*hisses* Grr.... if it were up to me, Rainwhisker wouldn't have been killed. :(

No way back

Once you're in StarClan, there's no way back. You're stuck here, for good. Sure, you can always give prophecies to cats and stuff—but it feels so much better to live.

It feels great to have life.

I am Rainwhisker, killed accidentally by a falling tree branch in a storm. I had been outside the camp, looking for prey, when a storm struck. I quickly hid underneath a tree.

I thought I was safe there. It terrified me when the tree was hit by lightning. I cowered on the ground, praying to StarClan that I wouldn't be killed.

Unfortunately, the tree fell down, crushing me under its weight. I let out a last screech before I died.

Thornclaw was also out with me. He was a little ways away. He heard my pained screech and came rushing to me. He found me, dead, and dragged my broken body back to camp.

Everybody mourned me.

I have asked many ancient cats in StarClan if you can ever go back to live with the warrior Clans again; if you can ever have life.

They all told me, "No."

And now I wonder: If StarClan had really been watching over me that day, why did I die? I know it's a foolish question, but…. I want to know. I didn't want to die. StarClan even told me that I didn't deserve to die yet.

But then, why did I? Why did I die? If I still had business to finish with the warrior Clans, why didn't they just let me go back?

But I know the answer. It's because I can't go back. Unless your spirit is put in another cat's body as a kit, there's no way back. And besides, there's no point in doing that, because you'll just forget all your past endeavors, anyway.

Many cats, like Sootfur and Redtail, tell me that they wish that they could go back. They want to go back to the Clans…. but they can't.

I never knew Redtail before I died—neither did Sootfur. Sootfur met Redtail when he died because Redtail welcomed him to StarClan. Bluestar welcomed me to StarClan. Sootfur and Redtail are really great friends by now.

It's unfortunate, really. When you're dead, all you do is watch the cats down below you, back down on Earth. I miss Earth, and I miss being alive. I wish I was alive, but….

Once you're dead, and in StarClan, there's no way back.