Thank you all for your great reviews! I don't own these characters but I do have 6 inches of new snow outside. The songs for this chapter are "Monster Mash" by Bobby Pickett, "Lil Red Riding Hood" by Blackwell, "Dead Man's Curve" by Jan and Dean, "Witch Doctor" by Bagdasanan, The Cd's of "Halloween and Halloween Volume 2: Creature Collection" by Manheim Steamroller and "I Put A Spell On You" by Jay Hawkins. I hope I don't disappoint you all! Please enjoy!

BPOV/OCOTBER 31ST

I woke up feeling more alive than ever before. Sleeping in a hotel bed sucked these past few weeks. I was glad to be back at home in my own bed. I noticed it was early afternoon and wondered why I slept so late. It dawned on me this was the first time no one had to work, a party or anything else going on. I took a shower and grabbed a simple snack.

As I enjoyed the fruit salad I had picked I went over the conversation Angela and I had in the hotel room. She said to check the bracelet I had received on my birthday. I finished up my snack and went up to my room. I put it in my jewelry box before we left to get read for the ball. I opened the box up and took it out. I looked it over and over and did not see a thing. I started rubbing my fingers over the little hearts and stopped when I felt something. I undid the clasp and spread it out on my dresser. There in small but capitol letters was a message.

B I LOVE YOU E

I had not noticed it before. It dawned on me that he had sent me messages about how he felt I just chose to ignore them. I hoped that after tonight he would not have to guess how I felt about him. I put the bracelet back in my box and went back down stairs.

The phone rang and it was nice to hear Angela's voice. She told me that I was the one to hand out the cookies tonight till everyone came. I asked why no one else was coming and she said they were visiting one of the hospitals to deliver bags to the sick kids. She told me that they did it every year so they were going to be later than normal. I told her fine and everything could be handled. She also told me not to worry about dinner tonight it was being taken care of. I was going to ask and she said it was her secret. I told her I had some errands to run and I would be back in time go get dressed and see the decorations. She told me to have a great day before she hung up.

I rinsed my bowl out and locked up. Angela caught me with a platter of cookies for Kellie. She knew something but kept it to herself. I went to my car and headed for the store that I was beginning to love. Kellie was expecting me as she welcomed me with open arms.

"Bella I am so happy to see you again! I have so many things for you to look through." She led me into her store and pulled down the blinds. I saw racks of beautiful costumes and I didn't know where to start. I gave her the cookies and told her to enjoy. She carefully took one of the ghosts off the platter and rolled her eyes when she tasted it. I laughed and said she was permanently on the cookie list for our friends. She was happy to hear that.

"Alice told me to give you carte blanche of the store. What ever you want it is yours. Do you have an idea of what you want to wear tonight?"

"I really don't know. I am hoping this night will be memorable so I want to look my best."

She nodded at me and turned around. I saw her grab several things and hand them to me. The first costume was a pirate wench. Granted my boobs looked fucking awesome it just was not me. She then handed me a beautiful renaissance dress. It was beautiful with its blue color and white top. It was simple and would be easy to wear. I put it aside just incase I did not find what I really wanted.

She had me try on so many costumes and nothing was catching my eye. I don't know who was more frustrated her or me about this whole situation. I saw a gleam in her eyes when she said she had received a special costume this morning. She said that she had it special ordered and could only get one for that special someone. She went into the back room and let me look around.

She came out and handed me the most beautiful costume. The skirt was made out of layers of tulle in blue, green and purple. The bodice was tight fitting and followed my collar bone. It matched the colors of the tulle but shimmered like diamonds. The sleeves were the same colors made out of another fabric I didn't know. The thing that caught my eye was the wings. They looked like a monarch butterflies but were in the colors of the costume. It had shimmering tights, a tiara and wand. She told me the tiara was special and unique just like me. She also mentioned it had a built in bra so I would not have to worry about that. I put it on and heard a gasp behind me shaking me out of my dream.

"Bella it is perfect for you. I would do your make- up to match the dress…." Kellie went on explaining how she would do it and how my hair should look. I agreed with her on all of her ideas.

