Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight. I do, however, own this storyline, my OCs, and a well worn library card.

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This one is dedicated to everyone who let me drag them kicking and screaming to Team Jasper...then let me drag them back.

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Kelly's POV

I can't believe how much my life has changed. I thought back to where it all began, at least for me. I was sitting in my grandmother's attic, where I'd gone hunting for material for my genealogy project. I was transfixed, looking at the photo in shock. It wasn't just an ancestor who bared a resemblance to Jasper. It was Jasper. It even had his name on the back. But how was that possible? I put it in the box along with the chest containing the letters and a few other miscellaneous objects and headed back downstairs.

Something made me hide the picture from Jasper when he came over to work on our genealogy project. I'm still not sure why. There was just this little voice inside my head that said it wasn't the right time. It was the same little voice that said something was off when all the couples played musical chairs and then asked me to keep it a secret. Especially after they practically attacked Felix when we first met.

I quickly figured out that whatever was off about the Cullens, was the same thing that was off about Felix. As infuriating as he was, I couldn't help but want to learn everything there was to know about him. I would force myself to listen to his many conquests rattle off their praises as if he were a sex god, just trying to pick up little tidbits of information. Cold skin. Hard muscles. Never ate or drank. Endless stamina.

Then came Halloween. I was all prepared to have a grand old time pretending to stake his sorry vampire ass half the night. Instead, I found myself falling in love with a guy in a vampire costume, all the while wondering if it wasn't really a costume.

I was so relieved when they decided to tell me the truth, and although I was in shock for a while, in an odd way it made more sense to me than the lies they told to try and cover it up. I don't know if I want to become like them or not. I do know, though, that Jasper is family, Edward is my best friend, and Felix could quite possibly be the love of my life. Whatever lies ahead, it'll all be worth it as long as I have them.

Heidi's POV

"How do you love someone who you know will always be in love with someone else?" I was staring in the mirror, arguing with myself. I had been doing it for the past 45 minutes and was beginning to question my sanity. It was an hour before my first 'date' with Jasper, and I was still undecided about whether or not to cancel. "This will never work. Why bother setting myself up for heartache?"

Felix walked up behind me, looking at me in the mirror as he rubbed my shoulders soothingly. "Because you care. Don't think about Bella. Think about what you two share and where you want it to go from here. It's no different than when a human loses a loved one. They can find love again, even though they will never stop loving the mate who died."

"It is different. Jasper's not a widower. Bella will always be a part of his life." It's not that I blamed Bella. I had no ill will towards her at all, in fact. It wasn't her fault. But the fact remained that no matter what, Jasper's heart will never be mine and mine alone.

"I've been affected by Bella's ability, too, don't forget. I will always care for her, fight to protect her. I will also probably always have fantasies about making love to her under the olive trees. But the heart has many chambers, my dear. I love Kelly as much as any creature can love another. My affections for Bella will never supersede that."

I thought about what he said. Felix had not been affected to the same degree as Jasper had, or maybe he had but Jasper's natural love for her had a cumulative effect. Who knows? Regardless, Jasper's feelings for Bella were much stronger than Felix's. "What if it is possible that perhaps in time Jasper could come to love me to the same degree that he loves Bella? Even if he could, would it be enough?"

"Isn't he worth the risk to find out?" Felix asked quietly, wrapping his arms around my shoulders and resting his chin on my shoulder in a tight hug. I didn't even hesitate before nodding my head. I swiveled on my heel to face Felix and give him a proper hug.

"Thank you, my old friend." I kissed his cheek and looked once more in the mirror, this time actually paying attention to my appearance before heading down the stairs. Jasper had said to dress casually, so I had pulled my hair into a ponytail and dressed in a Brad Paisley t-shirt and blue jeans with black ankle boots. With a deep breath, I headed downstairs to meet Jasper in the living room, thankful that his abilities didn't work on me. My indecision and nervousness would hurt his feelings, and I didn't want that. I just wanted to try and have a good time tonight, forget the rest.

Jasper's smile lit the room when I walked down the stairs. He kissed me on the cheek and told me I looked beautiful, then he took me by the hand and we hopped on the bike and were gone in a flash.

Jasper took me to a family fun center, where we played miniature golf, went go-karting, climbed the rock wall and hit baseballs in the batting cages. We had a blast, just laughing and talking and fooling around like teenagers. From there, he took me to a carnival. He won me a giant stuffed Scooby Doo doll. When I told him I didn't know who Scooby Doo was, he insisted on setting aside the entire day next Saturday to watch DVDs of cartoons. We got on the Ferris wheel and were sitting at the top waiting for the people below to disembark to allow the next people in line to get on when the fireworks started. Jasper took my hand and I turned to face him. He looked down at my lips, then back up to my eyes again in a silent question.

