And now we have Bella's POV. Where the heck has she been? Will we find out what the text said? I hope so, because I don't know either….LOL


SM OWNS TWILIGHT

To Love Again Ch15

BPOV

I was fucking hurt and pissed off at Edward and…this motherfucker! I stared at the screen, at the text that ruined my day. I threw my phone in my purse, and end exited the building.

I never would have guessed that this was how our lunch would end. I had plans of spending some time Nathan, and I had already asked Edward and Esme just in case. But, that all went out the window.

I called Alice when I got to my car. I didn't feel like being home right now, especially after that text.

"Hey slut, are you done having 'lunch' with your sexy doctor?" I rolled my eyes at my friend.

"Can I come over?" I asked quietly. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes as the ball in my throat got bigger. I felt this intense need to cry on someone's shoulder right now.

"What happened?" She asked panicked.

"I-…we had a fight, sort of-" I couldn't finish as a sob escaped from deep within me. It hurt really bad and the tears just kept coming.

"Oh honey…Bella calm down. Come over, unless you want me to go to you?" I sniffled and shook my head, even though I knew she couldn't see me.

"No-o I'll go to your house, if that's okay? I won't be interrupting anything?" I hiccupped.

"No, of course not…well Jazz and I were gonna have sex, but he can wait 'till later." She giggled. I know she was trying to lighten up the mood, but it did the opposite. What if I never get to have sex with Edward again? "Honey I'm sorry, don't cry…pull yourself together and come over."

When I arrived, Alice was ready for me. She had a bottle of wine ready with two big glasses. She poured and I made myself comfortable on, he couch. I grabbed a throw and placed it over my legs, tucking it under as well. For some reason, that always made me feel extra comfy.

"So tell me from the beginning…" Alice instructed as she handed me my glass of wine. I took a sip and damn it was good.

I told her about the unknown calls, I got earlier today and how I hate answering those. I told her who it was and how pissed off I was that he would even think it was okay to call.

"What a low life." Alice commented shaking her head. I agreed with her, and she poured us some more wine.

I told her about our perfect lunch and that beautiful garden. I wonder if I'll ever see it again?

My phone started ringing, and my eyes flew to my purse. It could be Edward! I pulled it out of my purse, unknown… I launched that shit across the room.

"Why the hell does he keep calling me?" I yelled at the phone that was on the floor. Alice got up and pulled me into her arms. My legs gave out and dropped to the floor, sobbing into Alice's shirt. She rubbed my back and waited for me to calm down.

"I hate him Alice! Why would he say that? He ruins everything!" I sobbed. She pushed me back so that she could see my face. She brushed the hair out of the way and wiped the tears that were falling.

"What did he say? I'm confused Bella. What does this have anything to do with Edward?" I took deep breaths trying to calm down. I got up and picked up my phone again. I opened up my messages and gave Alice the phone. She furrowed her eyebrows and read the text.

"What the fuck? Is he serious? That's fucking creepy Bella!" Alice's eyes are wide; she can't believe that shit either. Jake has lost his fucking mind!

"I don't know what the hell he's talking about."

"Wait. So Edward saw this text?" I nod my head. "And then what?" She asks getting upset. I think she knows what happened after that.

"He didn't want to talk to me; he walked away. I stopped him and I wanted to explain, but he said I should take care my business, and he would let me know when he was ready to talk." I hadn't realized tears were rolling down my face until Alice handed me some tissue.

"Well what an insecure asshole! Couldn't he have just waited for you to clear things up? And I hope you call your dad about that Bella…just to be sure." I had already planned on that when I read the text. My dad would be able to check on Jake's whereabouts.

My phone rang again and we both glared at it. Alice got up and took the phone from the coffee table with a huff.

"It's that bastard again Bella." She swiped and put it up to her ear.

"What the fuck do you want you crazy psycho? Bella doesn't want to talk to you." She spat; her arms were flailing all over the place in anger.

"Mhmm yeah no, Bella has a boyfriend, she doesn't want you back. And you better not be stalking her, aren't you supposed to be in San Diego with your whore, what was her name?" I snorted, Alice was sticking it to him.

"Goodbye Jacob. Don't call her again, or her dad and all his cop friends will know about it!" she hung up and threw the phone on the table.

"What a moron Bella. I can't believe you dated the guy. He thinks he can get you back." She scoffed and shook her head. "You should change your number Bell just in case. I don't think he's gonna quit bugging you." I leaned on her shoulder, and she hugged me.

"I will; I just need to call my dad first."

That evening I stayed for dinner with Alice, Jasper and little Ryan. It was…interesting. Ryan didn't want to eat; he wanted soda only and wanted to sit on my lap the whole time so his parents wouldn't get to him. Both Alice and Jasper just looked exhausted and all we had done was try to have dinner.

"You can stay the night if you want Bella." Alice offered, while I helped her clean up the kitchen. I was in no hurry to go home, but I was leaving eventually. I just didn't want to be alone today.

"Thanks, Ali, but I'm gonna go home. I'll be okay." I hugged her and thanked her for being there for me. A little while later, I finally went home. It wasn't eight yet so I called my dad.

