Hi pplz!-
This time, I just feel like giving each of you an answer to your reviews so...here they are!
AmericanStarryKnight89::...soon...soon. Do not fret for Kouga shall pay! But I also have a little surprise but, you know what? I ain't telling! Nope! You're just gonna have to wait and read!!
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Life for me is going smoothly...except the fact that one of the guys in my class keeps pulling my bra strap but, that is besides the point...::cough::
Brandy is still lame, the poor thing. She can't even be walked! Her beautiful coat is such a mess too. She's covered in stains. On Saturday I'll give her a good groom. Kit and Buddy are great! Buddy looks kinda like Trigger now that he got clipped and Kit is...well...nippy should I say? ( no pun intended...)
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beautiful with daggers:: We are all of mixed race to some extent, even though we may not look it.
How Inu-chan is breaking Kagome-sama's heart, you'll just have to read and find out...
Kotori Susayski:: I just love your pen name :)
Getto 820:: NO INTERNET?! NO CABLE?!?! How do you get by? Do you even get to watch Inuyasha? Poor poor neglected person who is older than me by one year...( I thought you were 7...XD Now I know...-;;)
I know! Tell your parents that having internet will help you find info for your projects! Yeah! I'm sure they'll buy that! If they don't, you can wait until you turn fifteen and get a part-time job. Then you can pay for internet yourself! And cable!
Well, tell me when you start your story because I'll read it - Promise!
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Just wanted ya'll to know, the end is nearing...I'm not going to tell how many more chapters there are because I have no clue. No worries though...this chapter is not the end :D
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Fleeing from Love
' Why must he do this? Why he must he be so cold? Why does he hide under his bangs and not let those beautiful amber eyes shine? Why is he dull and sad? Why?'
Kagome rode silently, by herself. Inuyasha was usually to her right but for the past few days, he'd been off on his own.
She didn't know where he was and she didn't really care. Why should she? He was treating her and everyone else like dirt, as if they didn't matter.
Kagome didn't care anymore.
Well, she did but it wasn't really appreciated.
The last time they had talked ended with a negative meaning. There wasn't any friendship there, not anymore. It was gone, a swirling wind on a forgotten plain.
Hot tears brimmed at the corners of her eyes, threatening to spill down her rosy cheeks.
Life stops for no one, no matter how much you wish it would.
' I love you Inuyasha...I-I just wish you would love me back....'
A single silver tear rolled down her cheek, soon followed by a steady stream of others. She didn't stop them, she didn't want to.
" Kagome?"
The miko looked up with a start, finding Miroku and Sango riding beside her, both very worried.
When they saw her tear-stained face, their own hearts clenched tight with sorrow. That face was so sad and wounded.
" Oh Kagome...Don't cry, not again. You've already shed so many tears..."
Her voice cracked and came out no more than a whisper. " It seems I haven't shed enough..."
The two older people looked at each other, sharing a knowing glance. " We know how you feel Kagome-sama. It'll be okay, we promise."
Kagome nodded, smiling weakly. " Thank-you..."
They were wrong. It wouldn't get better.
She knew it right down to the bottom of her heart. The love she felt for that certain hanyou would never be answered. The yearning her heart had for his would never be quenched. Never.
Then again, why was she crying? She shouldn't be sad. She should be mad.
Kagome knew it wasn't right. She knew she should be pissed off at him but...She just didn't feel it.
' I've been too kind, for too long. I forgive too easily and I do things for the better of the other person. I never see what's in it for me.'
She sighed, wiping the tears off her face with the back of her hand. ' Usually, when I do something for the benefit of others, it makes me feel good. This time, it's hurting me, a lot.'
A scar had already formed over her heart, working itself deeper into her feelings. It was agonizing, sitting on her horse hour after hour, not knowing if he cared or not.
All Kagome wanted was a smile, or at least an acknowledgingglance. Just so she could stop worrying. That was all...
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A blanket of twilight crept across the sky, tainting the clouds a smoggy purple. On the horizon was a thin strip of pink light, slowly receding as the pale sun dipped lower behind the mountains.
The three riders had decided to stop for the day, tired and hungry from keeping weary eyes out for demons.