I hesitated, but desire took over common sense, and I closed my eyes and leant forward. It was a soft kiss, chaste and sweet, but full of promise. He pulled back too quickly and I was almost afraid to open my eyes and see his expression.

"Heidi?" Jasper asked, his nervousness apparent in his voice, which did nothing to calm my own nerves. I was certain he was going to tell me there was no spark there, or all he could think about was Bella, that he was sorry but could we still be friends. Deciding I couldn't avoid the inevitable any longer, I opened my eyes. Jasper was smiling at me, the reflection of the fireworks dancing in his eyes and on his face.

"I know you're afraid to open your heart to me, and to be honest with you, I'm afraid, too. I don't want to hurt you, and I don't want to be hurt anymore. Your friendship has healed me in so many ways, and even though I still feel broken, I can smile again because of you. I don't want to ruin what we have, so I have tried to ignore it, but I can't deny my feelings for you any longer. I care for you very much, and I want to ask you to give me an opportunity to be the one to make you happy. You have a million valid reasons to tell me no, and I'll understand if you do, but I have to ask. Can you see us together? Is there any possible way that you would be willing to give us a chance?"

One look in his eyes and there was no choice for me. Jasper was worth the risk.

Alice's POV

Rosalie, Adrian and I were sitting on the edge of a cliff overlooking the ocean. I looked forward to these brief moments of lucidity right after Adrian fed. I had no idea that taking care of a newborn would be so exhausting. The sky was a darkening shade of grey, but it only lent to the peace and serenity of the moment. Everyone else would be arriving back at the castle shortly. Well, not everyone. I couldn't disagree with the Volturi's reasoning. Certain covens would jump at the chance to use us as an excuse to increase their numbers, but it still saddened me nonetheless.

"Alice, can I ask you something?" Rosalie surprised me with the soft tone of her voice. I turned to her and nodded my head.

"You knew more than you were telling everyone about this, didn't you?" Adrian raised his eyebrow at me, already knowing the answer to that question, but wanting to know what I would say nonetheless. My mind wandered off for a moment…back to Canada.

~Flashback~

I thought we were making progress. It was stupid, I know, but I thought if I was losing him because of sex, maybe I could get him back the same way. We were both enjoying the effort, at least we were until I bit him. I don't know what came over me, I knew better. Sure enough, it sent Jasper over the edge into what I could only describe as a reaction to post-traumatic stress. Not knowing what else to do, I decided to abide his wishes and leave him alone for a while. I'd intended to hunt, but instead found myself crippled with visions, one on top of another, that literally brought me to my knees.

Jasper calling Bella and telling her his life story.

Bella calling my phone to ask me about that damned vibrator I bought her, but Jasper answered the phone, ending in phone sex and Jasper singing her "To Make You Feel My Love" over the phone.

Bella and Jasper sitting on the floor in her room, her comforting him.

Then the visions got fuzzy, less sure. There were dark spots I couldn't understand where everything seemed to disappear. But it all seemed to point in the same direction. I lose Jasper to Bella. Jasper changes Bella. Edward walking through a field that was not their meadow, hand in hand with Bella, now a vampire.

I tried and tried to make sense of them, to make any decision I could to change them, but nothing worked. I leaned against a fallen log and thought about everything that had happened. Maybe if I hadn't sent Jasper to Bella that night, maybe if I had just stayed out of it, things would have been different. It was something I would think back on time and again for months to come. With a heavy heart, I went back to the cabin to find Jasper in the same spot. I held him and we cried together, neither of us finding any real comfort or closure from it. And then he was gone.

~End Flashback~

"The other visions fell into place along the way as decisions were made," I told her.

"So you knew all along that Edward and Bella would end up back together?" Rose asked.

"Not at first. I only knew that they were holding hands. It could have meant anything. It started looking in his favor after the night we went dancing at the club, but it wasn't until after Bella moved into Edward's house and they made the decision to read the journal together that I realized that it was inevitable, and had been all along. I guess it's true what they say. You can't fight Fate."

"You should know by now," Adrian chided Rosalie playfully. "Whatever happens, Alice saw it coming."

Bella's POV

I was pleasantly surprised at how little angst there had been over my becoming a vampire. I had thought Edward would be upset that I was changed, despite his earlier assurances, and I definitely thought the fact that Jasper's venom now ran through my veins would devastate him. Surprisingly, though, he handled it all in stride. I supposed that was because despite everything, we were together and more in love than ever before. Or it could have been because we suddenly had more important things on our minds.

Edward was staring out the window looking over the countryside. Most of the time he is blissfully happy, but sometimes worry overtakes his features and it makes me sad because I know it's my fault. It always has been. And now, thanks to my ability, it always will be.

