Changes
Seth barely spoke when they returned to the house. He headed straight to the one room he was most familiar with there - the kitchen. He stood there just staring at it for a long while. The smells were not the same. The room gave him no meaning anymore. He walked over to the refrigerator, opened the door and was hit with several foul odors. He closed it quickly. Then he sat down on one of the bar stools and perched perfectly still, staring blankly out the window.
Tara followed him in and sat down next to him. "Do you want to be alone?" she asked.
He shook his head still staring out the window. "Not really. I just need to think about some things."
She gave him all the time he needed and just sat there, watching him. After about an hour, he finally spoke again. "So, I suppose this my new home now?" he said still staring out the window, motionless.
"Just for a little while, until you're ready to handle yourself. It's for the best."
Seth's pitiful expression troubled her and she sighed. "Is there anything I can do to get that look off your face?"
"What look is that?" His one was very flat.
"The one that says you regret everything about ever meeting me."
His eyes quickly snapped in her direction. "I don't regret anything."
"Well you should." She frowned.
He leaned closer to her and spoke calm but assertive. "I'm not going to have this conversation with you. It's not how I feel. End of story."
"Do you regret….this?" She touched his scar with her finger, looking right at his eyes. He squeezed them shut and exhaled realizing she wasn't going to let the subject die. When he opened them, he scooted closer to her and reached around her neck unclasping the necklace she wore. He slid the ring off the chain and quickly put her locket back around her neck. Then he took her left hand and in his and slid the wedding ring on her finger. She looked up at him.
Before she could say anything he started reciting his wedding vows to her. "I will cherish our union and love you more each day than I did the day before. I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together. I give you my hand, my heart, and my love for as long as we both shall live." He never forgot even one word.
"If I could only keep one memory of my whole human life, I'd keep the memory of the day you became my wife." He reached out and touched her face. "I meant every word when I said it the first time and I always keep my promises. Don't ever doubt that."
Tara wanted to cry, to hold him and to make love to him, all at the same time. She decided on a kiss and then pressed he lips to his. It was the first time she'd kissed him as a vampire. She missed the warmth but she quickly realized that certain restrictions were no longer needed now. Her lips now the same temperature as his, same feel to them but also something new. His senses were heightened. The kiss was nothing like he remembered before; not only more carnal and erotic but also more stimulating. He felt a burst of energy that electrified him; another burning sensation that tingled every nerve ending in his body. Tara felt it too. Her kiss felt less controlled, less careful and almost obscene.
Within seconds he lost control and slammed her body hard into the wall, lifting up off the ground and thrusting his hips at her. Everything on the wall came crashing to the floor and her body cracked the wall where it made impact. She gasped completely stunned. As soon as he realized what he'd just done. He gently put her down. She saw the remorse in his face. "You don't have to say it." she chuckled.
"I think I'm going to be apologizing a lot."
"Yeah well, don't worry. I'm used to it," she patted his cheek.
"Are you alright then?" he asked. She nodded and then he softly kissed her forehead.
Edward was already on the way to the kitchen the second he picked up on Seth's thoughts. As he dashed into the room, the commotion also alerted Emmett and Jasper who followed closely behind. "Tara!" he gasped and lunged for Seth. She stopped him just before he could grab him but Seth reacted very quickly to the threat and growled at his opponent. Edward backed down realizing Tara was not in danger as he had thought. "Seth…take it easy. I just thought you were gonna hurt her," he said.
Seth caught himself and stopped before he attacked. With a large exhale he stepped back and leaned against the wall feeling frustrated.
"Is it always like this with new borns?" he asked.
Edward chuckled. "Usually worse. You're handling yourself quite well I must say."
He looked at Edward and then over at the others who were nodding in agreement. "Wow really?"
"Yes you're ability to reason with yourself is impressive. The fact that you're even this calm is extraordinary. You certainly are unique but you have a tendency be a little impulsive, all normal of course. We'll just have to keep an eye on you until you've gained better control of your actions."
Seth nodded. Then he noticed a Carlisle just returned to the house and found them in the kitchen. "How's Leah?" he wondered.
"She's fine. I set her arm. She'll heal well." The doctor reported.
"Is she… still upset with me?"
"She wouldn't speak. She didn't even make a sound when I set her arm. I know it had to hurt but she never made a peep."
"Oh…she's upset for sure." Seth's eyes panned down.
"Give her time. She does love you Seth and I'm sure she'll eventually forgive you."
He nodded. "Hope so."
"So… how are you feeling?" Carlisle asked changing the subject.
