Blue Kitsune: Well here's my next update for this story and everyone will be in for a surprise when they see or read what's in store for Sirius and Keller. Read and review. Lemon warning!

Chapter XXIV

Autumn past by so quickly, the dueling club was a mind-blowing smash and Keller seem to have put a distant between herself and the boys, Sirius mostly for a time just like back in September.

It wasn't because she was busying making another serum as Remus and Hermione were handling it fine at the shack while Keller spends it alone outside or in the room of requirement, not wanting to crowd in their 'nightly shacking' together, just ponder under the stars and tried to think it through after what Hermione told her before.

Winter was settling itself and the castle was decorated with frills and Christmas trees and all sorts of holiday decoration. Lily had invited the girls to spend the break at her home with the Evans.

"Mom and dad would love you guys to come! I send them an owl and they said it would be all right with them if you both came, since well, I'm sure you two don't want to spend it here alone. It will be nice to have some friends over for a change, please…" She said doing everything in her power, from puppy eyes to Merlin or Elder knows until finally they finally agreed. Not like they would refuse anyways.

"Great!" And went to go post an owl to her folks, saying she had invited two friends for Christmas and New Years. Hermione and Keller were packing their things in their trunks to get ready before heading down to the station.

Keller stop when she found herslf holding a moving photo, she didn't know who took it but had to guess one of the marauders or someone wanting to take a picture of her ass, of her and Sirius, dancing at the Halloween ball, her silver dress, sparkling and swishing as he dance and dipped her one time like a perfect gentleman.

A perfect gentleman who was a fiend in disguise and she had fell for it foolishly handed. What had Shakespeare once wrote for Juliet when she had learn about what her husband-lover, Romeo did as he killed her cousin Tybalt?

Just opposite to what thou justly seem'st! A damned saint…an honourable villain! And a load of other stuff and saw that Juliet had seem to find herself dissing him and her cousin would've killed him if he hadn't.

Juliet was able to forgive him and she wondered if she should forgive Sirius herself but after the whole thing she couldn't find it in her heart to talk to him when she learned the truth.

He had been the one who almost got Snape killed and brought Remus out to the forest where she and Hermione were that night.

But if Remus hadn't of come out, then he and Hermione wouldn't have gotten together, they would have never known their secret. Was it a good or bad thing that he did then?

She looked over at her cousin, watching as she was hummed to herself, her pendant dangling out while she stuff her clothes in and gather the rest of her belongings to pack in the trunk.

Keller's pendant was still around her neck and she tuck it under her blouse and pick up the last remaining article of clothing and stuffed it in her trunk, finished packing. They took their wands and did a quick search; nothing of theirs was missing and carried them downstairs where the rest of the people were getting ready to head to the entrance for the station.

Sirius looked over at Keller who was coming down with them but she didn't bat an eye to him. His heart felt broken when he saw that she hadn't come to forgiven him for what had been said.

It had been his fault, his stupid jealousy that cost him the one girl he fell for. It had taken a while with Remus until eventually the werewolf said, 'what's done is done' and had been on fine speaking terms until they were eventually friends once more, almost forgetting the scenario had happened. But not Keller, she didn't forget it or tend to.

He wanted to hear Keller speak to him again, to yell or say something that would make her look in his direction. What he would give the world to have her forgive him.

They headed to the carriages, the girls taking one while the boys took the other as they made it to the Hogwarts express and took empty compartments across from them.

They talked for a bit, seeing how Christmas was going to be celebrated at the Potters and Remus, Lily, Hermione and Keller were invited and going to come over. Sirius perked a little at the mention of Keller coming but that wasn't enough to lift his spirits.

As the ride took almost half an hour while he slept in and out and looking to Remus and James, he thought how he could have possible avoided all of this, if Snape had kept his mouth shut and his anger hadn't lost it.

He picked up a book Remus lend him and saw the title Romeo and Juliet, knowing the story after reading it twice in three days, knowing the plot and story by memory and recalling the quote Keller had said.

He sighed looking at the book in his hand. At least they died together in the end. Feeling less in the mood, he decided to just sleep for the remainder of the ride.

Remus woke him as they were at the station and got off, taking their trunks with them and meeting their parents.

Sirius watched with envy as James and Remus kissed their girlfriends goodbye as they headed over to the Evans family where Mr. And Mrs. Evans were waiting for their daughter and she introduced them to her friends.

Keller almost looked back and for a moment hope she would look directly at him but didn't as she and her cousin walked straight to them. Sirius thought his Christmas vacation was going to be the worst ever.

It was the probably almost the worst vacation Keller ever had as she and Hermione with Lily and the Evans arrived at their house in a small neighborhood. The Evans asked them about themselves and how they were faring in school, being transferred students and all and what their old one was like. Mrs. Evans was always calling them 'Sonya' or 'Kelly', which she tried to explain many time that her name wasn't 'Kelly', that it was 'Keller' rhyming with 'Killer'.

"But that name doesn't seem to suited you dear. You don't seem like the kind of girl…" She said and Keller had to keep from retorting, 'Wanna bet?' and tried to get through their conversation before Lily took them to her room upstairs. A dirty blonde haired girl with a horse-like face and a neck that seems long and scrawny on her stared at them appalled and not too happy.