Sango hopped off Cadoc and left him to Miroku. She never really did like horse's but since Inuyasha wasn't doing anything with him, she had no choice but to sit on the stallions back for hours. Plus, Kagome wasn't really up to watching the excitable animal.
" Hey Sango! Don't leave me alone in the dark."
The huntress looked back, raising an eyebrow at Miroku. " Kagome's here. Plus, you have a job to do."
He looked over at the sullen miko and scratched his head" She isn't really the best company right now..."
Sango looked over at her and sighed, noticing Kagome was looking at them with a hurt expression. " Now look what you did! Go and apologize."
" But she's not really– there– There isn't anything that will cheer her up. I've tried."
" Miroku, have you ever been depressed?"
" Yes..."
" Well then you must know that being alone is the worst thing possible. So, even if comforting her has no effect, it still helps her deal with the feelings."
Miroku looked back at the still saddled horses standing quietly behind him and scratched his head again. " You would be better at it anyway. I have no idea how women feel so, you should go talk to her. I'll take care of the horses..."
" Fine...You just shut up and be quiet. You understand?"
The manservant nodded, smiling down at her. " I understand dearest."
Sango scowled at him and turned around, walking over to Kagome who was sitting in the snow, wrapped tightly in her cloak.
" Kagome-chan?"
The miko looked up, her expression unchanged. " Oh, hi Sango."
The huntress sat down beside and wrapped herself in her own cloak, starring up at the cloudy sky.
They were silent for a moment, each occupied with different thoughts. Then Sango broke the evening quiet. " You can tell me, Kagome."
She glanced at the huntress then looked at the ground. " There's nothing to tell."
" Sure there is", the older woman said. " You've been so quiet for these past few days that I expect you would have something to say."
Kagome let out a sad sigh. " Well, it's just– I– um– I don't know how to explain it."
" It's okay, take your time."
The miko gathered her thoughts and took a shaky breath, trying to push down the sobs that were already leaking out of her throat. " Have...Have you ever felt like the one you loved was drawing away from you?"
Sango nodded. " Oh yes, many times."
Kagome continued on. " And have you ever felt that you couldn't do a thing about it?"
" Yes."
" That's how I feel now. That I can't stop..."
Sango looked at her friend sadly, her tone soft and gentle. " You love him, don't you Kagome?"
The miko let out a sob, wiping furiously at her eyes. " I've grown so close to him and somewhere along the way, I fell in love. I always hoped he felt the same way after all I've done for him. I stayed with him even though it didn't help me in any way. But now he...."
Kagome let out another sob, putting her face in her hands. " Now he' so bitter and dull. He won't even tell me what's wrong and it hurts...It really does. God it hurts so much!" She couldn't control herself now. She needed to let it out.
Sango put a comforting arm around her shaking shoulders. " There, just let it out. Let it all out..."
Kagome couldn't let it all out though, her body wouldn't let her. Her cries slowly ebbed away until it was nothing but a hiccup.
" Feel better now?"
She nodded slightly, drying her wet cheeks.
" I'm glad". Sango hugged the miko then stood up, marching off into the dark forest. She was going to give that hanyou a good thrashing if she found him.
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The darkness ebbed at her, reaching out in wispy hands then drawing back at the last moment. Strange rustles and squeaks came from inside the bushes, making the plants shake and shudder.
Sango had to admit, it was pretty creepy. With the snow giving off that strange light and the trees looming dark and foreboding against the dismal sky.
" Inuyasha! Where are you?!" This was really the only way to stop her childish fear from consuming her.
" Inuyasha! Get your butt down here now!"
No answer.
She grit her teeth, fisting her hands in anger. ' That hanyou better show up or I'll give his ass a good whacking...'
" INU–Ack!"
The hanyou jumped down from the dark canopy above, a scowl on his face. " What do you want?"
" Don't scare me like that!", Sango snapped, putting a hand over her racing heart.
" Keh...". He crossed his arms and looked away, glaring at some invisible object.
The huntress bit back her annoyance and calmed herself, looking him straight in the face, or what she could see of it anyway. " Inuyasha, you really need to go and talk to Kagome."
He stiffened but didn't look at her. " Why do I ' really need' to do that?"
Sango frowned. " Why? Because she's turning into an empty shell because of you! She's hardly said a word to me or Miroku! That's why."
