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BPOV/July17

These past 10 days went fast. I was able have a semi normal life after spending days in bed. I know Alice was talking to Jasper but the rest of the Cullens had been busy. Some construction site was almost close to being ready. They all had been busy from what Rosalie told me on the phone the other day. I told her we could plan something when they had them time. Emmett was glad to hear that as he loved my cooking. I heard the smack on the phone with that remark. They both sent me their love and left me back to the business before us. Angela, Ben and I had busted our asses to get things done for the Palmer wedding. The mother told me the wrong date and we had more time thank goodness. I was heading to see my doctor for the follow up appointment. My stitches were gone and I was almost healed according to what I saw.

Alice wanted to take me but she got busy with a new client. I was still not released to drive my car. My poor car sitting in the garage was lonely for me. As soon as I could I wanted to take her out as soon as possible. Angela dropped me off and told me to call her when I was done. She wanted to check out a few markets that we may want to use for produce.

I told the nurse who I was and she told me to take a seat. Great they were running behind and I had things to do. I then heard my name called and the nurse took me back. She took all the necessary details and noticed I had lost some weight. She told me not to worry that it was perfectly normal. She left me there sitting in my bra and the lovely paper gown they give you.

The doctor came in and said he was glad to see me in better circumstances. We both laughed at that. He checked my incision and put some kind of steri strips on it. He gave me more to last a few days and then said to let it heal on its own. I was still not allowed to have a bath till it was fully healed but I was ready to go have a life again. I asked him about driving, boating and flying. He said it was all fine but no swimming just yet. He gave me the okay and told me if I had any problems to call his office or the hospital. I grabbed the paper work and headed out.

The sun felt glorious on my face and the plans I had thought of were finally coming into light. I called Angela and she was right there. She said she was heading back for me and would wait if I was not ready. She asked if everything is ok and I told her yes. I also asked her if I took some time for me could she handle all the shopping and prep work for the Palmer wedding. She said of course and not to worry. That is all I told her. I didn't want anyone to stop me from doing this nor did I want anyone going with me. This little life adventure was going to be on my own.

I went to the coach house and up to my room. I flipped open my cell and hit the right number. I was hoping the right someone would be at the store. I heard the phone pick up and asked for who I wanted. I was put on hold and then heard it pick up again.

"Hello this is Teddy speaking how can I help you?" Her voice made me feel calm. Her husband and her were very good friends of my parents.

"Teddy this is Bella and I need some help but you have to keep it secret if anyone calls ok?" I tapped my fingers on my desk.

"Bella it is so good to hear from you! We had heard such good things about the business and we hope you are feeling better. I almost flew down to take care of you but Peter stopped me." She said laughing. She had the best laugh and I had missed it.

"What can we do Bella? You know us we are always there for you." silence I knew she was waiting to hear what I wanted.

"Teddy I am coming to Alaska. I need to figure out some things and I want to stay at the cabin. The problem is I won't have a car, boat etc. Can you help in that?" I hope that she would not pry and just say yes.

"Bella you just tell us when and where and we are there. I have cabin keys if you don't and please don't worry about supplies we will have everything ready for you ok?" I was relieved to hear her say that.

"Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I will make plane reservations and call you back." We made small talk and then I hung up. I debated whether to drive to Seattle or take a plane there. I chose the latter and made reservations for it. I also called the airlines and booked a seat for the next available flight. It would not matter where I sat as long as I got there.

I called teddy back and told her the flight number. She said that they would be there at baggage claim waiting for me. She again said don't worry everything would be ready. I think she knew what was going to happen. I grabbed my big duffel bag and threw in grungy clothes. Jeans, t-shirts, sweatshirts and my boots were all that were going to be needed. Where I was going fancy dressing was not an issue. I realized I would have to tell someone where I was going. The obvious person was Alice so I sat down at my desk and typed out a note….

Alice,

I thought long and hard about our conversation the other night. You are right it is time for me to deal with all of this. How I am ever going to move on if I don't make peace with all of this. Please don't worry I am safe and I will call in a few days. Let me have this time to figure out where my head is.

Love you my sister and best friend

Bella

I taped the note to the front door so she would not miss it. I hoped that I could get a head start so she would not come get me or send our parents after me. I grabbed my bag and headed for the back driveway. The cab I had called was waiting for me. I crawled into the back seat and he closed the door. He asked where I was going and I simply replied back home. He nodded and started the engine. The drive to the airport was quiet other than the hum of the engine. I was dropped off and went through security. I did not have to wait long as my flight was called faster than I thought. I would make it in to Seattle with lots of time to think and catch my next flight.

