Thank you all for you great reviews. I don't own these characters but I do own my birthday tomorrow. This is a little birthday/New Year's treat for you all. The songs for this chapter are "Scooby Doo" by The Soundalikes, "The Time Warp" by O'brien, "The Addams Family" by Mizzy and "Ever Ever After" from the Enchanted soundtrack. Enjoy!
EPOV/OCTOBER30-31ST
I laid on my bed thinking back to that night when I looked into her eyes and saw all the hurt and anger my heart was ripped out of my chest again. I didn't want to see her go through this. I never meant to put her through what she thought was sick joke. I fell to my knees that night not wanting to live. Dad pulled me up and just hugged me. He knew how much she meant to me but he also knew that that night might not have worked. I did have to give him brownie points on that because it back fired on all of us.
He slowly walked me through the crowd and we joined the rest of the family. Jasper was holding Alice in her arms as she was sobbing uncontrollably. Everyone else was just silent as we walked out and up to our rooms. Mom wanted me to stay in their room but I put on a brave front and told them to get some sleep. Everyone went to their rooms but looked at me with sadness in their eyes. I got undressed out of my tux and sat in the dark. Jasper knocked on the door that joined our two rooms together. I saw him come in and sit on the bed. I heard the breath escape his body as he told me that Alice was asleep finally. He wanted to make sure I was ok and all I could give him was silence. He told me Bella would come back to all of us and to give her time to think. All I wanted to do was race to her and hold her. How the hell I could do that when she hated my ass.
I spent all my time in my room. I did not want to live in the real world if Bella was not to be a part of it. Dad finally put his foot down and took me trip to a construction site our company had been looking into. I wanted to be left the hell alone in my own misery. We were not gone but a few days but everyone filled me on what had happened.
Bella had called Angela and in turn Angela told everyone else what was going through her mind. My poor sweet Bella had been dealing with these feelings ever since her parents died. She felt inadequate when it came to how she saw herself. There was a lot of anger towards Alice and had been building up for years. Bella never told Alice that was tired of her taking over her life. Jasper told me that Alice was heart broken when she heard that. Jasper did not leave her for days because she was so upset. She wanted to make things right with her dearest sister friend. Angela couldn't bring her home to us. Bella needed to think and have this time to get her heart sorted out. Everyone did tell me this that she loved me just like I loved her. Angela said that she would be home in time for Halloween and that we needed to give her some space. I was just happy to hear she was coming home to all of us.
All I know is I wanted to make sure that she knew I loved her. I wanted to do something special for her and enlisted everyone's help. Alice bounced for the first time in almost two weeks knowing that I needed her help. It was nice to see the sparkle back in her eyes again.
Mom kindly reminded us that we were visiting the hospital again this year to hand out filled pumpkins. Emmett was excited because this meant costume hunting once again.
Alice told us just the place and told us what time to be there. Everyone met up a few days before Halloween. Alice told us not to worry about not finding something this late cause Kellie's shop was the best. I don't know how we all fit in there but we did. Alice immediately picked out costumes for herself and Jasper. I never thought I would see my brother in tights but that day I did. Mom had custom costumes made for her and dad so they stayed back and filled pumpkins for the kids. Poor Rosalie was worried about looking like a blimp but was happy when I told how I was looking forward to being an uncle. Emmett was trying on a Superman costume when we heard a rip come through the curtain. I thought Rosalie was going to go into labor right there when he came out. There was my brother standing with his junk hanging out. Jasper shielded Alice's eyes as she giggled and Kellie said something about once she had seen one penis she had seen them all.
Rosalie quickly got up out of her chair and shielded her husband. We all burst out into laughter when the curtain closed. They finally decided on Hugh Hefner and a playboy bunny for our little party but chose something more subdued to visit the kids in. I had not a clue what I was going to wear till I saw this beautiful costume. It was meant for Bella to wear for that night. Everyone agreed with me and I asked if it had a matching one. Kellie said of course Queen Titania had her King Oberon. I knew they were meant for us. I paid for them immediately not caring about the cost of either of them.
Our next stop was the store for pumpkins. Emmett always went over board on getting way too many but Alice said we could put them in front of the main house for decorations. We were on our way back to mom and dad's loaded down with the damn orange balls. Alice picked my brain as to what she should do for that night. I just told her to make it about Bella and to make sure the blue roses I ordered were placed on her dresser. Alice even said that Ben and Angela would do the food for us that night and all we would have to do is heat and serve. I was happy to hear that they wanted to help. I hoped to get to know them a little better. They meant a lot to Bella and I wanted to know every aspect I did not know about her.