Hmm, horse-like face, neck that's too long and thin and looks at us like we something not from this world, yep this had to be the one person that Harry would have to grow up with, his future aunt Petunia, the magic-hating muggle. Hermione was confirmed this as the girl pulled back her lips and clenched her teeth as if ready to spew something at them.

"Are these your friends from that school?" She said, disgust plainly written on her face. Lily paid her no attention as she introduced them to her sister, Petunia.

"I don't want anything to do with your freakish friends from your crackpot school, especially like you, you FREAK!" She said in Lily's face and stormed right past them, pushing Hermione and Keller aside.

Keller peeve off as it is for her to hear this no good bitch dare call her own sibling that word, that insult. She didn't follow with Lily and Hermione before she went to find that no good brat. It was time for a little tongue-lashing at this girl. She grabbed her wrist and turn her around.

"HEY!" She tried to struggle out of her grip but she pulled her close to whisper angrily in her ear for only her to hear while she kept her in a vise grip.

"How dare you call your own sister that, have you even looked at yourself in the mirror, you're no prize yourself you horse-face slut. And if I ever hear you say that to Lily or anyone we know I'll tell your parents what you have been doing during after school when they think you're studying when you're really with that Mitchell kid and hoarding weed under your bedroom floor! Do you get what I'm saying or does it get through those annoying large ears you have?"

Petunia's eyes narrow and before had a chance to say something rude or stupid, looked into Keller's and saw the hazel turn jet-black glaring at her and pulling back her lips and revealing her sharp fangs.

"Perhaps I shall say it in a way you muggle can understand with that simple one-minded way of yours: Say one more word, one more about your sister ever again and it will be the last thing you'll ever say. And I always, always keep my promises. Now do we get it? Nod your head if we do get the bigger picture?"

She nodded quickly and Keller let go and she moved away, nearly toppling backwards and ran down the stairs as if the hounds of hell were after her. Keller smiled watching as she stumbled on the last step before looking up at her and then racing for somewhere other than where she was. She then changed her form again to normal and followed after the others who were waiting by the door.

"Sorry had a little chat with your sister and I don't think she'll be bothering us for a while." Lily looked at her, wondering what she just said but then forgot it as they went to her room.

"This is my room, my dad fixed a guest room for both of you but I thought you might like to spend some time here away from my sister..." The room was painted in a red-violet color with posters of rock bands that was in or whatever seem artistic and cool were about along with a few stuff animals. Hermione noticed there was a stag sitting on her bed holding a heart with the words 'I love you'.

"That was given to me by James last year, I told him that I threw it out but I thought how cute and adorable it was and well…" Lily blushed and Hermione could really tell she really had liked James a lot even to go past that grudge she had. They sat on the floor and talked for a bit. Keller made a comment of Petunia, which seem to catch both of their attention.

"You know I'm surprise to see you two are even relate with the way she acted."

And she called her a freak, that's almost as bad as being called a mudblood by those stupid Slutherin. She would fit right in I bet if she wasn't a muggle bitch.

Hermione had to agree with her for one as she remembered everything Harry told him about his aunt and how she hated everything about magic and not just because her sister was a witch, which didn't seem normal. Lily nodded, sad to say it was true.

"Yeah sometimes people think so too with the way she keeps her distant from me as if I might passed my 'freakish' on her or whatever. Sorry if she called you guys that, but that's the way she kind of sees it with people are like us or me when I first got my letter from Hogwarts. It wasn't like that before, she used to be well, I wouldn't say a lot nicer but at least we got along fine without biting each others head off if you get my drift."

Hermione nodded and decided to change subject while Keller growing bored and saw a stack of records and went towards them. Her dad had a similar set like this before and she had listen to a lot of his old album. Lily she saw owned quite an impressive collection and picked one of them that she recognized that use to be her dad's and hers all time old favorites. Lily joined her side and saw the record she was holding.

"Who's Next by the Whos nice choice. Want to listen to it then?" Hermione and Keller nodded as she placed the record on, picked up the needle and set it down to spin.

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I had
To find you I'd suffer anything and be glad

Keller listened, the song sounded so sad and seem to be singing about a guy suffering to lose the one he loved and give anything to have them back.


I'd pay any price just to get you
I'd work all my life and I will
To win you I'd stand naked, stoned and stabbed

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

Had Sirius really done what he did out of jealousy, because she and Snape had gotten too close as potion partners. Well it wasn't like she had fallen in love for him, right? Right?

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch you I'm gonna run and never stop

I'd pay any price just to win you
Surrender my good life for bad
To find you I'm gonna drown an unsung man

I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

Sirius was listening to one of the records he had been rummaging in Mr. Potter's collection, found the Who's and listen to the song that just made him feel his own misery grew worse as he laid on his bed.

I sit looking 'round
I look at my face in the mirror
I know I'm worth nothing without you
And like one and one don't make two
One and one make one
And I'm looking for that free ride to me
I'm looking for you

He sat in his room, the one he spend a year and over holidays before when he didn't want to visit his damned family and soon became his own after. A butterbeer laid next to his nightstand as he took a chugged of it and felt himself choking as he listen on to the next verse.