"I have one more thing that will make the night." She disappeared and returned as quickly as she left. In her hands was the most beautiful pair of shoes. They had a slight heal but had a scrolling design on them. They looked like spun glass and they sparkled like the tights. They made the whole outfit.

Kellie wrapped everything carefully in tissue paper and put it in a bag for me. When I went to pay for it she said it was all taken care of.

"I love my dear friend but sometimes she is a little controlling in what I wear. Damn her to pay for this." I was upset but stopped when I saw the look on Kellie's face.

"Bella she did not pay for it someone else did. They also asked me to give you this." She handed me an envelope. She handed me the bag and said to enjoy my evening. As I sat in my car I was worried as to what could be in that envelope she handed me. My hands shook it as I opened it carefully. I looked at the fine lettering and slowly read it in my head.

Bella,

Your presence is required tonight to attend a Halloween party.

Please be dressed and ready to leave by 9pm sharp.

I turned it over to see if there was anything written on the front but there was nothing. It didn't tell me who was coming to get me or where to go. Shit I was walking into this blindly damn that friend of mine. I knew she was behind this. At least I knew that the party would be fun.

As I drove home I got a text from Angela saying to park in front of the main house. One of our neighbors was having a party and was using the back road. There were cars everywhere. Why the hell did they not say something to me about it? I don't have a problem with it but I would have made other arrangements than taking my car out. I parked in front of the main house and took my stuff in. Angela and Ben had all the baskets of cookies ready to go. I noticed their costumes. Ben was dressed as Major Anthony Nelson and Angela was dressed like Jeannie. Their costumes were adorable and very authentic. Trick-or-treating would start soon and I needed to be ready for it. Angela said to use one of the spare rooms to get dressed in. I told her she would have to help me with my hair and make-up. I swear I saw her levitate up the stairs at that thought.

Ben was laughing as I went up the stairs. Angela grabbed my hand as I got to the top and pulled me into her room. She said everything was already out as they just got into theirs. She told me to get dressed. She had a huge mirror in there for me to make sure everything was where it should go. She started on my hair first. She put big curls in it and then pulled it all the way back. The curls cascaded down my back. It made my neck show more. She took out the tiara that I was holding in my hand and pinned it where the curls started.

The tiara that came with the costume was unique. At least that is what I was told when I received it. It was a simple band but coming off it were thin strands covered in glass. It looked like dew drops and sparkled in the light. My wand matched it perfectly too.

She started in on my make-up doing the normal things. She said I didn't need blush as I had a natural blush. I blushed when she said that and said well that proves my point. She put a soft pink lipstick on me and covered it in a special gloss with sparkles in it. She lined my eyes and did soft shades on my eyelids. She turned me around and had me look in the mirror. It was so simple but I was beautiful. She placed my wings on my back and then ran out of the room mentioning one more thing.

She came back with a can of spray. She was going to spray me to death with hair spray. She calmed me down and said it was sparkle dust in a can. She softly sprayed my bare shoulders and neck. She had me close my eyes as she sprayed my face. I heard the hair dryer start and she carefully blew warm air on me. She said to look now and see what I thought.

I turned around and the dust made the costume. Alice must be rubbing off on Angela. She checked my make- up once again to make sure nothing had smeared or that my eyelashes where stuck together from the glue in the dust. I couldn't be more perfectly put together. I sat on their bed and carefully put on the beautiful shoes. She said to leave my things there and to go enjoy the kids. I stopped there was one thing I was forgetting. I asked her to place the pumpkin I carved on the porch at the coach house. She told me not a problem and she would make sure it was lit.

We both headed downstairs. I asked what they had planned and they replied they were going to a party at some club. I told them they could join me in my evening but they said that wanted some time alone. I went in to the kitchen and grabbed the visa card I got for them. I had to make it up for screwing up their trip. They were both elated when I told them there was enough on there to enjoy the evening and not to come back till Sunday night. They both hugged me and left me there by myself. When I turned to start the Halloween music I noticed how dark it was. I could see all the lights out in the front yard. Angela must have turned on the decorations when she left. Even though it was dark it was still early so I took the moment to look at everything. I went back into the kitchen and grabbed the camera we kept handy for taking cake pictures and whatnot.

