Jason Morgan and Alexis Davis, canon
September 2010

Instant Addiction
Part Five

Alexis debated if she should just let Jason walk out, mad at her- whether he would admit to that or not- or if she should stop him. She almost thought...by the look in his eyes...that she had hurt his feelings.

That had not been her intention at all. Sure she would like to have some crazy, wild, sex everywhere and anywhere, sort of thing with him but she had to be reasonable. She was a mother, a mother-in-law, a devoted aunt, god mother, best friend, ex-wife, baby mama of a mob boss, lawyer with responsibilities and she could not just have hot nasty sex for the fun of it.

Could she?

Could I? she asked herself.

No! She couldn't.

No! I can't, she told herself.

She just had to stop thinking that way about Jason. Because she knew her. Great sex led to her wanting more. Hello? Ever heard of Ric Lansing. He wasn't even nearly as good in bed as Jason but he was quite endowed and he was energetic and he was there...wanting to be her rock...and so she married the guy. Not her finest hour.

Though Jerry Jacks was worst. God, she had made some mistakes in her life.

Jason was a totally different type of man though. Alexis suddenly realized that maybe Jason thought she believed he was not good enough for her to even want in her bed...that she felt he was less worthy to be with her than Ric or Jerry. Which was not what she thought at all.

She just thought sleeping with Jason was complicated and she wasn't up for complicated when they weren't going to be a couple...were they?

Why do I keep thinking this would lead to more than just sex if we let it? There is no proof or evidence to substantiate the theory he wants that, she berated herself as she ran outside to stop him from leaving, in her bare feet since she had stripped off her shoes and panty house right before she opened her bottle of wine.

"WAIT!"

Alexis ran off the deck, down the driveway, passed the guards who were shocked at this scene, and grabbed the handle bar of Jason's bike. "Come back inside."

"What is it you want to say?"

"Inside."

He nodded and followed her inside. She started to pace. "First, Jason, I'm sorry if you were offended. You know I care greatly about you....that came out wrong...that's what I say to Sonny and you...you are a lot of things..." she looked at his ass and then looked away, as she paced a circle around him "like a hitman and my daughter's ex-lover and Sonny's right hand man and a lot of other good and bad things that I really don't think I need to get into because you know them already as well as I do...because we know each other well...but what you are not is Sonny to me. So I won't talk to you like I talk to him..." she let out a breath. "I like you, Jason."

A small smile curved his lips. "That's better."

"I like you but I don't like flings. Sorry. Thank you for asking, though."

"Did I ask you for a fling?"

"In a roundabout way, yes, you did and you were mad when I said no. Don't try to play it off. I can read people. It's the litigator in me. You were mad when you walked out....weren't you?"

"Yeah."

She smiled slightly. "That's sweet."

"Alexis...can I talk now?"

"I don't see what is left to say, really. I don't do flings anymore and so what happened last night...while being mind blowing...can not happen again. I really believe, if you think more about it, you'd agree."

"I won't try to talk you into something you don't want."

"You'll agree when you really think more about the logistics of this."

"If you aren't interested, I get that. I should go." He walked passed her.

XXXXXXXXXXX

Mind blowing. Those two words stuck in Jason's head. He was let down that Alexis was hell bent on them not pursuing anything but at least she enjoyed what happened as much as he had.

That would have to be enough for him. Because she wasn't offering more.

He'd have to get by without ever burying himself between her thighs again. And he'd have to forget about all the fantasies he wanted to act out with her now. That ride to Alaska was looking better and better. Cause he did need to forget the sex they had.

Or else he'd do something like grab her and kiss her. Lose control of his emotions. He didn't want to feel or act that way ever again...he'd done it before and it scared the hell out of him to be that way.

Jason pulled open the door. The gaurd standing there, Marco, nodded at him.

Alexis asked "And you agree, right?"

He felt like groaning. She wanted to talk about why they couldn't ever sleep together again. Talk. He didn't want to talk. He wanted her naked on her dining room table, with the curtains closed so the men couldn't see them...but then they would still hear...who gave a fuck what they heard?

He wanted her naked no matter who would know about it.

Jason slowly turned around. He closed the door again. "I don't agree to anything you've said since I got here. The only thing that made any sense is I'm not Sonny."

"And I like you. Don't forget that part. I do like you immensely."

