Bella's pov:
Three weeks later:
Well today, December 18, I am officially four months pregnant. My little bump is growing bigger as each day passes and I'm not trying to hide anything anymore .I'm done wearing baggy sweat shirts that conceal my little bump, I tell Emmett and Charlie everything now and I wear all the maternity clothes Alice gave me which pretty much announce my pregnancy to the world, so the majority of Forks now knows that perfect little Isabella Swan isn't so perfect.
My old high school friends haven't talked to me much since they found out. It's like they think pregnancy is contagious or something and they'll be popping out a kid in nine months too just by talking to me. Only Alice and sweet Angela still talk to me. Alice still talks to me because she is practically my sister, and she stands by me no matter what. Angela on the other hand still talks to me because she is simply just too sweet to act like the rest of the town. I'm pretty sure she couldn't mean to save her life.
Unfortunately not everyone can be as sweet and supportive as Alice and Angie, so I occasionally receive judgmental stares from people in town, but they mostly come from the older women or the really religious people. The ones who believe that girls should stay virgins until marriage. Don't get me wrong, I believe in that too, but I don't really think what I did was wrong. Yes, I had sex before marriage, but it was with someone I care about more than myself. Edward wasn't just some guy that I had barely met, or some guy that I plan on dumping next week. He was the person I planned on spending the rest of my life with. Yes, we had sex before marriage, and yes, I will soon be a teenage mother, but I have every intention of marrying Edward. I wouldn't want it any other way.
Everyone else in town that sees me just kinda looks and keeps walking. I'll receive a couple smiles every now and then but I'm pretty sure most of them are out of pity .Oh poor girl, her life is ruined is probably what they think when they smile at me.
I've even had a few women come up to me and rub my belly and congratulate me. In my opinion those gestures have been the sweetest because they seem genuine, not out of pity.
Charlie and Emmett have accepted the fact that I will be a mother soon, and now they are even starting to make jokes about it. Yesterday when we were talking about what to buy each other for Christmas, Charlie said he would buy me stretch mark cream, and Emmett said he would give me a year supply of birth control. They both thought it was pretty funny but I wasn't laughing much. I guess I just have to love them.
I don't know what I would do without my little Alice. She is much easier to love. I would be lost without that crazy under grown girl. She comes by every day after Charlie and Emmett leave for work to check on me and promises that she will never leave my side .So far she hasn't.
Edward is also at my house every day, but he lingers a little longer than Alice. He shows up first thing in the morning, every morning, and doesn't leave till Charlie decides to throw him out each night. The time he gets booted out changes each day. Some days it's by eight, others he stays till twelve, and about twice he's been allowed to crash on the couch.
Edward's been great. He hardly ever leaves my side and he waits on me hand and foot. He cooks for me and always makes sure I've had enough to eat. My feet are starting to get swollen, so he massages them, and I'm also reaching that point in my pregnancy where I'm starting to get nauseous a lot. My stomach gets upset quite easily now, and some days not much will stay down so I'll spend most of the day sitting on the bathroom floor hunched over the toilet. I hate those days, and I'm sure he does too. I know he hates seeing me like that, but he stays by side the whole time rubbing my back, wiping my face, or giving me water to rinse my mouth out with. Just like Alice, he promised to never leave my side, and he's kept that promise.
I thank god every day for everything he's given me. I thank him for the health of both me and my baby, and for all the wonderful people he has put into my life. I'm grateful that he gave me Charlie, Emmett, Alice, and Edward because I don't know how I would get through anything without them.
When I first got pregnant, I kept thinking why I lord? Why me? Why did I have to be the one to get pregnant when I only had sex once? There are girls who are constantly having sex and they never get pregnant, so why did I? I had thought of being pregnant as sort of a curse. I had thought that my life was over, ruined, but now I know that I was wrong. Getting pregnant isn't a curse; it's a blessing, a miracle. I thought it would tear my family apart, but it actually had the opposite effect. It brought my family closer together. Emmett, Charlie, and I are all much closer, and share a lot more with each other now, so I'm actually grateful that I got pregnant. It made me realize how incredibly lucky I was.