I'd gladly lose me to find you
I'd gladly give up all I got
To catch you I'm gonna run and never stop

I'd pay any price just to win you
Surrender my good life for bad
To find you I'm gonna drown an unsung man

Merlin, he wish that he could go back and change what he did, but it was too late. The butterbeer became empty and he let it drop as he flop to his bed, pushing his face to his pillow, allowing his tears to fall without trying to stop them. He then went to his pocket and pulled out the silver mask that had dropped on the ground in October, still red with the tears she had cried.

"Keller I'm so sorry, I really wish I could take back everything because…Merlin I think I'm in love with you."


I'd call that a bargain
The best I ever had
The best I ever had

Keller lay in the guest room, tossing and turning in her bed, not able to fall asleep. It had been four days since she and Hermione had arrive at Lily's house and been staying in the guest rooms that the Evans had been kind to lend them for their stay.

The parents were nice and Petunia was going all her ways to avoiding her after her little 'chat' and when she caught sight of her coming in, she made an immediate exit to escape from Keller. One day over breakfast, Lily suggested to go shopping for Christmas.

"I think we should go today and tomorrow and get something for them at least." Hermione agreed and Keller reluctant as she said ok in the end. Lily's mom let them borrow her car as they grabbed their coats hanging from the coat rack by the door.

"Don't try to scratch it or anything honey!" She joked as they waved goodbye to her and got in the small compatible car and Lily drove first to the safe, seclude parking lot, lock it and made their way to Diagon Alley.

The girls then split as they went to see what they'd get for the boys, depending on what they liked most. By the time it was the late afternoon, they had two bag loads in each arm.

Lily got for James, a book called The Noble Sport of Warlocks by Quintius Umfraville and Broomstick servicing kit for his broom. Hermione almost recalled the name of the author until she remembers that he was the source for Whisp's Quidditch Through the Ages.

For Sirius, she got him a set of Gobstones and Remus a wizards chess set and 'An Advanced book for the Advance' for Hermione and Keller an album book to put any unmoving pictures in to make them instantly move along with others as she had found out from Hermione she only had normal pictures.

Hermione found a good load of Chocolate frogs for Remus, knowing chocolate was the best gift he liked next to the other special 'gift' she would give him later when they were alone and a new set of quills with bits of gold and initials 'R. J. L'.

An Exploding Snap cards deck for James and Self-Shuffling Playing Cards for Sirius with some practical joke stuff from Gambols & Japes jokeshop.

Lily, a 'Book on Healing for Healers' and Keller, which she found hard until she saw an album collection and a band called 'Werewolf from the Alleys', Ralph Razor record, one of his famous song, Lil' Red Riding Hood.

She wasn't sure if Keller would like it but it was the thought that count and the band were suppose to be good from this time before they broke up unexpected with a 'furry' problem.

Keller got Remus a book on legends, myths and stories of whether untrue or true of the Creatures and Mortal realm.

James, a sweater with a moving golden snitch that flew all over it, Hermione a enchanted sewing kit as she found out her cousin like to knit and thought maybe sewing would be good for her and Lily an enchanted herbology kit with lilies seed that would grow and change into different colors depending on the mood of the person. Mood lilies they were called.

She had everyone but Sirius that she had a hard time on finding him a gift. She was at first not going to get him anything but it was the holidays after all. She looked around, seeing nothing that appealed to her interest or saw what Sirius would like and then saw a shop that caught her eye.

"Sarafina's Enchanted Jewels." She hadn't looked there yet and went inside to browse. A lot of jewelry was display out in the cabinets: rings, bracelets, ankles, and all kinds as she looked at each and every one of them, fascinated but still trying to find something that Sirius might wear.

She was looking at an assortment of rings when she heard a merry voice, "Well fancy seeing you here Ms. Corvin."

Keller turn around and was surprised to see the DADA professor here. "C— I mean Professor Valerious, hello!" Trying to cover up almost saying the professor's real name but she didn't seem to take any notice of it as the professor looked at the rings she was looking at.

"Hmm, you know in muggle traditions, the boys usually give the girls their rings to be their girlfriend or propose to them."

Keller snorted at the thought but looked down at them again, less interest then before then move onto the next cabinet where it held necklaces until she spot one ring. The ring was a signet with a blue gem, crack down like lightning in a silver color, veining around the precious stone and inside the stone looked to be a dark dog, a grim.

She saw the manager coming to her, asking if she saw anything of interest and she asked if she could look at that ring and he tap his wand over the glass, unlocking a lock protection charm and pulled out the set.

"This here is special when given to the person it's chosen and interlinks to the one who had originally given it to. There were two but I had already sold it but it should still work with some effect as the maker told me. The band of the ring was made by the elves while the dwarves mined the stone itself. Creating this ring allows the person for the purpose to be magically linked when they are given to the one they desire most."

Keller looked at it, seeing as she might want to and asked him how much. The total was 20 galleons for both but seeing as he had the only one left, half the price. She went to her pocket and pulled out ten galleons. The man asked if she would want this gift-wrap and she said no thanks.

