappointed.
"Come on, lets go home" I said grabbing his hand and pulling him out of the clubhouse.
SOASOASOA
November 27th 2004
I was cutting up the vegetables in the kitchen when I felt arms wrap around me, I instinctively leaned back into him.
"Hey, what are you doing?" He whispered kissing my neck
"Cutting up the vegetables for tonight" I said
"Right Thanksgiving dinner at Lee and Lana's, are you going to be okay?" He asked
"I'll be fine, I promise" I said turning around in his arms
I traced my fingers over his SOA tattoo on his chest. His hands were rubbing my arms soothingly. One hand moved to my chin, pulling my face up and making me look at him. He kissed me slowly, moving his hand to the side of my face.
I pulled away and said "I really have to finish chopping up the vegetables"
Kozik groaned and let go of me. I turned around and started cutting up the rest of the vegetables. Kozik started pressing kisses down my neck, from my ear to my shoulder.
"I'm going to chop off a finger if you keep distracting me" I said chuckling
"Wouldn't want that now would we" he said into my neck
I finished cutting and put the knife down, thankfully because Kozik nipped my neck, making me jump. I turned around and whacked his chest.
"Now imagine if you had done that while I was cutting" I said trying my best to fake being angry but a smile was creeping on my face
"I'd still love you if you lost a finger" he said kissing me
"It's a damn good thing your handsome, otherwise I don't know how I'd out up with you" I joked
"Am I just handsome?" He asked quirking his eyebrows up and smirking
"No, your hot" I said inching closer
"Just hot?" He asked wrapping his arms around me
"Gorgeous" I said
"Just gorgeous?" He asked
"Sexy" I said
"So are you babe" he said
He cupped my face and kissed me passionately. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He carried me to our bedroom and laid me down on the bed, never breaking the kiss.
We lay in the bed together, I was pretending to be asleep while Kozik was holding me. I felt him move from underneath me, I kept my eyes closed to keep up the rude of me being asleep. I felt a hand on my belly.
"Hey baby, I don't know if you can hear me, god this is so stupid" said Kozik, rubbing his hand over my belly
"Well I'm your Old Man, I just wanted to say how much I love you and your mummy, and I'll always protect you" he said pressing a kiss to my stomach
Kozik moved back underneath me and it was as if he had never moved.
"I think I love you more for that" I said opening my eyes
"I thought you were asleep" he said
"And thought you were some big bad biker" I joked turning over to lean my head on his chest
"Not when it comes to our child" he said kissing me
I sighed in contentment, happy that everything was working out the way I wanted them to. Right now my life was perfect, and it could only get better.