"Hmm well, let's see…I sat in your kitchen for about an hour without taking a breath, I blinked one time since I woke up about four hours ago, the smell of pizza repulsed me and I counted exactly four hundred and seventy six floor tiles when I walked in the room. I feel pretty strange."
"Normal." Carlisle chuckled. "So then... how about we run some tests?" he asked.
Mr. and Mrs. Black
Jacob finally calmed Leah down enough so he could return home and not worry about her heading to the Cullen's to start trouble. He hoped Renesmee would be awake when he got home so he could tell her all about Seth. He made a stop at Sam's place on his way back to get some blueberry muffins Emily made for her.
Their home was a small house they owned, between the Reservation and the Cullen's. Edward had the place built for them while they were on their honeymoon. He and Bella surprised them just before the wedding allowing them to decide on the location and some of the custom amenities.
When Jacob entered, he set the muffins on the kitchen table and snuck into the bedroom quietly in case she was still sleeping. She wasn't in the bed however. It was all made and the room looked spotlessly clean. "She's probably nesting again." he thought.
Renesmee sometimes got into cleaning moods that lasted for days but then she'd get very tired and sleep equally as much. It worried him but Carlisle assured him it was quite normal and not to fret. "Ness?" he called out.
"In the bathroom!" she sung.
Jacob smiled and opened the door to see his wife but when he did he got an unexpected surprise. She was standing in front of the mirror combing her hair…or what was left of it. Most of it was on the floor and sink in clipped pieces. Her long curls were all gone and the rest of her hair was above her shoulders and straightened. She was using the flat iron on it as he came in.
"Hi Jake!" she said cheerfully. "Is Seth okay? How'd it go?" she asked concerned.
But Jacob didn't even hear her question. "Ness! What did you do to your hair?"
Her smile turned down instantly. "You don't like it?"
"It's…it's so short."
"You hate it!" she started tearing up.
"Hey wait, no…I don't hate it." He came over and touched her cheek. "I hardly recognized you is all. I've never seen you without all your curls. You even straightened it. You look so much more…mature actually."
The tears were still rolling down her cheeks. "I do?"
"Yeah. Absolutely." He pulled her close and held her for a moment but when he let go she still had tears rolling down her face.
"Why are you still crying?"
"Because… I can't help it! I'm such an emotional wreck! I just wanted to cut my hair because I'm so ridiculously hot all the time and I felt I needed a change but now I feel totally unattractive to you and…and ….you haven't even touched me in months!"
"What do you mean? I touch you all the time. I'm always affectionate."
"No Jacob, what I mean is, you haven't touched me since our honeymoon."
"Oh…" He suddenly realized what she meant "But the babies. I just don't wanna hurt you…or them."
"They won't feel a thing Jake."
"Ness, be serious. You don't know that… what if something goes wrong?"
"But everything's great! Carlisle just told me they both look healthy and everything's normal," she pouted. "….I really miss you,"
"Ness, you have to trust me when I say that I really miss you too, but look what happened to you the last time…I'm just afraid something will go wrong."
"So…what then? We're never having sex again? That's fair!" her arms waved in the air.
"No… no I don't mean that." Jacob rubbed his stressed temples.
"Well what do you mean? You want to wait nine months? I'm dying Jacob…do you have any idea what this does to a girl's hormones?"
"As a matter of fact…" he started to answer her but she quickly cut him off.
"Jacob! Don't even go there! You really have no idea!" Ness slammed the hot iron down and walked away from him.
"Hey, where you goin'?" his head spun around to follow her.
"To take a really, really cold shower. I need to cool off!"
He sighed with defeat and torn by his feeling He started to wonder if he'd make it through nine months. After waiting for 4 years till she was old enough to even kiss him and another till he could even marry her, he hated the thought of having to endure that many more months of celibacy, not to mention once they had twin babies it would be even less private time for the both of them. In frustration he stormed out of the room and sat on the bed with his hands in his face. He let out a deep sigh and began thinking. Nine months! It was so long.
He listened to the shower running in the other room for a while. Then finally got up and walked back in the bathroom and stood there watching her through the glass door. She was too busy rinsing her hair to notice he was there. Her eyes were closed and she had her head tilted back in the stream. The water and soap ran down her face and body. She looked so incredibly perfect to him. Jacob took off his shorts and opened the shower door. As soon as he stepped in she turned around.
"What are you doing?" she stared at him with a confused expression.
"I thought I'd join you. Do you mind?"
She shook her head. Her innocent looking brown eyes gleamed when she smiled.
"Want me to wash your back?" he asked.
