Weeks passed, and it continued with the same old thing. Go to a new world, do recon, kill Heartless, come back home, sleep and get up the next day to repeat it all over again. I began to wonder why I even agreed to come to this place. Well, not really. It was better than being alone in the darkness where I'd be stuck for god knows how long.
"What a bore." I muttered, walking along the halls like I always did. I could probably walk this hall with my eyes closed now. Sighing, I flipped my hood over my head. My eyes were starting to burn.
"You would be bored, wouldn't you?" A voice came from behind me. I spun around to find the fiery red head standing there looking at me. I smiled when I saw him. It had been a while since I had seen him.
"Well, look who's finally returned." I grinned as I watched him walk towards me. He couldn't see my face, but if he could, he would notice my eyes light up as I stared at him. He was one of the few who made me feel like I had a heart.
"Yeah, it's a miracle to see that you're still standing in one piece." He laughed. I looked up at him, nodding my head.
"Yeah, missions are getting ridiculously boring lately. Saix needs to come up with some new excitement." I told him.
"I agree with you on that one." He told me, looking down the hallway. Something about him made me think that I might have know him before I became an empty shell.
"Axel... do you remember anything from before this?" I asked him, looking at the ground. I'd give anything to remember who I was when I had a heart.
"Yeah, but I haven't changed much since then." He told me, his voice sounding pretty serious. I didn't know if asking him something like that would upset him, but I just wanted to know.
"Does anyone in the Organization remember anything about who they were before they became this way?" I asked him. He wasn't looking at me now.
"I believe they do. Roxas and Xion don't... and by the sounds of it, neither do you." He told me, still with a serious tone to his voice.
"I just... want to remember." I told him, turning my back to him. I started walking away, a sad feeling taking over me.
"Jinx..." I heard him call after me. I didn't stop walking.
"I'm sorry, Axel." I muttered, turning the corner. It was silent again. I don't know why I asked him that, but part of me always wanted to know if anyone remembered who they were. I'd give anything to know, absolutely anything.
I stopped doing missions for a while. I went from world to world, trying to see if I could find pieces of who I was. It was a new determination. I'd been with the Organization for so long, and it was killing me. I had done research on everyone else, knowing all there was to know about them... but there was no information about me. I wondered if anyone knew anything about who I was. I couldn't piece anything together. It was getting to be a bother, controlling my mind lately. The last world I went to was an island, and it was beautiful. The waves crashing on the beach, I watched birds fly up above the trees. The sound of a waterfall in the distance, and a tiny little island with a tree. I started walking towards it, kicking at the sand beneath my boots.
"I just want to know. I want to remember." I found myself speaking out loud again.
"Remember what, Nobody?" I heard a voice behind me speak. I turned around, a glare in my eyes.
"Don't call me that!" I snapped, noticing the figure with silver hair. He was taller than me, and he was wearing a blind fold. The thing that struck me was the Organization cloak he was wearing.
"Isn't that what you are? A Nobody? A hollow shell with no memories from her past?" He asked me. I glared at him.
"What the hell would you know? You don't even know me!" I snapped again. He took a step towards me. On instinct, I put my hand out and my Keyblade appeared. I placed it in front of me, a defensive stance now visible.
"A Keyblade, huh?" He asked, staring at me. He had stopped moving closer to me, just standing there. I knew he was staring at the Keyblade.
"Yes, and I won't hesitate to fight you if you come any closer." I told him, rudely. He grinned, and took another step. In one quick movement, I swung at him but felt something hit my chest as I flew backwards into a tree.
"Ugh..." I groaned, shaking my head. I looked at him and to my surprise, he was just standing there, his own Keyblade visible in his hand.
"W-who are you?" He asked me. I stared up at him, realizing that when I hit the tree, my hood had fallen down.
"Why do you care who I am?!" I snapped, standing up and holding my Keyblade tightly in my hand.
"Why do you look like... her?" He asked me. Could I be someone he recognized? I began to wonder.
"Who is this her?" I asked him. Curiousity was getting the best of me.
"This girl... that I used to know." He told me. He was confused, or in shock.
"You used to know someone who looks like me? What was her name?" I asked him. I had to know now.
"Her name was... Jine. She was... someone I truly cared about." He told me.
"Jine?" I asked him, the name sounding familiar to me.
"Who are you?" He asked me, stepping towards me.
"My name... is Jinx." I told him.
"Just Jinx?" He asked me. I backed up, glaring.
"My full name is Jinxeshisu." I glared. I watched his Keyblade disappear.