She took the ring box, said goodbye to Valerious and went to go find the girls who were standing by Eeylops Owl Emporium, where Hermione was staring at an owl with silvery feather and amber eyes.

They went back to the house and head up to Lily's room to gift-wrap their presents but went to the privacy of their own rooms when it came to them. After they finished, Lily's mom called them down for some cookies and hot chocolate then leaving the girls to go and chat alone while Mr. Evans was setting a crackling fire for them.

Lily and Hermione were discussing all kinds of stuff about their boyfriends while Keller stood at the sideline and listen in and sip her hot chocolate, which wasn't so warm anymore after a while. Finally she decided to turn in for the night.

The next day a large tawny owl arrived in the middle of lunch, causing Petunia to shriek and leave the table in a huff while Lily gave it some ham and turkey that had been on her plate after removing the letter from its beak. It was send from James and what he wrote almost made Keller choke on her barely eaten sandwich as she saw Lily read it then handed it to Hermione and then for her to read.

Hey Lily, Sonja, Keller,

What's up? Beside the sky and how heaven shines down on Lily of course. How are things going for you? Well let me just get to the point: Things here aren't looking too well for Sirius. He hasn't been himself and hasn't come down from his room at all. All he does is lie in bed and listen to the Whos or whatever.

God if I have to listen to 'Behind Blue Eyes' one more time I think I'm going to scream.

Dad put a silence charm on our room so everyone could get some sleep but I still hear it in my head, along with him crying, no joke.

He only comes down to eat and pretends to be happy when I know he's not. Same with my folks, they try finding out but he ignores them and heads back to his room.

I hope with you girls coming over along with Remus will cheer him up.

Sign,

James.

She thought she couldn't breathe as her throat closed up as she excuse herself from the table and went to the bathroom to throw up her until she heaved dry gags then laid down, exhausted. For a while, she stared at the messy gunk she threw up and felt like that even worse.

Elder, I'm the one who's done this to him, Sirius. Sirius is hurting because of me…

She soon found herself in her room, laying in bed, pretending to rest and if anyone asked she said she had a bad stomachache and fell asleep, crying on her pillow, no one coming up except Hermione to check if she was ok every now and then.

Keller didn't know how long she had been asleep for until she saw it was night and a note sign by Hermione that she placed a transfusion of blood in her system and that she and the Evans had gone out for Christmas Eve dinner and would be back later tonight.

Christmas Eve, she slept for almost two days! She lay in her bed, staring at the ceiling, barely getting to sleep. It was the 24th, Christmas tomorrow she and the girls would head to the Potter's, have Christmas and spend a few days together with them before heading back to Hogwarts. Keller had barely brought herself to sleep as all she could think about was Sirius.

Sirius…

The dream she had moments ago had seem so real it frighten her. She was never one to express her fear but what she saw made her heart almost stop and felt she couldn't breath. The dream was in a place, the Department of Mystery. Sirius was dueling 'Bellatrix' or 'Cousin' he called spitefully.

They dueled; Sirius edging away and towards the arch with the veil that Keller knew and she tried to scream for him not to go back, to stop but it was too late. The witch threw a spell, hitting him causing him to tumble backwards and fall into the veil where he looked over to her with horror on his face. "SIRIUS!!!!!!!!!"

Keller shivered, hugging her knees to her chest and looking to the clock by her bed. It was close to ten, she guess they were home now and everyone already asleep.

She could hear them through the thin walls, Lily's and Hermione's soft snore and the Evans and Petunia's away. Keller walked towards her window and stared outside, a crescent moon smiling down at her. She remembered how her moon used to say that the moon was smiling at her as a small child and her dad joked it was a banana, one of her least favorite fruits.

She looked to her nightstand and saw the gifts she had wrap and went to pick up Sirius's. She held it in her palm and stared long and hard at it before coming to a decision. She went to the closet, looking for an outfit that she found decent and grabbed a pair of dark blue hip hugger jeans and a dark long sleeve shirt.

She held the blue sweater while she open the window, stop to hear if anyone heard the glass sliding open. She heard nothing and continue to open it and then slip right out towards the tree standing by the window then landing to the ground. What was she thinking to accomplish? She was going to go over and apologize to Sirius and that's it?

No I have to find him and tell him how sorry I am, sorry that I hurt him this way…but I needed to find him.

She didn't even know where James or the Potters lived; the only thing she recalled was the return address on the envelope that the owl had carried. She just had to find some way to find the scent and place. She allowed herself to transform, her wings snapping out and ripping her shirt in back as she took to the sky and smelling the faint scent that came from the owl before two days ago.

Come on, where did it exactly go? She flew, flapping in the dark, no one looking towards the sky as she continue to head in the direction where she smelled a neighborhood of humans and magic.

Bingo, now all she had to do was find the Potters. She flew down and change back to her normal form, her wings flat on her back and pulling a sweater over them and walked to each sign posted of the families living in which house until she came across one called the Potters.

