I can't forget it,
Though I've tried
I know you regret it, love
You told me so many times
I can't erase it
From my mind
I just replay it, love
Think of it all of the time
But I don't want to imagine
Words you spoke to her that night
Naked bodies look like porcelain
You both knew I'd be bleeding inside
Did she make your heart beat faster than I could?
Did she give you what you hoped for?
On nights so loveless, love,
I hope it made you feel good
Knowing how much I adored you
'Love' by Daughter
Chapter Eighteen
December 15th, 2004
I woke up the next day to an empty bed, the other side was cold so Happy had obviously left awhile ago. I sighed before getting out of bed, walking out into the kitchen to find Happy sitting at the table, a beer in one hand and a cigarette in the other.
"I thought you had left" I said, crossing my arms over my chest, not moving.
"Couldn't sleep" he said, taking a drag from his cigarette before finishing off his beer.
I took the beer from humans threw it in the beer, seeing at least four more bottles already in the bin.
"How many beers have you had?" I asked and Happy just shrugged before putting out his cigarette.
I walked over and sat down beside him, both of us didn't say anything, just watched each other's face.
"Why did you come here?" I asked, "You didn't have to come, I can look after myself"
"I was doing Koz a favour" he said looking down, "You should be grateful"
"I am" I said, "Thanks, you've done a lot for me"
Happy just nodded his head and got up, "I'm going back to the clubhouse"
"No you're not" I said and he raised an eyebrow, "You've had too many beers, you can stay here until you're sober"
Happt narrowed his eyes, looking at me like he was deciding what to say. I stood up, refusing to back down.
"You ain't my old lady" he said, "I'll do what I want"
"Sit down" I told him, pushing him a little, "I'll make you food, just sit"
Happy waited a few seconds before reluctantly sitting down, I smiled at him before going into the kitchen. I got a box of cereal, milk and two bowls, setting them down in front of us.
"There's not much" I said sitting down, "I need to go shopping"
"Koz called last night" he told me, eating a spoonful of his cereal
"Did you answer?" I asked, wanting to know what Koz had said
"Wasn't my place"
I was thankful that Happy hadn't answered, I knew that nothing good would have come from it. I picked up my phone from the bench, seeing that I had five missed calls from Kozik and two from Lana. I also had a voicemail from Kozik, I opened it and listened.
"Val, please answer. I need you. I love you babe" I heard him say, he definitely sounded drunk, "Babe, I want to come home. If I stay here I might do something I regret"
I heard a woman's laughter in the background before the voicemail ended. I knew what Koz had meant when he said he'd do something he'd regret. And if he had actually done it then he would definitely regret it.
I got off of the bed, quickly getting changed before walking out of my room and into the kitchen.
"I'm going to the clubhouse" I told Happy, "You can follow me if you want"
Happy just nodded his head, I grabbed my keys and got into the car. Starting the engine I was soon driving towards the clubhouse with Happy following.
I pulled up out the clubhouse, got out of the car and walked inside, as fast as I possible could, being pregnant and all. There were bodies lying all over the clubhouse, people passed out, I could smell the stench of alcohol and sex. I walked past them and into what I knew was Kozik's room.
And there he was, asleep with a naked fake blonde sprawled out on top of him. I picked up the nearest thing, which happened to be a lamp, raising it up in the air. I wasn't sure what I was going to do with it but before I could do anything Happy had grabbed me, trying to wrestle the lamp out of my hand.
"You asshole" I screamed, "Get up you piece of shit"
I managed to give Kozik a good kick before Happy pulled me away from him. The kick managed to wake him up, his eyes widening at the sight of me.
"Valerie" he said, pushing the blonde off of him, grabbing his pants from the ground.
"Don't you dare come home" I yelled at him, "You fucking stay away from me"
"Let's go" said Happy, pulling me out of the room, leading me out of the clubhouse and back to my car, "Go home and stay there" he ordered
I looked into Happy's eyes, I could tell that he was serious, and I wasn't about to defy him. I had come here and done what I needed to do.
I got into my car and drove home, slamming the front door and stormin inside. I went straight to my bedroom and started throwing the photos of Kozik and me on the ground.
I screamed and screamed until there were no screams, then I laid on my bed and cried and cried until there were no tears left. And then I laid there on the bed, trapped in my own misery.
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