I went out to the sidewalk and my mouth fell open. All of the trees were done in orange and purple lights. The whole front of the house was decorated in cob webs and there were huge spiders everywhere. I noticed a ghost peaking out the window in our storage room. The stone walkway was lined in sand filled luminaries. They glowed in the darkness. I laughed to myself when I noticed all the pumpkins. There were so many that they were strategically placed all over the yard and porch. There were gravestones too with weird sayings on them. It was perfect scary but not scary. I filled what was left of the memory card and went back inside.

I went into the kitchen to put the camera back into the drawer we kept it in. I was heading back out but noticed a plate on the counter. Angela said that dinner was going to be later but to enjoy the snack. She had put out my favorite sandwich. Turkey, Swiss cheese, bacon, tomato on a croissant. I poured myself a glass of milk to go with it. It was just the right amount to keep my hunger at bay. I was rinsing the dishes and putting them in the dishwasher when I heard the doorbell ring.

I opened the door and hear "TRICK-OR-TREAT!!!" The kids were so cute in their costumes. One little girl was an angel, another was a princess and the little boy was a robot. They all said thank you and I handed some extra cookies to the parents. Hours went by as the kids came. There were so many wonderful costumes out there. The last one to arrive was a little girl. She was with her mom and was a little kitty. When I opened the door she whispered trick-or-treat. Her mom made her say it again so I could hear it. I knelt down to her level as I put the cookies in her bag.

"You are so pretty!" She was so cute in her little ears and tail. I put another few bags of cookies in her bag and told her to share with her parents. She said she would as they walked down the steps. She turned around and smiled at me again. She skipped as her mom took her down the street.

I closed the door behind me and grabbed the last basket of cookie to place in the kitchen. I was slightly upset that everyone was still gone. I noticed it was nearing the time to get ready to do to this party. I don't understand why Alice had to be so damned cryptic sometimes.

I went back to make sure the doors were locked. I set the alarm and then noticed the decorations were on a timer. At least I didn't have to worry about turning them off later. I made sure the stereo was off and double checked the windows. I have ocd when it comes to checking and recheck things. I walked back into the kitchen and heard the phone ring. I heard the click of the answering machine turn and then heard Alice telling me to pick up.

"Hi Alice…" She stopped me as I was going to ask what the party was all about. I was also going to bitch her out for paying for me costume. I stopped when she said to listen and not speak.

"Bella put the blind fold on and go to the back door. Don't ask any questions please just do it for me. After this I won't be so pushy." She hung up after that. What the hell was going on?

I hung the phone up and turned around noticing a mask on the counter with my name on it. It was a black blindfold. I put it carefully on and just stood there making an ass out of myself. I heard the back door open slowly then shut. Who got in here when the alarm was on? It had to have been Alice she was the only one that knew the code other than Angela and Ben.

"Alice I swear if you make me break my neck wearing this damn thing I am going to come back and haunt your scrawny ass!"

I heard a chuckle and it was not Alice's voice. A hand grabbed mine and pulled me towards the door. I heard the door lock and the code being put back in. I was led down the steps and stood there. I tried to take off the blind fold and was stopped as I felt fingers grace my collar bone. Great some person was accosting me but damn I was enjoying it. I was led on again and felt something hard under my feet.

I felt the hand let go of me and I just stood there. I felt warmer than I when I was first led out of the house. A faint scent wafted into my nostrils as it was somehow familiar to me. Another scent moved around me as I stood there and it reminded me of something. I felt fingers slowly taking off my mask and I blinked to get accustomed to the light again.

I looked around me and noticed I was under a tent. It was adorned in blue and white roses. Big tall candelabras were glowing all over the place. I saw a big table laid out in my china for a party of eight. I saw a buffet table laid out with all sorts of foods. I was confused more now than ever.

I heard a throat clear behind me and I turned around to see Edward looking at me. I tilted my head as I saw what he was dressed in. He was King Oberon to my Queen Titania. He stood there looking at me with a twinkle in his lovely green eyes. He was dressed in a costume that matched mine. The colors were different but you could tell we were together. A gold crown was on top of his head with his hair sticking out all over it.

As we looked at each other all I knew was I never wanted to let him go again. We both took two steps forward to each other and the scent was back. It was him and it was familiar to me cause of the dance we shared that night.