Inuyasha felt a pang of guilt but he didn't show it. " So? She can go ahead and turn into a grave stone for all I care!"
" Why you–Are you blind Inuyasha!? You're killing her! She's wasting away because you can't put your feelings aside and actually look at what's going on around you!"
He spun on her, narrowing his eyes. " Look Sango. I have my reasons for what I'm doing and I request that you respect them."
" I do respect them but right now, Kagome just needs the simplest sign that you're okay."
He turned away and started marching away from her. " Go tell her yourself," he muttered.
" I already did but she won't take my word for it! You have to go yourself and tell her! Please Inuyasha, you must!"
" Alright, fine, I will! But later, I have things I need to sort out–alone..."
Sango stomped up and stood in-front of him, refusing to move. " No", she said firmly. " You will go right now."
" Get out of–Fine. Will you leave me in peace if I do?"
The huntress smiled. " Yes, I will."
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Kagome looked up when she saw Sango emerge from the gloom, a tall silver haired figure trailing behind her. They both stopped and stood quietly, talking in hushed whispers near the blazing fire.
Inuyasha then turned to her, his face void of all emotion.
Kagome let out a groan and turned away, drawing her knees up to her chest and wrapping her cloak tighter around herself. She stared up at the sky, glimpsing patches of starry blue before it was swallowed up again by the clouds.
" Kagome?"
She didn't look at him. She didn't want to look at him. She felt ashamed of letting him see the state she was in.
" Kagome look – You're probably not going to listen to me but here it goes– I didn't mean to upset you or anything but um– I– ah um. How do I put it?..."
She didn't even give him the slightest glance.
" Are you even listening to me?"
No answer.
Inuyasha frowned, kneeling down to peer at her shadowed face. " Kagome, look at me."
She didn't move.
" Listen to me stupid!"
The miko growled and whipped her head around to stare him straight in the eye, tears already brimming at the corners of hers. " No, you listen! What's up with you?! Acting all ' I'm to good for you'. What's your problem?"
The hanyou drew back, eyes widening momentarily before his thoughts came back to him. " What's my problem, what's your problem?!"
" I didn't ask you to ask me Inuyasha! Now answer!"
The tone she was using sounded very weird when she used it but he bit back anyway. " Don't poke your nose in where it doesn't belong wench!", the hanyou snapped back. " You have no idea either...", he muttered after.
A sob broke out as she opened her mouth. " I would have an idea if you'd told me what was wrong! Maybe if you'd forget your pride once in a while and told someone how you felt, your life might be a lot better!"
" You have no right to say that. I choose the way I want to live my life, not some weak human girl," he growled, eyes flashing red.
" I have every right Inuyasha! You know why?! Because I–
" I don't have time for this." He turned away and started walking back into the forest.
Tears were pouring freely down her face now, a river of liquified moonlight. She couldn't bear it any longer. She had to tell him, tell him now. " IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU INUYASHA!", she all but screamed. " And I thought you could love me back too! But now, now it's clear. I was a fool to ever believe that..."
She stopped for a moment, gathering her breath before continuing on. " Even if it would do no good for me, I helped you. I went along with you just so I could help. I did it out of the goodness of my heart and I thought you would appreciate it. But you know what? I WAS WRONG! I was a bloody fool for ever believing you would thank me."
Kagome put her head in her hands and cried.
Inuyasha turned back and knelt in-front of her, reaching out a clawed hand to brush the damp hair from her forehead. " Kagome I– I never knew..."
" Well maybe if your head wasn't so thick, you would have already FIGURED IT OUT!!!" She smacked his hand away and sprang up, sprinting away into the night.
" Kagome wait!"
She heard his pounding footsteps behind her but she didn't stop, she couldn't stop. She was blinded by grief and anger.
" Kagome stop, please!"
" NO! Leave me alone you stupid half dog! I don't want you to break my heart any more than you already have!"
It took her a while to realize he'd stopped following her. But even thought that she was alone in the dark forest didn't stop her. She would keep running until her emotion driven energy burst died out.
A ways back, Inuyasha stood stock still, staring after her receding footsteps. His eyes were wide with realization and his heart was clenched firmly in a fist of guilt. " What have I done?..."
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::gasp:: Uh oh...That wasn't the surprise though.....
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