Ok here is the fourth chapter! (The apologies are at the end!)

The apartment was dark and cold as Kurt unlocked the front door and stepped inside. He realised that Rachel must be at Cody's, a thought that didn't make him feel much better. It was typical wasn't it. He had just got back from his 'date' with Adam- oh no wait, he thought sarcastically, it wasn't a 'date' after all. Just a coffee! Just a freaking innocent coffee!- to find that his best friend was on a date, which just seemed to rub it in further. He sighed as he collapsed onto his bed fully clothed. He liked Adam- he really did, and normally would have loved getting to be best friends first before taking the relationship past the friend zone…like he had done with Blaine. Blaine. There was your problem right there. Blaine. He needed Adam to move fast because he was afraid. His heart was breaking day by day. Each morning when he woke up single, each dream he had of the two of them, every single flashback and every one of the tears were scraping and dissolving and chipping away at his heart and he was frightened that one day he would have nothing left. That his heart would be broken for ever. That all the pain would somehow stop him from being able to love again. Obviously the only way to stop this happening would be to get over Blaine. However, that was impossible…unless he fell for someone else? Maybe, he didn't miss Blaine, he just missed being loved? Maybe if he did fall for someone else he would smoothly get over Blaine as his love wouldn't be trying to drag his heart back to Blaine's in Lima, it would be pulling it forward to attach itself to a new guy, who's heart would bandage up his broken one and let it heal. A heart that would be happy to have him and would not go looking for more from some other heart, like Blaine's had done.

He reached for a tissue to wipe away the tears that he was too tired to hold back. He then lay down and closed his eyes, thinking. Was it bad that he wanted Adam to hurry up? Was he..? Was he…using Adam? To...to help him get over Blaine? Was Adam just any old guy he was using to help him get back on track and forget his ex? Did he have true feelings for Adam…or…or was he just some rebound guy?...NO! He did like Adam! He was cute and friendly and had the most gorgeous smile… he just needed him sooner rather than later, that was all. It was for Adam's sake really, the more of his heart Kurt had left intact, the more love he could give Adam! Yeah. It was for Adam's sake too. He wasn't using anyone, he was being good not evil…?

Blaine's mouth actually ached from smiling he realised as he walked out of glee club, but was the best pain in the world. He could hardly remember smiling in the last few months let alone smiling too much! He laughed and joked with Tina and Artie as they made their way down the corridor and out of school. He waved goodbye to them cheerfully and hummed to himself as he strolled towards his car. Half of glee club had noticed his changed mood over the past few days and had mentioned to him how pleased they were to see him so happy again, before inquiring what had been the cause in this drastic change. Each time he repeated the same answer, he had come to his senses. This was true. His talk with Sebastian had helped his realise that he couldn't just sit there thinking about how much he was an awful human being. Not only had Sebastian made him think that he was less awful and less to blame than he thought, he now knew that no matter who he had been and what he had done it was the past. He couldn't change his actions no matter how much he wanted to and no matter how much he dwelled on them. All he could do was pick himself up and out of the places he has been and change his future, make sure he does things right from now on. Make sure his is a good person now to make up for any wrong doings then. With these thoughts he set off, turning the opposite direction from home as he drove out of the car park. He was going to Sebastian's today. He had let his awful maths results slip when he had been blurting out all of his worries to Sebastian on Friday, but he was so glad he did. Sebastian knew he needed to help Blaine and this was one of the more easily solved problems from Blaine's long, long list. He was going to tutor Blaine in Maths for a bit, just going over the things that Blaine didn't understand, but not in a formal way, it was just to friends as appose to a student and a tutor. This made Blaine feel a lot better about the situation, Sebastian made it feel like just two friends hanging out, laughing, joking and messing around…friends? Blaine found himself startled by the use of the word by his subconscious mind, but now he had come to think about it yes, friends…! Him and Sebastian! Who would have guessed! he had already had two afternoons spent with Sebastian tutoring him maths since last Friday and not once had Sebastian made a move or said anything inappropriate-maybe he really did just want to help Blaine!

Blaine groaned as he finally pulled into Sebastian's driveway. There was a red mini parked in his usual spot which meant that either one or both of Sebastian's parents were home. Sebastian's parents hadn't been the most accepting of their son when he came out and now years on, they were still uncomfortable when any male visitor came to the house. This had been quite hard for Sebastian as he went to an all-boys school so nearly all of his friends were male. Blaine's parents hadn't been the best but they were ten times better than Sebastian's. Kurt had had it the best, Burt had been so accepting and loving and understanding. Poor Sebastian. WAIT! He...he had just thought about Kurt and not immediately gone into a heart wrenching day dream! This was the best day ever he thought with a grin on his face as he climbed out the car. All worries about the unwelcoming parents awaiting him vanished as he shut and locked the door behind him. Sebastian's house was far away from the noise of traffic and it was one of those times where everything is so quiet and peaceful it almost breaks your heart with blissfulness…

He headed towards the house feeling more at peace with the world and everything it than he had done in a very long time.

He felt his phone vibrate against his leg telling him he had a text message. He was still smiling as he unlocked his phone but his smile faltered slightly as he saw who the message was from and by the time he had finished reading he felt like the sun had not only gone in, but run away. He suddenly didn't feel like facing Sebastian's parents or getting his friend to help him with maths, he no longer had a bounce in his step as he turned and ran back towards his car. He no longer felt care free and happy as he slid into his seat, turned on the engine and let his head rest on the steering wheel as a single tear slid down his cheek. All the bad memories of heart break came flooding back along with a self-hatred so terrible he started sobbing uncontrollably as he pulled out of the drive way and headed home.

It is my dad's birthday on Saturday so I am surprising him by flying back on Friday! :) I really miss you Blaine and was wondering if we could meet up on Sunday at my place? We need to talk ;) missing you loads :( your BEST FRIEND Kurt. xxxxxxx

Ok, ok, first of all, I do realise that in most chapters Blaine seems to live in his car…this was not intentional and I will try to change the scenery around a bit in future! Also, sorry about the lack glee club scenes- I hope you can forgive me as I haven't actually watched 'I do' yet (I live in England and our television is only up to 'Diva' -_-) so have no idea who is with who or what they are singing etc. the episode airs over here on Sunday so hopefully soon I will be able to write more! (I only know about klaine as I am addicted to klaine spoilers :/ !) Btw that's not a prompt for you to ruin it for me that's a prompt for you to feel very, very sorry for me!). Ok. Next: sorry about lack of the Kadam scene I only have the feeble excuse of writers block there will be some soon I promise! Finally: Even though Blaine is very happy in this chapter I promise that angst coming soon! Maybe in…oh I don't know…NEXT CHAPTER! :D oh and speaking of that, I wonder if you all could help me, this story is rated T and I was wondering to what extent I am aloud to use swearing? (there is a lot of angst coming up!) I am a bit new to all this and I was wondering if you could help me? Keep on reading and reviewing! Xx

P.S. I have just started a new AU Kadam story! Please have a look and review even if you don't want to follow it! Xxx