I'm 1/4th of the way there! :D

REJECTED

Am I being forgotten?

I mean, I do love Spiderleg. I really do. But…what about Cloudtail? He just left me, and now I'm stuck with my second choice. The magpie instead of the juicy rabbit. I thought Cloudtail loved me.

I still love Smoky, too. I remember the days when we'd lay out in front of the horseplace and listen to the wind rustling the leaves and our kits laughing inside. It just filled my heart's content.

Then I met Cloudtail, and I thought I'd never meet a gentler, sweeter cat. The way he gazed at me with those clear-blue eyes just made my heart melt. He was always so patient with me when teaching me how to defend myself, and I used to look forward to every single day I'd spend with him.

How could he fall in love with Brightheart? She's caring and loving, but…her face, is…I know, I know. Looks aren't the only things that matter. But still…

If only Brightheart had accepted Cloudtail's love for me. Then Cloudtail and I would be together, right this very heartbeat, purring under the sun and entwining our tails, just like I dreamed about.

Now don't get me wrong-Spiderleg is sweet, too. But he's not affectionate. He's proud and likes to play with the kits, not to cuddle up with me underneath the light of the moon and count the stars. Smoky didn't like to do that much either. He liked to sleep beside me, not cuddle. Cloudtail is different in both those ways. When I did not know that Brightheart was his mate, we used to go to the lake and lay beside it, watching the watery reflection of the moon ripple, and the stars dance up above.

Now I'm watching Whitewing grow up into a beautiful, caring she-cat, and soon have kits of her own with Birchfall. Possibly. Now I wonder what it would've been like for Cloudtail and I to have kits. Would we have only had one, or four? I can't say. But I wish I could know. I wish it were reality, and not just some fantasy.

Cloudtail…I know he loves Brightheart, and I know he loves me. Well, at least I hope he does. But…I feel…I don't know…rejected.

Woah…super duper short! Sorry about that! I was starting to ramble, and get boring, just like I do when I get writers' block. I just woke up this morning, and nothing but totally boring and random things spilled out of me when I typed this. Sorry!

xx-Starfall-xx