His hands were cupping each of my cheeks as he slowly bent down and kissed me. His lips were so soft against mine. I could feel electricity clear down to my toes. He broke his embrace and wrapped his arms around my waste. I slowly took my hand and ran it down his face to his heart. I could feel it beating through his chest. He put his forehead and placed it on mine. We stood in silence till I heard someone clear their throat.

I turned around with Edward's hand still around me and looked at everyone. They started out as friends but became my family. They all had smiles on their faces as they looked at the both of us. We both had come a long way in our lives. We both had felt pain and grew from it. I just hoped that Edward would take it slow and we could show each other who we were.

"I don't know about you all but I am starving." I rolled my eyes when I heard Emmett talk about food.

We all sat down at the table for dinner. I still wanted to know who or how they pulled this all off. It was then I realized everyone was in costume. Emmett was wearing pajamas, a velvet coat and smoking a pipe and the moustache that was on his lip looked like toupee for a mouse. Rosalie was dressed in a very revealing bunny costume. For someone that was pregnant she pulled it off even with a baby bump.

Alice and Jasper were Tinkerbelle and Peter Pan. Knowing her the way I do it was her idea to dress up like that. Jasper would do anything for her though even if it was wearing tights showing the junk in his trunk. Carlisle and Esme came as Lucy and Ricky. It was funny to see Esme in a bright orange wig.

Two waiters came out of no where and started serving dinner. We all started to eat but the euphoria I was feeling took over. I wanted to know how this all came about because I am sure Alice was behind it all.

"Alice spill it how did you pull this all off? I took a bite of the steak that was in front of me.

"Bella I had nothing to do with any of this other than what Jasper and I are wearing." She looked at me with truth in her eyes and she pointed to Edward. I whipped my head around and he smiled at me. He leaned down and kissed me again with champagne on his lips.

Dinner was wonderful and it was funny to hear the stories about how the costumes came about. She told us how he tried on the costume for superman and ripped it in the crotch. I nearly fell off my chair at hearing that.

"The worst part of it was we had to pay for the costume anyway. If anyone wants a crotch less superman suit we have one up for grabs." We all laughed at that.

"I am assuming the pixie picked out yours for the evening?" I looked at Alice then at Jasper.

He just smiled and nodded at me. He leaned over and kissed her beautiful lips and she sighed putting her head on his shoulder. Love at first site for those two and I knew wedding bells would be soon.

"Jasper my brother your balls are in a Dixie cup!" We all heard a crack and he was rubbing his head.

"You will have more of your anatomy in a Dixie cup if you keep that up!" Rose was pointing her finger into his chest. She rubbed the back of his head and kissed him. I tried to hide the giggles but burst out laughing at the thought of that. Edward grabbed my hand and kissed it. His lips on my skin sent shivers down my back.

We were enjoying a wonderful dessert when Alice asked Esme how they picked out their costumes. Carlisle said that Esme had always loved the show "I LOVE LUCY" and that was that. All through our meal he kept yelling Lucy at the top of his lungs. It was quite a site to see them be so romantic after all the years of marriage.

The dishes were cleared and I could hear soft music coming from somewhere. Edward held out my chair and softly pulled me up. He took me outside the tent and I noticed the string quartet in the gazebo. He pulled me into an embrace as we danced under the stars and moonlight. I put my head on his chest so I could hear his heart beat. It was so cold out but I was warm with Edward so close.

The others joined us slowly and soon we were all dancing. Alice kept giggling as Jasper was whispering in her ear. Carlisle kept dipping Esme as they twirled about. Emmett was lost in Rosalie's eyes as he was holding her close.

I was so lost in the moment that I was startled when Edward looked up to the coach house. He must have seen what I carved into the pumpkin. I will have to thank Angela later for lighting it for me. He took my hand and led me to the porch. I spent hours carving those beautiful letters to spell out how I felt. He ran his fingers over our initials and the heart. He turned back around and put his hands around my waist again. I saw his eyes twinkling as he looked at me. I started to blush and he put his hands on my cheeks.

"I love it when you blush. We have a lot to discuss and find out about each other. We have forever for that." His thumbs were making soft circles around on my cheeks. I leaned into him and my lips crashed on his.

