Heat

Jason Morgan and Alexis Davis, canon

Chapter Sixteen

December 10th, 2009

Thursday

Alexis was in her office, feeling pretty good about the fact that she had told Sam she was dating Jason, when she opened her purse, took out her birth control, like she did everyday at lunch time, and went to take a pill.

That's when she noticed she had skipped yesterday's dose.

One missed pill couldn't be that big of a disaster. Except she had unprotected sex the day before. She could always take two pills now. Or go see Kelly and get the morning after pills.

She let out a long breath.

This was probably not a big deal.

Alexis jerked the phone off its base and dialed. "Diane! Get over here! I can't get knocked up by another mobster!"

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After a long ranting session with her friend, Alexis found herself at Jason's door. The guard that stood there opened it and let her in, while saying, "Ms. Davis."

Jason was sitting at his desk, looking stressed out, working on paperwork. He stood up, surprised to see her. "Hey."

"Tell me you don't want to have a baby."

His mouth slightly opened. "What?"

Her hands flew all around. "You don't want to have a child, right? I just need to hear you say that and then you can get back to your work and I can go back to my office and life can go back to normal without me wasting away my day considering options when really there is only one, in a situation like this."

"Slow down. Back up. What situation?"

"I forgot to take a couple of birth control pills. Yesterday's and I also forgot one last week but it didn't seem like an issue then. Now I see that it could be. I'm sorry for reassuring you last night when I only just realized this morning my lapse in remembering in a timely fashion. But this is not a big problem. All I need to do is go to Dr. Lee and get a dosage of emergency back-up contraception. Though it is my choice and my body.....I thought maybe it would be prudent to run this by you because I've done this kind of thing before...well not this thing but similar....trying to take matters when it comes to my kids in my hands alone and it hasn't worked well for me. Not that we share a kid. We do not and we won't, for certain, as long as I take the morning after pill. I don't mean to bother you with this, Jason. I really don't. Just say you don't want a kid, so I don't feel like somehow I cheated you out of your choice, and then I'll be out of your hair."

"This is your call. Not mine."

"Are you mad?"

"No."

"You seem mad. I know what I said last night-"

"I'm not mad."

"But I forgot. Its happens. If you knew how busy my day is and how tough it is to start up this new law firm with my compromised reputation and then there is raising Molly and Kristina and dealing with a no-neck mob solider calling me Mom and I even had to tell my eldest today that I am engaging in intercourse with her ex-lover. I have a packed schedule, to put it mildly."

"I'm not blaming you for anything."

"I shouldn't have told you this. This is a mood killer. I don't know why I'm here. I'm going to go straight to General Hospital and deal with this. Its not a big deal, seriously. I have no moral objections to it and find it silly, actually, anyone who does because it is far from an abortion. And, as far as woman's rights issues go, I am firmly pro-choice. Sonny isn't but that's only because he is a man and thinks like a man. He doesn't understand that not everybody is always capable of raising a baby at all times. I do. I had to give up Sam so the issue is quite close to my heart, actually." She headed for the door. "I'm leaving. Good bye. Sorry for disturbing your day."

"Alexis."

She looked back at him.

Jason said "Sit down for a sec, okay?"

She slowly walked to the couch. She still wore her wool coat and carried her brief case. She sat down. Jason sat next to her.

She said "I'm sorry. Again. So sorry. This is the last thing you want to think about, I know. I just hope you don' t let it affect us the next time we...."

"Stop apologizing. You did nothing wrong. Everyone forgets something sometime."

"I don't know why I wanted to tell you this. Its really quite bizarre. Its just...well....fair is fair, right? You were there and so was I so I guess we both should be aware of what happens next. I know what I want but I just want to make sure you want the same thing."

Alexis had spoken to Jason several times about putting Jake in his will. She knew the pain he carried over not being around his son. She couldn't live with herself if she cheated him out of another child. They probably had not created one but it wasn't fair to do that to him.

She believed he had decided to not ever bring another child into his life- which was smart- but a part of her also thought he deeply regretted not having a child.

He said "You want to take the pills then?"

"Logically, yes. Emotionally....not so much."

"Okay. So what part of you are you listening to right now?"

"I know I should just take the pills- its not a big deal, like I said- but I want to just let God decide. Because, well, after Molly was born I really didn't consider, that often, having more kids because my life was so busy and I was never in a half way decent relationship but today, as I think about this, I know that my baby having days are just about over and so....why not just see how this plays out. It probably won't come to be anything and that would be the simplest outcome. The one that keeps our lives easiest."

"Would you want to have my baby?"

"It wouldn't be any crazier than anything I've done in the past."

"Do you want a baby or not?"

"I don't want...want... a baby but I don't want to do anything to change the course of what already is done. Though I honestly don't think we created a baby. Its just...in case....we did I can't decide this without your input. It would make the most sense to go get those pills but it doesn't sit right with me. So I know how I feel....how do you feel?"