"Hey Bells, how are ya? Everything okay?" My dad asked. I don't usually call this late, but I had to let my dad know what was going on.

"I'm fine daddy…,but I had to talk to you about something…"

"Go ahead honey, what's going on?" I could hear his concern for me already rising.

"Well I…got a text from Jake today. Actually, he's been calling-." My dad interrupted me.

"That son of a bitch! Uh sorry honey…" I chuckled; my dad hardly ever uses that kind of language, but after everything Jake put me through, he can't even stand to hear his name.

"I told him to stop calling me, and when I was having lunch with Edward today he texted me." I didn't plan on telling him that Edward read the text. I decided to keep that drama at home.

"What did it say that it has you concerned?"

"Let me send it to you dad." I picked up my phone and opened up my text messages.

I had a great time yesterday, baby.

You looked so fucking sexy; I hope we can do it again.

I have no doubt that we can get back what we had.

I miss you in my bed baby.

Call me.

-Jake

I was not gonna read that over the phone to my dad. It grossed me out just reading it to myself. And that fucker better not be stalking me!

"Is that boy serious? Don't worry about it honey, I've seen him here all week hanging out with some of his old friends. I didn't see the girl, so I'm assuming they broke up. I'll have a few words with him tomorrow. He won't come anywhere near you honey. Those lowlifes probably put him up to it." He huffed. If this was some sick joke from Jake, it wasn't fucking funny.

"I'm going to change my number though. I don't want him calling me dad."

"Yeah that's a good idea Bells. That little punk has no brain; he won't be bothering you after I get to him."

"Thanks daddy. I'll talk to you later…"

"Nite honey. Call me if you need me."

I settled down on my couch with a cup of hot chocolate to watch television. The Housewives of New Jersey were on, and I loved all that drama. At least, I could forget about mine for a little while. My phone beeped, indicating that I had a text message.

"Really? I've gotta turn this shit off before I go all the way down to San Diego and strangle Jacob myself." I huffed. I stopped before I shut it off; it was a text from Edward.

Bella, my shift is over.

Do you think I could come over…to talk?

Please?

-EC

How convenient, now he wants to talk.

I was in no mood to talk to him anymore. I was all talked out today. He would just have to wait until I was ready to talk to him. I wanted to get this thing straightened out with Jacob and my dad to make sure he wasn't actually stalking me and being pervy looking through my windows or something." I shuddered at the thought; I actually thought he was doing that.

What if he saw me coming out of the shower, or laying in bed?

I sent him a text telling him that it wasn't a good idea tonight. I felt bad, but it had to be done. I would have been really pissy with him anyway.

I understand. I just need you to know that I'm

Sorry for walking away. It wasn't fair to you.

Please don't shut me out, let's talk when you're ready.

I love you, babe.

-EC

I couldn't leave him hanging so I told him that I loved him too. It's the least I could do if I was telling him I didn't want to talk. As soon as the message was sent, I turned my phone off.

.

Tuesday I get up early to go to work. I'm ready to take on this day…until this green eyed little boy, that looks so much like his father, walks into my classroom. My heart sinks and I miss Edward. I don't let it show in my face or my mood; my class has my undivided attention. They're a great bunch of kids, and I have a lot of fun teaching them. My time with them goes by fast, and before I know it, I'm dismissing them for the day.

Alice had suggested to me that I go to the gym today to burn off some steam, and that is exactly what I did. I did a boot camp and an aerobics class that kicked my ass. It had been a while, since I've been to the gym. I decided that I was gonna start going a couple times a week after work. After my workout, I showered and headed home. I had leftovers for dinner, and I worked on a project I wanted to do with my class. I knew all day that I was avoiding someone, but I just didn't feel ready to go there.

Wednesday is the same, and I'm getting better at finding things to do to keep my mind occupied. My phone is dead to the world, and I can't find the courage to charge it and turn it on. And that reminds me; I have to get a new number…

I let another day pass, and it's another day without Edward. This time I know it's my own fault.

Thursday everything goes wrong. I wake up late, and I hate being late. It seems like the kids would rather do their own thing today. No one wants to cooperate with me, and I'm finding it difficult to stay calm. When I finally dismiss my class, I get bombarded with questions from parents about some school activity, that I have no clue about. I would know if I'd read my mail today, but I was late. So, some parents were irritated with me because they needed to know what they should bring. I don't know what I told them, but they eventually left me alone.

I got out of that school, as soon as I could. I walked with my head down, so no one would stop and try to have a conversation with me. I ate a sandwich at home and went straight to bed. I was in serious need of a nap. I put my alarm and drifted off to sleep.

Two hours later, I woke up to my alarm clock beeping incessantly. I called Alice and asked her to meet me for some drinks.

"Why haven't you called him Bella? Now you're just avoiding him; that's not cool." She said as we sipped on our Cosmos.

"I know; it's just that I'm scared of what he'll say. What if he doesn't care that Jake was lying, and he wants to break things off?"

