Secrets
Chapter 7: The Final Decision

A week and a day. It had been exactly a week and a day since I had seen Axel. I refused to bring up what had happened to Riku and Sora, and they rarely brought him up. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stop thinking about him.

I had woken up this morning covered in sweat, my breath heavy. I looked down and noticed my throbbing member "pitching a tent". I groaned and headed to the shower.

This was the fifth night in a row that the red-head had invaded my dreams. I couldn't escape him.

I had to do something about this.

I got out of the shower and laid back down on my bed, grabbing my phone from the night stand.

(Hello?)

He sounded half asleep... I glanced at the time on my phone and quickly hung up. It was 3 o'clock in the morning. God, now he probably thought I was crazy.

I jumped as my phone began ringing in my hands. I got up and threw it down on my bed. I shouldn't have called him in the first place. I was letting him get to me...

I decided to sit on the couch and watch t.v. in hopes of falling back to sleep. This whole thing was just ridiculous. I had never been attracted to another man in my entire life. I was with Naminé for five years and I had been happy. Never, and I mean never, had I wanted to be with another man.

I stared at the t.v. screen, yawning as an infomercial popped up. My eyes slowly closed and before I knew it, I was asleep.

My eyes jolted open as someone knocked on my door. I ran over and opened it, my heart still pounding from the abrupt awakening.

"What the fuck, Roxas?" I moved out of the way and let him in. " Are you ok?" I nodded and sat back down on the couch, my heart still pounding.

"What do you want?" He scoffed and made his way over to the couch, taking a seat beside of me.

"I should be asking you. You called me at 3 o'clock in the morning and hung up on me. I tried calling you back five times and you didn't answer."

"Sorry." I shrugged.

"Sorry? Why don't you tell me why you called? I was worried sick about you."

"If you were so worried, why didn't you get here sooner?" He pushed me hard and sneered, his emerald eyes filled with a number of emotions.

"I got here as soon as I could, God damn it. Do you even know what time it is?" I looked at the time on my cable box and sighed. 4:37 a.m.

I looked into his eyes for a moment, then turned away.

"Why did you call me? I thought you never wanted to see me again, remember?" He grabbed my shoulders, turning me around to face him. "Hey..." I turned my head away from him, but he grabbed my chin and forced me to look into his eyes. "Roxas, look at me... please."

"What do you want from me?" I stared into his eyes, trying to hold back the burning tears that kept trying to escape. "Axel, I..."

"You drive me fuckin' crazy, Roxas." He looked back into my eyes. "Those fuckin' blue eyes of yours, that soft blond hair and... I mean it when I say you make me feel something I've never felt." He closed his eyes and leaned in close, kissing me softly. "I know it might be weird for you, but... this is how I've felt ever since I saw you on that train. I felt a need to protect you, to keep you safe... to love you."

I took in a shaky breath as he wiped the tears from my eyes.

"I don't want to hear some bullshit excuse about how you don't like guys or you don't feel the same. I can tell... I've seen how you look at me when you think I'm not paying attention. And when I kiss you..." He leaned in for another soft, perfect kiss. "I can feel you kissing back..."

"Axel, I... I don't like you like that, ok? No offense, but I'm not into guys. When will you get that through your head?" I licked my lips, still able to taste his kiss.

"When your heart stops beating so fast around me." He kissed me again, his tongue sliding into my mouth. He placed his hand on my chest, a smile playing upon his lips as he kissed me yet again. He brought his legs up onto the couch and crawled on top of me as I fell back. He continued to kiss me, his slender fingers tracing their way down my stomach. I gasped, my hips bucking into his.

(Knock knock)

I jumped up quickly, but he pushed me back down.

"No, wait... Axel, it might be something important." The red-head let me up as he ran his fingers through his thick hair, pulling at the ends in frustration.

I opened the door to find a blue eyed vixen standing before me.

"Naminé?" She let herself in, walked straight by me, then paused as she noticed Axel on the couch.

"Sorry to interrupt, but... I need to talk to you, Roxas. Alone." I looked at Axel, then to her.

"Look, Naminé... right now isn't the best time. I mean, what're you even doing up this early?"

"It's important, Roxas. Me and Mar had a fight and I... I just need to talk to you."

