Alrighty so I got some reviews for the last chapter, and yes I know the last chapter wasn't the best but I felt you needed to know what's going on in the pack's mind, but I was told it was still pretty good :P yay!
Ok so last night my best friend Lexie (her username is 1lexie12 on here) and I went to the school's basketball game and we are sitting there talking (paying no attention to the game whatsoever) and I was telling her my poem I am going to perform at this drama competition and she was in the middle of a sentence when she was telling me what she thought of it and she said "cat". She was saying "Well what I think – cat." She told me she was trying to think and talk at the same time :P lol ANYWAYZ so she is a fan of this story (that's what BFFs are for) and in my AN in the last chapters I've been saying "I own Lizzy!" she tells me something that makes me realize I am the most retarded retard out there!
Ok so you know how in Breaking Dawn, Jacob goes to the park and meets that chick. And guess what her name was. Lizzie. I was about 2 LETTERS away from spelling "Lizzy" with and "ie" instead of a "y". And if I did that then I would have been so retarded BECAUSE I don't own "Lizzie" but I own "Lizzy". Haha try saying the last sentence out loud and tell me it doesn't sound weird.
Anyway so thank 1lexie12 for pointing that out to me.
Lizzy POV (ya'll know you missed her :P)
I watched as the wolves' hind legs dug into the ground as they sped away; I watched until I could no longer see them. My heart rate slowed to a semi normal pace as I realized I'd actually saved Edward. I didn't even dream that my speech would work; I was only going to do it as a feeble attempt, not expecting it to actually take effect.
I was only vaguely aware of my mom having me in a death grip hug and sobbing sputtering out "That was so stupid are you crazy?!" and "Thank you!" she was torn between scolding me and thanking heaven for what I did. It was pretty funny. When she released me, she made her way over to Edward to hug him as tightly as a human can. He leaned down and kissed her passionately, I turned away. I remembered how when we first met he told me mom was tempting in a "human way". Shudder.
I looked back to see Mom making her way into the house; giving Edward and I some alone time. Thanks. I really was nervous about what he would say, would he be mad? I don't know but did just save him. Just thinking the words made me smile.
He walked over, at human pace, over to me and put his hand on my shoulder. I looked down, not meeting his gaze; I still wasn't sure how he felt about my little display. I'd revealed a lot of things I never wanted to let out in the open. I worried he might think I was way over obsessing about that "hope" thing; but that was how I truly felt. He must think I'm such a freak. I'd never had a father that loved me, and I guess I'd let myself hope that maybe, just maybe, one day… Edward could be the father I never had. I guess it was stupid to let my hopes get so high.
When I looked up I saw his onyx colored eyes staring into mine. He brought me closer and stroked my hair; I had just now noticed the stinging tears that trailed down my cheek.
"Why would you think I'd be mad?" He whispered over my head. I shook my head under his hand. I honestly didn't know; Jacob always got mad at everything I did. Didn't everyone react like that? II heard his sharp intake of breath. He pulled away to look at me.
"Lizzy, you haven't experienced any other reactions besides Jacob's. You don't know how everyone else reacts; there are different people with different personalities. There is a better and brighter world out there Lizzy, you just have to branch out and find it." I numbly nodded, I knew that other people were different but I just couldn't imagine anyone else's ways to react to something. Edward was right; there were other people out there with different personalities, I just had to find them.
He hugged me tighter, "Lizzy?" He asked.
"Yeah?" I mumbled.
"D-do I really give you hope?" He stammered. I was surprised at the raw emotion that leaked into his voice. I nodded again. "Yes Edward, everything I said was true; I didn't say that stuff to hear myself talk." I chuckled in an effort to lighten the mood, "I'm deeper than you think."
He chuckled stiffly, "Lizzy, it makes me so… well I can't find a descriptive enough word to describe it but… I feel incredible that I can bring that much happiness into your life. I have seen all you have gone through, and it breaks my heart, and hurts me more than you know. It makes me feel useful to be able to do that. And… it makes me feel… loved." He finished with a smile. I couldn't believe it. He wasn't made, he didn't reject the way I felt. I knew that Mom would be thing to keep him here, which brought me to an even higher point knowing he'll be here as long as Mom is. If she can survive the long years of abuse, she can take on anything. I don't give Mom enough credit; she's much stronger than I thought. And finally she is being rewarded for it. Edward. Edward is her reward; and it's plain to see that she sees him like that too.
I looked over to see the sun peek over the horizon; it brought me hope. Hope for a new day. Hope for a new life.
Sooooooooooooooooooooo take my poll! Do u want the epilogue as the next chapter OR do you want me to keep going and let them have a little father/ daughter and edward/bella fluff next?
PLAYLIST FOR THE STORY (aka some songs I listened to while writing the story)
Face Down- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Dreaming with a Broken Heart- John Mayer
Your Guardian Angel- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Decode- Paramore
Bring Me to Life- Evanescence
Sweet Sacrifice- Evanescence
My Immortal- Evanescence
Never Too Late- Three Days Grace
CaramellDanson (AN- XD XD XD It's true!)