I have the most wonderful best friend on the planet and I hadn't even realized it until recently. She has stood by side through everything I've been through so far. She's bought me clothes, gone to appointments with me, and made a couple threats toward people who have been talking smack about me like my so called friend Jessica. I had thought she was my best friend, but I soon realized that she wasn't a true friend the way Alice was.
My pregnancy also made me realize how lucky I was to have Edward. Most guys in his position probably would have fled town, but he has been by side since the moment he found out I was pregnant.
I'm lucky to have the people that I have in my life and I thank God for them every day.
My bedroom door swung open and in popped Emmett. I rolled my eyes and chunked a throw pillow at him. "Don't you know how to knock? I asked even though I already knew the answer, which of course was no. Emmett had been walking into my room without knocking ever since we were little. J can't even remember the number of times he's walked in on me changing.
He shrugged his shoulders, threw the pillow back onto my bed and proceeded to walk into my room,"No Belles I really don't, but I suppose I should probably learn." He eyed the outfit I had just slipped into and raised an eyebrow. "oooooh little sis, hot date?"
I rolled my eyes and shook my head. Today was the day that Carlisle would tell me the sex of my little bump, and I absolutely could not wait. At first I had wanted it to be a surprise, but I quickly changed my mind with a little help from Alice. She had wanted to know the sex of the baby the moment she found out I was pregnant so she could start shopping. Between Emmett and Alice my baby is going to be so spoiled.
"No Emm I'm going over to Edward's and Carlisle's going to tell us the sex of the baby", I explained.
"Oh but why are you so dressed up? Why don't you just rock a hoodie and some old jeans like usual? he asked.
Today I decided to wear one of the outfits purchased by Alice. I had on a loose fitting, purple long sleeved dress paired with some black tights and plaid flats. It's true that I wouldn't normally wear these types of clothes, but it was a really cute outfit, and I would feel really bad if I didn't wear all the clothes Alice had bought for me, and of course she would probably murder me if she found out that I had just let them sit in my closet like all the other clothes she's ever bought me.
"It's not that dressy Emmett. They're maternity clothes that Alice bought for me and she will kill me if I don't wear them"
He rolled his eyes and walked over to me. His big meaty hand was on my belly in seconds. The dress may be loose fitting but my pregnancy is still pretty obvious. My little bump has become rounder and sticks out more.
Emmett's face suddenly lit up like a Christmas tree and a wide smile appeared on his face. His joy was contagious and I just couldn't help but smile too, I even let out a little giggle.
"Wow he just kicked!" he exclaimed
My smile grew wider and I immediately threw my hands over my stomach to feel him kick again. My little baby was kicking and moving around inside me.
After a couple more kicks the baby settled down and Emmett retracted his hand.
"Well I guess I will let you finish getting ready little sister. Do you need anything? Have you eaten? Do you have a ride?"
That's Emmett for you, always worrying about me .Ever since we were little he's always been there for me to make sure I'm taken care of. It's like I have two fathers. Most of the time it's great, but occasionally it isn't that great, like when I went on my first date, or whenever I'm in trouble.
"I'm fine emm. Edward's coming for me"
He nodded and was about to leave but stopped about half way out the door. "Hey Belles you should really call her", he said
I rolled my eyes and continued fussing over my hair, trying to ignore him. "Her", was Renee and I didn't want to call her. Why should I? I didn't need her for anything. Sure, she's my mother but she didn't act like one when she just walked out on us for Phil, so why does she deserve to know anything about me. Charlie told her about two weeks ago that I am pregnant and she has been trying to call me ever since but I just reject her calls or sit there and watch the phone ring. I have no desire to talk to my mother. I'm doing perfectly fine without her, I don't need her, and neither will my baby. Why should I let her be around my baby? She would probably just visit once or twice a year and then vanish for the rest of the year, and I am not about to put my baby through that, so the best thing to do is just stay away from her like I've been doing. Getting close to her will only lead to disappointment for both me and my baby. Things are actually going pretty good for me right now, so the last thing I need is for my happiness to be ruined by my mother. Edward thinks I should talk to her to, but like Emmett and Charlie he will only push the subject so far. He knows that her leaving hurt me and that I'm still not really ready to forgive her, so he doesn't say too much about it.
