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Chapter 12: Daydreams

BPOV

The next thing I knew his lips were on mine and I opened my mouth to let him in. Our tongues danced and the fire in my body was building. He pushed me gently against the tree and wrapped my legs around his waist. I could feel his hardened length against my burning center, through our clothes. He kissed my neck and my collarbones, as I threw my head back allowing him access to more of my flash. He looked into my eyes, they were pitch black and full of lust. He slowly lifted my shirt over my head. I heard it hit the forest floor. He kissed and sucked on my breast through the thin material of my bra, I heard fabric rip and immediately I felt his mouth back on my naked breasts. I reached down his back pulling his shirt up, and off, I wanted to feel his naked skin on mine, we were equals this time. His skin felt warm to me and I wanted to see and feel more of it. His head lifted up and his lips crashed into mine, no caution, no restraint, just surrender. I felt him rip my jeans off and he fell to his knees putting my legs on his shoulders, his face at my aching entrance. He placed opened mouth kisses over my panties, making me moan and growl lustfully. Egging him on. I heard fabric rip. I felt his tongue enter and lick my womanly folds. I hissed, "oh god, Edward that feels so good." He continued to lick and suck me senseless. I grabbed his head bringing him closer, and that sent me over the edge. "AWWW, OOOHHH," I came hard.

In one fluid movement he got up, ripped his pants off and entered me hard against the tree. He rocked us in a most glorious rhythm. Creating delicious friction. He was both aggressive and loving. He kissed me passionately and rocked me harder and harder bringing me over the edge. I screamed his name, and his velvety feral noises sent me into another wave of pleasure as I felt him find his own release……

I opened my eyes and looked up at the sky. I was all alone laying in the middle of Edward's meadow. Damn daydream. I have been doing that more and more lately. I sat up noticing that I was aching between my thighs. Great all worked up and no one to share it with. I calmed my down and scolded myself for acting like a horny teenager.

It has been two months since I left Edward and everyone behind, including my daughter. They have all been to visit me, well all of them, except Edward. I'm not expecting him to. When Riley and Elizabeth were here visiting, he asked me for my blessing, he wanted to marry her. I am thrilled. I know she loves him very much. So I gave him my grandmother's ring and my blessing. Elizabeth had told me that she tried to reach out to Edward. I was grateful to her. She also told me she knew about Tanya's fate. I was a little angry with her that she did not tell me before, but I understood, she wanted to protect Edward, and not make the situation worse.

I usually only come to this meadow once a year, but I have been here almost everyday since I returned home. I also went to Charlie's grave; I miss him so much. I apologized to him for leaving the way I did. I hope he forgives me. Renee and Phil are buried in Florida, I don't visit much, since it is the sunshine state and all. I laid back down, taking in the sights, sounds and smells around me. It is just as beautiful as the day he first brought me here. I touched my lips, remembering our first kiss. The magnetic pull, the sparks on his lips, and his hands on my body. I better stop this or I will combust.

I got up and took off for my cottage. I caught his scent. Am I daydreaming again, nope.

He was waiting for me on my porch. Our eyes met, he looked better, almost well.

"What do you want Edward?" My voice was firm, trying to hide my excitement, as internally I was jumping up and down.

"I wanted to talk to you, can I come in?"

"Ok" he followed me through the door to the kitchen.

"This is really nice Bella, It feels like you." He looked around, then we sat across from each other at the breakfast nook.

I waited for him to get his composure. I've waited along time for this, I was not going to push or frighten him. He had my full attention.

Edward Spoke.

"I freaked out when Tanya died, I thought I should have been able to save her, she counted on me and I let her down. I let her down over and over again. I blame myself because, I never loved her; I was selfish and didn't want to be alone. Elizabeth showed me that in her final days, she knew her fate and she accepted it with grace. I'm glad I spent the final days with her, she was a good friend to me. I pushed you away because you just reminded me that Tanya was not my only failure. The biggest mistake of my life was when I left you alone in that forest and I failed to protect you too. I was not angry with you, I was angry at myself. I couldn't handle it. I couldn't handle being around you. Tanya walked in and out of my life and I was relieved that she was gone for good. I hated myself for feeling this way. I still do. I am grateful to her for trying to help me through my grief for you, and for loving me."

I wasn't sure if I should speak so I didn't.

"Alice sends you her love and she wanted you to know that she is planning Elizabeth's and Riley's wedding. She will be in touch."

"I still can't believe she is real Bella." My body shook when he said my name. Traitor body.

"I'm sorry, Bella, I'm sorry for everything. I want a chance with you Bella, I want to make it work; I don't want to ever let you go." His eyes were filled with sincerity.

I found my voice.

"Are you sure this time, my heart can't take anymore hurt. I don't know if we have a chance right now. As much as I may want you, I have to protect myself, my heart. It will not be given as freely as I have given it in the past. I need you to prove your words to me. If you want me then prove it to me." My eyes on his.

"I will do anything, I want you, I love you."

"Like I said prove it"

"I will never leave your side again." He reached out and took my hand. Every cell in my dead body lit up. I need to repress this, I have to protect my heart.

"Would you like to stay with me a while?" The words were out of my mouth before I could stop them, Dammit.

He face lit up with a beautiful smile and I admired his perfect teeth.

"I would like that, Bella." He gazed into my soul.

"Like I told you before, I'm not sure about us yet, but I am willing to see. It won't be an easy road for you Edward, I assure you. So, if you have any doubts leave now." my eyes narrowed and my features hardened.

"No, Bella I am not leaving you ever, besides if I did my family would rip me to shreds." He chuckled. I let out a small giggle.

"No more doing what you think is best for me without my knowledge."

"I promise, no more secrets." I tuned into his thoughts, I wanted to know what he was thinking.

