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(BPOV)

When I woke up there was a note waiting for me, I looks to be from Edward. I guess I fell asleep after the carnival. Edward must have dropped me off, today is the day I get my treatment. I frown. I look at the note starting to read the beautiful writing of Edward.

Dear Bella,

I'm very scared for you today but I will always be by your side, I'm just hoping you will want me there. I love you so much, I hope you will be safe, and no worries my father is the best doctor I know around this small town, well the best ever. My love I' will see you in no time at all.

I feel as I'm going to cry, he is so sweet to me. What if I die and he has his hopes on me being the one person he spends the rest of his life with? I can't do that to him, I think I need to let him go. I need to leave him alone and not get his hope up, but I don't know if I can.

He's my life, I don't know if I could ever let him leave me, I also don't want to hurt him.

My heart would never be the same, and his wouldn't either.

I'm going to let him go, he needs to have a life.

When he comes over that's when I'll do it.

I lay in my bed for a few minutes. Someone knocks on my door.

"Come in." I say, in the door was Edward in all his glory. I smile, for some reason he looks really nervous.

"Hey love, would you go out with me before you get your treatment?" He asks still nervous. I smile and pat the spot next to me, he walks over with a small smile that still take my breath away. It's going to be so hard to let him down, to tell him to leave me.

"Sure." I think that might be the best time to tell him, before I go to deep down, before I get really sick. He sits next to me. He went to kiss me but I move away. He looks at me confused.

"I'm going to get ready." He smiles understanding now.

"Okay."

We are sitting in the little diner, waiting for our food. Edward was staring at me.

"Edward?"

"Yeah."

"I need to tell you something." I breathe.

"Yes?"

"I can't be with you anymore." Hurt crossed his beautiful face.

"What?" He says in a whisper.

"I don't think I can just sit by and watch myself die and your just falling deeper into my life. And I might die I'm sorry but I don't want to just sit here waiting for that to happen." He looks at me.

"Bella I love you, I want to stay here with you."

"No." I broke out; I don't think I can breathe.

"Bella, please don't do this." His eyes stare deep into mine.

"I'm sorry." I get up from my chair, and run out the door. I can hear Edward yelling after me. I just left him behind, his heartbroken, he will be better off without me.

I know you probably all made at me, but I'm making a saga of this story, so I will be updating the next chapter of what the story is called and everything, so please read it.