Heat

Jason Morgan and Alexis Davis, canon

Chapter Eighteen

December 11th, 2009

Friday

After they had dinner at the Cosmopolitan, Alexis pulled a room key out of her clutch purse. She smiled and held it up. "Could I persuade you?"

Jason's eyes filled with hunger. He nodded, just once. Throwing two hundred dollars on the table, he stood up and took her hand. He was wearing a suit. She had on a dark blue dress that was sexy as hell. Ever since he walked in and saw it on her he had been wanting to take it off her.

They walked into the elevator. She pressed a button for the floor where she rented a room. As they rode up, their eyes held each other's.

He really loved how beautiful she was. She was stunning. There was something very reserved about her but when she let loose it was fantastic. It felt like Jason knew her in a way she didn't let anyone else know her- at least not anymore. The sexual tension grew as they got off the elevator at the Penthouse floor and went to the suite she rented.

Alexis opened the door. "I can't spend the night because I need to get home to my girls and be there when they wake up. But Voila is staying till Molly is asleep and Kristina is in the house for the night. So we have some time."

Jason looked around the room. He walked over to a built in stereo, near they television, and started some music. He changed the station until it was something out a short breath he walked back to Alexis and pulled her into his arms.

She gave him a wide smile and then said "I have heard that you despise dancing."

"One dance."

She rested her head on his shoulder. "Then I better make the most of this."

As the song ended he threaded his fingers through her hair on both sides of her head, and then gave her a long, tongue tangling sensual kiss. They had gotten further in a week then he thought they would but he felt like they were in a good place now. They were getting on the same page more and more each day. It helped to relax him. Made him think they'd last another day, week, month and maybe even years. He lived minute by minute- so he wasn't planning out their future- but still he didn't want to worry that she was about to bolt from him.

After yesterday he didn't worry about that anymore. She bared her soul to him when she said she sometimes wanted just one more baby. And that she'd share that baby with him if by some twist of fate she ended up pregnant.

He didn't expect that to happen but knowing she would be okay with it really opened his heart the rest of the way to Alexis.

Breaking their kiss he turned her around and unzipped her dress. Bending he kissed her shoulders and then down her back, as he pulled the dress to the floor. She stepped out of it. She wore a garter belt that night. Jason always got hard at the sight of those. A low moan rumbled out of the back of his throat as he stood back up. He ran his hand up the inside of her leg and between her legs, cupping her. He nipped at her earlobes.

"You so damn hot, Alexis. Fucking hot as hell." He rubbed his hand against her underwear. "You make it so I can't concentrate around you. All I can do is think about this..." he slipped a finger beneath her underwear "how fucking dripping wet you get over me."

Three fingers drove into her while his other arm wrapped around her waist, to hold her up when her legs started to tremble and shake as her orgasm ripped through her body. It only took a few minutes for her to come. By that time they were both flushed and ready for more. He lay her on the bed and stripped out of his clothes. Jason grabbed his wallet and took out a condom then he crawled onto the bed and over Alexis, who had stripped naked.

Her eyes were wide as they searched whispered in her ear, as his dick pressed against her leg, "I want you to have my baby but I can't keep acting like the danger isn't real, okay?"

Her hand caressed his cheek. "Its very real but its all we know now."J

ason kissed the skin right under her ear, as he shivered. "Maybe we'll both get what we want. Just know that even if we don't......yesterday was amazing for me. I'll always remember that."

She swallowed loudly. There were slight traces of tears shimmering in the brown depths of her eyes. He kissed at under her eyes and then her forehead. Alexis told him, tearfully, "Being logical is a bummer."But he knew that logic was what she lived by. Its just that emotions overtook them before. Now they had to be smart. Think about reality. He couldn't try and get her pregnant again and again because it wouldn't be right. They had their one day of forgetting who they were and what they could really have, now they had to go back to being mature hurt. It really cut deep because he wanted to keep his hope, keep their deep connection they had when they were making love without a condom, keep that level of intimacy, but Jason was just too set in his ways to do ran her hand slowly over his back, in a soothing motion.