"God, she's beautiful, I love her so much……………" Then he pictured me naked. I broke our contact and looked at him quizzically. Busted!!

"Sorry" He said under his breath. He looked down at his hands.

I sat back in my chair smiling and shaking my head.

"Maybe, if your lucky." I said smirking.

We laughed.

"Come on I want to show you something." I said

He followed me out the balcony door in the forest. We ran stopping just in front of my old house in Forks.

"I own it now, I bought it right after Charlie died."

"Come on."

We entered the house through the window of my old bedroom, it was empty, the tenants I had in there moved out a while ago and I haven't rented out since. We stood in my old room taking it all in. Edward went and lifted a board from the floor and removed something. He showed me the birthday gifts from that horrible birthday, and the pictures I took of us. They were in good shape being in the floor all that time.

"I put these here hoping you would find them one day. I couldn't destroy them and I couldn't take them with me. I wanted them to be close to you." Edward looked at me trying to gauge my reaction.

.GOD. I wish I could cry, I was hurt, angry, happy. Too much to feel.

"Those were here the whole time!!!" I glared at him and swallowed hard, repressing my urge to beat him senseless.

"Well considering I was only in this room a month after you left; I guess my chances of finding those were slim. I have been in this house a lot since then, I wish I would have known." I went and took the CD from his hand.

"This was the best gift I've ever received." He wrapped his arms around me hitting me with his intoxicating scent and remorseful mind.

I broke our contact, not wanting to hear it. I walked over and looked out the window. I heard him walking towards me.

"Don't!! please don't touch me. I can't handle your thoughts right now. I'm having a hard enough time with my own." I continued to glare out the window.

He sighed deeply.

"If you can't handle this, you can leave, don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out." Underneath it all I am still just a 20 year old girl.

"I'm not leaving, Bella, I just want to comfort you." I turned and looked at him. It is just hard being in this room with him, knowing what happened the last time we were here. I regretted what I said. I do want this to work and I'm going to have to give some too. I walked over and put my back against the wall, lowering myself to the floor.

"Please, come sit by me." I padded the floor next to me. He was there in an instant.

"It is really hard for me to be here with you and then to find out you hid my things from me, I'm overwhelmed." I laid my head on his shoulder. His thoughts were quiet. He was enjoying the contact. His mind turned to thoughts about our night together. It was amazing seeing it though his eyes. He cherished that memory as much as I cherished my own. I did see how close he was to biting me, his control amazed me. If only he knew how much I wanted him to bit me, but we wouldn't have Elizabeth, so I am glad he didn't.

"There is something I have always wanted to ask you." I lifted my head.

"What's that?" OHHHH, his voice low and velvety. Don't get aroused Bella. I crossed my legs, as if that would help.

"Why didn't you stop me that night, not that I'm complaining, I'm really glad you didn't, but you set so many boundaries for us. I was so surprised when you didn't stop me." I quietly waited for him to respond.

"I was already thinking that I was going to leave you." I looked at him, the anger was written all over my face. "Bella, please let me finish." I took a breath trying to calm myself. "I wanted to feel you, to be with you in everyway. When you touched me, my instincts took over and I couldn't stop myself from wanting you, to share that with you. I'm selfish Bella, I wanted to feel better. Besides you know I can't deny you anything. I wanted that experience to help get me through leaving you. I can't tell you how many times the memory of that night with you, got me through the darkest days of my existence." I could relate, I too, recalled that memory to get me through.

He looked defeated.

I reached over and grabbed his face and placed a small chaste kiss on his lips. God his lips feel like heaven, more importantly home. I pulled away placing my head on his shoulder, he stated humming my lullaby like he was trying to help me sleep, just like he did all those years ago in this room.

We sat there for hours, day turned to night.

"Are you thirsty?" I asked.

"No, not really, are you?"

"No, not really." I just hunted a few days ago.

"Would you like to go to my house, since we are so close?" He smiled his crocked smile at me.

"Sure"

We were at the door in a matter of minutes. I walked in noticing that it had been redecorated and updated. We walked through the living room and I went over to the piano.

"You should know that Elizabeth taught herself how to play on this piano. One night I told her about how you played piano, as we sat on the bench, she was curious about it and you. The next morning I found her on the bench running through the scales. She asked me if she could learn how to play so, we ordered music and I got her a virtual teacher, online. I think she did it to feel close to you."

He beamed with pride.

"It was beyond amazing playing the piano with her." He leaned over and touched the ivories. His fingers on those keys was beyond sexy. I remembered the day he played my lullaby to me. I wide smile crossed my face.

What?! He looked at me wondering what I was smiling about.

"I was remembering the day you played my lullaby for me, it was so sexy, how your fingers stroked the keys and the way it moved your body as you played." I closed my eyes and I felt his lips on my forehead.

I opened my eyes, as he headed for the stairs. I knew he was going to his room.

I followed.

His room was different, he had a bed now and I could see Tanya in the details. My heart sank a little when I realized that Tanya shared this room with him. I knew they were here about six years ago. I remembered the day Elizabeth and I stood in the driveway passing through. I could faintly smell her, she smelled like cotton candy and baby power. Sickly sweet. I could smell Edward too, so that is what I fixated on. I sat on his leather couch looking out his picture window, I did this a lot when I was human, both with and without Edward. When we lived here we actually stayed in the guest room. I didn't want to invade their privacy. I would come and sit on this couch to read or reflect often.

Edward came and sat beside me.

"When we lived here a few years ago, I barely came into this room, Tanya used it more than I did. I actually took residence in the guest room." I laughed out load.

"What's so funny?" He looked at like I had lost my mind.

"That's where Elizabeth and I stayed when we lived here. We didn't want to disturb your rooms." My eyes lost in his.

He smiled brightly, "Great minds."

We laughed.

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