Immensely. He was moving up now. Mind blowing and immensely. He couldn't remember savoring words so much since the days when Brenda was his wife....sometimes a word or two made a real difference to a man.

"Good."

Alexis' eyes were wide and confused. She nibbled on her bottom lip for a moment. She took off her glasses and waved them around. Jason simply stared at her, wondering when she went from gorgeous to also cute. She was getting to him now and he knew it.

He was taking her way too personal after one night of sex.

But this was Alexis. Alexis. The woman he knew for over a decade. A friend. Someone he trusted. Someone he confided in. He could get pissed at her or argue with her but he knew she had his back-and that was just what she was not supposed to do with the job she had.

But she did it anyway.

There was a time Jason felt like shit in her eyes- when he dated Sam. He thought they got past that though. That she knew he gave up Sam that summer to protect her, and even if he screwed it all up later. He had really loved her daughter and done right by her for a while there before they went to hell. Jason thought Alexis respected him again now.

Maybe it wasn't about what she thought of him though. It was just that she wasn't in the right place to start something new. He could understand that.

Waving her glasses around Alexis said "But you don't agree with me? Why? How do you figure a fling would be beneficial to either of us? I mean yes it would be a stress reliever but lets not lie...fantastic sex leads to emotions getting tangled up in it every time...that's just what fantastic sex does-" she stopped abruptly, looked at the glass doors, and whispered "Do you think Marco can hear us?"

She put her glasses down, grabbed Jason's hand and drug him to the hallway. "There, that's better. Okay. So you see I'm right, don't t you?"

He was still holding her hand. Her soft, warm, gentle hand that had closed around the hard length of him the night before. He really liked this hand. He pulled her closer to him and she yelped. "I don't even know what you're talking about."

"What? Are you not listening? Please focus. Its important. And hard to say so its not fair to make me repeat myself." Alexis let out a short breath as their eyes held on each other.

Jason wanted to just lean over and kiss her. There was a wall not a foot away. They could get this worked out the sweatiest way possible. But he had restraint and he stepped back, letting go of her hand. He rubbed his head. "You don't want to fall for me."

"Did I say that? I don't think I said that- exactly."

"What did you say then?"

"That I would fall for you if...that...last night...that amazing time...happened over and over."

Amazing. Over and over. Jason was finally starting to like where this was going. Now if he could just get how her mind was working. Saying each word slowly he asked "And that's a problem because?"

Her eyes widened to huge brown orbs. She spoke super fast when she cried "It would be very complicated!"

She looked like she just might pass out. Jason touched her arm. "You okay? Alexis? Hey. Lets sit down."

He tried to lead her to the living room but she grabbed his hand and drug him to a bedroom. He looked around and saw lots of dolls, a tea set, and tons of purple everything: bed spread, clothes, curtains. This was Molly's room.

Alexis leaned against the door, breathing erratically. "Last night was nice. Agreed?"

"Yeah."

"And its clear it was meant to be a one time thing. Agreed?"

"Its not clear to me. But I'll go along with what you want...without pushing the issue...because I respect you too much to...try and get you involved in something you don't really want."

"What...exactly...would you imagine we might become if this was something I wanted?"

"I wouldn't imagine. I don't do that."

"Jason! Please. Answer me. This is big. Do you want to leave here knowing where we stand or not? Cause I would prefer to not be left here wondering. That's just me though. Maybe you feel I'm bothering you with my incessant questioning. I do that, be warned, I question things to death."

"I know that."

"Right, of course. You know. You've known me for years. So you know."

"Yeah."

"Are you going to answer me or not?"

"What is the question again?" He really had to pay closer attention.

Thinking about kissing her till she moaned, then ripping off that silk blouse and letting his mouth go to work on her breasts till she was pulling at his hair in ecstacy, then sliding down that skirt and using his teeth to get those lacy, hopefully soaking wet, panties off her would not help him right now.

Alexis made things complicated. Jason liked things simple. But he wanted to sleep with her again so he was willing to let her put him through his paces. He didn't need easy. He didn't need uncomplicated. He just needed to be inside of her another time.

That felt right. After way too long of feeling nothing but wrong.

Alexis asked "If we have sex again don't you think it would lead to dating and don't you think that would be a disaster waiting to happen and don't you think you should leave while we can still say we didn't go too far today despite being extremely tempted to? Don't you think so too?"