Rin woke up to the bright lights in Sesshomaru's room. Opening her eyes she looked around and next to the bed was a sleeping Sesshomaru, her hand in his. He was on the floor on his knees and the only parts of him on the bed was his head and arms.

When did he get here? Why didn't he wake her up? A million questions ran through her head, but she was grateful the pain was gone. When she looked back at Sesshomaru he was awake and looking right at her. His teeth clenched and his eyes became watery. He was fighting back his tears. Her first instinct was to pull him in the bed with her but instead Sesshomaru pulled her to his chest and put his chin on her shoulder.

"I'm sorry Rin.." His voice was rough and low. " I got here and you were in so much pain, your face was calm because of Shin but your body.. It was tense.. I-I touched my mark and I felt like dying, everything you felt I felt it Rin.. All that pain.." It took everything in her not to lash out at him. Part of her wanted to comfort him, tell him she forgave him. Another part was telling her not to, that he left her when after he knew what would happen to her. Why should she forgive her.

"Come" She whispered low enough for him to hear her but not at her normal voice level Sesshomaru pulled away, his mouth in a tight line, tears still streaming down his face. It hurt to see him cry, he was my mate but he needed to know everything I went through.

Our mate needs to learn from his mistakes...

Pulling him to the bathroom she made her way to the mirror. She stared at the reflection, the brown eyes girl in the mirror looked exhausted and sick. Her face barely had any color besides the black bags under her eyes. The reflection showed a girl that looked like she went through hell and back.

Her eyes then went to Sesshomaru eyes tears had stopped coming down but they were pooled in his eyes. They could spill over at anytime, he looked tired but not as much as she did. He looked sad, and broken just like she did. Sesshomaru's hand reached up and pushed my hair off my shoulders his fingertips slowly tracing the faded mating mark. Looking him through the mirror his teeth had grown longer and his eyes were slightly red. All I did was nod before I felt the pain of his teeth sink in, but the pain didn't last long before a wave of pleasure hit me. I moaned and tilted my head back onto his chest.

When he pulled out all he said was "My mate.." I pulled away when he leaned in to kiss me I pulled back and shook my head. Putting on hand on his chest I grabbed his chin with the other and got on the tip of my toes and kiss his cheek. When I looked at him he was looking straight at me.

"This Sesshomaru has lost your love hasn't he?" He spoke in third person.

"No he has not , he lost my trust." I whispered low so he could barely hear. All he did was nod in response, I didn't like seeing him like this it was so different from what I was use to.

"Lets go get you something to eat you must be hungry," he said and put an arm around my waist almost to help me and support me. I laughed for the first time in weeks when I saw Luna walking right in the middle of both of us. When I nudge Sesshomaru he looked at me confused and then looked down. I started to laugh when his head cocked to the side and a small smile appeared on his face. I started to laugh when she looked up at me and barked. I felt Sesshomaru eyes on me the entire time and when I looked up for the first time I saw him smile showing his teeth. If only we could have small moments like these more often.

We made our way to the dinner table and Sesshomaru pulled me to his lap when he sat down. I knew I should have been mad but I just couldn't, at least at the moment. I put my head on his chest and snuggled up closer to him, he was warm.

"I'm sorry Rin, I just.." he paused and I looked up at him and looked at him his eyes were closed. "This Sesshomaru couldn't handle the power that came with the mating. Sesshomaru was suppose to stay near you at all times during the first few days because only you could help me control that power and need. He has failed you as a mate, but this Sesshomaru promises he will make it up to you. This Sesshomaru loves you.. He cannot lose you.." His last words came out in a whisper.

Sesshomaru couldn't handle the power of the mating, that shows even he has flaws... He really is sorry.

When I looked back up at my mate, I wanted to kiss him. I slowly pulled him closer and brushed my lips across his. He pulled me closer to him and kiss me slow and sweet. His tongue brushed against my lips, before I knew it I was straddling him . Touching and teasing.

"Lord Sesshomaru, Lady Rin, your food is ready." Ami voice interrupted only Sesshomaru didnt stop kissing me. When I tried moving away Sesshomaru growled and started to kiss me again. After a few minutes he stopped and looked at right at me.

"Don't pull away from me." It was all he said before he moved her so she was sitting in her own seat next to him. He watched silently as she ate. Her body refused food for almost the entire two weeks he was gone. When Sesshomaru finished eating he just looked at me like I was his next meal. The same predatory look he had when we mated. I finished chewing my last bite and he said nothing as I put my fork down.

After a few minutes his voice broke the silence, "Do you want anymore food, mate?" I shook my head no quietly and he got up. I saw him lick his lips and a million possibilities flashed in my head. I wanted his lips on me, everywhere. The night we mated.. the touching, and teasing. The way he - no, stop I'm suppose to be mad. Too late.. I started to feel the wetness between my legs.

"Rrrin.." Sesshomaru walked up to me and put a arm around my waist. "My mate is aroused..I thought you were mad"

"I-I am" I stuttered out in a low whisper. I rubbed my thighs together and a smirk crept onto his face as soon as he saw the movement.

"I don't think you are mate. Maybe I should fuck you 50 shades to Sunday now."

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A/N: How you like them apples? :3 Anyway Rin being Rin couldn't stay mad at Sesshomaru but who knows that could change? Anyway lemmmeee know what you guys think. If you guys review you guys should be me a HUGE favor. Instead of just saying please update, lemme know what you guys like and dislike! Its helpful , very helpful. I take everything into mind. :)

- Openmindsx33