"You need to decide this. You would be the mother. Its your choice."

"Just tell me.....is it okay with you if I don't take the pills?"

"Yes."

"Does this make you want to buy thousands of condoms and stuff them in all your pockets?"

He chuckled. And then this grin curved his lips. He was so happy. Alexis really- as insane as it might sound- wanted to give him a child in that moment. So he would always be that happy.

Neither of them were the type to plan to bring a baby into the mob lifestyle though so if she wasn't pregnant then that was that. They were just sleeping together and enjoying each other, not crazy in love, so they wouldn't be planning to create a family.

Still it brought a small smile to her lips to know that if she accidently got pregnant she'd have this man who really loved kids as the father of her youngest. And she'd have a chance to hold a little baby again and whisper "I'll be a good Mom for you," one more time. A chance to try again.

It was so hard on some days with Sam and Kristina. They were both rebellious and both emotional. Though they made her so proud and happy, it hurt to know they needed her less and less as everyday went by. Molly would soon be a teenager and she'd be the same way.

Alexis knew she shouldn't want another child. But a very small part of her was screaming that this was her last chance to have one and not to do anything to destroy that chance.

Jason didn't answer her about the condoms. He just leaned over and kissed her. Her hand rose and caressed his cheek. "Minty," she said with a smile.

"Thanks for talking to me about this. For not shutting me out."

"You sure you're okay? Not turned off?"

He yanked her onto his lap, so she straddled him, and then undid the belt on her wool jacket, pushing it off her. His mouth went to her neck.

Alexis laughed. "I guess that answers that question."

Heat rushed through her body as he sucked on her neck. Her skirt was riding up on his thighs, and her center was pressed against the bulge in his jeans. She started to unbutton her shirt and then shrugged out of it. His mouth closed around one nipple.

"Ohhhhh, Jason!"

He ripped violently at her bra and tossed it away from her.

She didn't waste time thinking about how much it cost because all she cared about was him sucking her nipples. One hand massaged her breast while his mouth licked and sucked at the other until she was squirming and moaning. Alexis pulled back from Jason and stood up. She stripped off her pantyhose and underwear while he pulled out his dick.

Alexis put one foot on the couch, taking him in her hand she stroked him for a minute and then teased her own slit with his dick. "Yes or no? Whatever you want."

"Hell yes."

She led him inside of her and settled on his lap, letting out a long, body shaking, moan at the intensity of what they were doing. She didn't come here for this but her emotions got the best of her.

Jason grabbed her hips and they started a rhythm. He was moaning more than usual and she wondered if this got him hotter...knowing she would have his baby and be happy about it. She could tell herself 1,000 reasons to never ever have a baby with a mob hitman but she was deep in this lifestyle- no way out now- and deep down she was just a woman. Her maternal cravings ran deep. Her soul ached for children to love and care for and her soul overruled her brain in this instance.

Besides, she was pretty sure, nothing would come of this anyway. She was now past prime baby making age. So she could let herself have this. This intense, emotional, desperate, deep, good love making with Jason where they fantasized about creating life.

When he came she felt her body warm with his cum. Her walls clutched him and she screamed out his name "JASON! OH FUCK! FUCK ME! OHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

"Uhhhhhhhh, God, Alexis."

She collapsed against him. He rolled her over so she was laying down, while they were still connected, and he was over her. After catching their breaths she said "We're being so reckless." She gave him a smile.

He kissed her sensually and said, as he stayed buried deep in her, "This was the best....for me."

She played with his hair. "That's saying something...after Aruba."

"Second thoughts?"

"Not a one. Except.....that door over there isn't locked."

"Rico knows better than to let anyone in if I'm with someone."

"I should hope so."

Jason kissed her shoulder.

Alexis said "Lets also hope Rico is hard of hearing and discreet."

Jason looked into her eyes. She gave him a soft kiss.

He said "You always surprise me."

"Well, what did you expect? Me to bore you?"

"You don't. You make my life a hell of a lot better."

She smiled slightly. "That's good to hear." Her hands went to his ass and massaged it. "You make me feel young again. Not that I'm saying I'm old. I'm not that old. You know what I mean... you make me feel vibrant again.. My life was pretty dull before your murder case....well except for the whole affair in the newspapers lie thing. What I'm saying is....I'm enjoying your company."

"Good."

He started kissing her for long minutes until he got hard again and then he made love to her another time, going slower. It was their slowest, sweetest love making session yet. She was arching her back, panting, and digging her heels into his back by the time he started to come. By then she had no doubts at all, it made him hot to think about baby making with her.

And that made her tingle from head to toe.

They probably would not conceive, no matter how many times they had unprotected sex, but it was deliciously sensual to know they could be creating a miracle baby. The miracle would be that just a week ago neither had any hope of ever having another child again.