I jumped into his arms and wrapped my legs around his waist. I felt his tongue fight entrance into my mouth. I pulled back and looked at him as I felt the tears start to form in my eyes. He kissed my forehead and held me tighter. I didn't know how to explain things to him but all I knew was I loved him and never wanted to let him go.

I heard someone clear their throat again behind us. Edward walked out with me still wrapped around him. He carefully set me down on the grass and wrapped his hands around my waist again. I never wanted those hands to leave me again. Esme walked up and hugged us both. I saw tears in her eyes as she pulled back.

"Mom what is wrong?" Edward was worried about her. Just like his brothers they loved their parents and would do anything for them.

"I am just so happy. I am going to be a grandmother and you both finally found your soul mates. Sarah would be happy that you moved on. She told me the night before she died that she wanted you to find someone to make you happy again. Bella you helped bring Edward back to us." She kissed my cheek as Carlisle put his hands around her waist.

I felt Edward slowly come down to my ear. I felt his breath against my skin and I shivered. I was going to combust from all the erotic love I was feeling.

"I will explain everything to you my love." He pulled back and put his head on top mine.

"I don't know about all of you but it is late and I have a very tired bunny to get home." Emmett was rubbing his hands on Rosalie's belly. I hugged them both and Rose said she would call me tomorrow she had a lot to tell me. I felt so bad for missing out on so much but she understood at least I hope she understood. I watched them walk down the path and go home.

"Bella I am staying with Jasper tonight. We have a lot to talk about but we can do that tomorrow. Enjoy your evening." She hugged me and I watched her and Jasper walk off. I heard her squeal; Jasper must have goosed her as he put her in his truck.

"Bella our home is your home now. Carlisle and I are here for you whenever you need anything. Don't be a stranger my dear girl." Esme meant that I was a part of their family. Edward told me he would be right back. He wanted to walk his parents to their car.

I stood there looking around at what I had accomplished. The business was thriving and doing better than I had ever thought it would. I looked at the home I shared with Alice and thought of the wonderful memories we had started to create. I thought of my car that dad had worked so hard on. All of these thoughts were rushing through my brain. I almost lost it all and I would never let doubt and hurt take over my life again. I knew the hard times were not over but I never wanted them to live my life for me ever again. I felt warm hands around my waist again and his head on my shoulder. It sent shivers up my body like a rocket.

"Bella you are cold let's go inside." I smiled and nodded at him but then stopped.

"What about all of this?" I turned around and looked at the tent and the rest of the mess.

"It is all taken care of don't worry." He kissed the top of my head and then took my hand leading me up the steps to the garage.

We walked hand in hand up the stairs to the house. I finally realized that I was cold but didn't feel it cause of what I was feeling.

"Bella you are so cold. Please my love go up and take a hot shower. I will make a fire for us and I will explain everything to you. "He put his hands on my cheeks again trying to warm them. I leaned into his embrace and felt his hand remove my tiara.

"I have wanted to do that all night. I love you with your hair down." I nearly melted when I felt him do that.

"Bella shower please…." His lips went into a pout and all I wanted to do was kiss him again. I shook it off and went upstairs.

I noticed a new pair of pajamas sitting on the bed for me. It was a cute tank top and some matching pants. A breath of relief came out of my mouth when I noticed it was not lingerie. I wanted that with Edward but was scared at the thought of it too.

I am sure Alice had bought them for me and I made a note to thank her later. I went into the bathroom and turned the water on. I carefully undressed placing the costume back in its bag. I was not sure how it got here but I was happy to see that it would be protected.

I carefully washed my hair and face. I had to loofa my body till it was beat red. I swear this glitter shit is worse than some of the frostings we use. This night had been perfect but I hoped that I would not scare Edward off with all my freaky self issues. I was putting lotion all over to combat the redness the glitter had called when I heard a knock on the door.

"Bella are you ok? You were taking so long I got worried you had tripped and knocked yourself out." I smirked when I heard him say that. He really did get me.

"I am ok but I need my pajamas off my bed." I slowly opened the door and stuck my hand out. I felt the fabric in my hands and his lips on my knuckles. I banged my head on the door. Damn him and those fucking delicious lips of his.

