Hi guys. Sorry I haven't written in a while but I had TONS of homework. And the fact is it's really not going well so that's my screw up. I can hardly believe I had time to write this. Hope you enjoy.

Renesmee's point of view

I looked at myself in the mirror. It was a myth what they say about vampires, you can see your own reflection. I thought to myself. What does Jacob see in me? I am just so mean to him. He could have any girl he wanted yet he chose me. Dopy old me. I sighed. I hate feeling sad. What is the world if you feel sad in it? Just some gloomy old ball in space which may or may not last forever. A little like me. I may or may not last forever. Maybe somebody will murder me. Maybe I'll go to the Vultori and give myself up to them. Apparently dad almost gave himself up to Vultori because he thought mum was dead. But then mum saved him. She always saves everyone in her own special way. She has this charm about her. She managed to charm dad, although she didn't mean to. She managed to charm Jacob, although she didn't mean to. I grabbed my head. I suddenly felt very dizzy. The idea if Mum and Jacob made me sick. I lay down on my bed. Before I knew it I was asleep.

* * *

The clocked chimed it was 7 o'clock. I had been asleep for 4 hours. Claire was sitting at my bed.

"Hey you were asleep", she said giddily.

"Err, how did you get inside my room?" I asked.

"Oh your mum let me in, she's a nice woman", said Claire.

"Oh right, err, what exactly do you want?" I asked.

"To spend time with you silly", she said.

"Well that's lovely but Claire honey you're 9 and I'm 17, don't you think you should be spending time with people more your age?" I said.

"Well technically you're 7 so you're really ruining my rep", said Claire.

"Oh but of course", I said sarcastically.

"Look, Quil got me Pixie Lott's new single "Boys and Girls", you want me to play it?" asked Claire.

"Ughh nothing with boys in at all", I said.

"Well that's bad because my second choice was "If I Were a Boy"", sulked Claire.

I stared at her. Sometimes I wondered whether she was purposely annoying or she was just naturally.

"So you wanna go to the cinema?"asked Claire.

"No I'll get some rest", I said.

"But you just spent the past 4 hours sleeping", said Claire.

"Which clearly wasn't enough", I said.

"You know I'll tell Quil who'll tell Jacob that you're just letting yourself go for him", said Claire.

"You know I couldn't care less", I said sleepily.

"Alright then", she said leaving my room.

I quickly got up. I didn't want Jacob to know I was acting like this.

"Claire wait", I yelled.

She turned around.

"Don't let Jacob know I'm acting like this", I pleaded.

"I won't", she said.

After she left I took a deep breath in. I didn't realise how much I wanted Jacob back until this moment in time. I utterly needed him.