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Chapter 5: Life's Just Got Screwed Up...
Leah's POV:
Previous Chapter:
"Alice!" I shouted angrily. "What the fuck is wrong with you? You locked my closet! And just left this horrible excuse of a dress with these damn heels! You know I had to walk to get here, right?!" I yelled loudly, placing my hands on my hips.
I lifted my eyes to see the people that were in the room. That's when I saw him! My eyes were fixed on the most beautiful, crystalline blue eyes that I had ever seen. They were staring deep in to my soul, beckoning me and that's when my entire world shifted...
The day that Sam left me, I promised myself that I would never fall in love again. That day, the person that was toying with my destiny, and was using me as a puppet decided that it was not worth it to make Leah's life a happy one. When I phased for the first time and after my father died, I came to the conclusion that I was never gonna be happy . I just stopped caring.
I didn't care that I didn't have a future or that the the people around me thought that I was a bitter bitch. I didn't care that I had to join a renegade pack of werewolves, that planned to protect a damphir; a half-vampire/ half-human, demon spawn, and all her vampire family.
It was a way to get away from my ex-boyfriend, Sam, a.k.a my then-alpha, who could read my mind, when we were in wolf form. Yeah, that meant that my depressing and despondent thoughts, about how my life, could be seen by him! He could see my desires of being with him. If neither of us had never phased and this damn imprinting shit never existed, we would still be together!
And now to make matters worst, the thing that had destroyed my damn life, had just hit me straight in the face! I had imprinted! It was like a slap of reality in the face! Everything made sense, life was brighter, if you could call it that. In front of me, stood the most gorgeous, handsome and sexiest boy- well, more like man, that I've ever seen!
He looked just like the man in my dreams, but better! He was tall, but not as tall as Jake's six feet and seven inches frame, but taller than Emmett's six feet four inches. He loomed over me, he was perfectly built and sculpted. He reminded me of a Greek god!
He had hypnotic blue eyes, that made my heart leap every time he stared at me. His blue eyes contrasted against his light tanned skin. His brown short hair, was begging to be touched. Ooh, how I wanted to run my fingers through his silky dark locks. Wow- WTF, Leah?! Stop thinking like that! Don't think of your imprint in such a way! Stop it!
I couldn't help staring. I wanted to memorize every corner of his lips and every dent of his manly and divine body. I shook my head in irritation, trying hard to stop myself from thinking about him. I couldn't stop focusing on his beautiful face. Oh, his face! I wanted to see my reflection in those clear, crystalline blue eyes. I wanted to kiss his fleshy lips and melt whenever he smiled. If I could kiss those lips and run my hand through every corner of his bod- Stop it right there!
That's when I realized that I was gaping at him, like an idiotic teenager girl! Now he must think I have problems or something!
I calmed myself down and saw him gazing at me in such a way that made my legs go weak. He was looking at me like a he had seen salvation.
My feet were cemented to the ground and my mind was reeling millions of thoughts about him, about our life together and the possibility that came with imprinting. I was thinking of being with him, traveling to exotic parts of the world together and fulfilling all his wishes and desires… Desires? Dearest god, how I would love to please all his desires! I couldn't think or make any coherent decision.
I just stared at him like a complete dummy. That's when his scent invaded my nostrils. He smelled delicious, like ocean water and deep woods, mixed with cinnamon! But he also smelled different to me, like all the boys in the pack smelled to me… Shit, he was a werewolf!?
That couldn't be! I've never seen him in my life! Maybe he'd just phased and I wasn't aware of it? But I would have know. As the beta of Jake's pack, I am in charged when he is not around; I become the alpha. That meant that Sam should've inform me if there are any changes or if someone new phases! He must've not know what happened. Maybe he did? I do think that he knew! Asshole! How dare he keeps secrets from me!
I started to blink furiously and then turned my face away from him. I felt the world turn bleak as soon as I did that. Everything turned dark without him.
"Shit!" I hissed, running my hand through my face. "This is not... no, no and no! This can't be happening to me!" I said in frustration.
"Neither can I" he answered. His voice sounded raspy and hoarse.
He started looking around nervously and I did too. Great! Everyone knows. Can I be so fucking obvious? I saw that everybody had gathered around us. All of the vamps had an expression of surprised displayed on their faces. All of their damn eyes were on him.