I boarded while holding tight to my ticket. I strapped myself in and we readied for take off. I felt my stomach roll and I prayed to myself not to get sick. The take off was smooth and my stomach settled itself back down. I took out my iPod and turned it up loud. I wanted to drown in sound. I wanted the nightmares to go away and never come back. The flight from Portland to Seattle was not long. I found my other flight without any trouble. I found my seat and was so relieved that I was by myself. I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I knew we were landing at the Ketchikan International Airport.

I laughed internally at the thought of this being an International Airport. They called it that because the town was close to Canada. I walked down the stairs and into the main lobby. There stood Teddy and Peter with huge smiles on their faces. I ran to them with open arms and just hugged them till we could hug no more. Peter put his arm around my shoulders and asked how his kid was doing. I just gave him a half smile. He told me that everything would be ok and the past would be the past once again. I was right they knew why I was here and I loved that they did not interfere. They had been friends of my family as far back as I could remember. They were family just like Alice was. I just did not get to visit them as much.

We strolled to the truck and I noticed all the supplies in the back they had come through for me once again. We all piled in and waited for the ferry to take us over to the main part of town. This was the only town that I knew of that had its airport on another island. Many years ago it was on another island entirely and you had to take a plan to get to Ketchikan from there. I had seen pictures of it in the museum growing up.

My home town was small but spread out. A lot had changed in the past few years since I had been here. I noticed them right away as we drove to grab a bite to eat. We made small talk about the food challenge and the business. They were really proud of me of reaching one of my dreams. We drove out to Knudson Cove to load the boat up. They told me not to worry about it as a young teen came out and took everything down.

The ride in the boat out to the cabin was enjoyable. For once it was not raining and the water was smooth and sparkly from the sun on it. I saw the cabin come into view and tears came to my eyes instantly. It was so over grown and nothing like it was when I was growing up. Peter pulled the boat up to the beach and we started to unload. Teddy said not to worry about everything and to go unlock the back door. I did just that and met them on the kitchen side.

My grandparents had built this cabin from the ground up. It originally was one room with a small kitchen and huge fireplace at the other end. My grandfather added on a bedroom, bathroom and huge kitchen sometime in the 70's. I spent my summers here with my mom. I learned so much being here not only about the outdoors but about myself. Dad would come out when he could and go fishing. I scoured the kitchen area and saw no signs of mice. As long as they left me alone I would leave them alone.

Teddy handed me the keys and a walkie talkie. She said when ever I was ready to go home just to let them know. They also said that if Alice or my parents were to call they would deal with it too. I had my cell but the battery only lasted so long. I kissed them both and saw them walk down the beach. They were gone as fast as they came.

I started going through supplies. They got more than I needed but with no one here for the upkeep things were needed. They made sure I had candles and easy to prepare food as all I had was the fireplace. She also made sure there were supplies for smores and cosmos. I saw the note attached to the bottle and smiled at it. Teddy said that cosmos were good for the soul just like chocolate and to enjoy. I put everything on the counters and just walked through the cabin.

So many memories of baking pies and bread with my mother. I saw the mobile of driftwood I made for them still hanging. The pile of coloring books and crayons were still in the drawer where they always were. Everything was the same but different. My grandparents were gone but had lived long lives. My parents were gone but because of some stupid trip I sent them on. I was older and my life was a fucking mess. I had held it together for so long and was ready to explode.

I had to leave or the friendship I had with Alice would have been no more. I couldn't keep up this game anymore. My mind was not where it should have been and work kept me going. I sat down and started a fire. It may have been nice out but it would be cold tonight as a storm was moving in. I saw the clouds slowly moving in. I watched the flames till I started crying. The tears came and never left.

I made sure the fire was safe and went to walk the beach. The smell of salt air was pure heaven to my nostrils. I loved this beach as it would disappear at high tide and reappear at low tide. I spent many a summer learning about all the sea life that existed. I saw a fish jump and then gathered rocks to skip. After awhile it started raining had I been out here this long? I looked at my clock it was nearing dinner time. I was not hungry but I needed to eat. I went back in taking a load of wood with me. They had stocked the cabin with enough to last several days but with the rain here it would be hard to light later.

I took out some hotdogs out of the cooler and cooked them over the fire. Nothing like a hot dog over the fire made me feel so at home. I turned on my iPod and let the music engulf the room. I heard the walkkie talkie squawk. Peter said that Alice had called several times and so had my parents. He said he had told them I was fine and he was keeping watch on me. They did not argue with him at all he told me and that they were happy that I was going to deal with this finally. He said I must have had a great group of friends cause they were all waiting for me to come back home. I told them I did and they were more family than anything. He said to batten down the hatches for the storm and if I needed anything to let them know. I told him thank you and told him I was signing off.

I settled down in the sleeping bad and started reading the book I had brought. It was one on the list of many I had been meaning to read. I finally had the time to do it and I settled in for the night. The light of the fire flickered on the walls creating eerie shadows. I heard the rain fall on the back porch. I was home.