She nodded and turned around. He poured a small glob of body wash on the sponge and lathered it up before massaging her with it. Renesmee closed her eyes and let out a deep exhale as he made long strokes up and down her back. When he finished he brushed it over her shoulder and let it travel down the front of her body. She leaned onto his chest putting her head back with her eyes still closed. He ran the sponge over her neck and between her breasts and past her navel and then back up again. He rubbed his hand over her belly while kissing her neck and shoulders.
"Mmm, There are other parts of my body that are dirty too you know," she said.
He smiled. "I was saving those for last he whispered."
She let out a deep yearning sigh as he caressed every inch of her body with his fingertips. She turned her body, facing his and slid her fingers around the back of his neck through his hair as she pressed her lips to his. Jacob's hands reached under her bottom and lifted her up so she could wrap her legs around him. He pressed her back to the shower wall and she gasped as he pushed against her with slow gentle thrusts.
"Oh Jake…Jake I love you so much," she moaned in his ear.
"I love you too," he whispered and his mouth was on hers again.
He softly rocked against her body until she was digging her fingers into his back. He moaned from both the aching and the pleasure of it. After the second time Jacob's muscles began to tremble and he gently lowered her till her feet touched the floor. Their hearts raced and they breathed heavily against one another. Jacob turned off the water and wrapped Renesmee in a large towel. After he wrapped one around his waist he carried her to the bed and then helped dry her body, starting with her hair. He gently massaged the towel over her head and then brushed her shoulders with it, working his way further down her body until he reached her thighs and she instantly became aroused again. He was a little glad she only lasted a third time and then finally fell asleep in his arms.
Jacob lay awake only a short while longer after she closed her eyes – watching her, admiring her, and totally adoring her. He ran his fingertips over her shoulders and back until he could barely keep his own eyes open and his hand fell limp over her waist. At that very moment, he felt totally at peace and happier than he could ever remember.
In the morning, Jacob and Renesme both lay side by side in the bed, still naked from the night before. Jacob's eye lid cracked open a bit seeing his wife's angelic face in front of him as she still lay unconsciously next to him. He scooted his body closer to hers trying to reach his arm over and hold her but something was in the way. There was something in the bed with them blocking him from reaching her. He slowly opened both eyes, still a bit groggy and looked at his wife. Suddenly Jacob leaped up out of bed.
"Oh my God! Ness!" he shouted.
Renesmee was startled out of a deep restful sleep when she heard Jacob's loud voice.
Her eye's popped open, barely understanding what he just said. "Why are you yelling?" she moaned.
Jacob stood next to the bed starting at his wife, gripping his hair. "Look! I can't believe this! This can't be happening! Look what I did to you!" He shouted again.
Renesmee lifted her head off the pillow and looked at him funny. Then she realized where he was pointing and looked down at her belly.
"Holy cow!" she shouted when she saw the enormous bulge protruding from her abdomen.
Her stomach was now three times the size it was the night before. Renesmee looked like she had swallowed an oversized basketball.
"I knew it! I knew something bad would happen…and look at you! I actually made you more pregnant!"
"Tsk, don't be ridiculous Jake, like that could really happen," she said.
"Oh really? Then how do you explain this?" he pointed at her stomach.
She rolled her eyes and then scooted off the bed and waddled herself over to a mirror. Her eyes widened as she saw her giant belly in the reflection. She kept turning n all direction to get a good look. Then she noticed something.
"No you didn't Jake, look at my hair! It's longer. I had another growth spurt in my sleep. That's all"
"Growth spurt? You call that a growth spurt? Ness you're huge!"
Renesmee frowned.
"Okay, I didn't mean you're huge…the babies are huge." He tried to rephrase but it wasn't helping.
"That doesn't make me feel any better Jake."
"I'm sorry it's just …Wow! Look at you!"
She looked back in the mirror. Her new cup size really caught her attention. "Oh boy! Did you even notice these? These are rather obscene," she giggled.
Jacob just plopped his butt onto the bed and put his head in his hands. Renesmee came over and sat next to him holding her belly with both hands. "Jake…look at the bright side, at least we don't have to wait so long now."
Jacob turned and looked at her. "How can you possibly remain so positive about everything through all this?"
Renesmee always looked at the brighter side to everything. "Because, I just can. It'll be okay Jake. Trust me." She put her hand to his very distressed looking face.
He leaned over and put one hand on her enormous belly and kissed her forehead when suddenly he felt something kick his hand and he jumped. It was the first time Renesmee felt any movement. They both gasped at the same time. He got down on his knees and put both hands on her belly and the babies kicked again. He started to cry and laugh all at the same time. He kissed the giant globe of a belly and then he leaped up and kissed his wife passionately on the lips.
When they parted she smiled at him. "We should probably go see Carlisle now," she said.