We decided to do all the carving at mom and dad's. It would make getting ready and going to the hospital easier on all of us. We all got into our costumes grabbed all the candy filled pumpkins and headed out. I don't know who looked more forward to this us or the kids we were going to visit. They were in awe of all the costumes. Mom must have mentioned something to Alice about getting information on what they all wanted for Christmas. Alice played her part of Tink perfectly. She started granting wishes and Jasper took notes of them. One little girl asked where my princess was and I simply told her she was in a tower awaiting my rescue. She giggled at that and went back to going through her loot. Rosalie had turned on some great Halloween music. Jasper and Alice got into it doing the Macarena and the Time Warp.
We got back to the house and mom had dinner waiting for us. Even as old as we were in her eyes we were her boys. We all went to our rooms to get ready for dinner. I was the last one to come down and noticed that Emmett had a cookie in his mouth. I started looking around for Bella as I knew those were from her.
"Edward she is not here but she was. She is doing wonderful and explained herself to us. Whatever you have planned for her I hope it fixes everything." Mom started cleaning of f the table and the girls joined her.
Emmett started gathering all the equipment so we could start carving. We each had our own carving style. Jasper's was very detailed and exact. Rosalie's was more traditional and Emmett's was warped just like his mind. One year he saw a picture of a pumpkin puking and had to re-create it. Rosalie was cleaning up pumpkin guts for days after that little trip.
Alice made sure the tent was set up and everything the way I wanted. They were all hiding in back so Bella would not see us. Angela made sure that Bella would be the one taking care of the trick-or-treaters. Alice called the kitchen and left a message to put the blind fold on and to stand at the back door. I did not want to know how she got the mask into the kitchen as she was a sneaky one. I slowly opened the door and shut it.
Bella's head was cocked to one side as she was listening to what was going on around her. Her lips were in a cute little smile but pouty too. I just hoped she would enjoy the evening I had planned for us.
"Alice I swear if you make me break my neck wearing this damn thing I am going to come back and haunt your scrawny ass!" She had her hands on her waist.
I started to laugh and then stopped when I grabbed her hand. I carefully took her to the door, opened it and lead her out to the porch. I locked it back up and set the alarm. I took her down the steps carefully so she would not fall. She tried to take off her blind fold but I stopped her. I could not contain myself anymore and brushed my fingers across her collar bone. I saw the goose bumps on her skin and I wanted to do more but stopped as I led her under the tent.
I let her go and saw her put her head to one side. I could not see her eyes but I could tell she was taking it all in. I went behind and slowly took off her mask. She looked around the tent and noticed everything. I cleared my throat and she whipped herself around to me. She was looking me with her eyes going up and down. All I could do was look back at her.
I stepped forward to her as she came for me. I could smell her all over again like that night. Strawberries and vanilla were her natural scent. I had missed it for far too long. I put my hands on her cheeks and bent down to kiss her beautiful lips. She was home, she was mine and I was never letting her go. I wrapped my hands around her waist showing her I had missed her. She took her hand and ran it down my cheek to my heart. I knew she was home and back to me. All I could do was hold her and look into her eyes.
We had a dinner to enjoy with family though I did not want this night to end. We were having our moment until Emmett decided he needed food. We sat down to dinner and everyone told her about their Halloween so far. She sat there taking it all in beaming and the light twinkling in her eyes.
I took her out to dance under the stars. I looked around and noticed the couples each having their own private moment. I finally felt like a whole person again with Bella in my arms. I was enjoying having her in my arms and listening to her breath. Something caught my eye at the coach house as I was looking at my family. There on the porch railing was one loan pumpkin.
I took her hand and lead her to the porch. I felt the slimy letters underneath my fingers. I knew now that she loved me just as I loved her. I turned around and put my hands around her waist. I wanted to know what was in her mind. I saw her blush and I had missed it for far too long. I started making circles on her cheeks and she leaned into me crushing her lips against mine.
She jumped into my arms and wrapped her lovely legs around my waist. Our kiss never broke as we stood there. Our lips melted into each other as we stood there. I tried to enter her moist mouth but she pulled back and I noticed the tears in her eyes. She had a lot going on in her mind and we had a lot of time to discuss it.
We turned around to the noises behind us. Mom was standing there with tears in her eyes and said how happy she was. I saw the look in Bella's face when mom mentioned her. I did not want to her to worry so I bent down towards her ear and told her I would explain everything to her. I saw her shiver as I backed way. I was not sure if it was from me or her being cold.
Everyone left and I noticed her starting to clean up. I told her it was taken care of and took her upstairs. The first thing I did was take her tiara out of her hair and let it down. I loved the color of her hair just like I loved the rest of her. I knew she was cold so I told her to go take a shower.