Axel got up, his emerald eyes staring into mine. He seemed to be a little worried.

"I'll go." He walked over to me, made sure Naminé was looking, then kissed me. He held my chin in his hand, making sure I wouldn't pull away. "Call me." I shook my head as he left, then turned to face her.

"So, what they've been saying is true." She scoffed, her body softly falling into one of the seats at my dining table. "You really are seeing Axel..."

"Not exactly..." I walked over to the kitchen and leaned against the counter. "So, what happened with Marluxia?" She placed her hands in her lap and stared down at them, her face overwhelmed with sadness. "Did he hurt you?"

"No, no! No... he'd never do that." She stood up and took a few steps toward me, her arms wrapping around my waist. "It's just... I miss you, y'know?"

"You what?" I pushed her away, laughing softly. "You said you came here because you had a fight with that drugged up piece of shit you call a boyfriend. Now... what was the fight about? What happened?"

"Roxas..." She wrapped her arms around my waist once again and began kissing my neck. I sighed and placed my hands firmly on her arms, trying to push her away slightly.

"Naminé, stop... why are you acting like this all of a sudden?" She ignored me, her hands making their way down to my groin. "Naminé?!" She quickly pulled away from me, her eyes heavy lidded. She looked both shocked and upset.

"Do I not turn you on anymore?" She sighed and averted her gaze. "You're not even hard..." I looked down at my manhood, then thought of Axel.

What had he done to me?

"Why should I be? After everything we've been through?" She fell to the floor, her body limp as tears streamed down her face. I dropped down to my knees and pulled her close to me. "What the hell is going on with you?" She sobbed even more, her tears soaking the shoulder of my shirt. "Talk to me, God damn it!"

"I'm... I'm pregnant."

"What?" I tightened my hold on her. "What're you going to do?"

"I don't know..." She shook her head "He wants to keep it. I told him about my last miscarriage, but he still wants to try and have it." She bit her trembling lip and wrapped her arms around me. "He even promised to sober up. I just... I'm so afraid of losing the baby."

I lifted her chin up and looked into her tear-filled eyes.

"Are you happy with him?" She nodded. "Do you want to have this baby?" She nodded again, tears still streaming down her face. "Then don't let what happened in the past scare you. If it's meant to be, it'll happen." I smiled a little. "And plus, maybe he really will straighten up... and if that happens, it'll benefit the both of you."

"You're right..." She sniffled, wiping a few tears away. "I'm really sorry for all of this. It's just..." I shook my head and held her close.

"Don't worry about it, Naminé... I understand." I rocked back and forth slightly as she cuddled up against me on the floor. "The past few months have been pretty crazy, but I'm always going to be here for you." I looked down at her smiling face and couldn't help but brush back a few strands of hair from her face.

"What about you and Axel?" She looked up at me. "Does he make you happy?"

I stepped out of the cab and looked up at the apartment building before me. I had never been so scared, worried, nervous and happy in my life. I opened the door and began walking up the stairs until I came to his floor. I took a deep breath and walked down the hall, stopping in front of his room. I raised my hand to knock, but paused as I heard a door open a little ways down from me.

"Roxas?" I looked over at the red-head and smiled.

"Hey..." I swallowed hard and pointed to the exit. "Is this a bad time?"

"No, not at all. I just got done playing some video games with a buddy of mine." He walked over to me and turned to unlock his door. "I haven't heard from you in a couple days. Everything ok?" I nodded as we walked into his apartment. He closed the door softly and kept his eyes on me.

"Yeah, everything's fine. I've just been... thinking, y'know?" He took in a deep breath and sat down, finally exhaling.

"Yeah..." I looked around the room, unsure of what to do. The last couple of days had been difficult for me to understand. "You can sit down, y'know. I don't bite."

"Oh, ok..." I laughed a little at his joke and took a seat. He bit his lip and tried to hold back a smile.

"So, to what do I owe this pleasure?"

"Well... during our last few conversations, I haven't been able to speak much and I thought... I thought that I'd come here and tell you how I feel about... about our situation."

"Our situation?" He cocked his head in curiosity as I nodded.

"Yeah..."