"Come on Belles, I know you're still mad, but she is still your mother and she wants to talk to you", he urged but once again I just did my best to ignore him so he finally just gave up and left the room.
I don't know how he could be so forgiving, and how they expect me to just forget what she did and forgive her for everything she put us through. She left us, and she didn't even think twice about whether we would be okay without her or not. She just packed all her stuff and followed Phil to Arizona. I'm not about to forgive her any time soon. I can't. I won't.
"Hi Love, you look beautiful", Edward greeted and then placed a gentle kiss on my forehead. I always loved when he kissed my forehead.
My cheeks grew red with embarrassment. I don't know why but I always blushed when he complimented me. It's been that way since the first day we met each other.
It was my first day as a freshman, my first day at Fork's High school and I was a wreck. I was so nervous I thought I would puke, and I had already bitten off all of my finger nails. I had just taken a seat in Mrs. Reyna's English class, and I had been rummaging through my book bag digging out the required materials for her class when in pops the most gorgeous guy I had ever seen. Twenty pairs of eyes immediately shifted toward the door that the new was walking in through. He stood over five feet high, and had a pale but perfect complexion. Not only was he a nice piece of eyes candy, but the Beatles shirt that he had on made me more than sure that I would like that guy, so I was delighted when Mrs. Reyna instructed him to take the sit next to me, but the thought of him sitting next to me also made me want to regurgitate my breakfast. I was pretty shy, and didn't talk to many people besides Alice, Jasper, and Angie, so what the heck was I supposed to say to this guy? Luckily for me the hot new guy was incredibly sweet, and surprisingly easy to talk to. He took his seat, told me his name was Edward Cullen, and immediately started a conversation with me. He told me all about how he, his adopted sister Rosalie, and his parents had just moved to Fork's from Alaska. I told him about Emmett and Charlie, and then the conversation turned to talking about our hobbies. I expressed to him how I was also a big Beatles fan, and everything was going surprisingly well. I was actually able to talk to this guy without freezing up or vomiting on him, but then he just had to go and ruin everything. He just had to go and compliment me." I like your outfit Ms. Bella. A hoodie and black converse is a great combination especially in this cold damp town", he said. I knew the comment was meant to be sweet but I hated him for it. I immediately felt my cheeks grow hot and I was more than sure that I was as red as a damn tomato. Edward chuckled and that was the first time he told me that he thought my blushing was cute.
Edward's chuckling brought me back to the present. To this day, almost four years later he still chuckles every time he sees me blush. I stuck my tongue out at him and scrunched my nose together, which was also something he thought was "adorable", but to be honest I kinda want to punch him every time he says that.
"Don't laugh at me!" I snapped as my cheeks slowly began to return to their natural color. He chuckled again and wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Love, I'm not trying to make fun of you. I just think it's adorable the way you always get embarrassed when I compliment you. I thought it was adorable back in ninth grade when I first met you, I think its adorable now, and when you're old and wrinkly I'll still think it's adorable"
I bit my lip in an attempt to hold back a smile, but it was no use, I couldn't help it. It's was pretty much impossible to be mad at Edward, so of course I cracked and kissed him. I'm such a softie when it comes to him.
"You really do look beautiful though my love", Edward said as he gently kissed my right hand. I loved when he kissed my hand. I thought it was a sweet gesture, and it reminded me of an old movie. Back in those days a kiss on the hand is like sex now, scandalous and frowned upon, but now it's actually kinda cute. How many guys still do that? Most just want sex, so I think it's sweet when Edward kisses my hand. It's different. It's nice.
"Thank you", I said as I tried my best not to blush. To my delighted surprise I was actually able to contain it. Edward complimented me and I didn't blush!
"Are you ready to go, Love? Carlisle is waiting."
I nodded my head, took one last look in the mirror and retrieved my cell phone from my bed. "Yeah I'm ready. I've been waiting for this day for dour months. I can't wait any longer. Let's go!" I exclaimed
Edward chuckled and reached for my hand. "Well then I guess we should start going", he said and led me out the door.
