This is another shot –this does not take place or follow the story of the one previous it's just some random…depressing drabble about giving up giving up everything…gawd I need to stop being so emotional
From the get go, he knew her reasons, he knew why she was going through all of this, for him, her blonde companion that was lost, in the far reaches of death waiting for her to save him, despite that, he felt a pull of something he knew for days he shouldn't have.
They traveled and fought to save him all so she could have peace of mind, so she could have the love she desperately sought after.
"If only…she'd look my way" He kept it in, he had no choice, he knew better than to voice how he felt and admit to her his feelings – her eyes were for someone else, her love was for someone else, and her heart…would never be his. He knew it.
And yet his heart – as strong as it was couldn't take the sting of her calling out for - her searching for him, he felt…the whole time she was looking at him she was looking through him to see the man she loved.
"You…remind me of him, a lot like him" In a sick way, it made him happy, but he knew better he'd sigh at her words and continue on, he couldn't let them get to him so easily, as it went on people would openly comment at the closeness they had and how…right it looked to see them together, he'd dismiss it with a blush but she, Yuna openly denied it out right. It stung
It was probably his fault, for not saying anything, for not telling her how he felt, that had to be it, because all he felt now, was pain, complete pain – pain he couldn't reach, no matter how strong he was , how strong his heart, it still hurt more so than any physical blow could.
And yet, because he cared for her so and couldn't change his personality, she grew to see him as an emotional crutch and clung to him – unintentionally mind you, but she'd hug him more often and stare at him while he talked just a second too long despite that – neither of them would make a move – Sora out of respect and care, Yuna out of love for her lost companion.
He didn't pester her about why she did these things he felt he had no reason to, he went on everything was normal … until the end
He vanished in front of her, disappeared in a white flash and she was so hurt, so broken that she broke down – cried her heart out and couldn't keep herself composed. As much as he cared…as much as it hurt to see her like this and as much as he wanted to be the one to mend her broken heart, he knew it had to be him.
"Don't worry…Yuna" Sora whispered She looked at him through tear stained eyes
"How…how could you say tha, he's gone, Tidus…is gone!" Sora sighed
"Indulge me…in something, and I'll explain" she looked confused before she could protest he kissed her, hard her hands flew to his chest as she pushed him off
"W...What the hell are you doing why would – I love him and I won't move on just like that!" Yuna shouted as a sob took over her voice she kneeled down on the flowerbed below and Sora had a sullen look on his face, guilt, heart break and acceptance, he sighed.
"I know," He finally said he came to rest next to her letting his eyes meet hers
"And because of this…I'll bring him back to you." Sora whispered softly but she heard him
He stood up and went to the edge of the field
"I kissed you, because I felt something I shouldn't have, I knew, I've always known you loved him…but feelings grew that shouldn't have…and to show my forgiveness…" She looked on confused, but a fear came over her as she stood up slowly making way towards him
He turned to her a small sad smile formed on his lips.
"Goodbye…Yuna, it was fun while it lasted, but if you can't continue on like this, then it's only fair I give you what you need to keep moving" He smiled a bit brighter
"Just know…I do this, because I too, love you" He said with finality she reached for him but he was already gone fading into the same stream of light that Tidus did before she felt fresh tears fall again. She wrapped her hands around herself and cried, only when she felt strong arms wrap around her did she look up.
"He told me" The voice was familiar "To keep you happy, because he knew he couldn't he asked me to do it" She felt him grin, but she didn't share in it
"Was this the only answer, Tidus?" She turned to him now openly hugging him
"I, I wish I knew but I don't he gave me his life – his heart so I could come back to you, his love for you, was that strong – his feelings for you allowed him to let your dreams come true, can you really be upset? He did it all for you, Yuna" Tidus reasoned
"He gave up everything…for me, and I don't even feel that I deserve it"
"But, he felt you did, Yuna, he wanted you happy, that was his one selfish wish" Tidus pressed his lips against hers softly
"He gave me life to give you happiness,"
"And…I should be thankful but all I feel is sadness I'm sorry, I couldn't love you hopefully…you can one day forgive me…and thank you for giving me back the sun even if he won't be shining up in the sky anymore…he'll be shining in my heart"
A/N: sorry this…wasn't as good as my previous well my previous wasn't any good either but I felt like putting feels out there sorry you read this garbage x.x