"Well, go ahead. Talk." I repositioned myself on the couch and swallowed hard. I was uncomfortably nervous... and he could tell. "Relax, Rox... there's no need to be all weird about it. Just say how you feel." He placed his hand on my knee. "After all, you already know how I feel about it."

I closed my eyes, bit my lip and grabbed his hand.

"I want to give this a try." I took in a deep breath, then exhaled. "You and me."

"Oh? And what made you change your mind, if you don't mind me asking?" He licked his lips, still trying to hold back a smile.

"Ever since I met you... it's like... it's like I've found a part of me that I never knew existed. When I'm around you I feel safe, loved and... myself. I don't feel like I need to hide things from you, and when you held me that first night..." I smiled a little as he scooted closer to me, my hand still intertwined with his. "I knew something was going to change." I pulled our hands up to my mouth and kissed them. "I'll admit that I was scared. I didn't want to be this person... and I never thought I would be."

"There's no need to be scared when you've got me here, Roxas." He leaned in and kissed me, his slender hands cupping my face. "You've been driving me crazy ever since we met and... and I'm not going to let you go after this..." I fell softly back onto the couch as he crawled on top of me. I reached up and touched his face with my hands for the first time. He was so beautiful.

He slowly took off my pants, kissing the tip of my cock teasingly. He got off the couch for a moment, dropping his own pants to the floor before getting back on top of me. He lowered his waist against mine, our lengths finally touching. I moaned, my eyes closing as he pulled my shirt over my head and threw it behind us. My back arched in pleasure as he teasingly nibbled around the band of my boxers, slowly taking them off.

I pulled myself up slightly, kissing his stomach as I pulled his own boxers down, throwing them to the side. He pushed me back onto the couch, grinding his hips onto mine, our hard cocks rubbing against one another.

The red-head lowered his hand to my groin and wrapped it firmly around my throbbing length, he snuck his other hand up my torso and forced two fingers past my quivering lips. I swirled my tongue around them, moaning more and more as he took my cock into his mouth.

His fingers made their way back down as he began to play amongst my tight entrance. I gasped as his fingers entered me, scissoring open and closed, preparing me for what was to come.

He got up and walked into another room.

"Axel... What're you...?" He returned, a small bottle in his hand. "What's that?" He smiled down at me and crawled back to where he had previously been.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" I looked at the bottle, then at him. My entire body was aching with wanton desire as his heavy-lidded eyes looked into mine.

"Yeah, I want to..." He bit his lip as he covered his length with the lubricant. I rolled over and got on my hands and knees, my throbbing cock craving the red-head's attention. He kissed my back as he inserted two lube-covered fingers into me, trying his best to make it as painless as possible.

"Roxas..." He slowly pushed his hard, throbbing dick into me, my entrance stretching to accommodate him. I gritted my teeth, grabbed the cushion beneath me and tried to push the pain out of my mind. "God..." He lowered his torso once he filled me with his cock and continued to kiss my back as he slowly pulled out and then back in. I reached for my throbbing length, but he pushed my hand away and took care of it for me.

"Fuck!" My back arched with pleasure as he stroked my length in rhythm with his thrusts... and then, then he hit that special spot deep within me. I moaned louder, his thrusts becoming deeper and faster. The red-head took his hand away from my cock and gripped my ass, his speed increasing more and more as my moans echoed throughout the room.

"Axel... mmph..." I took hold of my throbbing member and began stroking it as I felt him getting closer and closer to his release.

He pulled out, quickly flipping me over onto my back before entering me once again. My eyes rolled back as he came, his warm seed deep within me. He smiled as he made his way up to kiss me, his hips grinding into mine once more. I threw my head back in ecstasy as I finally reached the point of no return.

He lowered his self down, pulling me onto my side as he held me in his arms. I turned to face him and smiled softly as I kissed him passionately. He licked his lips and looked into my eyes.

"I love you, Roxas." I bit my lip, trying hard not to show how happy I was. I placed my hand upon his chest, feeling his heartbeat sync up to mine.

"I love you, too."

This may have never been in my plans, but he made me feel like nothing I had ever felt before. I felt safe. I felt loved. I felt like I was right where I needed to be... in his arms.

Written By: FembotAxel