Edward's POV
We were nearing the hospital and I could begin to hear the rest of my families' 'voices'. I could tell from Jasper's mind that they were all sad, angry and hopeful. I could understand all of them and wasn't extremely excited to face up to the anger. But as fearful as I was, there was no way I was going to leave Bella in such a mess.
We were nearing the front of the hospital when I heard Bella's voice. It seemed so dead and lifeless, but didn't break my heart nearly as much as what she said next.
"I'm sorry. If I wouldn't have been around, then I wouldn't have forced you out of Forks. I am the reason everyone had to drop everything and come running, because I can't just suck it up. Stupid messed up Bella ruins everything, I'm so sorry I wasn't good enough for him. I'll never be good enough. I'll never-," I heard her break off when she started to cry.
The pain that resonated through my chest at her admission almost made me collapse. What had I done to her? My angel, my beautiful, perfect angel was hurting because of me. I pushed myself harder and finally made it through the doors of the hospital. I headed towards the stairs instead of the elevator so that I could get there faster.
Using my family member's minds to navigate myself I finally made it to Bella's hallway. Once there I froze. What was I supposed to do? What if she never forgave me? I'm the reason she's like this. I had no right to treat her so and don't deserve to have her back.
Just as I was contemplating turning tail, Esme walked out of Bella's room. When she saw me, the look in her eyes was that of a mother bear protecting her cub. I knew that she was happy that I was here, but she was also angry with me for leaving in the first place. She didn't say a word, but her mind was silently admonishing me. She saw my apology in my eyes and hugged me before leading me to the door to Bella's room.
I waited for Esme to open the door and prayed that Bella would be able to forgive me. I knew I wasn't worthy of her love, but I wanted it. I wanted her more than anything in the world. I just hoped she wouldn't tell me to go straight to hell, because that's exactly where I would be if she didn't accept me back.
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