Chapter 16- Torn Between Two Lovers
Torn between two lovers
Feeling like a fool
Loving both of you
Is breaking all the rules
Torn between two lovers
Feeling like a fool
Loving both of you is breaking all the rules
Torn Between Two Lovers by Mary Macgregor
5th December 2004
It had been a week since Thanksgiving, a week since that kiss with Happy, and I had been avoiding him like the plague. I hadn't been to the clubhouse or visited Kozik at work. Kozik wasn't suspecting anything, but Lana was, she had come around the house yesterday to check on me. I had brushed her off but she was still pushing me to tell her what was wrong. I knew that telling her was a bad idea, she had already told me to stay away from Happy, if she found out that we kissed she would string both of us up.
I was driving over to Sam's house to get ready for the wedding. When I arrived everyone was rushing around, frantically trying to get everything ready. I walked into Sam's room to see her standing there in her dress. It was a long white mermaid style boob tube.
"Oh, thank God your here" she said grabbing a dress and handing it to me
I walked into the bathroom to get ready. The dress was a purple knee length dress with straps, fitting loosely around my stomach. I put on some eyeliner and mascara, then walked back into Sam's bedroom.
"Are you ready?" She asked
"Yes, are you?" I asked
"So ready" she said
We walked out with everyone, getting in the cars and heading to the Church.
The ceremony was beautiful, short and sweet. You could really see how much they loved each other. Sam stood on the stage, facing away from us, ready to throw the bouquet. She threw it over her shoulder and everyone desperately tried to catch it. Suddenly I saw it fly towards me and I caught it. I started smiling when I realized what had happened. Maybe this means Kozik will propose soon.
I was sitting down at the table watching everyone dance. I was getting tired and was going to head home soon. Sam walked over and sat down next to me.
"Thanks for coming, it really means a lot" she said
"Of course"
"Nice catch with the bouquet" she said
"Yeah, nice throw" I replied laughing
"Does that mean your going to get married soon?" She asked
"You'd have to ask Kozik that" I said
"Do you want to get married?" She asked
"Yes, I love him and can't imagine being with anyone else" I said
"He'll come around to the idea, Ben had a lot of convincing from my mum" she said laughing
"I'll get Lana on to it" I said "I'm going to head home, I'm getting tired" I said picking up my purse and getting up
"Sure, I'll see you later" she said getting up
"Yeah, congratulations" I said hugging her
I walked to my car and got in, starting it and driving home.
I pulled into the driveway of my house, parking the car and getting out. I walked up to the porch and saw someone waiting for me.
"What are you doing here Happy?" I asked walking up to him
"I just want to talk, figured since Kozik was on a run" he said looking up from where he was sitting
"Come inside" I said
I opened the door and Happy followed me inside. I sat down at the table, Happy got a beer out if the fridge and sat down next to me.
"How was the wedding?" He asked
"It was good" I said "Happy, can you just get to the point, I'm tired and want to sleep" I said exasperated
"I'm sorry about what happened" he said bitterly, sounding like it was poison in his mouth
"Okay, is that it then, cause" I started but he cut me off with a kiss
I pushed him away before I could even respond.
"What is wrong with you?" I asked getting up "You say your sorry for kissing me, then kiss me again" I yelled
"I don't know, I see you and I just want to kiss you, it's your fault" he yelled
"It's my fault" I screamed "You know what Hap, I think you should just stay away, sort out yourself, don't drag md into your mess" I said annoyed
"Your right" he said before walking out the door, slamming it and riding away
I can't believe him, he just apologized for kissing me then kissed me again, where was the sense it that. And how was any if this my fault. I pushed him away, told him to leave. Not once have I ever said that I wanted him to kiss me. Because I didn't. But I have to admit, his lips did feel good on mine.
I woke up the next morning, my head still spinning from what Happy had said. He was confusing me, and that wasn't good. I turned over to see Kozik lying beside me. I sat up and rubbed my eyes.
"When did you get back?" I asked
"Last night, didn't want to wake you" he said absent mindedly "So how was the wedding?" He asked pushing a strand of hair behind my ear
"Good, the ceremony was nice, the reception was good, I caught the bouquet" I said looking up at him for a reaction but there was none so I continued "I was tired so I left"
"That's good" he said getting up
"I have a day off, do you have to go in?" I asked moving to sit on the edge of the bed
"Nah, I can stay home with you for awhile, we sorted out business, I'll just go call to let them know" he said leaving the room
I got up and dressed, I would finally be able to spend some time with Kozik, maybe then I would feel less guilty about what happened with Happy. I walked out into the kitchen and started making breakfast for both of us. Kozik sat down at the table and I served out the food, sitting down to eat.