Ok, she looked to the house, a two story Victorian place and went over, gilding slowly as she looked from window to window, careful not to wake the people inside. At the third window on her left, she saw a figure with messy hair and thought to be James and was about to go to the next when she saw the person stirring and waking up.

Shit! Gotta hide! But as she was about to dive into the tree that she was next to, she saw the messy hair pushed out of his face to reveal bloodshot eyes that still held traces of their beautiful silver-blue depth. She froze, gazing at him as she saw he too was looking at her, blinking and rubbing his eyes with one arm and looking to her again as if thinking she was another one of his imagination. Sirius tried to get up and stand, his body wobbly and slipped on one of the many butterbeer bottles lying on the floor and landed on his face.

Sirius! She moved over and tried her best to open the window without her wand.

"Alohomora," The window open and she stepped in, careful of the emptied bottle littered around the floor and going over to Sirius's side to check if he was all right. His face was covered with his hair and had to turn him over to see blood seeping from the side of his temple.

Oh Elder! She carried him to the bed and went to his bathroom and filled a basin of water and grabbing a small towel hanging to the side and making her way back to him. She conjured a chair for her to sit as she dipped the towel and wring it and clean his wound and put pressure to stop the bleeding.

Sirius, feeling something touching his forehead coolly, opened his eyes, squinting to see he wasn't imagining it as Keller stood by him. He almost thought it was her hand touching his head and how he would have told her he loved the way her skin felt cool to him but she pulled it back and dropped a towel in the basinet next to her.

"…Keller is that really you? Am I dreaming?" Or am I dead? He wondered before Keller brought her hand to his cheek.

"You not dreaming, I'm here Sirius, I'm really here." She was trying to pull back to see where he was injured but he grabbed her wrist and pressed it to his cheek still, rubbing it, she felt the stubbles that he had that he hadn't shaved for a while. She kept her hand to him, allowing him to rub it and then bring the palm to his lips and kiss it.

Elder, she shivered as she recalled the night on the Halloween Ball when he almost kissed her on the dance floor. Sirius continue to feverish kiss her palm, turning it around to kiss her knuckles, fingers everything as he looked at her with bloodshot eyes.

"Keller…" He whispered as he brought her close to him and pressed a demanding kiss on her. She responded and kiss back with a fiery action, feeling Sirius's tongue licking her lips, begging for entrance. She obliged and felt him entered her mouth, probing and exploring her wet caverns like she was water to him who had an undying thirst. She too had one as he was like fire, burning, inflaming, and melting away the ice around her heart, around her soul. God he was so warm and his skin was burning.

Burning! She pulled back, Sirius trying to grab her but she stopped him as she placed a hand to his forehead. He definitely felt warmer than usually. Staring around at all the butterbeers and guessing what it was that she had to get him up and over to the bathroom.

She grunt as she tried to lift him up, using half of her hybrid strength and remember she could do wandless magic easily.

Duh why didn't I think that! "Locomotoris Sirius." Sirius was picked up as if by invisible hands and taken to the bathroom as she open the door and went laid him above the tub and turn the water on. She took off his clothes with the exception of his boxers and as the water became a nice cool temperature, she lowered him down and held his head above the water as she bath him, using a towel to rub his hot skin.

He stirred in and out of consciousness while she cleaned him up and rid his body of his fevered state. She did her best at cleaning him with some soap and washing him out and then getting him out of the tub, making the water disappeared and drying him off with a quick drying spell where he was clean and his hair was groom to at least to a normal state as it hung long and in his face. She took him to his bed and laid him down and pulled the covers over him to his chest. She stared at his face and thought of how much misery she put him in.

"I'm sorry Sirius. I'm sorry for what I did to you. For saying things I didn't mean at all. I was angry at what you did, for what you said, putting almost the blame on me as much as you. I wanted you to know that what I said wasn't really how I feel about you. I care for you, a whole lot. So much more, you're only one of the few people I came to be…myself. Even when I was cold to you, you and your friends came and with Mione persuading on and I accept it."

She smiled and pushed away a lock of his hair from his face, temporarily touching him and letting her hand stay without pulling back.

"Do, do you remember back in divination when we held each other's hands, I saw what happened to you with your parents and I felt sorry for you. I wanted to cry as you did. I couldn't think how one's own parents could do that to their own child and hate him because he didn't want to in a house he dislikes and didn't like the idea of such notions. I'm glad you're in Gryffindor, because, this may sound silly to you but to me you're a lion, a lion that is an angel. There I said it, so you better pretend you didn't hear it from me."

She stroke his cheek while inching close to his face and gave it a small and simple kiss. Before she could pull back and leave, two arms grab her waist and pulled her with surprising strength , tossing her on the bed with Sirius on top of her.

"Sirius." She had a chance to say to say his name before he put his lips against her, silencing her. The kiss lasted a few minutes before he looked again in her eyes. "You don't know how long I wanted to do that." He brought his lips to her again, his tongue stroking and demanding for entrance and parted her lips to accept him and swirled her tongue around his, tangoing as while moaning inside his mouth.

By the Elder, she felt her blood rushing as he kissed her with such intensity that made her feel alive. Never had she felt like this and was pulsing inside the very core of her existent shaking and shivering with unforeseen lust came to her. It was just the two of them alone in his room.