Quil looked amused and Embry looked… I couldn't even see his expression. I knew he always had a crush on me. I've even had led him on a few times! Charlie didn't know what had happened and I noticed that my mom was besides him. She must've arrived earlier. She was beaming with happiness at what had just occurred. Her eyes were fixed on me, staring joyfully, as tears of happiness fell down her face. Great, even my mom knows!
The tension in the air was tangible; everyone was anticipating a reaction from him or me. I think specially from me, but nothing happened. I didn't know how to react. I wanted him, I wanted him more than anything in the world. He was my sun and I was anything he wanted me to be. But what do all these things mean? Does it mean that my life has been decided for me? I just stared in to his eyes and lost my train of thoughts. I wasn't in control of my actions anymore? No! This couldn't be happening like this! I promised myself that I wasn't gonna fall for my imprint like this! I was not going to let this happen!
My heart started to beat erratically in my chest. My head was pounding and my mind was screaming at me not to do it! But I could; I knew that I was stronger than this! I could make my own decisions!
"No you can't! And neither can you Leah" Edward said in is calm voice.
What?! He was thinking the same thing as me? He didn't want me? Why? The thought of not being wanted by him, hurt worst than knowing that Sam loved Emily more than he ever loved me. I couldn't thingk straight. Tears stung the back of my throat as I thought of being hurt once again. I felt desolated, dejected and the lowest I have ever been. My heart would not survive another heartache!t Damn it, he deserved someone better than me. He didn't deserve someone like me, a bitter bitch that was broken on the inside. He deserved a girl that could fall in love with him, the normal and natural way.
I would give that to him. I would be whatever he wanted me to be. I would give everything just to make him happy. I knew well, that I couldn't run away from this. Imprinting was bigger than me! I couldn't run away from him, but I was going to try first! I had to try to stop this imprint, at any cost! Even though, I already knew the end result.
"Yes, I can, Edward!" I said, while taking several steps back. But my mind was screaming at me not to.
"Wait!" he called out to me; I immediately stopped dead on my tracks. His voice was so thick and husky, that it made me nervous. I wanted to hear his voice for the rest of my life. "Leah, right?" he said, as he approached me.
I felt my skin prickle with his proximity. "Yeah," I said apprehensively. I was hesitant and I was trying very hard not to look him in the eye.
I waited impatiently for him to say a word, but when he kept quiet, I decided what I had to do… I straightened my back and held my chin high and looked at him straight in the face.
"Look," I paused, pondering what words to use. "I know I have imprinted on you," I paused again, and stared down at my hands. "... or you on me. Gosh, I don't even know, but whatever! First of all, who the hell are you and what are you doing here?!" I demanded.
On the background, I could hear someone, Emmett. "Shit! So that was the problem!", followed by a loud SMACK sound.
"Shut up! Don't you see that they are having their moment?" said a soft voice, definitely Alice.
"I, um, uh, could I have a word with you real quick?" he muttered.
He was so cute! I wanted him to feel comfortable with me, I wanted his trust, I wanted him to love me, want me, but I would just be what he wanted me to be for him.
"Um, sure, I guess." I said hesitantly, real smooth Leah! You're muttering like an idiot!
I glanced uncomfortably around the room and saw that everyone wasn't moving. I rolled my eyes and looked at him, dumb vampires. Couldn't they mind their own business?!
"Well, seeing as the people around the room, don't know a single shit about privacy, I suggest that we move our conversation outside" I said smirking, as we ambled towards the door, as we starting to exit the house.
He just nodded and followed me out of the house, it was really dark out, but being a werewolf has its quirks, I could see perfectly in the dark. We walked enough distance away from the mansion. We wanted to have a quiet conversation away from prying ears. We walked for about five minutes into the woods, until I finally stopped.
"There should be enough distance between us and those meddling vamps not to hear us." I said.
We stood there gazing at each other, for what seemed like hours. Neither one of us said anything, but I guess he decided that he needed to say something…
"Look, let's start again." he said, smiling. "My name is Derek Ateara." he said, extending his hand for me to take.
Derek, what a beautiful name! Our children could have his- OUR CHILDREN!- Stop it Leah! I was hesitant at first, but took it. I stared at him, arching my eyebrow and staring at him quizzically. Ateara? As in Quil?
"Yes, I´m Quil´s cousin from LA. I'm also a werewolf; just like you" he finished.
