Jason Morgan and Alexis Davis, canon

September 2010

Instant Addiction

Part 30

Alexis sat by Sam's bedside, determined to be the first person her daughter saw when she woke up, even though Patrick said she would be sedated for at least two days. Until the sedation was removed there was no way Sam could wake up.

Still, for now, Alexis just sat there, staring at her beautiful daughter who had bandages around her head, and praying for miracles. They couldn't be sure what would happen to Sam for a few days still.

She might lose some of all of her memory when she woke up.

Alexis was worried about their bond just disappearing into thin air, and Sam losing her love for Matt, and a million other worries, but most of all she just wanted her daughter to survive. The rest they would deal with in time.

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Jason stood outside of Sam's room in the ICU. He could see Alexis through the glass. He promised not to leave her and he wouldn't.

She was his woman now. And he would take care of her the best he could. He was glad she seemed to now be ready to let him do that for her.

Carly came walking up to him. They hugged. She pulled back. Her eyes were light with happiness. There were reacting to what she saw resting in Jason's own eyes, and he knew that. Through the worry, there was also an overwhelming relief that filled him. And a joy.

Alexis had confessed to having deep feelings for him, earlier in the chapel, and that made Jason believe that she truly was as invested in them as he was.

"Jase?"

He nodded.

She hugged him again. And that's how Carly found out that Alexis loved Jason back.

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Nadine refused. She just flat out, dog gone, refused to take part in Matthew's foolishness. She was tempted- oh so tempted- by his big, brown, puppy dog eyes and his soft, halting, weak, begging tone.

But she had the sense God gave her and she was not being a party to his scheme.

Patrick, on the other hand, was just a sucker for his younger brother. A gosh darn sucker. And so, even though Matt was weak and full of stitches, in the middle of the night, after Matt woke up again, while Nadine was sitting there and threatening to put Matt in restraints, Patrick gave in to Matt and helped him into a wheel chair.

So Matt could go see Mrs. Hunter- Drake.

Matt was doped up on pain medication but he still winced with every move he made. They found Alexis and Jason in Sam's room.

Alexis stood up and said to Matt "Its so good to see you awake and looking so well."

"You call this well?" Matt joked, weakly.

"We'll leave you alone for a moment," Alexis said.

Patrick pushed Matt close to the bed. "You okay?"

"Good."

"You sure?"

"Stop....fussing..over me, Drake."

Everyone went into the hall. Matt took Sam's hand. "Hey, beautiful......we hit a...little bad luck, huh?"

After a moment he said "Please don't leave me. Think about Daniel...Davis..Hunter-Drake." He coughed, because he had bruised ribs that made it hard for him to breath. "Dream about Daniel...and get strong. Then wake up....so we can have...our son."

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In the hallway, Jason and Alexis were holding hands, and making small talk with Patrick and Nadine about Lucia being home from the hospital, when Nikolas rounded the corner.

"Aunt..." his eyes went to Jason's hand holding Alexis. He cleared his throat. "Uh....how is Sam?"

Alexis let go of Jason's hand and walked over to Nikolas. "She made it through the surgery and now we have to wait a few days until they try to wake her up. She needs time to heal. But she's hanging on for us."

He nodded. "Thank God....can I speak to you alone?"

Alexis followed him around the corner. Nikolas asked her "Are you okay? I wish I could have gotten here sooner. There was a storm in Paris with high winds and we had to refuel there. It caused a delay."

"Thank you for rushing home."

"Of course. Where are the girls? Do you want me to bring them to Wyndermere?"

"Sonny sent them over to Ric's. They'll be fine. I'm sure you are wondering about what is the nature of my relationship with Jason."

"I wouldn't dare intrude on your privacy that way. Especially tonight. I just hope you are aware of what you are doing. And I pray..." he whispered the last part "this is not the same sort of situation as when you entangled yourself with Jerry."

"Its not. I'm not trying to secure a conviction on Jason. In fact, I'm his lawyer now."

"So this is more similar to the relationship you had with Sonny then?"

"Not exactly. No. Its different but its real. It is real, Nikolas, and Jason will, hopefully, be in my life for a long time to come. I still have to tell Sam all this but I believe that I will get that chance and she will support me. And I hope I have your support too."

He let out a breath. "I am not fan of the mob element that is in this city but I am your greatest fan....and you'll always have whatever it is I can give you, including my support of all your choices."

Alexis hugged Nikolas. "Please pray for your cousin."

"I've been praying non-stop for hours now."

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Nikolas made the hospital staff give Alexis a room to sleep in. She kicked off her shoes and lay on the bed.

Jason said "Get some rest. I'll be right here." He sat down in a nearby chair.

She patted the spot on the bed next to her. "It will be a little cramped but....I'd rather you be right here."

Jason took off his boots. His jacket was thrown over the back of the chair. He took his gun and set it on the table bedside the bed. Then he lay next to Alexis, letting her head rest on his chest.

And he felt whole.

There were pieces of his heart that were shattered. There were things he could never make right. There was pain that would never end. A son that belonged to Lucky. Michael not calling Jason "Daddy" now or ever again. The lost of Lila and his baby with Courtney. The lost of his father. His brother.

Brenda wouldn't move home and he didn't have the guts to ask her to. Part of his being noble. Pretending he didn't need his friend there with him.

Never finding a way to open his heart enough to reunite with Carly. The way he hurt Sam when he dumped her. The fantasy that never became reality with Liz.

So many broken pieces.

But when he was there with Alexis he didn't think of all that. It existed and it always would. Instead he thought of how good it felt to hold her. How right. How she slipped into his life and made it a better life. Made his world a better world.

Made him smile. Made him hope.

There were times before he considered hope the worst of the four letter words. And nothing that a man like him should waste his time on.

Now he was filled with hope again. And it was all because Alexis came up to a hotel room- when she was scared to open her heart- and opened her heart to him fearlessly. She might not have admitted it then. Admitted she was letting him into her heart. But she was. She wasn't nervous with him ever and she wasn't hyperventilating. She was brave, strong, sexy and exciting in every way.

She changed his life. Jason didn't want to look back on how he felt before he first kissed Alexis. All that blackness that was eating him alive. He wanted to look ahead. At the wild, crazy, intense, emotional, good life they were building.

His hand rubbed her back. "Rest, okay? They'll let us know if Sam needs you."

"This has been such a hard day. And so was yesterday. Yesterday I thought I might lose you. And today I thought I might lose my daughter. But now I believe I can't lose either of you. You fought for us, Jason. Thank you."

She gave him a soft kiss and repeated "Thank you."

He gave her a very short and tender kiss. "I'll fight till I have no fight left in me....for you...us...our life, Alexis."

Her eyes searched his. "I believe you."

He gave her a very small smile. "Go ahead and go to sleep. I'll be holding you when you wake up."

(You've got someone here who wants to make it all right.

Someone that loves you more than life right here.

.

You've got willing arms

that'll hold you tight.

.

A hand to lead you

on through the night right here.

.

I know your heart can get all tangled up inside.

Don't you keep it to yourself.

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When your long day is over-

and you can barely drag your feet-

the weight of the worldis on your shoulders,

I know what you need.

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Bring it on home to me) (Little Big Town)