A/N: I know you all simply love me right now for this.
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The song for this chapter is "I'm still here" by the goo goo dolls. It's an amazing song and I love the lyrics. Listen to it if you haven't already.
EPOV *swoon*:
School was just a charade that I played to keep Esme satisfied. My knack of shutting people out really bothered her though I never really got why I would want to make friends with people I don't know, and don't want to know.
I usually kept to myself because well I had no idea.
But why make friends at all when you don't know whether you would be around for much longer.
I had been diagnosed of cancer a year back when I had moved to forks from Alaska. It didn't really bother me much because truth is told I didn't want to be around longer then it was necessary anyway.
This discovery only helped to darken my already cynical view of the world, so yeah I did go to support group meetings and such but I never really got how people possessed so much optimism and hope.
Carlisle had obviously been trying to do everything in his power to cure me but he couldn't do much about my oh-so-dark-bad-boy mind, as Emmet put it.
Emmet was well Emmet. He usually made jokes about it and stuff to lighten the mood but at least he hadn't told anyone for which I was extremely grateful.
My one and only friend was Jasper Whitlock, though it wasn't as if people don't literally beg me to be their friend but I just prefer Jaspers company over theirs.
He was partly the reason I even tried to play the charade.
He didn't make judgments about me. He was a great guy and I hadn't had the heart to tell him about my having cancer.
He usually dragged me out of the house once in a while to appease Esme but yeah it didn't really make much of a difference to me except that it kept both my parents happy.
Today was like any other day except when I got to school there was one name on every one's mind.
Bella.
Their feeling ranged from lust to envy. It was silly really. Just like flashing a shiny object in front of a child.
It was disgusting and even more so was the fact that this girl actually dressed up to get everyone's attention.
Why would anyone want to do that in the first place was beyond me, but I guess she was just like any other girl, carving for attention.
Well any other girl except the only girl here who didn't like to dress up.
The one with so much natural beauty that she didn't need make up to compliment her face. I had bumped in to her once.
She didn't seem like the judgmental type bimbos which were usually running around here. I never got to know her name.
As I rounded the corner to my first class I saw the same girl I had bumped in to, being cornered by some perv. So this was the girl who had been on everyone's mind.
She was dressed in simple but elegant clothes with just a little make up, enough to compliment her wide chocolate brown eyes, and her hair was loose flowing in waves down her back. Wow.
I considered saving her but thought against it when she started shouting at the guy.
Huh, I didn't think she had it in her. She just looked so innocent and vulnerable, like she was just begging for protection.
The first bell rang and interrupted my thoughts.
By lunch I had already heard of lots of stories of how she had shouted down many prev's.
I'd be lying to myself if I said that I wasn't impressed.
I was talking to Jasper when a pixie like girl came to our table and introduced herself as Alice and asked if she could sit down since there wasn't an empty seat else where though I could see many empty ones.
I wonder what she's up to. I was about to politely refuse but as soon as she came here I saw Jasper's eyes begin to glow.
Looks like that'd be a yes then.
She was soon followed by Emmet and his girlfriend Rosalie, who I knew pretty well since hung out at our house most of the time.
And so they started talking about nothing in particular and I as per usual tuned them out.
I saw Alice look at Jasper with the same spark in her eyes.
This could be the start of something between them and she did seem like a nice girl. Not at all shallow or self obsessed.
It could be good for Jasper.
Then I saw Alice suddenly turn around and face the door, grinning.
I followed her gaze and saw Bella standing there looking as though she was just about to leave.
I wondered if Alice knew she was standing there all along.
She got up from the table and went to drag Bella over who looked like she was considering to make a run for it.
As she was walking Bella over with a firm grip on her arm as though she might try to escape I saw a look flash across Bella's face which looked strangely likeā¦. Fear? But that's just ridiculous. Why would she be afraid of Alice? She was so small.
They came over and Alice introduced her. She said something along the lines of Bella being single and available. The look on her face when Alice said that was priceless.
It was like she was planning on murdering her. But even more adorable was the blush which began to spread on her cheeks.
Then Emmet being Emmet cracked a joke and Alice stuck her tongue out at him at which Bella giggled. I felt my eyes widen. I've heard that laugh somewhere. I just know it but I can't put my finger on it.
They continued to talk about nothingness and I noticed that Bella didn't participate much.
The bell rang and just as I was getting up to go to class and thinking of some excuse to talk to Bella, Alice spoke up and gave me the perfect opportunity. She asked me to walk Bella to class since i was going there anyway.
I of course said yes, like I would miss an opportunity to talk to her.
There was just an air of mystery which surrounded her, even looking in to her eyes it felt like they were full of secrets. It made me curious.
I wonder how I hadn't noticed her.
I guess it was just because I was so used to tuning everything out and seeing through everyone.
While walking with her I began to wonder where I had heard that laugh. I was sure it was nowhere in school.
But I so rarely went outside that it couldn't have been anywhere else.
I knew that I would remember it if I thought deeply enough. It just frustrated me that I couldn't remember it right away.
Just as we entered the classroom I felt her stop dead in her tracks.
I looked at her questioningly but she wasn't looking at me. She was looking at Newton with a look of wary disgust.
Okay now I'm confused. What is going on here?
