Jason Morgan and Alexis Davis, canon

September 2010

Instant Addiction

Part Seven

This time they got to cuddle. Alexis rested her head on his still beating fast heart. She intertwined their fingers. She kissed his chest one more time. "Surprise me again tomorrow."

He ground out, barely able to catch his breath, "Count on it."

Her eyes drifted close. He kissed her sweat slicked forehead. Her eyes opened and looked up and into his. They shared a tender gaze.

Alexis realized she should have guessed he wasn't thinking about a no emotion fling. They might not know what they would end up but this was too powerful to play off as not emotionally charged.

Jason must feel it too. The way they became a whole new entity together.

She could do dinners, walks by her lake, sex in the backseat of his bullet proof limo (after it was checked for bombs, naturally), and whatever else Jason wanted to share with her. She could care more about his hurts, his losses, his dreams...about his son he couldn't see...she could offer a shoulder to lean on. She could give him herself...and she could try....because he made her want to.

Not just because the sex was good. This was Jason. The guy she knew for so far back she nearly forgot who she was before she came to this town and got caught up with these people. He was one of the few men on earth she knew really well...even if he confused her sometimes with his way of thinking and not speaking.

But this was Jason. Of course she wanted to date him if he wanted to date her.

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He didn't think this would happen to him again in his life. That he would be in bed with someone that mattered. Someone he knew and trusted. Someone who got him. Someone who wouldn't wonder who he was...why he loved his chosen family, and why it took him so long to go back to his birth family, and why his son called Lucky Daddy, and why he couldn't go steal Carly away from Jax already and get it over with.

Alexis didn't have to say: What's wrong with you, Jason? Why are you so fucked up anyway?

She knew him already. She knew why he was cold, sometimes, and why he was loyal to who he was loyal to, and why he was lonely and why he needed her.

And if she didn't know the last part, then Jason would figure out a way to show her. Cause she was the talker. He liked action.

He wasn't madly in love with her....not yet. Give him time. He could see liking this for a long time to come. And that was more than he had in so long...so damn long.

He really did need her- and he knew that.

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A few minutes later, when Alexis was nearly asleep, Jason ran his hand through her hair. "When are your kids coming home?"

She bolted up right, grabbed the clock and said "Any-"

"MOMMY!" Molly yelled

"Alexis! You here?" Ric yelled

Jason jumped up and hurried to the bedroom door to lock it. While Alexis whispered "Clothes! Put on some clothes...wow...that is a great ass..clothes! Now! Move it!"

"Okay, I'm moving!. You did want the door locked right?" he asked in annoyance.

"Of course!" she whispered as she put on her clothes.

"MOMMY! I'm home! Nadine made us deep fried frog legs! We brought you some!"

Alexis whispered "You can keep them," and then said loudly "That's great, sweetie. Mommy is changing. Go to the living room with Daddy, okay?"

"Alexis," Ric's deep voice was closer now.

Jason glared at the door, as he slipped on his jeans.

Ric went on "Hey. I think Kristina got Molly's sore throat. She was complaining about it but it could just be that math test she has tomorrow that she is trying to avoid."

"Okay. Thanks! I'll look into that!"

"Everything okay?" Ric asked. "You're not sick too, are you? I swear I can't get sick. I have court all week."

"I'm just getting changed. Can I have five minutes?"

"Sure. Take your time. Come on, sweetie, let Mommy finish up, okay?" His footsteps could be heard walking away, and so could Molly's.

Jason hissed out, under his breath, "Fucker." He slid on his shirt.

Alexis whispered "We can save the arguement about why you have to work harder to get along with him for another day, you have to go now." She opened the window.

Jason raised an eyebrow.

She said "Go."

He slipped on his shoes, saying to hell with his socks in the rush, and grabbed his coat. He walked over to the window. Raising one hand to cup her face he kissed her deeply. "When do you have time again?"

"For....what exactly?"

"Me exactly."

"I mean...sex or drinks and dinner or working on a legal matter or taking the kids to the park?"

"Would you....take your girls to the park...with me? Its dangerous."

"I know that. That's why the kids play in the backyard on their swingset. You can come play whenever you want."

He nodded and then climbed out the window. He looked back inside. "For all of that. There's your answer. Night, Alexis."

She stood there speechless as he slipped away, but she was well aware of one thing: now all the gaurds would know about them.

There was no way to secretly date Jason Morgan so she better, as Spinelli always said when he was eating chips on her couch with Sam, "man up" and face what was coming. Everyone was going to have something to say.

But it would be worth the hassle. Because Jason wanted "all of that" with her. She smiled as she left her bedroom and went into the bathroom to finish fixing herself up before she saw her kids.

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Jason showed up at Carly's house around midnight. He had gone home, showered and fallen into bed for some much needed sleep, but he woke up just three hours later.

Getting dressed again he ended up on her porch, slipped his key in the door, nodded at the gaurds and went inside. Sitting on the couch, he flipped on a light and waited for her to come down.

If she was awake, she would have heard the door. If Jax was awake, he'd tell her.

So Jason waited.

Sometimes he had to wait hours. Wait for her to want water, or chocolate, or pizza at 3 am, like she did way too many nights. But she always woke up the nights he waited.

It wasn't ten minutes later when she came down, looking half asleep. Jax had woken her up, obviously.

"Jase," she said softly.

He rose from his seat and hugged her. She sat on the couch and he sat back down. She tucked her feet around her and pulled a blanket off the couch to wrap up in.

"Sorry to wake you."

"M.J. will need her bottle soon anyway. What's up?"

"You're going to hear things tomorrow...from the gaurds ...so I wanted to tell you first."

"What kind of things? Is there trouble brewing?"

"With the Feds, yeah, there is. And I need to talk to you about that but not tonight."

She stared at him for a moment. "Is this about Alexis?"

He nodded. "How did you...?"

Carly shrugged. "Her story about you hiring her sucked. She didn't sell it good enough."

"I did hire her."

"Before yesterday?"

"Today."

"Exactly. But yesterday she was blabbering on like a fool and I knew she was hiding something about you...something too personal to tell me. And Sonny was here earlier....he wants to know if me and Jax are stable."Carly's voice fell into a hoarse whisper "Usually that means he wants me back...but he's happy with Gia...so that means...he's afraid I want you back.....guess he just don't get that its not an option anymore."

With his voice filled with emotion, Jason choked out her name, as he felt it vibrate through every part of his soul. "Carly."

She gave him a sad smile. "So, tell me....Alexis?" She screwed up her face in a sign of displeasure.

Jason laughed through the tears he didn't shed. "Yeah."

Her voice was light and teasing. "I'm gonna need more than yeah!"

With a small smile he asked "What do you want to know?"

"Everything," she said, as if this was the latest movie at the theaters. But Jason knew she didn't want to know cause it was good gossip. She wanted to know because she wanted to know all his secrets and all his memories.

He hadn't wanted to tell her this today. He wanted to wait till he really had to tell her. But the guards would talk. He couldn't let her feel lied to again. Or shoved aside. Or like he was sneaking around on her again because he wasn't.

"It just started. We're...figuring it out. But I'm doing this so you should know that...and you should not fight with her about this...for me. Please."

"Just started...as in when?"

"After the wedding."

"Last night....so...you're here already."

"Yeah."

"Oh."

She knows me way too well, Jason thought. But he would never wish that away. Carly's eyes told him what he hadn't quite admitted inside his own head yet. He came to tell Carly not just because of the gaurds but because he needed her to know he was serious about someone else....again...finally.

And this time she heard it from him straight out. Because this time he wasn't playing around.