Episode 1 Ch.5 I Don't Want to Be

Andy and Lily are sitting on the ground by the two graves. "So a lot has changed."

"Yeah…I'm married."

"Yeah my mom would be happy for you."

"Yeah…I don't think I told you, but we adopted a sixteen year old girl."

"Whoa…That's amazing. She's a really lucky girl."

"I'm lucky man. She's a sweetheart….How's your life?"

"I'm doing pretty good. I'm glad to be home." Lily really was glad to be home. She had missed so much in the few years she was gone.

"Well all of us are glad to have our Lily home. And I can't wait for you to meet Clare."

Lily looked at him.

"The girl I adopted."

"Oh I can't wait to meet her either. I have a lot of catching up to do."

Andy nodded his head. She really did have a lot to catch up on. So much had happened, but at least he was still in love with his wife. That would never change.

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Breanne and Jamie are still staring at Jacey and her new guy.

"Oh guys this is Eddie Stevenson."

"Nice to meet you," Jamie shook his hand.

"Yeah nice to meet you, Eddie."

"Nice to meet you guys too. Jacey talks about all of you none stop."

"Well I love them."

"I didn't even know that you were coming back to town."

"Yeah well Brooke called and said that she needed my help here."

Brooke had hired Jacey as a designer, and Jacey moved to New York to work in one of her other stores. Jacey loved it, but she was happy to be back in Tree Hill. The move had caused a strain in her relationship with Keith, and they had ultimately broken up. She missed him all the time, but she moved on with Eddie.

"So are you here for good?"

"I think so. Brooke said that she really needed me here, and Eddie and I are going to go apartment hunting."

"You know you can live here."

"We want to live on our own." Eddie told her. "We're used to living together."

"I can't believe you just up and left your life in New York." Jamie was just a little confused. He didn't think they had been dating for that long.

"Jacey's my girl. I would follow her anywhere she wanted to go." Eddie kissed her cheek.

Jamie had a weird feeling about Eddie. Something didn't seem right.

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Hunter walks back into his apartment. McKenzie is packing. "You shouldn't be lifting those heavy boxes. Are you trying to kill our baby?"

"No, how could you even think that. My dad is going to come and get them. I'm going home tonight."

"You might be going home and throwing away everything we have together, but I'm gonna fight for custody of my child. There is no way in hell I'm gonna let someone else raise my baby." Hunter yelled at her.

"I'm not throwing us away. Once I give this baby up we can be together again."

"No…"

"You don't want to be with me?" She thought that he loved her.

"I love you, but I don't want to be with someone that is willing to give their baby up after everything we already planned."

"I can't raise this child. I'm not ready for this. I'm only sixteen."

"I'll have my lawyer get in touch with you." He walked out of the apartment.

McKenzie didn't know what to do. She didn't want to lose him, but she wasn't ready to be a mom. She just couldn't do it.

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Brooke stared at her cell phone for at least an hour before she finally picked it up and dialed the dreaded number.

"Hello," Nathan answered.

"I need you to come home. Your family needs you."

"Brooke this is a busy time for us. I have the team to think about."

"You have been thinking about the team for years now. It is time you start to think about your family. We need you. I need you. I can't do this by myself anymore."

She hung up the phone before he could answer. She hoped that he would come home to them.

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"Alright buddy…it is time to go to sleep." Chase told Drew after he finished the third book.

"One more book…" Drew loved to have someone read to him.

"No honey…it is time for you to go to sleep." Summer told him as she gave him a big kiss. "I love you Drew bug."

"I love you." He smiled.

"Sweet dreams little man," Chase told him as he gave him a hug and a kiss.

Chase and Summer walked to the door.

"I love you daddy." Drew told him. Chase was shocked. Drew had never called him that before.

Chase turned off the lights, and they walked into the hall. "I'm sorry. I should probably tell him that he can't call me that."

Summer shook her head. "It is not your fault that Drew loves you more than he loves his own father. You don't have to apologize for being there for my son. That's why I love you so much."

Chase leaned in and kissed her. She was beautiful to him.

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Noah is in shock. He had no idea that Elizabeth was pregnant. "Is this why you've been hiding? You didn't want me to know that you had cheated on me."

Elizabeth slapped him. He had no idea what he was talking about.

