Chapter 18

Kitty

Kitty ran to her Heart Penticle and began the incantations. But instead of Jakob's grandmama, she decided to summon Nathaniel. Bartimaeus was right; she would never get over him if she didn't try.

She got the same results as last time, but this time, she made no noise whatsoever. She even went so far as to hold her breath.

After what seemed like an hour, the silver strands of human essence finished their task. Nathaniel was finished. His grey eyes scanned Kitty and her room. Kitty was almost to the point of tears before he spoke. "Kitty," He said softly.

Kitty nodded. "I summoned you."

"But how? Surely it's impossible."

"Look below your feet." Nathaniel looked. "I've invented a new type of penticle. It summons humans instead of djinn."

"But you're not a magician. How could you have possibly—?"

"I've summoned Bartimaeus too. On my own. Took three years, but—"

"Incredible! How did you ever accomplish this?"

"Determination and some help."

"Who helped you?"

"A minor by the name of Mr. Harold Button. He supplied the books. But, he died a few days ago."

"Wow, Kitty," Nathaniel breathed. "That's incredible." Nathaniel looked back to her. His eyes furrowed. "Why did you call me here, anyway?" He stopped for a moment and studied her. "Why are you tearing?"

Kitty closed her eyes for a moment, reopened them. "Bartimaeus says the best way to get over something is to face it."

Nathaniel looked genuinely confused. "But what is it that you're—Ah. You saw me die, didn't you?"

Kitty stayed silent. She didn't know what to say. She nodded instead.

"But I thought you didn't care about me." Nathaniel said, almost playfully.

Kitty looked into his eyes. Tears began to well again in her own.

"But you never cared about me, right?"

Kitty stayed silent for a moment. "Why do you think I saved you from Fred and Stanley? Why do you think I returned your Scrying Glass? Why do you think I saved you from the Golem?" Nathaniel remained silent. Kitty could tell from the look on his face that he was trying to find the right words to say, but couldn't find them. "Look, Nathaniel, the only reason I called you here was to tell you something." Kitty stopped and waited for him to reply. When he didn't, she continued on. "I needed to tell you that…I think I loved you."

Nathaniel looked into Kitty's eyes, gave a warm smile. "I think I did too. But let's promise to get over it." He shrugged. "I'm dead now, anwayway. So it'd be better to move on."

Kitty smiled. She thought it was forced, though. Nathaniel's last comment had stung, although she knew he was right. Bartimaeus was right, too. She wasn't trying to get over the past, mainly because she didn't want to. It felt as though a weight had been lifted off her shoulders, but dropped back on her, squishing the life out of her. She was feeling many things at the moment, but the strongest was rejection. Somewhere, she had been rejected. She had expected Nathaniel to do…well, something different from what he had done. It nearly broke her heart. Kitty forced herself to speak. "It was good to see you again."

"I'll see you again."

The thought of dying made Kitty woozy. She nodded and began the incantations. She didn't want to hear anymore from him. Bartimaeus was right; Nathaniel was a bastard. Even with love. He was a bastard at everything. Kitty slightly shook her head. Too bad you're in heaven, bastard. You don't deserve it. She thought to herself. Nathaniel divided into the silver streams and dissapeared.

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Ha, look at that! NatKitty, but with a special twist at the end! I like it! Tell me what you think. Next chapter is Kitty. And she does something special while Bartimaeus is out. 00, OO ooooh.