I had wanted to ask him about the resemblance but stopped myself. I didn't want to sound like a nosy girl. Plus, he already confirmed my doubts.
"Well, I´m Leah Clearwater... but I guess you already knew that…" I said curtly. Damn, I can't even talk straight in front of him. "You do know, what just happened, right?" I asked.
He nodded, as he looked down at our hands, perfectly held together. "Yes," he sighed. "I have a pretty damn good idea. I imprinted, right?" he replied halfheartedly.
I didn't know what to say, was he sad that he imprinted on me? But he continued "Look, I know I just imprinted on you and that's fine! It's peachy and dandy! But I don't believe in this magical thing. I feel the connection, but don't think that I am just going to fall at your feet…"
Oh, no, he did not! Oh, Mr. Crystalline Blue Eyes was going to get it! Leah Clearwater was gonna give it to him. He had it coming the moment he opened his beautiful, kissable mouth!
"What?! Do you seriously think that I wanted this? Do you think that I would dream about falling for a complete stranger that I have never seen in my entire life?" I asked furiously. He didn't answer; He knew that I had more to say. "Well, look here buddy, you are really out of you freaking damn mind, if you think that I'm gonna fall for you!" I berated. My heart was sinking in my chest, but I ignored the pain, I was not weak anymore!
"Well," he said "I guess we´re on the same page. I want this as much as you do, too. But I know that I can't be away from you. I know damn well, that I won't survive without you. It's just completely stupid to even think that I can be away from you." He said my harshly. It pained me that he didn't want me. Fine, I don't need you either!
But at the same time I was stunned, by his outburst. "Me neither… So I'm guessing that we can compromise. We obviously can't be away from each other, but I'm not going to let this shit, take over my freewill" I said. Heck, two could play this game. I could live without him. I didn't need a man to rule my life!
"Me neither!" he said crossly. "Aren't we supposed to be whatever out imprints wants us to be? Well, we can be friends? Pack brothers... sister?" He said. Thank god that he at least wanted to be in my life! It would've killed me if he didn't want me in his life.
I smiled a little at this new revelation. Friends?
"Well we can be f-f-friends. I guess, that way neither of us has to suffer and we still have our freewill, sort of…" I trailed off smiling shyly at him.
He smiled timidly, after hearing that. I could just spend the whole day watching him, he was so very handsome! He looked down at our hands and I noticed that we have been holding hands throughout our conversation.
"Yeah, I guess we could… Friends?" he chuckled.
"Yes, friends!" I said, a wide smile on my lips, as I slowly let go of his hand.
"So, um, what brings you here to WA?" I asked, while sitting down on the forest ground, as I leaned against a tree trunk.
"I, um, well," He said nervously, looking down at my attentive face. "I phased for the first time when I was 19."
To say that I was surprised, was an understatement, but I urged him to go on. He sat next to me, leaning his back against the tree trunk and sighed, like he was recalling a bad memory, I suddenly became nervous, didn't he wanted to tell me about his life? But he surprised me by continuing.
"I was alone in my house and decided to throw a party. You see, my parents were in a convention and they weren't supposed to be in the house, for a few days. I invited a few friends over, but it got a little carried away. I wasn't expecting it to get to get so out of hand; being the reckless teenager that I was, I decided that I didn't care. No one was going to get in trouble." he chuckled nervously.
"After a while, my parents got back home, after a neighbor told them about my ingenious party. They kicked everyone out and told them to leave. When everyone was practically gone, my parents were reprimanding me for being so careless… Well, a v-vampire," He stopped, Oh my God! I can't believe it!
"I-I, um, we were sitting in the living room, when a vampire entered the house. I don't remember much, I do know that I phased so quickly that I fainted." he said, taking a deep breath and looking at me for reassurance. My face must've been twisted in a painful expression. I was hurting with him.
"Long story short, the next day I saw my parents in my living room…" He trailed off, unable to keep talking. He was faltering.
I instantly rested my hand on his shoulder and felt him relax almost immediately at my touch. When I touched him it sent electric currents through my entire body. He turned to look at me and smiled, I was flattered that he trusted me enough to tell me his story and that my touch could make him feel better, or so I thought…
"Well, as you can imagine, I ran and ran. I noticed that I was not myself, but a large, fury beast. I started to remember the legends. There were a lot of things that I didn't know; like imprinting and that there were others like me. I moved with my maternal grandparents, but I never said a thing and continued living my life. I even graduated from Med School, but I still felt like something was missing. One day, I found some old pictures that Old Quil had sent me and that is when I saw you…" He said, looking at me straight in the eyes. I was confused, he saw me?