"What the hell was that for?"

"You are an insensitive bastard."

She walked back into the apartment, and he followed.

"Well you are obviously pregnant, and I know the baby isn't mine. I haven't seen you in over a year."

"How did you know that I was here?"

"I followed your mom." He sighed, "Who is the father?" That was the only thing he cared about.

"I don't know."

Noah was confused. Elizabeth wasn't one to sleep around.

"I was raped," she said sadly. "So I have no idea. That's why I'm here. I'm giving the baby up for adoption."

Noah shook his head. "I can't believe this."

"I broke up with you because I didn't want you to know."

"You broke my heart. I had been away for a whole six months in London and when I get back you call and say it is over. I love you Elizabeth. I wish you would have let me be here for you."

"I know I just I was ashamed."

"You have nothing to be ashamed of. This is not your fault, and if I ever find out who did this to you I will kill them." He put his arms around her but she moved back. She wasn't really ready to be touched. "I love you. How far along are you?"

"I'm eight months."

"I should have been here for you." He reached for her one more. "I promise I'll never hurt you." She nodded her head and let him embrace her. He held onto her hoping never to have to let go again. They had missed too much and he didn't want to miss anymore.

"I'm okay…I have my good and bad days, but I'm okay." She had tears in her eyes. "The hardest thing is carrying this little baby inside of me and trying not to grow attached."

"Grow attached," he rubbed her stomach.

"What?"

"This is your child Elizabeth. If you want to keep this baby I will love it like it is my own."

Elizabeth didn't want to know. She had spent eight months preparing to give the baby up, but a part of her had always wanted to keep it because it was apart of her.

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Lucas is lying in his bed. Peyton walks in. "How are you feeling?"

"I feel the same."

"At least you don't feel worse," she sat down beside him and rested her head on his chest.

"How's Elizabeth?"

"I think she's having second thoughts about giving the baby up."

"I thought that is what she wanted."

"I knew once she carried the baby she would fall in love with it. It doesn't matter how the child is conceived every mother loves their unborn child in someway or another."

Lucas stroked her hair. "Everything is changing so fast, and I feel like I'm missing out on all of it."

"At least we have each other."

He kissed her forehead and then rubbed his face. "At least we have each other." He repeated.

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Lily walks into her old bedroom and lies on the bed. Lucas and Peyton hadn't changed anything about the room. It was exactly how she left it, and she liked it that way. It made her feel like she was a teenager again.

Aidan walks out from the bathroom. "Aidan…" she smiled.

"Hey honey…I missed you."

"When did you get in?"

"About an hour ago," he kissed her and felt her hand. "Where's your ring?"

"Huh?" She knew what he was talking about.

"Your engagement ring…Why isn't it on your hand?"

"I just wanted to wait until we could tell everyone together."

He kissed her, "That was a good idea. We can tell them as soon as possible. I can't wait until everyone knows that we're getting married."

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Spencer walks up to the front door of his house, and hears his phone beep. He has a voicemail.

"Hey Spencer…I know that you are on your way back to Tree Hill, but I thought that you should know that Lily is back. She's home for good."

Spencer looks shocked and happy all at the same time.

He takes a minute and then walks into his house where his girlfriend of six months was cooking him dinner. "Oh my God I am so glad that you are back." She hugged him. "I missed you so much."

"I missed you too, Julie." He kissed her, but all he could think about was Lily being back in town. He had waited for her to come home since the last time that he saw her.

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"Although I would like to think everything stayed the same while I was gone it didn't. Everything has changed. It may feel like just yesterday that I left, but no one stopped living their lives while I was away." Lily's voice can be heard.

Alright so that is the end of Episode 1. I was pretty happy with it. I think that I like this part the best out of all the parts that I have written. With the almost five year jump it is like writing a whole new story which I like because I can do a lot with it.

I can't wait to read what you guys thought. I know a lot of you are going to be a little upset about the Lily/Aidan thing. That will be explained a little more, but I don't want the Spencer fans to give up hope.

The Elizabeth thing is kind of sad for me to write. And the Brooke and Nathan stuff is hard too because I love them together in this story.

I hope that the first episode didn't disappoint too much.

Please let me know what you thought. Should I continue with Episode 2 or should I have stopped at the third part?