I've decided to add another chapter before the big event because between the poll and the review it was literally a half and half. So I'm urging you to please vote on poll and review because what you say will help me decide the outcome of the event. This is just a short chapter before the real drama begins.

Chapter Twenty

I held my phone in my hands, wondering who I should call. Happy or Kozik? I knew that I'd see them both at the Christmas dinner, and I knew that it would be awkward with both of them.

Kozik would try to talk to me, but I didn't know if I was ready to talk to him yet. I knew that we had to talk but I wasn't over the betrayal just yet. I knew that it was hypocritical seeing that I had kissed Happy more than once, but I hadn't slept with Happy. And Happy had been there when Koz wasn't, that had to count for something.

Happy on the other hand would just ignore me, refuse to talk about what happened between us. We needed to sort it out but that would mean we'd have to admit there was something between us in the first place.

I really didn't want to talk to either of them, but I had to whether I liked it or not.

I was planning on spending the rest of the day at home before heading to the Christmas dinner, that was if I decided to go. What I wasn't counting on was Lana turning up on my doorstep looking as mad as hell.

"What's wrong?" I asked, watching as she pushed past me and walked into my house uninvited

"I told you to stay away from Happy" she said, hands on her hips and a scowl on her face, "Do you listen to anything I say?"

"It's not my fault that Happy had to protect me" I said, I wasn't going to lie down and take this, I was going to defend myself, "You should've told Lee and Kozik that he needed to stay away from him"

"And risk Hap's safety, risk the club" she said crossing her arms, "If they found out that Happy was cheating with an Old Lady they would have his head"

"We're not cheating" I said, not completely sure myself but I tried to sound confident, "I wouldn't sleep with Happy"

"Yes you would" she said, "You wouldn't mean to but you would, I've seen the way you and Hap look at each other, that's some serious feelings, and its seriously dangerous for everyone"

"What do you mean?" I asked

"Happy feels something for you, not love but more than lust, I have no doubt that he would do anything you ask. Kill for you. He's not known as the Tacoma Killer for nothing"

"Look, nothing is going to happen between me and Happy as long as I'm Koz's Old Lady" I said, "I promise"

"And what if you end things with Kozik, you don't have a tattoo so you aren't officially an Old Lady yet anyway" she said and I looked away, ashamed that I had actually entertained the thought, "You were thinking about it, weren't you? What, leave Koz and have Happy raise the baby"

"I would never take Koz's child away from him" I yelled, "He doesn't deserve that, he doesn't deserve any of this"

"The fight, you telling him to leave, it was all because of Happy?"

"No, no it's not Happy's fault" I said, trying to protect both of them

"You're still trying to protect them, you can't protect them both, you'll have to end up hurting one of them" she said, "It's just a matter of who you choose"

And with that she turned and walked out of my house, leaving me to think about what she had said to me. She was right, I did have to choose, and soon.

Please review, I need to know who you want her to end up with. This is your last chance to have your say, so speak now or forever hold your peace.