She was taking so long so I went up to check on her. I saw her pajamas on the bed and wondered how she was going to get them. I checked on her and then she realized that she had nothing. I saw her hand come out from behind the door. I took this as an opportunity to see what I could do to her. I grabbed the pajamas and put them in her hand. I did not let go till I kissed her knuckles. I heard her head bang against the door and asked if she was ok. I heard her say cheater and I laughed. Score one for me!
I saw her come out drying her hair off. I took her brush and started to slowly brush her hair. I noticed her relax. I wanted her to be treated like the princess she was. While she was showering I started a fire and made some hot chocolate. I carefully placed her on the couch and went to my business. I turned the stereo on as I had made a special CD for her. It was full of her favorites but one of my own creations. It was how she made me feel.
We sat there enjoying the crackling fire and music. She asked me what my versions of things were. I placed my mug on the table and started telling her about everything. We talked for hours about how she didn't know I was the one that caught her when she fell and other things she did not know. I noticed the fire was getting low and put another log on it.
I went on telling her about things she did not know. The night I helped her clean up after their night of drinking, the kiss I placed on her forehead and telling her that I loved her. It was all new to her and she just sat there and listened to me pour my heart out to her. I pulled her into my lap as I noticed the tears falling down her cheeks. I kissed her again and wiped her sorrow away.
I told her how sorry I was for hurting her that night and for her to please forgive me. I did not want to let her go. She put her hands around my neck and started to play with the hair at the base of my neck. It sent intense shivers down my back as I never wanted the feelings to end.
It was just like Bella to say there was nothing to forgive. How could I be mad at this silly beautiful woman in front of me? I saw the tears start flowing again. I could not take her pain any more and I told her what happened that night. I didn't want to her to hurt more but I wanted to tell her that she was not the only one hurting that night. I told her no matter what I would fight for her.
She put her head on my chest and mentioned something about emotional baggage. We both carried a lot with but I knew that the love we felt for each other was more important. I told her that day I finally said good-bye to Sarah. She popped her head up and just looked at me with her brown eyes. She crashed her lips into mind and sucked on my bottom lip. Holy fuck! I took it slow and pulled her tongue into my mouth swirling it around with mine. I pulled her down on to the couch and felt her weight all over my body. I was on fire with the feelings that were going through me.
I felt her hands go up and down on my chest as I slowly went up her shirt. I brushed the underside of her breast and she broke our kiss apart. I saw the tears in her eyes again. Fuck! I didn't want to cause her pain. I wanted to know what she was feeling. I never wanted us to keep secrets from each other again.
I felt her forehead go to my chest and I could feel the tears making my t-shirt wet. She told me how she was inexperienced and how I was her first everything. My heart broke to hear that she did not want to disappoint me. No wonder she ran that night. All the feelings she must have felt made my heart hurt for her. I lifted her head so she looked me in the face. I wanted her to know how I felt.
"Bella believe me when I say this. Nothing you can do would disappoint me. You want to wait we will wait. I am not going to push anything on you. You need to know everything you do turns me on, the way you chew your lip, the way you blush, the way you take control in the kitchen, the way you care about your family and the way you give before you give to yourself. I love you and I would do anything for you."
I could feel her relax again as I placed a sweet kiss on her lips. She slowly traced my face with her fingers. I just held her and I told her about my history with Sarah. They were so much alike but so different in a lot of ways. I heard her yawn and snuggle down into my arms. We had a long beautiful night and this was just the beginning.
I lifted her off the couch and sat her down. I wanted to make sure the fire was safe enough to leave. I locked the door and set the alarm. I slowly pulled her up off the couch and lead her upstairs. She stopped me and looked into my eyes. I knew even after the talk we just had she was being cautious.
"Bella all I want is to sleep next to you. After all we have been through I can't leave you tonight." I kissed the back of her hand and we continued up the stairs. She went into the bathroom to do what I assumed what was normal. I may be a man but I know what women do. I noticed the bag Jasper left for me. It had my pajamas in it and clothes for tomorrow.
I heard her turn the water on and assumed she was peeing. Sarah did that at first too when we were first together. Mom said it was in the girl code book. I heard her turn it off and had to laugh. She was so shy at something and so open about others. I shook my head at her as she came out and she blushed.
I went it to change and brush my teeth. I turned the water on when I went as not to embarrass her. She smiled at me as I opened the door. She was laying there looking beautiful in the moonlight. She pulled the covers open and patted next to her. I made sure the lights were off and quickly slipped in besides her. She put her head on my chest as I wrapped an arm around her. I could smell the mint in her breath from her brushing her teeth. I could feel her breathing slow as she fell asleep. Love had found me again and this time there were no obstacles that we could not deal with together.
"I love you Bella never forget that. I would give you the world if I could. Believe in me like I believe in you. Good night my angel. "