After a long moment, while he was kissing her throat, she said "I understand. I feel the same way. Its best to be cautious. I've spent a more than a decade protecting my girls from the danger of the mob lifestyle...its just....I'm in this no matter what and so are my kids....and I just want the happiest life we can all have. Sue me. I still want to work the system to my benefit. Its all I know. And if you're with me....I want to give you all I can. Nothing lasts forever but we could have this wonderful right now."

He slipped the condom on. "We are."

She nodded. They made teary, emotional love to each other. He marveled at how raw she seemed to be with him on this night. The day before had broken some barriers for them. They were closer than ever now.

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Alexis lounged in a bubble bath in the hotel suite. She had a glass of wine she was sipping.

Laying her head back she closed her eyes.What am I doing with Jason? she asked herself One minute I'm sure I need to take those morning after pills and then I look into his eyes and he so wanted a baby....it made me ache for his baby...made me remember all the times I told myself I couldn't ever have another child...not to dream about a son. And then I was telling him how I wanted to let fate decided. FATE! We are letting fate decide this now because Jason is backing out on trying again. Which makes sense. I mean I was the first one who only wanted sex from him....and the sex is amazing and if that's all we get then good. I don't need love or another baby or fairytales.

She kept soaking there as she tried to tell herself that she wasn't sad or empty inside now. But, just a little bit, she was.

She knew that it was pure madness to contemplate baby making with a hitman but this was the world she lived in. No matter what she'd always have gaurds and all her kids would be targets. She hated it but it was true. Because of that, and the fact she never had good and steady relationships with men, she told herself to give up on the idea of bringing another life into her world. But then, after forgetting to take a few pills and one intense encounter in the bathroom at the coffee shop, all she thought couldn't ever be hers was dangled in front of her eyes.

She ignored it at first....though it teased her like a siren's call....till she looked in Jason's eyes and then Alexis knew....she couldn't take any sort of emergency contraceptive. Jason deserved his chance to see if God would give him a baby he could raise and Alexis decided to give herself permission to go for her dream.

A little boy to love.

But it had been foolish, crazy, reckless, wrong. Still it felt so beautiful and right. Story of her life. When would she ever learn to not do the most insane thing she could because she was in love with a dangerous, intense, gorgeous man?

Her eyes popped open.

In love? she thought. I truly hope I am not setting myself up for heartbreak here. It doesn't feel that way though. It feels like Jason wants all I want. And what I want is more of us. More of feeling understood and cherished. More wild sex and sweet love making. More fun. More laughs. More living life to its fullest without apologies or stopping short.

Maybe that is what upset her about Jason using a condom- not just that their awesome, secret, rule breaking, baby making scheme was so abruptly over- but that Jason pulled back from the edge. She always did that before she met him. When it came to him though she was starting to like the edge. Like being crazy and bold and reaching for wanted him to feel as far gone as her. Unable to be rational and logical and smart. Just able to get lost in the sensations, dreams and the wild vibe they had together.

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Jason lay on the bed with his arms crossed behind his head when Alexis came out. He was still naked and covered by a sheet that rested low on his waist.

His eyes devoured her as she walked over to the bed and lay down with him. She curled against him and looked into his eyes. "Hello again."

"Hey."

"Do you have plans for Christmas, Jason?"

"Christmas day? I'll go see Carly and the boys and see Monica and Emily. Why?"

"I hoped that you'd help me make a traditional dinner for my girls. We always go to Wyndermere but this year I'm thinking maybe we should all be at my house. It would be a chance for everyone to get used to you being there with me....if you want."

The last piece of fear in his chest dissolved. He told her "Okay," and then started to kiss her. Jason slid her robe off her shoulder, kissing all the skin he exposed. Sucking on the clean, citrus tasting skin of her shoulder, collar bone and breasts. Then moving down to her stomach. He kissed it for a full minute- adoring her body, amazed by her was ready to truly let him all the way into her world.

Not only did she tell everyone they were together but now she would share her holiday with him, making them a couple. They were headed somewhere he used to wonder if they could ever get. He used to not know- when he was in lock up for three months- how far Alexis would let him get. A kiss? A night together? A week? Now they had all that and she wanted more. She even would hope for a baby. It was everything he needed to feel was couldn't imagine losing her kissed back up her body and captured her lips in a sensual kiss that was full of his growing love for Alexis.