I wrapped my arms around Edward, telling him once again how much I loved him, before leading him outside to take a walk. We went to our new special place, a field much like our meadow in the states, only this one was constantly filled with the wonderful aroma of Scottish heather. We laid down in the soft grass, hand in hand, and looked up to watch the clouds.

"Look!" I pointed towards the sky. The puffy, white clouds had formed shapes closely resembling 'B + E'. I thought I was just imagining it, but Edward saw it, too.

"A sign from The Fates?" he mused.

"Definitely," I replied. I paused for a moment before speaking again. "You were thinking about my power again back there, weren't you?" I asked hesitantly. I didn't want to disturb our peaceful moment, but we needed to work this out.

"I just worry for you, love," he sighed, pulling me on top of him. "There is a thin line between a blessing and a curse."

"Carlisle is working hard at coming up with a solution. Adrian hasn't fallen madly in love with me, despite being around me 24/7. He's still the same best friend he's always been. And no one in the village has suddenly dropped down to kiss my feet. That's got to at least show that I'm not constantly blasting every male around me with Love Potion No. 9, right? You can't worry about it so much. Worst case, if we can't figure out how it works, then I guess I'll just have to stay here with you for all eternity. I'm sure we can find something to pass the time." I pressed my hips into his to give him a clear idea what was on my mind.

Edward groaned in pleasure, sliding his hands down to cup my ass and thrusting his hips up to me in reply before capturing my lips in a searing kiss. Our lovemaking had taken leaps and bounds since my change. No longer hesitant, no longer careful, we could just…be. As much as I enjoyed sex as a human, and I definitely did, it was nothing compared to the all encompassing sensations of sex as a vampire. I don't think a day had gone by since our arrival in Scotland that Edward and I hadn't been overcome with desire for one another. Most of the time, we ended up here, out of earshot of Ally and Adrian.

Edward's hands slid under my blouse, caressing my stomach with his fingertips as his hand ventured north to palm my breasts in his hands. I pulled my shirt and bra off to give him better access and he launched himself at my cleavage.

"I'll never get tired of these," he teased before sucking a nipple into his mouth and biting it gently, making my back arch off the ground. He slid a hand under me to hold me there as he swirled his tongue around and over my nipple, flicking it back and forth in his mouth before kissing and licking his way to shower the same attention on the other one. I couldn't help but snicker at his obsession with my breasts, and with biting. Now that he could do it without worrying about his teeth, nibbling was his new favorite thing to do.

I decided to play a bit and use my newborn strength to my advantage while I still could. It was starting to wane in the past couple of months, and I was certain it would be gone for good soon. I flipped Edward over with a loud thud. I ripped his clothes forcefully from his body and straddled his knees, holding him down by the wrists as I lowered my mouth to his prominent erection. Ever since my change, going down on Edward has been one of my new favorite things to do. The way he responds to every lick of my tongue as I pleasure him is probably the most erotic thing I've ever seen.

"Mmmm….baby…just like that…yeah…ugh…don't stop, baby, please…" Edward moaned, ripping his hands from my grasp to bury his fingers in my hair as he gave over to the sensations and began thrusting upwards into my mouth. I used my now-free hands to add a little extra friction, sending him quickly over the edge. "Oh…Bella…fuck!" he screamed, panting and fisting my hair as he came. I loved it when I was able to make him curse.

I crawled back up his body and kissed him. He bit my lower lip tenderly and flipped us over again, sliding into me with a passion and a fervor I would never tire of. I wrapped my arms and legs around him as he made love to me, kissing and caressing me as he quickened his pace.

When we finally exploded from the pleasure we were giving one another, Edward fell atop me, spent, resting his head on my chest and drawing invisible lines slowly up and down my sides. I played with his hair and watched the sun burst to life as the last of the puffy clouds passed it by.

I thought for a moment about the strange, twisted road my life has taken so far, wondering what people would think if they knew the whole story. I knew what half of them would think. Homewrecker. Heartbreaker. Tramp. The polite ones would say I was immature or indecisive. The other half would think I was one lucky girl, to be able to have the undying love and devotion of two wonderful, practically perfect, sexy men. And in many ways, they would all be right. And they would all be wrong. I've made mistakes, just like everyone else, but I have come to realize that I don't regret any of them. I regret the hurt that they've caused, of course, but each mistake led me to where I am right now, and there's nowhere else I'd rather be. Each error gave me a wonderful memory, a priceless gift, an opportunity, an experience. Each one was a lesson learned.

A/N: Now that this story is officially complete, I would love to hear the thoughts from each and every one of you, my wonderful readers, who make all the hours put into this worthwhile. If you haven't added me to your author alert, or added ALIF to your favorite stories list, please do. I know that checking out other people's favorites lists is often how I find good stories to read. Much love once again, and always, to my beta readingtime. I love you Whole Bunches! Outtakes and FAQs will be up soon. ~Lillie