"It can't be..." He muttered, pulling his blindfold off his eyes. I went wide eyed when I saw his cerulean eyes, and I froze.
"Who are you?" I asked him.
"Riku." He whispered, staring at me. I backed away from him.
"Why are you staring at me like that? No, why are you dressed as one of us?!" I snapped at him. I was starting to feel something... fear. This guy, Riku, was making me feel something.
"Don't go... please." He asked me, his voice soft. I glared at him.
"Just stay where you are!" I demanded, my voice shaking.
"You're showing fear... you've got nothing to be afraid of, Jinx." He told me as if he was reassuring me.
"Get away from me. Just... stop it!!" I screamed at him. I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders, and then suddenly I was pulled backwards. It went by in slow motion.
"No! Wait! Jine!!" I heard the boy shout as I was enclosed in darkness.
I opened my eyes to find that I was in my room back at the castle. I sat up, looking around my room to find Axel leaning against my wall.
"What the hell were you thinking?" He asked me, his eyes closed.
"What happened?" I asked him.
"You've been avoiding missions. Saix is starting to wonder what you're up to." He informed me. I stared at him, standing up.
"Axel... what happened? Where is Riku?" I asked him.
"Jinx, what the hell are you thinking?" He asked me, his eyes still closed.
"Axel... answer me." I told him.
"If that guy would've killed you... I would've..." I didn't let him finish. I had my arms around him instantly, hugging him. My face buried in his chest, I kept it there so he couldn't see I was upset. I felt him shift and look down at me.
"Jinx..." He whispered, pushing me away.
"I'm sorry..." I told him. Since I met Riku, I had begun to feel things. I felt Axel put his arms around me and hold me against him.
"Just... be more careful." He told me. I looked up at him, nodding my head.
"I will." I told him, smiling. It was nice to know that he cared, but it would kill me if I was the reason he got hurt. I wouldn't let that happen to Axel. I refused. I moved away from him and stood there for a moment.
"What's the matter?" He asked me after I was silent for quite a while.
"Axel... is it possible that if you meet someone who claims that they've known you... that you could start to develop feelings... like a heart?" I asked him. Axel looked at me.
"It might be possible. Did Riku make you feel that way?" He asked me, his green eyes staring into me.
"Yes. He made me show fear." I whispered. Axel scratched his head.
"Oh man. This could also be a bad thing. If the others find out that you're starting to experience that, they might send you to Vexen for testing. I'd die before I let that happen, but you know, it actually might." He told me, looking out my window at Kingdom Hearts.
"And I'd end up slaughtering Vexen." I growled. I would NOT be taken in for testing. No way in hell.
"Haha, yeah, I know you would. You're the last person that I could see actually agreeing or willingly going for testing. They would have to drag you there unconscious." He laughed. I smiled at him.
"And when I woke up, it would be their worst nightmare. I will not be like that replica." I growled, thinking about him. That's when it hit me.
"Oh my god!" I practically shouted. It startled Axel, and I watched him jump as I shouted.
"What?" He asked me.
"The replica! He's the replica of the guy I met today.... Riku!" I continued on. Axel stared at me.
"Yeah, that's right. Wow, that thought never even crossed my mind." He scratched his head again.
"Speaking of the replica... where is he? I haven't seen him in a while." I asked the red haired pyro.
"I don't know. I never keep tabs on the kid." He muttered, shrugging his shoulders. I just left it at that.
A month passed, and I found myself returning to the world Destiny Islands. This was where I had met Riku, and I wanted to know more about who this Jine was. She sounded... interesting. If I was her Nobody, I wanted to know more about her. No, I wanted to know EVERYTHING I could about her. I needed to know. If this is who I was, what was I like with a heart? Was I in love with anyone? Did I have a family? Who were my friends? There were so many questions.
"Why can I never find him again?" I found myself asking. I searched the whole world. I went into the cave where there was a drawing of a girl and a boy. It was cute. This guy looked like Roxas in a way, but his hair was different. The girl looked like Namine with shorter hair. Could these two people be who my friends were Nobodies of? I shook my head as I left, staring out at the ocean before I sat down on the sand. I noticed some seashells, and I quickly put them in my pocket. I knew that Xion loved seashells, so I figured I would give them to her. Sighing, I watched the sun set and then it began to get cold. Still no Riku.
"This is beginning to look like a waste of time. I'm putting off missions just to find out who I am, or who I was." I sighed, standing up and summoning a portal. Taking one last look at this world, I walked through the portal and into the brightness of the castle once again.