She pulled back and stared at Sirius whose ardent gaze was on her and could feel the undeniable chemistry between them. She looked across the room to where the door was and if understanding her questioning gaze, he whispered in the shell of her ear, "Don't worry, the Potters had silence charms placed on every room beside mine. So we don't have to fear of anyone hearing us if that's the problem."

Her body shivered as the words crept inside her mind, allowing her to look him up and down, naked saved for his boxers she left on him earlier. Sirius pressed his body forward, touching against hers, his heat touching her cool skin. A soft moan escape her lips and she whispered in a seductive voice, "I need you Sirius…I need you so badly I don't think I can control myself much longer please I want you to..."

It sounded rash now but the words had already escaped her lips and Sirius froze, the prospect thrilled and terrified them with what he heard her say. He knew that he was going far beyond he ever gone with any girl before and the same could probably be said for Keller. But were they ready to take that sort of leap?

He stared into her soft hazel eyes and felt a strong undeniable urge inside him, going to his loins feeling it rush in his body and his length slowly sprang to life as he felt that need to be with her. He brought his hand under her shirt, slowly peeled it off, seeing more of her soft white skin like porcelain and her breasts, exquisite and round, her nipples like rose color were out in the open. His eyes devouring the site of them for a long time while she smiled mischievous.

"I couldn't exactly go flying with a bra on now could I? The clasp breaks every time my wings get out and harder to even snap them back in place so I always go without one, on most occasions…." But he wasn't listening as he slowly surveyed her body, his eyes moving up and down then looking into her eyes again.

He brought his hand to touch one and between his fingers, twisting and rubbing and Keller moaning and pushing up, her nipple growing harder as he twisted them until it was rock solid. He put his hungry mouth to the other and started to suckle it like a newborn child while continuing his menstruating on the other. His tongue tickled her and she giggled but then a loud moan took over as he bit down hard and started lapping circles.

He pulled back then switch and did the same, leaving a warm hot trail on her from his touch.

His other hand trailed down her body, feeling her well-toned abs and slim body from all that hard training she had to endure with that teacher of hers along with the faint scars he felt buried beneath even if they weren't revealed and behind her back.

I'm going to try and make her forget them. I'll try to do everything to make her forget the pain and suffering she had to go through, the tortured life she had to lead. I promise to make her forget, even for just one night.

"Sirius…" She had for almost a second, heard his thought as he pleasure her body and made the passion rise between them. She felt she should do the same for him and reach out to explore his. She went to touch his naked chest, scratching lightly the hot and irresistible flesh, feeling his strong abs, his tone stomach. So warm and tan and unmarred without any scars but still the memories of where his family hit him in the past was fresh inside her mind as she touched him, thinking of the blows to the stomach or the cut from his father's fists.

We're one in the same, we both carry scars whether others can see it or not but can feel them still inside our own memories. She felt Sirius trying to remove her pants and she helped in unzipping them for him and he tossed them away and slowly drinking in the sight of her white legs, her pliant curves and saw the dark curls around her opening contrast the rest of her.

He pulled back and looked down then up again at her with a crossed between serious and cocky. "Couldn't exactly go flying without knickers I'm guessing?"

"Hmm, I suppose so but let's see about you, shall we?" She grabbed the hem of his boxers and looking up as if to ask permission, pulled them down and her eyes hungrily drinking in the sight of him.

By the Elders, she never imagining seeing his big, even if she had never seen one before, vampire, human or lycan. She remembered Hermione telling her after much forceful demanding and learned of her first night with Remus, telling her how it was true about what they said about werewolves and their sizes and how later during their other rendezvous by themselves in the shack and in his bedroom, how he had been gentle and rough at the same time and how she pleasure him herself with what she did. She was getting ideas looking down at him, her eyes watching a drop of pre-cum leak from the tip of his erection.

Sirius would have probably said a witty comment like 'like what you see?' which would have sounded too cocky if he did and she would have probably slapped him for it. But he was just as embarrassed and feeling both excited and nervous as this would be as much his first time as well for her.

Him, a virgin and not knowing if he was going to be able to please her and thought he should pull his boxers back up and forget this ever happened. Both were naked and vulnerable to each other, not knowing what he should do for her to ease the breaking tension.

While Sirius was trying to think of what to do, Keller brought her fingers out to touch his length, feeling soft like silk but also was hard like a rock at the same time. Her hands moved and encircled him, bringing him back to focus as he looked down and saw his body become rigid as she stoke him gently with her cool hands and then began to work to caress him slow then fastening her pace, working her magic on him.

Her hands pumped him in and out, feeling him grow harder and thicker in her grasp and thought he might burst at any given moment as he gritted his teeth and his eyes rolled in the back of his head before releasing into her palms.

Sirius panted, his member becoming soft in her hands as she let go, his bangs falling into his darken eyes but all he could do was stare at her.

He couldn't believe it, she just…wow… stunned and amazed although he should say something but he was still too shocked by what she did.

"Merlin…you, you are one wicked little witch…" Her hands covered in white cum, put them to her mouth and he watch, her pink tongue licking the sticky substance then sucking her fingers one by one, her eyes closed and seem to like the taste of him. He smirked and an evil mischief look came into his eyes.

