Lately I've been writing a lot of chapters about Tigerstar…
INSIDE MY HEART
Hello, Goldenflower. It's nice to see you again.
What was that? I promise, this will only take a few moments.
The first time I saw you, I knew I loved you.
Your golden pelt and your soft, green eyes just made my heart melt…
I really wasn't using you; I swear…I really loved you.
I still do, don't worry. Hm? Oh…you don't. Well…that's okay.
Sasha has nothing to do with this, okay? We're talking about you and me. Not her. Yes, I still love her, but I loved you first. I don't care if she was a kittypet! I loved her. But not as much as you.
I'm not evil, really. I'm just ambitious. Everyone has dreams. Mine were just…big. Bigger than most cats'. And I wanted mine. I would do anything to make those dreams come true. Even kill.
At least you didn't die because of me. Yes, I know, Tawnypelt left the Clan because of me. That was her choice! And she's turned out fine. I like that little Tigerkit of hers. He reminds me of myself, when I was a kit. Dreaming, aspiring…
Bluestar did not make a mistake appointing me as deputy. I wanted what I wanted, and I got it! But look where I am now. You hate me? Well, that's just mice and moonlight now.
ShadowClan was weak, you know. I was helping them. When I was a kit, they helped me! They saved me from a fox! Don't you remember that? Good. And I promised them that I would help them, and I did! I may kill, but I don't break promises. What was that? I never made that promise to you! Even if I did, I still love you, so I didn't break it.
I know you want me to just leave you alone, but I need to tell you something.
No matter how many cats I kill; no matter how much I love Sasha; no matter how much I wanted to live up to my dreams, I will always love you, and you'll always have a place inside my heart.
Cheesy! And extremely short. Sorry!
xx-Starfall-xx