Edward's pov:
Bella scrunched her nose together and shot me a confused look as I took a right turn instead of a left. I had failed to mention to her that little Ms. Alice Brandon would be accompanying us, but it was all part of my plan. After we find out the sex of the baby, the three of us are going to have a picnic, where I will then ask Bella to marry me. Alice was completely filled in about the plan, because I knew she would want to be there when I asked Bella to marry me, and quite frankly I think she deserves to be. She's there for Bella as much as I am, so it wouldn't be right to leave her out.
"Babe, you turned the wrong way", Bella pointed out.
I chuckled and shook my head. "Oh sorry love, I forgot to tell you that Alice called and asked if I could stop and pick her up before we went to go see Carlisle. She wants to be there with us. ", I explained.
Bella's eyes lit up and she let out an excited squeal as I turned down Alice's street. I knew she like the fact that her best friend would be tagging along. She loved Alice like a sister and I knew she would want her to be there for this.
"Oh my gosh Edward thank you so much!" she exclaimed and clapped her hands together like a little girl. She looked so adorable when she got excited about something, but of course I didn't express that to her because it would only result in her shooting daggers at me. She absolutely hated when I told her that she was adorable, or cute.
Seeing Bella sitting in the front seat of my car smiling and giggling made me wonder if this moment would be recreated in another seventeen years. Would my baby turn out to be a girl? In seventeen years will she be sitting in the passenger seat of my car smiling the way her mother did as I drive her to the movies? Will she have the same brown eyes as Bella? Will she blush every time she receives a compliment, or will she be something completely different?
My mind began to drift off and wander what my child would end up being like if not like Bella, shy and quiet with creamy brown eyes and a giggly laugh. Would she be more girly, like Alice? God, I don't know if I could handle that, my daughter being exactly like tiny little freaking Alice Brandon.
I parked the car in front of 209 south sixth street and in jumped peppy little Alice, as cheerful as ever. I swear sometimes she's so happy that it makes me sick, but not today. Today, for once her joy is actually appropriate. Who couldn't be Joyful about something like this? Today, we find out the sex of our baby. Bella is convinced that it is a boy and insists on referring to it as "him or he", but I on the other hand can am certain that it is a little girl. I can already picture her, with long wavy hair and creamy brown eyes, looking as beautiful as her mother. Charlie is with Bella and insists on calling my baby girl a boy, but that's only because he desires a new fishing partner. Bella gave up fishing three years ago when she fell out of the boat. She wasn't hurt or anything, but she now refuses to even touch a fishing rod. I actually find the whole situation pretty funny, but I would never admit that to her of course. I had to hold back laughter when Charlie retold the story of Bella's last fishing trip to me for the first time.
Alice on the other hand, of course refers to my baby as a girl because she can't wait to start shopping for frilly little dresses and pink diaper bags. I don't where that gets so much money from. She buys Bella clothes like crazy all the time, and not the cheap Wal-Mart kind either. Oh no little Ms. Alice Brandon wouldn't be caught dead at Wal-Mart, she shops at all the most fashionable boutiques in port Angeles , so Bella's closet was stocked with expensive designer clothes, and very soon my little girl's would be too. In a way I'm actually kind of grateful for Alice. I highly doubt that my baby girl will be anything like Alice, girly and high matience, but if she does turn out that way at least I won't have to pay for it all on my own. Alice will always be more than happy to buy her clothes, shoes, bags, and other pointless accessories.
"Edward thank you so much for coming to get me", Alice squealed.
I just rolled my eyes at her and kept on driving. Of course I picked her up, it was part of the plan and she knew it. I have to admit it though, little Alice is a damn good actor.
"Yes Edward thanks you so much. Having Alice with us will make today even more special", Bella added with a huge smile plastered on her face.
Oh if she only knew. Bella I couldn't roll my eyes at. Her excitement was real, not staged like Alice's. She had no idea what was going to happen today, so I simply smiled back at her and placed a gentle kiss on her left hand.
I continued driving and let my mind wander once again. Today would be perfect. Nothing could go wrong today. Today I would find out that my baby is a girl, and today I would propose to my Bella.