"Bella did you hit your head?"

"I am fine you cheater!" I heard him chuckle at that. He knew exactly what he did to me!

I put the pajamas on and noticed how soft and warm they were. They showed skin but not to much unlike some of the stuff Alice tries to get me to wear. I opened the door and walked out trying to brush my wet hair. I stopped in my tracks and saw him lying on my bed leaning on his hand. He had changed into a t-shirt and flannel pajama pants. He had a big smile on his face when he noticed what I was wearing. As I sat down on the bed I felt him move behind me and take the brush.

"Bella I have wanted to do this for so long." He slowly brushed my hair till there were no knots left. He put the brush down on my dresser and placed his head on my shoulder. I could hear him smelling me and I had to stifle a giggle cause I did that all the time too when I was around him.

"I got a fire going and made some hot chocolate. Want to join me?" I nodded at him and he led me downstairs.

There were no lights on and the flames made beautiful shapes on the walls. He made me lay down on the sofa closest to the fire place and went into the kitchen. He came back with two steaming cups of coco for us. I noticed he had put our stereo on and soft music was playing the background. I noticed the songs but they were all played in piano. It was beautiful and I hoped it was a CD I could buy. I took the last drink of my coco and put the mug down.

"Bella whatever you want to know just ask. I am not holding anything back from you."

I sighed I didn't know where to start. I wanted to know everything that he had done for me. I bit my lip and put my hands into fists. I didn't know how to do this and I didn't know how to pour my heart out to someone that I loved. He must have noticed how I was speechless and he just started talking.

"I didn't know it was you for a long time. When we all went to New York you just wowed me. The way you were in control and how you dealt with things. I watched how you looked at things from your eyes. I was such an ass that night at the club to you. I was dealing with so much and it all came out after you left. Emmett told Rosalie about Sarah and it pissed me off. We got into a huge fight and they finally made me realize how my life was not being lived. From then on I tried being my old self."

I looked at him and realized just how much his family did care about one another. Sometimes they had a weird way of showing it but they did.

"When you and Alice did the party to thank us all did you know I was the one that caught you when you fainted?"

"I never knew that. Alice would never tell me who caught me. Thank you though." I looked at his eyes. He saw me in raw form in the hospital.

"When you were in the hospital we were all worried. I finally told Alice about what had happened and she cried for me. She told us all what you did for your parents and how you blamed yourself for their deaths. I know how you felt dealing with the survivor's guilt. I know when she told us you left for Alaska we were all scared for you. Alice assured us that you could hold your own. I saw you in a different light knowing what she told us about you. I was so happy to see you come online the night you got back. When you told me where you had gone a light went off. I put all the pieces together and figure out it was you I was talking to. "He paused and looked at me. I nodded for him to continue.

"I knew that night I was falling head over heals in love with you. The night of my parent's party I wanted to tell you. You looked so beautiful that night and all I wanted to do was never let you leave my arms. When you told me you were falling for someone else I just hoped it would be me. When Alice told me your birthday was coming up I went into planning mode. I wanted you to have a birthday like you did growing up."

He must have noticed the flames were getting low so he put another log on the fire. I heard it crackle again behind me.

"I was going to tell you that night but we got interrupted. I was so frustrated but I knew in time I would find the right place to tell you. You awe me in how you work. When I saw you working at the Taste of Oregon I was awed again. You all work as one team. You don't treat Ben and Angela as staff they are family to you. The night we came over to bring pictures from mom and dad's party you were so drunk, it was nice to see you have some fun. I saw you run up the stairs and heard you getting sick. I was the one who cleaned you up and got you into bed. I placed a kiss on your forehead and told you I loved you as I knew you would not remember it. When Alice told me you were going to Oklahoma I immediately flew out. I wanted to run up to you and embrace you but all I could do was watch. "He stopped as he saw the tears running down my face.

He pulled me into his lap and held me. He wiped the tears from my cheeks and kissed my forehead again. I was going to say something but I stopped as he wanted to finish.

"The night we were online and you told me that you were going to the ball I knew it was that night everything had to come out. I saw you come in on Jasper's arm and it took all my will power not to come over and tell you then. You were breathtaking that night and the kiss we shared has not left my memory. You left with so much anger and hurt. I never meant it to be that way. My family and Alice it wanted it to be memorable for you. We never knew how much you were hurting. Bella please forgive me."

