Chapter 3 Turn of the Shoe

Spencer was tired. She had stayed up the last 3 days working on the new plan. As a new member she still wasn't allowed to know the whole story but her job was acquiring a reservation for two at Le Hareng Rouge, the best restaurant in Philly. Sighing, she ran a hand through her hair as she walked through the doors of Rosewood Day and was greeted by stares. Everyone had heard about her time at Radley, but thanks to Wren and Mona she had been released with a clean bill of health and the records now stated she was in Radley for "exhaustion". She hadn't spoken to Toby except to ask him to pass her a pair of scissors last night and he had ignored her.

"Spence?" CRAP. It was Emily. Spencer still hadn't told them about her double agent status because she knew she was being watched 24/7.

"Hey Em, how are you? Where are Aria and Hanna?" Spencer plastered a toothless smile on her face and tried not to let her guilt show. As much as she told herself she was doing this for them, she was also trying to protect herself and her unborn child.

"Aria is feeling sick and Hanna and Caleb were in the courtyard last I saw them. Anyways shouldn't we be asking how you are? You just got released from the Mental Ward… You don't have to pretend to be strong in front of me Spence, were friends." Emily looked genuinely concerned and suddenly Spencer felt nasty and realized it wasn't just her guilt. She ran to the nearest bathroom and found herself hurling and curled up on the floor of the stall.

Tears streamed down her face and she gagged at the smell of bleach and expensive perfume used by all the girls in Rosewood. How did she get here? She was Spencer Jill Hastings, perfectionist, star field hockey player, academic prodigy, and daughter of the most influential people in town. Now she was 18, pregnant, a possible psycho by day and freaky stalker by night. It would be a miracle if she lived to 21.

"Spencer?" Hanna and Emily entered the bathroom and hesitantly knocked on the stall door. Sniffling Spencer opened it and wiped her nose on a Kleenex offered to her by Hanna. Now was as good a time as any to break the pregnancy news to the girls. Mona had called it the "first step". Spencer would tell them and Mona would take care of everyone else

"It's just morning sickness. I have been getting it a lot lately you know it comes with the pregnancy package." Spencer tried to act sarcastic but just acknowledging it out loud was scary. It hit her that she didn't even know how her parents would react. Hell how were her friends going to react? As far as they were concerned she would me mental, the father of her child was thought to be dead, and she was a train headed for the broken tracks.

Emily and Hanna's mouths hung wide opened. Emily reacted first and soothingly tried to rub Spencer's shoulder. Hanna on the other hand looked like someone had unhinged her jaw.

"Hanna!" Emily chastised and pulled her down to sit with them on the floor. "Spencer… is Toby the father and are you even sure you are pregnant?" Emily braced herself after the words escaped her mouth as if bracing for impact.

"I'm pregnant, and yes Toby is the father. He is the only guy I have ever slept with. Despite what you think Em I'm not a slut I never did it with Wren." I'm not sure why I said the last part but Emily was definitely on team SPOBY as she called it and she knew I kissed Wren because I told her that right before she told her Toby was A.

"Oh Spence that sucks, especially since that bastard Toby was on the A-Team and now he is 6ft under." Hanna twirled a strand of her hair and smacked on gum uncertainly.

For some reason this infuriated Spencer and she reached out and smacked Hanna square across the face. Hanna scooted back and Emily gasped as the smack echoed in the bathroom.

"Han- I'm… I'm so sorry I don't know why…" She let the sentence trail off knowing fully well she didn't mean it. Even though she and Toby were done she was sick of people saying bad things about him. The words from his letter echoed in her ears, "everything I have done was to protect you".

Emily helped Hanna up, then Spencer. "Spencer are you ok? That was insensitive but you said the same thing just last week, Toby is a traitor. Now we just have to focus on Red Coat." Even as she spoke the words Spencer knew Emily still felt weird talking about Toby as a traitor.

"Come on lets just go to the lunch tables, I'm hungry." Spencer shrugged and smiled wryly after saying this.

"So salad or soup?" Hanna acted as if the question was life or death and she stressfully checked the calorie count on the salads label.

Spencer chuckled at her blond friend. When it counted Hanna didn't care but she obsessed over the smallest things. Her sentence was interrupted by the cafeteria going dark.

A few people screamed but a screen flickered to life and a video started playing. It was Spencer and Emily in the stall and Hanna was just sitting down.

"I'm pregnant, Toby is the father," The sentence repeated itself over and over again. People gasped, others stared and the rest looked disgusted.

"WHORE" someone yelled from the back of the room. The whispers started and Spencer's phone vibrated. This time it wasn't her bedazzled cellphone with the glossy cover that Hanna had made her get, it was her sturdy, black untraceable phone.

The message said, "Phase 2 is complete. Get up and exit the room. Walk down the hall and enter them supply closet on the first floor by the girl's locker room. –A"

Spencer entered the closet and wasn't at all surprised to see Noel and Toby. Each donned a black hoodie.

"Good Spencer, here is the address where the A-trailer will be tonight. We will text you about your mission tonight. Mona is going to have one of us stay with you tonight during your mission and watch you to make sure you don't get tempted to tell anyone about your new agent status." Noel smirked. "I guess I will just leave you two to talk." He pushed past Toby and walked out of the closet and shut the door obnoxiously behind him.

"Well I have to get to class…"

"NO! Spencer wait!" Toby grabbed her wrist and pulled her closer to him. He looked as if he hadn't slept in days and his eyes were full of pain.

"What?" Spencer huffed and avoided eye contact. Just don't look into his eyes if you do you know you will be tempted to forgive him.

"You need to know Spence, they are planning something big here and I just want to keep you both safe." He gestured to her stomach, which was just starting to show.

"What oh now you care? You didn't seem to care at all on those nights when I cried myself to sleep thinking you didn't care about me, or when I thought it was my fault you were on the A-Team and I wished I was dead! If I even keep the baby I don't want you anywhere near it, you don't deserve to be a father"

"Look Spencer whether you acknowledge your feelings or not, I love you and our baby. You can't tell me I can't be the father. I love you Spencer Hastings and your just going to have to get used to it." He exclaimed this passionately before pressing his lips to hers.

She felt the familiar fireworks exploding in her head and realized she was kissing him back. He ran his hands along her back and her hands knotted in his hair, trying to pull him closer. She wasn't sure how long the kiss was. It felt like infinity but when they broke apart it felt like it had been too short.

He entwined their fingers and squeezed her hand one last time before whispering "Be safe" and pulling his hoodie over his head before running out the door.

Spencer touched her swollen lips lips an straightened her hair. Now more than ever she wondered about what was best. Should she quit? All she knew was she needed to see Toby again. The fireworks she felt could only mean one thing. She was sure of this one thing and would hold onto it for help.

She was still in love with Toby.

EZRIA OR JARIA VOTE (i ship both) Next chapter Spencer will talk to Toby, there will be Spoby and Spencers parents will react to the news. Also Andrew weighs in on the issue... (I really have mixed feelings about his character)