Disclaimer: I do not own Glee nor anything to do with it. I just like to play with the storyline.
"What do you want Berry?" His voice was flat. No emotion to it. This is worse than I thought.
"I-I'm so sorry Noah! I didn't know you had developed feelings for me. I thought what we had going on was just a 'friends with benefits' type thing, no emotions. I did what you asked of me!" she yelled at him, tears forming in her eyes. She hated that she hurt him, he was her best friend. She couldn't lose him.
"Look babe, just- just give me a few days. I can't deal with this shit right now. I know what I said, but seeing that… it hurts. I need some time. When I'm ready I'll come find you. Promise," he gave her a sad smile before turning away, knowing she would let herself out.
Rachel wandered around the block until she felt like she should go back home. It was going to be empty there, lonely. She thought about calling Santana to come over, but thought better of the idea. For once in her life, she didn't have a plan.
Even when she had decided to completely redo her look she had a plan. A power point presentation added to that, various outlines and notes. Of course, none of these plans had involved the look she is currently sporting. This was all before her trip over the summer to New York. Before she had met the people she did there.
It was the end of June, just after her Junior year in high school. Her fathers had told her they were going to be gone a month from Lima on a cruise, and asked if she had anywhere she would like to spend her time. It would be totally paid for by them, and money added to her account as needed. Of course she jumped at the chance to go to New York City again!
"Dad, Daddy, I have decided where it is I would like to spend my month while you are away. As you know, I will be leaving for the City after my senior year. I would like to take this time to explore the area and learn more about where I will be spending my time. Although I already know so much about new York, there are still many things I will need to learn! I would like to take this as a learning opportunity and also to find myself before I graduate high school. And this seems like the perfect chance! I have a power point to show you the things I will be doing, shows I will be attending as I have already downloaded a full schedule, and other various activities. If-" Hiram cut her off with a chuckle.
"Darling, we understand. And, we trust you. You have never let us believe otherwise! Of course we figured you would like to go to New York! We have already set up your flight and hotel itinerary. It is in your email. We want you to take this time to have fun, sweetheart. Act like a teenager! You deserve it. This is your time, have fun with it." He got up from his place on the sofa that Rachel had made him and LeRoy sit at while she went into her speech mode, and crossed over to her and hugged her tight. "We love you baby girl, and please, enjoy yourself." LeRoy joined in on the hug after Rachel had squealed in delight of the news.
"Oh daddies! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I have to go tell Finn! And Kurt! He will want to hear about this!" She hugged her daddies again, and with a kiss to each of their cheeks, ran up to her room to share her news.
Rachel shook her head, bringing herself back to reality. The phone call to Finn hadn't gone as planned. He got upset with her, called her selfish and whined about them not being able to spend their summer together. She had ended up hanging up on him then ignoring his calls and various text messages, him asking why she won't talk to him. So fucking clueless.
After wandering around for a few hours, lost in her musings, she had decided to head home. It was already after midnight and she still had many things that had to be done for tomorrow.
Sam was in his room at his house, lost in thought about Rachel. He wanted to ask her on a date, but this new version of her frankly scared him. No, not scared. Intimidated is more of a fitting word. How can you ask a girl, no woman, out that had matured from a high school girl that wore old grandma clothes and acted like an immature child to a woman that now exuded independence and demanded respect?
When he had first seen her his first day of school the year before, he had developed his crush. Then Quinn came along. She required his full attention and after a few weeks he put his feelings for the small brunette diva on hold. Then Finn happened. He had to watch Rachel fawn over Hudson every minute, cling to his every word. It tore him up, but he hid it. But then around Valentine's day, he thought he would have his chance. Quinn cheating on him with Hudson made him realize that everything he heard about the Ice Queen was right. She thought of nobody but herself and her popularity. He thought he could be there, comfort Rachel but it was too soon.
Over the summer he had gotten a job and stayed busy, only really keeping in touch with Puck. He had been informed that Rachel had gone on a month long vacation to New York City by herself while her fathers were gone, and was saddened he wouldn't be able to see her.
The, the first day of senior year. He walks into school and immediately hears talk of this new chick. She has colorful hair, piercings and tattoos everywhere, a body that could kill and legs for days. Of course he, being a horny teenage boy, wanted to find out who this girl was. To his utter shock and excitement, it was Rachel Berry. Never in his life had he seen somebody that screamed "Look at me wrong and I will fucking cut your fingers off slowly with a grin on my face," attitude. He ended up witnessing the scene with Hudson getting shot down and couldn't have been more excited. FINALLY! She sees him for the moron that he is!
His thoughts were cut short by the opening of his door and his little brother and sister coming into his room and climbing onto his bed with him. He pulled one of them to each side and let them cuddle in. He hadn't realized how late it was, and decided he himself needed to sleep. It had been a very eventful day for him.
