Jason Morgan and Alexis Davis, canon

September 2010

Note- Kristina Adella has not be sorased for this.

Instant Addiction

Part 23

Alexis watched Jason as she sat on the other side of the hot tub that was in the corner of their suite. This was their last night before Sam came back from her honeymoon. Every moment had to count.

They'd already spent several hours riding around on his motorcycle. It was getting close to eleven pm and she had court in the next morning. But she couldn't go to sleep now.

Even though they had sex that afternoon, and it was amazing, she wanted him again. She wanted just one more time of him throbbing inside of her. Just in case they had to let this go tomorrow because her daughter just couldn't handle it.

Alexis knew Sam was a grown up. But Sam was still her baby. And her feelings mattered.

Alexis couldn't let Sam be in her mind right now though. She pushed all those worries out and stared at the naked man who had steam rising around him two feet away from her.

He had ordered wine from room service for Alexis and a beer for him. Their drinks sat on the side of the tub. They had just sunken into the water. He asked "How did Spinelli say the girls are?"

Alexis had called to check on them while Jason was paying for the room service. As soon as the door closed they both started undressing and silently got in the hot tub. "They're sleeping. He said something about Kristina instant messaging a boy but he has to be confused. She's not old enough to be into boys yet."

"We better get those IM records."

"I really don't think it can be anything serious. She's just a kid."

"No harm in checking."

"I suppose I just want to believe she's not at the age to be more than mildly curious about the opposite sex. Don't boys still have cooties at that age?"

"Never know."

"Sonny will be calling for a sit down with his parents and scare them out of their minds."

"You don't seem upset about the idea."

She smiled at him. "Not as upset as you. I know she's too young. What could it be? A crush. It can't be more than a little, inconsequential crush...right? She's a kid!"

"Right."

Alexis adored the fact that Jason seemed to like taking care of her two youngest daughters. She knew it didn't make up for one ounce of his pain over his boys but it made him happy to be around her girls. And she was happy to have around another man who cared for them. She usually didn't get to feel like someone was right there next to her helping her parent. She parented alone, while Ric and Sonny did the same.

But when Jason was in her home, for those few hours, it was as close to a two parent home as Alexis had gotten in years.

After a moment he asked "Molly get her spelling done?"

"Spinelli said he taught her the orgins of the words she was stumbling on. I'm sure after he was done with his long explanation she will never forget any of those words and their meanings or spellings again. He's going to be a fantastic father one day."

"Its good his private eye business is working out."

"I agree. Its safer for him and Maxie that way."

"I should have never brought him into my business."

"You gave him a family. I don't hear him complaining about that. But I won't lie....I'm thrilled he's a former mobster." She slid across the tub, wrapping her arms around his neck and straddling his sat back on his legs so that his cock was in between them. "I have enough concerns about the mobsters I know already that I don't need another to worry about."

Their eyes met as she slipped one hand beneath the water and started to stroke him.

In a low, intense, tone Jason demanded "Tell me something."

She kept stroking him. "Hmmm?"

"Do you want a life with me, Alexis?"

Her chest tightened painfully. She suddenly found it hard to breath. Jason lifted her up and, with her lust dazed help, impaled her onto him, as her mind swam with frantic thoughts.

What is he asking me? Oh my God, that feels so good...God, I would do anything to keep feeling this good right now...well not anything. You know what I mean. A life with him? A life? As in....what? What does this man want from me? Why is he pushing for more already when we don't know if we even have a tomorrow yet? Ohhhhh, God, so good.....She rode him, as she moaned loudly....We're so good together. Working together, cooking dinner, when we're with the kids and when we're alone....we get each other. But a life together...a life...after two weeks...but they were great weeks...OH MY GOD. Right there, Jason.

"Oh, God. Right there. Right there."

"Answer me," he said, between clenched teeth.

"OH! FUCK!"

"Alexis!" He sped up their pace. "Say it. Just fucking say it to me."

"Jason," she whimpered.

His mouth bent and his tongue licked at her nipple. He sucked it into his mouth.

She threw back her head. Her hair was halfway in the water. Their image made an erotic portrait in the mirror behind the tub.

He let her breast slip from his lips. Shifting slightly he leaned back and, using his hands on her hips, kept working her up and down him, faster and faster, as he ground out "If its true....then say it. Let me hear it."

Her walls clutched around his cock, as she rode out an orgasm that left her screaming wildly. He came a moment later, his own eyes finally closing as his head fell back on the edge of the tub.

Afterwards, Alexis collapsed against him. She stroked her hand over his slightly damp hair and then over his cheek, as she was breathing heavily. His eyes opened and met hers. They were filled with hurt.

Tears came to her eyes. "I want a future with you."

"You couldn't say it."

"So you think I'm lying now? When did I ever lie to you since we got together, Jason?"

He lifted her off him and then climbed out of the tub. He grabbed a towel and put it around his waist, picked up his beer, and the headed for the bathroom. Alexis slammed her hand onto the controls of the hot tub, twisting the knob to turn it off. The water stopped moving. She lay back against the edge of the tub, as the shower came on in the other room.

Do you want a life with me? he had asked, as if that was a simple question she could yell yes to.

Jason knew better, damn it. But he wasn't being logical anymore. He had lost that ability when it came to her. Alexis could see him changing every day.

She just didn't know how to tell this man that all his changing and all his feelings and all his dreams might not matter...because she was a mother and what came first were her girls. She said it to him, on more than one occasion, but she didn't say it right because he was hurting now.

He thought this wasn't hard on her, like it was on him. He thought she wasn't aching inside at the idea of them ending their affair.

But Jason, who so many people said was always right about everything, was dead wrong this time. The idea of losing him was tearing apart her heart.

She should have said that though.

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The spray of the shower hit Jason. His head was a mess. He knew he was out of control. He knew he went way over the line with Alexis tonight. He shouldn't have pulled that on her.

But the clock was ticking on the night stand behind them as they made love and all he could think was that she didn't even give a good damn if they ended everything tomorrow.

He wanted to hear her scream, at the top of her lungs, I will not walk out on you!

Maybe it was all a response to Elizabeth. Or maybe he wanted Alexis to act like Carly. She would have screamed and screamed and screamed till the cops got called about how she wouldn't let him that it would make him and Carly work out. Because it wouldn't.

Maybe he just wanted Alexis to feel like he did. That they were right together. Too right to give up.

She said "I want a future with you." But how bad did she want it? Not bad enough to do a thing to keep him.

Jason could taste bile in his mouth, as he spit in the shower, dry heaving. He hadn't let himself be this wrecked over the idea of losing a woman in over a decade.

Every other woman-even Carly, even when it was nearly killing him- he told to leave him behind. But he wasn't going to tell Alexis that. Not necessarily because the love was stronger. It was because he was older and not foolish enough to give up something good ever again.

Still....he was going to lose her anyway.

"God damn it," he muttered, as he twisted the faucet, turning off the shower.

This is why he didn't ever look for love. It left him feeling destroyed every time. Yet he wanted love. He needed it. He needed her...so damn bad.

Because when they were good, they were so good. They were what he wanted years to feel like, instead of empty and lonely and wasted.

He slammed his hand against the wall. If she would just fight. When Alexis Davis fought for someone she was amazing. Fierce and intense and unstoppable.

She just needed to fight.

But Jason couldn't make her do it. She had to do it on her own. Or they would end tomorrow.

He knew that. He knew Sam was not going to smile and say "Congratulations, Mom."

He slept with Sam for almost three years. He knew what was about to happen the next day. He wasn't fucking stupid. And neither was Alexis.