Yeah… I updated… I'm so tired. :P Lol
L POV
"Please Dean; you've got to help me!" I begged.
"Lizzy, this is not a good idea; your Mom loves you and doesn't want to lose you! Please think through this rationally."
"Who's side are you on?" I wasn't taking any more. He looked horribly torn, it cut through my heart, but it was the only way.
"I'm on the side that's for what's best for you, I love you and I want what makes you the happiest in the long run."
"Please Dean?" I pleaded, his logic was so water-tight I couldn't possibly be mad at him, and I was getting pretty desperate for an angle.
"What exactly do you expect to happen? We run away together and go live some bliss filled life with no worries or cares in the world? I'm sorry to break this to you hun, but that's not the way the world works. Eventually we're going to need money, and to get money we need good paying jobs, and to get good paying jobs we need a college degree, and to get a college degree we need money- you see how this is sort of a cycle?" His eyes pierced into mine, smoldering so I couldn't look away even if I'd wanted to.
"But…"
"Listen, you know your mother better than anyone- including Edward believe it or not- and I know her well enough to know that it would do neither of you any good if you were to leave. So please trust me and don't take a chance on sabotaging your happiness and hers." He never took his eyes off me, in an effort to keep the power of his words strong.
"Ok I'll stay…" I said succumbing to his persuasion. "But I'm not happy about it." I tacked onto the end of it.
"Ok Liz, but trust me, everything will be fine." He sighed and his eyes dimmed a bit.
I put my hand to his cheek. "Dean what's wrong?"
"It's nothing, it's just… nothing."
"Aw come on, just tell me please."
"Nothing sweetie, I just zoned out." He gave me a small smile and stroked my hair. I knew something was up, and I was going to find out what it was.
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B POV
"Bella, now I know you are a little upset-"
"There's nothing LITTLE about it!" I couldn't believe he did that.
"Look Bella, it was while you were changing and-"
"And you never thought to tell me?!"
"No, no I just forgot!"
"Bull." I said dismissively.
"But-"
"Bull."
"Come on, please Bella!"
"No, this is unforgivable!"
"Oh please, love?"
"No- I knew you would pull something, but not like THIS!"
"Oh come on, if you look at it from my point of view, it's really not that bad!"
"Edward- a car?!" I pointed to the glossy red, expensive car.
"Alice got it while you were… incapacitated. I'm sorry I thought you might want some means of transportation!"
"But a Ferrari?! Seriously Edward? I would have preferred a skateboard!"
"Oh please Bella? Use it at least for a month- then I can return it right back to the dealer. Just give it a chance." He hit me with those big golden eyes and that jutted out lower lip, the sight was breathtaking- and oh so evil.
"Ugh… no please don't make me do this…" He turned up the power of his pout to a completely unfair level. "Oh… fine!" I sunk my head in defeat, it was so wrong how he had this much control over me.
"Aw thanks love." He pulled me into his arms and kissed my forehead; it started to rain outside the garage, I stared at the shiny red car in disdain. I couldn't believe that in the midst of everything going on right now, he had the nerve to show this to me. Suddenly the flood of just exactly was happening washed over me; I broke down in his arms.
"Oh Bella! What's wrong? I'm sorry, I didn't think a car would upset you this much… I'm so sorry love."
"That's-" gasp. "Not it Edward," Gasp. "Just remembered…" I trailed off knowing he would understand.
"Oh Bella… I don't know how many times I can tell you I'm sorry."
"No Edward, it's not your fault…" I couldn't stop sobbing, I tried to stifle them, but it only made it worse.
I heard him grunt in frustration, he pulled me tightly into his chest. His grip was like iron, and growls and hisses continuously escaped him clenched teeth. "Edward? What's wrong?"
"It kills me to know that this is happening… and I know it's all my fault… I was the one that turned you into this-"
Anger coursed through my veins. "And what exactly is "this" Edward?" I couldn't believe he was reverting back to this crap!
He started backtracking as soon as he saw the inferno in my eyes. "Well, uh-"
"You need to stop! I. Am. A. Vampire. And nothing you say or do can change that fact- unless you plan on killing me!" I took a deep breath to calm myself- but to no avail. "You know, i-it just makes me sick, and not to mention it's BEYOND ANNOYING, when you go on and on about me being a vampire!" I shut my eyes; I needed to calm down before I said anything really stupid. I couldn't believe he was trying to pull this on me again, I love him but I was starting to doubt if he loved me as a vampire.
"Edward?" I said calmly. "You love me, right?" I asked in a small voice. He was about to answer but I cut him off. "Even as a vampire? - Because I'm not entirely sure at this point." Acid came into my voice.
