Ugh. This chapter was just.... DEATHLY.

Seriously. This chapter practically KILLED me.

It was so confusing. :/


Stronger than me

From the first moment I met him, I knew he was stronger than me. Even though he was a kittypet.

But I secretly loved him.

I led Dustpaw on to believe I loved him; sure. But secretly, deep down….

I loved Firepaw.

I always thought, Firepaw this, and Firepaw that. Even when I was telling Dustpaw I loved him, I was thinking about Firepaw.

Firepaw is stronger than me—he could lead a whole Clan. And I probably could, too; but I don't think I could do it in the same way that Firestar does.

When I met Firestar, he was just a kittypet. A lame, little kittypet. I could see his confusion as I spat at him; feel his hurt as I teased him.

And yet, why did I do it?

I wanted Dustpaw to believe I loved him.

Dustpaw believed that I loved him, even though, deep down, I thought he was a whining little furball.

I love Firestar. Not Dustpelt.

And he will always be stronger than me.