"Avoiding him isn't going to keep him either, Bella. Woman-up and talk to him. You love him Bella…don't ruin it just because you're feeling insecure." I hate it when she's right.

"I hate that I have to explain my past and Jake being an asshole." I tell her, and we finish our drinks. We don't overdo it because we have work tomorrow. I am feeling more relaxed from the day, but I know that I would feel a hundred times better if I talked to Edward.

Tomorrow. I'll do it tomorrow…after I revive my phone.

Friday I wake up to a bright sunny day. I resolve to have a good day. I take a nice shower and take my time getting ready. My makeup is always minimal but perfect.

In the middle of having, breakfast my house phone rings. I run over to the living room and pick it up.

"Hello?" Who the heck is calling me this early?

"Hellooo Bella, honey it's mom." My mom sings.

"Hi mom, what's going on?"

"I don't want to take your time, but just to let you know that daddy, and I are coming over today okay sweetie?" Why me?

"Ok mom sure, I'll see you later then…" I was glad they actually called this time.

"Have a good day honey, love you." I mumbled a thanks. When I hung up, I spotted my abandoned phone. I picked it up and took it to my room and plugged it in. I didn't have time to open it, so I left it at home while I went to work. I'm such a procrastinator; I know. I told myself that as soon as my parents were gone, I would talk to him…and change my number. Fuck! Why do I do this? Nothing good comes out of avoidance.

When I got back from work, my parents were already waiting for me at home. They had their own key to my house and just let themselves in. My house looked neater and smelled really clean. My dad was sitting on the couch in front of the TV with a beer in his hand. He turned as I walked into the room.

"Oh hey honey, how was your day?" he asked as he got up and gave me a side hug.

"Good daddy. Thanks."

"Mom's in the kitchen…you might wanna go save lunch for us." His mustache twitched. I giggled and nodded.

"Hey mom what are you making?" I asked when I walked in. She was busy running around the kitchen, gathering different stuff. She turned around and smiled at me.

"I'm making chicken enchiladas, honey." She whispered and giggled. I looked at her funny.

"Dad thinks you're making something weird and had me come in to intercept…" I rolled my eyes, and she laughed, throwing her head back.

"I love messing with him. I told him I was making eggplant enchiladas." She giggled, and I looked at her horrified.

"That's gross mom, why would you say that." I couldn't help laughing with her though. "and thanks for cleaning the house, I've been distracted…" she came over to me and hugged me.

"I know honey." She patted my cheek. "And we wanted to keep you company for a little bit."

After lunch, we talk about the whole thing with Jake. My dad assures me that he won't bother me and won't be making any more trouble.

"We had a nice talk with him honey, me and some of the boys from the station." His mustache twitched, and I knew he wanted to laugh. But, I would not ask what talk meant. I would much rather leave it like that.

"But are you okay Bella? You seem really sad." No one has asked me about Edward, like if they know already. I shrug and look down. I feel like I'm going to cry, but I won't do it. It's my own fault at this point.

"I just have a lot to deal with right now…with Edward and everything…" I trail off. They don't bring him up after that, and I'm thankful.

The next day, my dad makes me change my number.

"You need to stop procrastinating Bells, and I won't feel good going back home if you don't have your cell with you." He mentioned that he noticed that it had been off and sitting on my nightstand.

We make a trip to the mall to the phone store. I decide to upgrade my phone. A fresh start of sorts. They transfer everything to my new phone, and I have a new number. The guy helping us tells me I have some unread messages, and they'll be saved on the phone. My heart sinks and I wonder if they are from Edward. I take my new phone and put it in my pocket. My mom buys me a sparkly case for it, and I gladly accept it. It's a nice and normal gift from Renee for once.

Back at home, I sit in my bed with my sparkly new phone in my hand. I'm reading the texts from Edward. He's begging me to talk, and he always says he loves me. I have big fat tears running down my face. I feel so bad for doing this to him. He's been trying to reach me all this time, and I've been intentionally avoiding him.

My heart feels like its going to jump out of my body because I hurt it too much. If my own heart doesn't want me, then how could Edward still want me? I notice that his last text was sent yesterday. I have nothing from him today. Maybe yesterday was my last chance to talk to him. I wipe away the tears from face roughly. I know I deserve this. I'm so stupid, and I'm resigned to my fate.

I hear the doorbell ring, and I look up confused. We're not expecting anyone tonight. I get up and head into my bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror and instantly regret it. I look like crap, just how I feel. My eyes are red and puffy. I didn't know I was crying that much. My hair has gotten out of its ponytail, and I assume it to wants to escape from me.

My dad yells down the hall.

"Hey Bells! There's someone here to see you." I furrow my brows and quickly wash my face. I walk down the hall and turn the corner.

And there he is. My Edward, He's in my foyer with his hands deep in his pocket. He looks like crap. I can tell he hasn't slept, and he looks nervous. His hair is messier than usual, and his eyes look longingly at me.

"Hi." He murmurs, and I can't hold it in any longer. I run to him and hug him tight. A sob escapes and the floodgates open. I cry into his shirt and hold him tight.

I promise never to let him go.


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