"So what do you want to do today?" He asked with a mouth full of food
"Babe, swallow before talking" I said smiling at him
"Sorry" he said swallowing
"I was thinking we good go shopping, you know for baby stuff" I said
"Sure, I have to be at the shop later but that'll be fun" he said finishing his food and pushing the plate away
I picked up both our plates, scraped them and stacked them in the dishwasher. It made me think of Happy, and how he cleaned up after himself. I pushed the thought of Happy away, I shouldn't be thinking of him.
After some convincing I managed to get Kozik to drive my car to the shops, he couldn't get it through his head that a motorbike and a pregnant woman don't mix.
We were walking through the baby store, holding hands, ignoring the both curious and nervous glances sent by the other customers. I hated how everyone assumed the worst of Kozik just because of the cut on his back, they didn't know him, not like me. They didn't know how sweet and kind and generous he could be.
We had already got tons of clothes in our basket but I just couldn't help myself. There was so many things we needed to buy.
"Babe, how much stuff are you getting?" He asked
"We need a lot" I said "I'm not going over the top, right?" I asked sighing
"No, of course not" he said pulling me into a hug "But seriously, maybe just tone down the shopping until I get my next pay check" he said laughing but I didn't find it funny
I pulled away from Kozik and went to the counter, buying the stuff and walking out of the store. I got in the passenger seat of the car and waited for Kozik. He got in and started driving home, sending me cautious looks.
"What happened back there?" He asked
"Nothing" I mumbled
"Don't bullshit me, what's wrong?" Be asked again
"It's just, how are we going to pay for everything. We can't even buy stuff now, what happens after the baby's born. I don't earn much at the cafe" I said quickly
He started laughing, he was laughing at me. I was so angry at him. How dare he laugh at my worries.
"Why are you laughing?" I asked
"Because your worrying" he said still laughing
"Well, someone has to worry, a kid's expensive, how are we going to pay for him?"
"I earn enough with the club and at the garage, you have money saved up to put you through college, then get a job. Things will work out just fine" he assured me
"And that is why I love you" I said smiling
I was so focused on what we were talking about that I hadn't noticed where we were going, not until we pulled up outside of the clubhouse.
"Why are we here?" I asked confused
"I've got some club business to take care of, thought you could hang out with Lana" he said frowning "Are you okay with that?" He asked
"Yeah, of course, it's fine" I muttered
I got out of the car, Kozik rushed inside the clubhouse and I slowly walked into the office. I desperately needed to talk to someone about what had happened with Happy, but I couldn't talk to Lana, she would just tell me to stick by Kozik, be a good Old Lady. Sam was on her honeymoon so I couldn't talk to her, besides she wasn't an Old Lady, she wouldn't understand. Maybe I could talk to Ava, she wouldn't be bias.
I walked into the clubhouse hoping that Ava would be there. I realized that there was a slim chance that she would actually be here but I really needed to talk to someone. I spotted her over by the bar and walked up to her.
"Can I talk to you outside?" I asked
"Yeah sure" she said following me outside
"So, what do you want to talk about?" She asked as we sat down at one of the picnic tables
"I wanted your advice on something" I said nervously
"Okay" she said unsure
I took a deep breath to prepare myself "Happy kissed me, twice"
I expected Ava to be shocked, surprised, even horrified. But she wasn't. In fact she looked like she had expected it.
"Why are you not surprised by this? I was" I asked
"Because, at Thanksgiving dinner Happy couldn't take his eyes off of you. He followed your every movement. You'd twitch and he'd noticed" she said
"Really, are you sure?" I asked
"Valerie, I know what a man in love looks like. Trust me, they love you, all three of them" she said
"Three of them?" I asked confused
"Yeah, Happy, Kozik and Danny" she said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world
"What am I going to do?" I asked running my hand through my hair
"Did you kiss him back?" She asked
"Yes, the first time, but I pushed him away. The second time I was too angry at him, this is so confusing" I said groaning
"Do you want to kiss him again?" She asked
"No, maybe. I mean, if I wasn't with Kozik and pregnant, then yeah I probably would" I said
"I think you should stay away from them, let Happy sort out his feelings. Don't let him confuse you" she said getting up
"Thanks for the advice" I said
"I'm going back home, do you want a lift?" She offered
"No, I'll wait for Kozik, see you later" I said
Ava paused before nodding and walking to her car. I walked into the office, taking a seat behind the desk to wait for Kozik.
A couple of minutes later Kozik came in to tell me that he was dealing with club business and would be home later. I stood up, grabbing my bag and was about to leave when Danny walked in to the office.
"Hey, Danny, how are you doing?" I asked, still thinking about what Ava had said
"I'm good, how are you?" he asked
"Good, getting bigger by the day" I said forcing out a laugh
"Do you need a ride home or something?" He asked
"No, my car's here" I said
I stepped past Danny and walked outside, I opened my car door when I felt eyes on me. I looked up to see Danny staring at me from the doorway longingly, I looked away from him and saw Happy staring between us with an angry expression on his face. I got into the car and drove home, trying to forget about Happy and Danny.
What do you think Valerie should do about Happy and Danny?