Maybe it was time he did something back. Slowly he bend his head to kiss her body, pressing kissing on every inch of her skin and nibbling her belly button where the little ring hung, sucking it between his lips before moving further down then stop to where her legs were parting for him.

He rubbed her clit, hearing her small moans and then place one finger by her opening and pistol in. Keller's hips bucked in reaction while he thrust in her again and again, with a second then a third joining in and was moving faster and faster inside her, feeling her grow hot and wet by the second. Keller was trying to suppress the little moans that practically escape her mouth and felt she couldn't hold it in much longer. Sirius smirked as he saw she was on the verge and pulled them out, hearing the sound of disappointment but that didn't last long as he bend down and thrust his tongue in her.

Keller had been sorely discouraged when Sirius had pulled out of her, leaving her to feel ready to explode but then she got something else that made her eyes wider and reached down and bury her fingers in his hair, practically wanting more and held him there.

Oh Elder…she was becoming so wet, her juice slowly pouring through and ready to burst any second and then did as she release into his mouth and he lap it up, tasting the sweet nectar, sweeter than he ever tasted or dream in all his wildest dreams. He pulled back and moved forward to her and kissing her and tasting the sweet and salty concoction they had. Sirius pulled back, breathless staring at her, his body arouse again and already position and resting his weight over her and rubbed the head of his erection against her folds. The tip heading straight through and moving slowly in, letting her get use to him as her walls stretch around him invading her before he was at the edge of her barrier and stop. He knew this was her hymen and this was going to hurt like the Devil once he pushes in through and looked at her considering towards Keller to make sure this was all right with her.

"Are you certain you want me to do this, there's no going back and it will hurt and—"

She brought a finger to his lips, reaching out and wrapping her arms around his neck, inching her body closer, her barrier nearly breaking under the slight pressure, wince a little but didn't show. She looked at him with brilliant shining eyes as she whispered huskily.

"I want you Sirius, take me and let me be yours…I'll hold no regrets, I want to be your first." Sirius stared at her as she pulled back and he pushed a lock of her dark hair away from her face.

"I know and I'm your first as well and have no regrets to it whatsoever…" Love… He wanted to say that to her but bend his head forward, their lips locked in a ravenous kiss while he mentally counting to three as he pulled back slightly, ready to make a forceful entrance through and not to cause too much pain when it happened.

One…two…three!

And plunged with one swift thrust and hearing Keller gasp, her fangs scrapping his lips as she cried out in pain and he pulled back apologizing, kissing her face and tears away, embracing her and saying the worst was over and promising it would get better and anything else to keep her mind from it until she was ready.

Keller having dealt through many painful experiences in her life but none likes this as it slowly diminished and subsides while feeling the blood slide down her thigh and onto the sheet, staining it crimson red. She could hear the worry in his voice and saying how sorry he was and telling her there would be no more and look into his eyes and see them filled with desire, adoration…Love.

Love, the one thing she had forgotten almost after her parents' death and now she found it again with someone she truly cared for and realized in herself that what she had been missing all this time was here.

A lone tear escape her eyes and went down her cheek and Sirius made to brush it away but she grabbed his hand brought his face towards her, kissing him again and again. He pulled out of her tenderly and then thrust back in, the pain already a distant memory as she and Sirius moved to one another, him thrusting down and hers meeting up to him.

Their bodies entwine, her legs wrapped around him, their hands holding one another as he kept coming in and out, panting and gasping, moving in with ease until she gave a low moan of pleasure that gave waves of ecstasy.

He thrust a few more times before he cried her name out in a throaty gasp and released and her surrendering to him as her walls squeezing tight around him, milking every last bit for all he was worth until he was bone dry inside her.

Yes, this is how it should be, she thought as they ascended to the heights of passion and he pulled out and lay next to her panting, his chest moving up and down while staring at Keller who like him was exhausted and covered in a thin film of sweat and smelling like hot feverish sex.

He pulled her over, wrapping his arms around her closing the distance between them and feeling her buried her face into his chest, smelling their mingling scent and listening to his heartbeat and closing his eyes, only for a moment, to rest a while embracing her in his arms, only for a few minutes…

"Keller…" Sirius was whispering, thinking she must have fallen asleep before he did. He had to tell her; it was now or never and had to let her know how he really felt about her, "I love you…"

Keller blinked, sleep momentarily forgotten and looked up at him and stroke his chin wanting to tell him the same that inside her heart all this time buried deep within her she loved him as well. But his eyes were already closed and had fallen asleep.

I can wait after I get some rest and tell him when he wakes up, she snuggled in his arms, her head resting on his chest and his head on top of her crown, feeling for the first time contented at last with someone she had fallen for and found that love return, hoping nothing could be taken from them.

Keller laid to her side and blinking back sleep and looked at the room she was in after she woke up, still feeling groggy and somehow sore in the lower region of her body and looked at her new surrounding.