"I saw you and immediately felt drawn to you; you could call it a pull or a tug. I felt the urge to run, just get away from the house. I ran towards the woods and phased. That's when I started hearing these voices in my head. I thought for a second that I was going crazy. But it was just Jake and Quil. They helped understand a lot of things and that's when I decided to move here. Well, here I am!" He finished.
I couldn't believe what I had just heard, he felt it as soon as he saw just a picture. I couldn't believe he shared such personal details with me. I couldn't believe that he had said all of these to a person that he had just barely met. But I'm betting and guessing those are effects of imprinting. But still I felt lov… forget it.
"I'm sorry." I said softly, looking up at him from under my eyelashes. "I can't imagine what my life would have been, if I would have had to deal with everything alone, just like S-Sam" I said, stopping promptly, I can't believe I was going to talk about Sam! I didn't even feel the pain when I mentioned his name! That's when I started to blush; with him here nobody else mattered!
What was wrong with me? I was cut off my reverie when I felt Derek shaking. I placed a hand on his arm and he instantly stopped. I smirked at the thought of my touch controlling him, but I was worried about him… Was he mad, but at what?
"What's wrong?" I asked worriedly.
"Nothing, it's nothing important." he answered, but I guess his curiosity won. "Who's Sam?" he asked inquiringly.
I immediately tensed and sighed gloomily. "It's not important. He is not worth mentioning." I said. I didn't want him to know about my sorry life. I wanted him to see the new me, the one that wanted to be a better person just because of him. Thankfully he dropped the subject, but I guess, that he was going to find out sooner or later. The pack's mind link shit didn't help much in this cases.
"We should go back." he said reluctantly. He said it like he didn't want to leave, but that was just wishful thinking. I wasn't a fun company for him! "I'm really hungry and I bet that everyone must be wondering what happened to us." he said, offering me a weary smile.
I was relieved by the change of subject. "Yeah, we probably should go back." I said, getting on my feet. He immediately followed. We trudged back without speaking. The silence that surrounded us was perfect and comfortable.
As we walked back, my mind started to wander freely. I didn't have a clue about what I wanted Derek to be. He was perfect, but he didn't want this! He wanted to fall in love in his own way. Embry's face kept popping on my mind but I tried my hardest to not think about it.
We reached the front steps of the mansion and ambled to the front porch. I turned to face him and smiled. He smiled back at me with a hundred watt smile. I faced the door and slowly opened it.
The house was pretty quiet. "So, love birds, how did it go?" Emmett said in his typical booming voice.
Everyone came out of the dining room, with wide smiles on their faces.
"Leave them alone, Emmett. Don't bother them with your banter. They must be starving!" Esme said.
To make the moment more embarrassing, on cue, both of our stomachs growled at the same time. Everyone laughed and the atmosphere seemed more enjoyable.
Well, since we took too long talking, the pack, decided to eat without us but still joined us for dinner. Derek formally met my mom. We talked for a while, mainly about how Derek had "survived" ten years of being a "lone wolf", the more I heard him talk, the more I was developing feelings for him, I didn't wanted this to happen this way but I could feel this was stronger than me.
As the minutes passed, he started to feel more at ease. I was happy that he felt like this; I wanted him to feel comfortable around us and specially me.
During dinner, Derek and I, kept stealing glances at each other. When he saw me gazing at him, I would blush. It was the little things that made me really want to pursue him. When I caught him looking at me; my heart would beat fast, to the point of wanting to break free from my chest and run straight to him. He was amazing. His laugh was husky and his voice was strong and authoritative!
God help me, this was going to be harder than I thought. I wanted him and I couldn't stop myself from feeling that way. Great! Patrolling was going to be a bomb!
Well, guess he was going to have to patrol with Quil and Seth. Embry and I would not be able to control our thoughts. I couldn't hide the fact that I was interested in Derek. I didn't think that Embry was too thrill with his own thoughts. This really was going to be hard. What would Seth think? What would Jake do when he returns? Things were really going to get complicated. Yes, that's all I've to say… My life was really, utterly and definitely screwed up!
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