Ugh. This chapter was just.... DEATHLY.
Seriously. This chapter practically KILLED me.
It was so confusing. :/
Stronger than me
From the first moment I met him, I knew he was stronger than me. Even though he was a kittypet.
But I secretly loved him.
I led Dustpaw on to believe I loved him; sure. But secretly, deep down….
I loved Firepaw.
I always thought, Firepaw this, and Firepaw that. Even when I was telling Dustpaw I loved him, I was thinking about Firepaw.
Firepaw is stronger than me—he could lead a whole Clan. And I probably could, too; but I don't think I could do it in the same way that Firestar does.
When I met Firestar, he was just a kittypet. A lame, little kittypet. I could see his confusion as I spat at him; feel his hurt as I teased him.
And yet, why did I do it?
I wanted Dustpaw to believe I loved him.
Dustpaw believed that I loved him, even though, deep down, I thought he was a whining little furball.
I love Firestar. Not Dustpelt.
And he will always be stronger than me.