Odd this wasn't the guest room from the Evans and she could hardly mistake this as Lily's home. She pulled the sheets off her body and looked down to see an arm laid flat on her stomach and feeling someone move in closer, their warm breath touching her neck and turn to see Sirius by her side.

She remembered what happened and smelling the scent in the room, of her and Sirius making love, their skin brushing together in a tantalizing caress, their bodies entwine, reaching intimate peaks of high passion and further finding out he loved her before they fell asleep with their legs entwine and holding one another.

She stared at him, his eyes shut, his mouth slightly parted and breathing slowly. He looked so peaceful with that innocent smile on his face and had to resist kissing him in order to wake him up. She reached out and turn the small clock by his nightstand, saying it was five minutes to midnight and Christmas.

She removed his arm off her and laid it down gently so not to wake him and turned her back to get up but he stirred, feeling the absence of her body and open his eyes to see her with her back turn to him. He sat up and moved close, touching her backside, gingerly touching the scars and his warm breathe tingling her cool skin.

"And where do you think you're going?" Keller turn her head seeing Sirius in time to wrap his arms around her and kissing her shoulder then moving to her neck where he was sucking and nibbling, and moving his head to whisper inside the shell of her ear, "Stay…here with me."

Keller shiver slightly, the way he spoke those words made her become hot and he tried to pull her back in bed but she stopped him, removing his arm from her and puling away from him reluctant.

"I can't, Sirius as much as I love to I have to go back to the Evans. Everyone will be waking up soon and my cousin will know I'm gone." She saw the disappointed look in his eyes and made to touch his face, bringing it up to look at her, "But we'll be coming here today for the party and hang with you guys.

"And maybe you and I can sneak away while everyone's distracted or think of a diversion so we can be alone somewhere together." She said whispering in his ear and saw him instantly perked up like a happy puppy and gave her a sexy smirk that made her want to have another round before hitting the sky but figuring if she did, it would become harder for her to leave him. She felt his thumb stroke her lips and heard him say in a husky manner, "I think I'm turning you into a mischievous Marauder Kell."

"Sexy marauder. But mischievous fits you more as well as 'drop-dead gorgeous' in your category." She growled before planting a kiss and pulled back and started looking for her clothes. She found her shirt and sweater but her pants she had a harder time finding.

"Sirius…" She turn to see he was whistling to himself, trying to look innocent. Innocent her bare ass as far as she was concerns. "Where are my pants?"

"Moi? You think I took them," Sirius asked in mocked shock. "How can you think that way of me Keller when I would never do such a thing to you."

She had to roll her eyes as he continue to say ridiculous stuff, "You sir are truly wicked." She looked beneath the bed, knowing Sirius was staring at her naked bum while finding them not under there and then head to his closet. "Personally I like you without your pants, such a nice view I think."

"Yeah well, if you want to see me with a frosty ass out there beside from shining the full moon to people then I guess I'll have to borrow one of yours then." She found a pair of black denim pants too big for her but transfigured them to her size and pulled them on, finding they fit perfect and snug, hugging the curves to her body. Sirius stared at her watching as she rubbed the pockets of his pants and looking in the mirror hanging on the closet door. "You how did you, without a wand?"

Keller turn around, noticing his surprise shock and nodded to him, "Yes I have been doing it for a long time and did it when I came and open your window, got you into your bathtub and dry you up and placed a contraceptive charm before we, um, you know…" She blushed same with Sirius as he thought that would have been the wise idea before they did it if he had been thinking rationally.

Sirius changed the awkward conversation by asking how long she had been capable of doing it without her wand.

"Well I supposed long enough you could say. Mione and I have been pretty much practicing without wands and I've been teaching her after classes when we were alone together." That was very much true as she and Mione had gone to the room of requirements to practice and seeing that Hermione was getting the hang of it by the time before the full moon came in.

She made to check if she had still enough time and saw she did as she walked over to the window, glancing outside to see the snow and cold wind breezing. Her body could handle the dropping temperature but she felt a chill somehow as if leaving made her heart ache as she went and open the window.

The icy breeze hitting her face and step outside on the sill when a hand touched her and spun around to stare into Sirius's eyes. She was staring at him still before he embrace her and placed his lips over her and she instantly respond, wrapping her arms around him and inhaling his scent before he let go.

When he pulled back, he said, "Merry Christmas, Keller. I love you."

Keller smiled and stroke his bangs from his eyes, "Merry Christmas Sirius. And yes I know and I love you too. Very much." And kissed him briefly once more before hanging her legs out before saying, "I'll see you again real soon…love." and jump and spread her wings and flew off towards the still dark sky.

Sirius stood there by the window, watching her leave before her silhouette became less and less visible until she disappeared from sight. He then closed and latched it and headed back to bed to get some more sleep before everyone in the Potter house awoke and made preparations for the party that was today.

Sirius had a thoughtful smile on his face as he laid on his bed and buried his face in the pillow where Keller's head had lied and smell the shampoo she had used, white tea and jasmine, dictating to memory about her. He thought of what she said from calling him her 'love' and maybe having a little after together while everyone was busy at the party. He couldn't wait to see her again and went and fell asleep, thinking of Keller in his thoughts and dreams and the three words she told him with that warm smile on her face.