He wanted me to forgive him? All he ever did was love me and I was the one that almost threw away one of the best things in my life. I turned myself around so I was straddling his lap. I put my hands around his neck and started playing with his hair.

"Edward all you did was love me and give me some great memories. There is nothing to forgive as it is all in the past. That night at the ball when you took off your mask I thought it was a game to you. I was not mad I was upset that everyone knew about this. It was a huge shock to me to take in all at once. Edward you have to realize my parents shared a great love between them. When they died I knew I could never be a part of that and lose it." I was sitting here crying as I poured my heart out to him.

"Bella the night you left me well you left us all. I lost it all over again. I lost someone I loved once and I could not live through that again. When Angela came back from seeing you and told us what you talked about I felt horrible. It made me love you even more and I wanted to fight for you. I knew that I had to do something to show you how I felt. Tonight was going to be that night no matter what. I was not living my life without you in it. "

"We both have a lot of emotional baggage don't we?" I put my head on his chest.

"Bella there is something else you need to know. The day of the ball I finally said good-bye to Sarah. I wanted her to know that I was happy and found someone. We can heal together. All I want is you."

I popped my head up at hearing that. He said good-bye to her for me. I meant that much to him that he let go. His eyes looked at me with such love and wonder. I crashed my lips into his and I sucked on his lip begging to let me in. He slowly pulled my tongue into his mouth and swirled it around with his. He pulled us down on the couch with me on top. I started rubbing my hands on his chest and I could feel his muscles rippling underneath his t-shirt. I felt his hand slowly go under and up my shirt. I felt his fingers touch the underside of my breast and I broke our lips apart and tears started pooling in my eyes. He abruptly stopped and looked at me.

"Bella talk to me please. Tell me what is going on in that head of yours." He wrapped his hands around my back.

I put my head back onto his chest and let the tears fall. I wanted this so much but I was so scared. I was so inexperienced how could I make him feel the way he made me feel.

"I don't know how to do all of this. The French kissing I found out about in high school and not by accident. I was never so embarrassed in my life but with you it makes me want more. I don't know how to make you feel the way you make me feel. I don't want to disappoint you." I said all this into his chest. I could feel the blush rushing to my head. I could feel his arms leave my back and life my head.

"Bella believe me when I say this. The only person I have been with was Sarah. Nothing you can do would disappoint me. You want to wait we will wait. I am not going to push anything on you. You need to know everything you do turns me on, the way you chew your lip, the way you blush, the way you take control in the kitchen, the way you care about your family and the way you give before you give to yourself. I love you and I would do anything for you."

He placed a kiss on my lips but this time there was something sweet and reassuring about it. I felt safe in his arms. I took my fingers and slowly went over his face. His lips were so soft and supple. No wonder I loved his kisses. His features were soft but manly and I could not get enough of his green eyes. We just held each other and talked. The music and the fire played with each other in the back ground.

He told me how they met and fell instantly in love. They went to the same college and he told me the night he proposed. The love they had for each other was beautiful but so sad. He explained how sick she got and how she finally let him go. He told me we were a lot like each other. We were both stubborn but loving. We were both talented in what we did best.

The music was gone and the fire dying down. I felt a yawn escape my mouth as Edward lifted me off of him and put me on the couch. He made sure the door was locked and the alarm set. I was going to have to ask him how he got the code later. He made sure the fire was safe to leave along. He grabbed my hand and led me upstairs. I stopped him as we went up.

"Bella all I want is to sleep next to you. After all we have been through I can't leave you tonight." He kissed my hand and continued up the stairs.

I went into the bathroom to brush my teeth and go the bathroom. I had to turn the water on so he would not hear me pee. I heard him laugh after I turned it off. He shook his head as he took his turn in the bathroom. I was already in bed when he came out. He went to the other side and crawled in. I snuggled into his chest as he kissed my head.

"I love you Bella never forget that. I would give you the world if I could. Believe in me like I believe in you. Good night my angel. "I felt his hand on the back of my waist. I never wanted this night to end but I was looking forward to what was to come.