His last thought before falling asleep was hell yeah, I made out with Rachel Berry tonight! And a big grin on his face.
The next day at school, Rachel decided to go to her Spanish class for once. Big. Mistake.
Immediately she was hounded by Schue.
"Rachel! Please, you need to come back to Glee club! We need you! After Puck called everybody out on their misdoings to you, we all understood. Well, most of us. We do all agree that we would like you back though, please give it a thought?" he asked her so hopeful.
She thought it over and decided she would give them one last shot.
"Fine Schue. One shot, I have something I'll sing today. Any of those losers in there fuck with me or you, I'm out of there. Don't even bother trying to get me back into that club after that, got it?" she all but hissed out. He nodded his head eagerly, ignoring her crude language.
"Of course Rachel! We can't wait to see what you have for us! Now class is starting, please take your seat," he walked to the front and began his lesson.
Rachel walked into the choir room at the end of the day. She had texted Santana to make sure the Cheerio was going to be there, and got an immediate response.
Satan: Whatever B, if u want me 2 b
Berry: Why else would I ask, Satan.
She saw Santana as soon as she walked in and took the seat on her left. Brittany was on Santana's right and eagerly waved at Rachel, who returned the gesture.
Everybody else filed in after that slowly. She saw Noah sitting in the back, as far away from her as he could be. That saddened her but she didn't show it. She did not see Sam in the room though. As she started to turn to talk to Santana, the hairs on her neck stood up so to speak. Rachel turned just in time to see the troll Hudson sit next to her with a dopey smile on his face. How did I ever find that adorable? He looks like he is trying to shit and can't get it out.
"Get the fuck away from me Hudson! That seat is reserved. If you want your dick to stay between your legs, you will remove your person from my general area," she growled out.
From the other side of her, she could hear chuckling and cracked a small grin in Santana and Brittany's direction.
Then, troll face ruined her mood more.
"But Rachel, you always want me to sit next to you. Besides, I heard you're singing for us today. What is it gonna be?" he missed her eye roll.
She ignored him and turned to Brittany. "Hey Britt, can we change seats? I hear some buzzing and clicks next to me and would like to get away from the sound," she smiled warmly at the blond.
"Sure Rachie! But I only heard Finn talking. I don't hear those noises," the blond stated while changing her seat. Santana leaned over and said she would explain it after Glee, and the blond seemed to accept that answer.
A few seconds later Sam and Mr. Schue walked in, Sam grabbing the only empty seat, which was next to Rachel. He sent her a small grin and then listened to Schue talk.
"Okay guys, Rachel is back with us! She has something prepared and we are all going to be supportive of her being here!" He told the kids enthusiastically. Mercedes rolled her eyes along with Sugar, who had since joined the group in Rachel's absence. "Okay Rachel, floor is all yours!"
Rachel got up slowly from her seat and walked over to the band sitting in the corner to whisper her song to them. They all nodded and awaited her for her signal to start.
"Okay, so I did have something else but I just decided on this song now. This song is to somebody who can't get it through their fucking head that I don't want to be near them." She nodded at the band and started in a soft raspy voice.
"Trying to pick up the pace
Trying to make it so I never see your face again
Trying to throw this away
Want to make sure that you never waste my time again
How does it feel?
Oh how does it feel to be you right now, dear?
You brought this upon
So pick up your pace and go away from here
Please just let me go now
Please just let me go
Would you please just let me go now?
Please just let me go
I'm going to get you
I'm going to get you
I'm going to get you out of my head - get out
I'm going to get you
I'm going to get you
I've gotta get you out of my head - get out"
Rachel looked up at Finn, her face angry. She shook her head at the dopey look still on his face, his ignorance astounding her.
"Never said we'd be friends
Trying to keep myself away from you
'Cause you're bad, bad news
With you gone, I'm alive
Makes me feel like I took happy pills
And time stands still
How does it feel?
Oh how does it feel to be the one shut out?
You broke all the rules
I won't be a fool for you no more my dear
Please just let me go now
Please just let me go
Would you please just let me go now?
Please just let me go
I'm going to get you
I'm going to get you
I'm going to get you out of my head - get out
I'm going to get you
I'm going to get you
I've gotta get you out of my head - get out"
She finished the song and took a deep breath before looking up.
"Troll face, if you didn't understand, that was for you. Leave me the fuck alone, I do not want you. If you come near me again I will ends you."
She walked out the door, not even bothering to wait to hear what the others had to say.
A/N:
Song- Happy Pills; Norah Jones.
It's my favorite song and seemed appropriate for this. I have written down many ideas for this story and am excited to write them. This chapter is longer than the previous ones because I had a lot more I wanted to add to it. The next ones may be this long, or shorter/longer depending on my mood.
Hope you enjoy this. Sorry if it does seem rushed and things messed up.
I love all of your responses so far to this story. Thank you!