"B-Bella, how could you possibly imagine that I didn't love you?"
"Well you did leave me if you recall Edward, and you always were a good liar, how can I be sure you love me as much as you say?" I instantly felt horrible, how could I bring that up and doubt him?
He gripped me tighter and I thought I heard a tiny cry, he buried his head into my shoulder, and my hair covered his face. That sent me over the edge; I'd never seen him so vulnerable.
"E-Edward… I'm so sorry, I-I didn't mean it I…" I sobbed along with him, I wanted to disappear and never have to see his face broken like that.
"No… your right… I did leave, and I AM a good liar… I'm so sorry, that made you doubt my feelings I should have never let it shroud my feelings for you."
"Oh my gosh Edward, stop taking the blame for something I did! I was being an idiot, I know you love me, I just said that… Oh gosh." I didn't want him to think I doubted him- because I truly didn't .
"It's alright Bella-" A small gasp echoed through the house, coming from Alice.
"Alice what's wrong?!" I shouted, unnecessarily.
"Oh no…" Edward muttered.
"What's wrong Edward what did she see?"
"Nothing… the whole future just disappeared, for all of us."
"Does that mean Dean is coming back around here?"
"We don't know, but we will find out."
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D POV
I looked down at Lizzy as she slept all tangled up in the covers, her breathing was slow and even. I hoped she was having a good dream; everything out here in the real world was a mess. Everything going on must be taking its toll on her, I loved her so much and hated seeing her go through this.
It was all my fault, I couldn't control myself, I almost killed her mother, and yet she's still with me. There's something in her eyes now, when she looks at me, I see her body immediately cringes, but her mind tells her to stop. She's battling her instincts with her logic, and it's killing her. It's killing her to see her Mom like this, her Mom must despise me. I know Edward and the rest of the Cullens do, but when I saw her Mom, her eyes didn't hold bitter disdain, they held… sympathy and forgiveness. A gift I never expected to be granted.
I love Lizzy, and nothing will ever change that. But… after all of this, will she be able to love me? I'm not sure, she must be aware that I was the one that caused it, she's trying to get over the way her body wants to take three steps back when she sees me. But she has every right to cringe- every right to want me to disappear. Maybe that's what's best. Without me around I won't ignite the vampire's instincts and her Mom will be able to learn control faster. She can focus on a happy life with her Mom, and maybe when she gets older, she can fall in love with someone. Someone who doesn't almost commit murder, and she'd have a choice. Not having love thrust upon her by imprinting. She deserves better. She's deserves the world… but maybe I'm not the one to give that to her.
Would she have loved me if it not for imprinting? There's no way to know.
I looked down at her angelic face, and saw a little glimmering tears run down her cheek, "Mom…" She murmured, another tears escaped her closed eyes.
This only confirmed my assumption before; I hated to admit it, but she would be better off without me. Would I be strong enough? Would I be able to handle leaving? It would kill me, would I be able to go through that if it was for her own good?
I looked down at the collecting tears on her face and knew my answer. Yes. Yes I would.
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R POV
Dammit, dammit, dammit. This is bad; this is really, really bad! It was joke; I didn't expect him to turn into a wolf out of nowhere! I thought that if they brought him over they'd have the brains to make sure he had control first! So much for trying to lighten the mood. It wasn't my fault, it was theirs. They brought him over, they didn't double check his control beforehand, they should have expected something from me! Oh come on I left them like a million hints to expect me to do something, but they're just so UNOBSERVANT that they didn't notice- what fools.
I've been out here staying with Tanya, Irina, and Kate, ever since that night. They have no idea what's going on and didn't press the point when I'd said "I don't want to talk about it just yet".
My family was mad at me now, but they're going to miss me sooner or later and go searching for me. And I'll be here waiting. They'll hug me and tell me how much they missed me- well maybe not Edward but the rest of them will… but I wondered about Lizzy. Would she ever forgive me?
I really shouldn't care what she did and what her little hormone riddled adolescent mind thought, but for some reason unknown… I cared if she hated me or not. Maybe because I'd told her I'd behave and her childlike mind accepted that, she put her trust in me and I slapped it back in her face. No that's not it; it must be something else.
I stared out the back window and into the snowy Alaskan forest, the rest of the coven was out hunting, they asked if I wanted to join them but I declined. I hunted on the way here. I felt oddly nauseated and didn't want to hunt; I felt the strange urge to lay down. I felt cold, something must be wrong.
It's all of them, like I'd said before.
Their fault not mine. It couldn't be my fault… could it?
OOOOOOOH I've been waiting to do Rosalie's POV for awhile now ^ ^ oh and Dean's gonna "pull an Edward".