My condition is steadily decreasing as the Doctor takes us to some of the most beautiful places across time and space. There's Appalapachia, with beautiful topiary and the bluest blue sky ever. He explains to me that the people here are like him, they have two hearts. But they don't regenerate. And neither do I, because at this point I can hardly move. The poison is taking its toll. But yet he still take me to these places, helps me to walk, just so I can have the universe in my soul and starlight I my eyes. As we come back into the doors collapse to the floor. There is nothing I can do in all the world. He tells me I have five more minutes, and picks me up to set me gingerly on the van seat, my new most visited part of the TARDIS. I can just hear her, whispering, but I can't quite understand. Like trying to shout at someone through the glass. He says he is going to take me to one more place. After flicking a few buttons, we're off for the mystery planet. He sits beside me.
"Did I ever tell you about my home planet?" he asks.
"Yes. Gallifrey, correct?" I reply. He nods.
"The most beautiful suns you've ever seen, and the mountains. But the most beautiful part, the prizewinner, is the great glass dome enclosing the Citadel. The crown jewel, the pride of the Time Lords. And that's what we're going to see, Dex. We'll see Gallifrey, me for the first time in a hundred years."
"Rea- really? But- we ca- can't go the-the- the- there…" I say breathlessly.
"Of course we can't. But we're going to you. For you, Gallifrey. My dying girl. You remind me so much of a friend of mine, Donna. There was nothing I could do for her, either. So she forgot. But I could never do that to you. So off we go, Dex, and here we are." He picks me up. There is nothing I can do to relieve him of my weight. I have lost nearly all bodily movement. The most I can do is breathe and occasionally attempt to speak. I can feel my heart slowing down. But he still carries me out into the bright double sunlight and I see it. The mountains, the citadel. The Citadel. It is beautiful. And peaceful. I don't know how, the Time War destroyed it. Nothing left. But it is there it is beautiful, and it is the last thing I see as my mind slips away. I can feel him running, shouting my name and "No!" but there is nothing I can do. I am falling, slowly, but I am picking up speed. Falling off a cliff and ready to hit the ground. And then I am…. Awake. No, awake isn't the right word. Conscious. I am conscious, but I am different. I feel… huge. But contained. In a space that looks to be maybe a four foot square but is in truth so much more than that. I am the TARDIS. But how? And then I feel memories, memories of a thousand years of travel with the Doctor, and I realize I am her. I am melded with her. I am the TARDIS. I can see all of her… of our functions, our rooms and halls and alcoves. And then I hear his voice.
"Beatris? Dex, are you in there? Can you hear me?" he says. I try and fail to respond. The TARDIS shows me. She shows me how to create a room to tell him, a room with my name written all over it. So I do. I show him a hallway. A lime green hallway, and I hear him exclaim. It goes to a room, a library with books. And in those books is a story. The story of Beatris Marlow, and all of her life. Then He enters the rooms. I see him smile, and I see a single tear fall down. He rushes back to the control room, pushes my buttons (funny how he does that) and we are off again for everything. And it is fantastic.